Hello everyone! Here's a quick update so I don't keep everyone hanging on forever until I can update again. I do have the next chapter started, just not sure where I want it to go.

Enjoy and apologies for the wait.

"I said I would help you. I just had set Ollie down," Erin said as she quickly turned to find Jay struggling to get into the apartment with his crutch.

Jay grumbled to himself as he balanced on his good leg and used his free arm that wasn't in a sling to shut the door behind him. "And I said I can handle it." His voice was a bit on edge.

Erin sighed and went back to unbuckle Oliver from the carseat. She hoisted him up on her hip before she unzipped him out his winter coat. "Are you sore? I can get you your pain-"

"I'm okay." Jay hissed out of frustration.

Erin bit her tongue and just responded with a single nod of her head. She bypassed Jay as he made his way over to the couch, dropping his one crutch to lean against the coffee table. It became a routine for him. Not a good one though. Straight after physical therapy he'd come home in a mood. Plop himself on the couch for an hour and just sulk.

Erin wasn't sure how to approach him. She wanted to be there to help him recover but she felt like he was pushing himself at times just to be the man of the house and have this tough guy act about him. Erin knew he was tough and could get through this, but she also knew that he wasn't in the right headspace to handle it.

It was one thing when he had time off after Ollie was born. He was able to be a father. Sit up in bed and rock him or feed him. But now the sling made it harder. Plus, any slight movement sent a jabbing pain to his ribs. He missed their late night moments, where'd he have his turn pacing in front the picture window, swaying and humming Oliver back to sleep. As long as he had his leg in a cast and limited mobility because of his crutch, those moment were put off.

Erin understood it all, but she felt helpless. Alone at times. It was hard for her to see Jay like that knowing what he was like before. So most of time Erin ignored his muttered words and sharp tongue.

"How was therapy?" Erin wondered, her eyes shifted down to Oliver who was fixated on the buttons of her blouse.

Jay shrugged his one shoulder, "Same. Had me do the hand exercises today."

"Yeah?" Erin made her way to sit next to him, propping Oliver in the middle with some throw pillows. "And?"

Jay closed and opened his bruised hand, gritting his teeth as he did so, "Still hurts like a bitc- witch," He corrected. "But it's healing well Rhodes said."

Erin grinned, "That's good to hear. Just keep it up and you'll be good as new in no time."

"Mhm." Jay let his head fall into a nod before he brought it back up to stare at the television. Wished he had turn it on. To fill the silence in the room.

Erin propped her elbow on the back of the couch, turning her body slightly more to look over at her fiance. "Jay.." After waiting area seconds and getting no response, Erin reached over to place a gentle touch to Jay's shoulder. She gave it a squeeze, then brought her hand up to his neck. Letting her fingers toy with his collar and rug at his short hair. "Tell me what's wrong."

Jay let out a sigh, letting his head fall back into Erin's hand. Her fingers now massaging his scalp.

Erin stared at him a bit. He looked exhausted. She knew he had been. He was sore and having to have his arm and leg propped up at night, made it hard to get some shut eye. Not to forget Ollie waking him up, or Erin shifting up in bed to tend to the baby.

"Jay?"

Jay titled his head to glance at her, "I just can't shake that day out of my mind." he diverted his eyes from her clear concerned face.

Erin ceased from moving her hand on his head to return to his neck. Her thumb brushing over his ear. "You know you can talk to me about it."

Jay shook his head defiantly, he shifted slightly, pressing his tired body further into the couch cushion. He glanced down at Ollie who stared up at the ceiling fan above them.

"I don't to put that on you. You have enough going on-"

"Hey." Erin pinched at his neck, causing him to give her his full attention, "We promised to be open with each other. Regardless of what's going on here, or at work, we will always be there."

Jay nodded in agreement followed a slow exhale, he dropped his eyes to his son. He couldn't help but smile. But it fell as he spoke, "I just feel like every step I take I have think about it. What if I left two minutes early? What if the other car was going any faster? I could've not made it…"

Erin stood up, taking Ollie to her lap so she could sit closer to Jay. Her head rested on his shoulder, "I think about it too but we can't let the what ifs consume us. You said so yourself that you're fine, that's all that matters."

Jay turned to press his lips against Erin's hair, he inhaled the scent of her dry shampoo and closed his eyes, taking in the moment.

"I love you, you know that?"

A smile appeared across Erin's face, she couldn't help it. Every Time those three words were said it was like she was hearing them for the first time. It never got old when he said it.

Her lips founds his in a brief kiss. "I love you too." she whispered, pulling away.

I know there wasn't much to read, but I just wanted to get into Jay's head a little. Hope it wasn't out of character.

Let me know if there's anything you'd like to see happen. Thanks again for the feedback.