A Hundred Snippets
Summary: A hundred songfics/one-shots on our favorite CCS characters.
Disclaimer: I don't own CCS (CLAMP) and the song, Shiver (Lucy Rose). If I did, then why don't I have anything to give this Christmas?
AN: This has been done an awful lot but, I'm entitled to have my fun. Please note that I will be informing you every chapter on what song to listen to while reading the fic. .
Song: Shiver-Lucy Rose
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Shiver – Entry 1
Se scoffed, he remained silent. Nothing but a deadly silence was between them as they stood on opposite sides of the hallway, neither wanting to close the distance. The auburn-haired girl was shaking, knuckles formed into a fist. She opened her mouth, trying to say something, only to close it again. Of course, she didn't want to utter those words, it may be their end if she did, but, this time, she had finally caught him in the act. On December 25, it was snowing, in the middle of a light filled park, where everything was sparkling, it was there that… she heaved a shaky breath.
"Ne, Syaoran." She whispered, refusing to show him her face. "Where did it all go wrong?"
"Look Sakura, I'm sorry. She was just there and-"
"No!" she shouted, looking up to meet amber eyes. "Was I just-" Sakura left it at that, she knew Syaoran knew what she was talking about.
"Sakura, it's not what you think, I felt guilty." He stepped forward, reaching out his hand to her. "I still am. Can we go back to the way we were?"
"The way we were? THE WAY WE WERE?! What we had before was fake, Syaoran. Did you know it's been months since I first had that inkling of doubt? With how you were acting, with how you were making me feel, with how…" She stopped and clutched her head. "This isn't just some simple jealousy fit, Syaoran."
He was silent, with this, it's clear that she was right. Her emerald eyes brimmed with tears. "Tell me, Syaoran. I'm just a substitute for her, aren't I? I'm just a bloody substitute, so you wouldn't be bored. When she left for Paris, you were so devastated. Just so happened that I was hopelessly head over heels for you and you snagged that chance, I can't even believe how stupid I am, that I was desperate enough. And now that she's back… youve finally decided to toss me away. I waited for hours for you." She grit her teeth and looked at him. "And when i grew tired, I saw you with her, on the bridge, kissing!" Her knuckles were turning white, her voice beginning to crack. Sakura started to move forward, each step putting another knife through her chest. Through all this, he remained quiet, his bangs covering his face. Was he remorseful? Sakura didnt know.
She made a notion to hold his hand but stopped midway. Who wouldn't be afraid? Her dream was starting to fade, every rainbow turning into a dark cloud. She thought that maybe, if she were to touch him, her tiny ledge would finally give way and she would fall to the ground, with nothing to break her fall, without a Syaoran to catch her. Sakura tried to meet his eyes as the question she dared not ask then loomed before her. "Answer me honestly, Syaoran." She pleaded, with sad eyes. Her voice with quiet desperation.
"Do you love me?"
With that Syaoran, maybe too quickly, returned Sakura's gaze. Hers bore into his, desperately in need of answers.
"I-I…" he stopped, unable to say the words. Silence filled the air, he was clearly grasping for the right words to say. Without even realizing, Syaoran leaned forward, their lips almost touching. Sakura waited with eyes half closed and her chest beating fast, her heart yearning for him to close the distance, hoping that he'd kiss her and make everything all right… and, she waited.
But nothing happened, she could only feel him moving away, she opened her eyes when she felt him grasp both her hands, "I- Sakura, I, would-"
She chuckled. Syaoran stopped and looked at her.
"Funny, huh? I knew it"
"I- I would-"
She stopped him, "Thank you Syaoran, for the year of false happiness you gave me." Sakura need not let him finish for in his hesitation, she found her answer.
"I-i really am sorry." he said. Sakura knew what he was saying sorry for. Not because he had kissed Tomoyo, but for making her believe something that wasnt real.
And it tore he apart.
"It's all okay, everything is okay, uhh" her voice cracked, patting him on the shoulder, trying her best to laugh it all off, she gulped "I hope you meet with Tomoyo-chan again, also do tell if you're already together, wouldn't want to miss the celebration. Bye Syaoran." Sakura tried to smile at him, but it only resulted to a grimace, she bowed before waving her hands and turning back. To see if he was going to follow her, she glanced back but sadly, he stayed rooted in his place, she smiled painfully, her tripping and falling to the ground worsened it.
"I'm ok! I'm ok." She shouted and laughed, holding her hand up to stop Syaoran from helping her. She stood up shakily and proceeded to walk away.
Crying, her shoulders were shaking. She used her hands to muffle her sobs, as she pushed out the school building, rain heavily pouring down. Sakura looked up, raindrops hitting her already tear-stained face. Her feet carried her home, everyting that has happened was a blur and her mind struggled to cope with it. Suddenly, she felt the cold seeping through her. Sakura hugged herself, shivering as the sight of the school grew farther and farther away. She imagined strong arms wrap around her figure.
"Sakura, I love you." A desperate ghost of a whisper is what she was hearing. She smiled, for her, these fantasies were enough.
"And I you, Syaoran." She muttered to no one as she walked home, all alone.
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AN: So what do you think? It's already Christmas break but i doubt i'll be putting up a new chapter. Please review, I appreciate them lots, also constructive criticisms are loved!