hey guys!
first of all, thank you so much for all your wonderful reviews! They have made me happier than you can imagine : D
Second, as you can see, I've decided to continue this story.. I'm sorry it took so long! I am undecided though if it should just cover the weekend they spent together, or Amy's birthday as well... What do you think?
Third, I've started writing this chapter back in December and I (like most people) thought they'd wanna have the "talk" about the break up... As we can see from the latest episodes, it seems they didn't really have a big talk... And I like to follow canon as much as possible, but I didn't really wanna rewrite this cause them talking about it at least a little bit seemed in character to me... Anyway, I meant to write a bigger 'talk', but whenever I start writing them, it just feels like they'd wanna make out more than talk... I am also sorry if it's extra fluffy, but I thought it was appropriate considering how euphoric Sheldon must have felt that day ;)
Enjoy!

Amy :

Just as I press the 'play' button, he turns to me and he looks really surprised :

"Do you REALLY wanna watch THIS movie?!"

It's Raiders of the Lost Ark.

I don't know why he's so amazed, really! I just wanna watch something he'd enjoy...

"Yeah... I feel bad about the last time we watched it. I shouldn't have said what I said about the story line" which is true, things like that just kept coming back to me sometimes during our break up. Just all of a sudden, out of nowhere I would remember something sweet about him, something sweet that he's done, and then i would remember how I belittled his interests sometimes... and the things he loved. True, he's been acting like a baby often , but if I truly loved him, I should have accepted him... And support him in whatever it is that he loves.

I can sense that he's unsure.

"Amy... You know I love you, but if you're going to find another plot hole, it is really gonna hurt me... honestly".

I just wanna tell him not to worry and that I'll stay silent, but somehow I can't get the words out of me. I just look at him, and the feelings are overwhelming me... I put my hand on his cheek and he looks at me incredulously, but he's not pulling away.

"Sheldon... I'm so sorry I said that. I should have never said that. You know, I've been thinking, during our break up..." - man, it is really hard for me to get the words out! - "I have often ignored your interests... Or rather... belittled them... I am so sorry. If I'm honest with myself... " I pause and look at him, and he has that "trying to figure me out" look, kinda like the one he had on the prom night, when I was trying to tell him I loved him, and was struggling with words... He looked at me in the same way then, kind of trying to figure me out and figure out what I'm thinking and feeling and where I was going with that...

It is so touching that it's pulling on my heart strings even more, and somehow makes my guilt stronger. I sigh.

"If I'm honest with myself... I think I've always been kind of passive aggressive with you about the whole... the whole touching thing... And some other unsaid things... It's not that I really had an issue with your interests - I might not share them, but I have nothing against them as well - but it's just that, when I couldn't get attention for days or weeks from you... " - my hands are in my lap now, and i'm just fidgeting, and he still gives me the same look, so much love and attention in it - " and your tv shows, and your movies, and your comic books got so much attention from you, and you were so invested in them and so enthralled by them, I just felt... it made me feel... " - my voice becomes so quiet it's almost whispering - " Like I would never be as exciting to you... While you were that exciting to me... " I try to gain back my voice. "And well.. it was upsetting me, i guess. Hence my aggression towards your interests sometimes..

I'm not justifying what I used to do - just kind of hoping you'll see where i'm coming from?"

Now I just sound really unsure. I don't know. He just looked at me kind of sad/frustrated/ashamed, and I don't know what to make of it. Shouldn't he be happy I'm making amends, being honest, and trying to show my respect for the things he cares about?

I'm lost...

Sheldon :

I don't like hearing that, AT ALL, but I've come to understand in the last few months where she's coming from... From her side, it really would look like that. And I have ACTED insensitively A LOT - yes, never on purpose (okay, occasionally on purpose), but I've never really FELT that way about her. Whatever I did, it wasn't because I really didn't want her, but because I was having a hard time coming to terms with the fact that I did want her in my life.. So I can see how she's not seeing it... But that's wrong. I will show her how it really is. ...Probably a good way to start showing her how important she is would be to take her hand... She loves that, and she's known me hating it... so that would be a start. I take her hands in mine, and she looks up at me in surprise.

"Amy... I'm a person of habit. You know that. You're supposed to see through all of my idiosyncrasies... As a neurobiologist I mean... It is very VERY hard for me to change my habits... Speaking of which, today is actually laundry night" I sigh. It's been on the back burner of my mind for a while. I'm so happy to be here with her, but it doesn't mean I don't feel the disruption to my routine. I just choose to ignore it, but it is there.

"When you entered my life, everything changed... Suddenly I started feeling things I didn't feel before, caring about things I never cared about... It would not seem like a lot to a regular person maybe, but it seemed like a lot to me... Any change for me is overwhelming. So it's not like you weren't exciting to me... You were, you occupied my mind for quite a while now... It's just that I was choosing to ignore it because... It was easier that way. I didn't know how to cope with all that change. I'm not saying my favorite tv shows are not some of the most important things in my life - they are... But so are you. They make me so happy, and so excited , but so do you. Except , if I can never watch Star Wars again, I'll be devastated sure, bored and sad... But I... ' - I don't know if I should say that, but in the spirit of full disclosure I probably should - ' I won't be feeling like my heart is ripped out of my chest...

- You felt that?

I don't know why she's so shocked. Didn't she feel the same way missing me?

- Yeah... I missed you so much and no matter what I did, that feeling wouldn't go away... So, while it is true that I love my tv shows, and my comics, and many other things... more than I love some of my friends... Obviously I love you more. There are not many people I can say that about... Maybe only you, and my Meemaw, and my mother... I love Leonard and Penny too, but when they are away for a day, I don't miss them at all, unlike you... Ok, that is actually not true, I do miss Leonard... But - my point was - I can see why you'd think that way, but you're wrong... You have been number one for me for a long long time... I might have been reluctant to show it, even to myself, because if I have expressed it, it would imply a big change and I...

- You are uncomfortable with it. - She is about to cry and I don't know if it's a good sign or a bad sign... How to tell the difference?!

- Yeah... Why are you crying ? Amy ? Did I say something wrong?

- No... - she shakes her head, - No, it's just... I can't believe you felt that way... And I feel horrible for causing you pain...

She moves away from me a little and puts her hands around her knees.

So she's told me why she's crying, and I still don't know if it's good or bad... String theory is easier than this relationship stuff!

- Amy...

She looks up at me.

- Why are you crying?

- You're right, I shouldn't... I don't want to make today sad.. It's just that... I can't believe you said all those things to me.

She looks at me , and her eyes are shining, but they're still watery , and she's smiling, and it's like a shy smile..

- Amy... You know I'm so bad at reading between the lines... Is it good or bad, what you're feeling?

She sighs and smiles.

- Sheldon.. Human nature is not so easy. It's way more complex than good and bad. I am happy with everything you said to me because I feel loved, but I am sad because I feel like I've hurt you, and while I've never meant to hurt you , after what you just said now I feel I've underestimated how deeply you can feel and...

Why is she whispering?

- Why are you whispering?

- Cause I'm embarrassed .. and ashamed... admitting it to myself and to you that I did not see through you and did not see that I hurt you... Cause if I realized in the first place you feel the way you've just described, I never would have freaked out in the first place! ...

- What do you mean?

Amy :
- Well, when you mentioned the Flash on our anniversary... We were kissing , and I was... - better not tell everything, better not tell everything - I was SO happy, I felt SO good, and your hand was on my thigh , and I just... I was on cloud nine and just carried away, and then you've asked about the Flash and... The only thing I could think about, you were either so indifferent to kissing me, or so put off by it, that you started thinking of a tv show.. Normally it would hurt me but I'd brush it off, but at that moment It was multiplied because of how into you I was at that moment, and to hear you say that made me think you will never want me , NEVER, and...

- I was also into you

Hearing him say that is still kind of unbelievable to me. I hear the words, but it doesn't really register in my head if I'm honest.

- You were into me?

- Yes

- How into me ?

- I was out of my spot!

- And... ?

- Out of my spot , Amy! You know my spot is the single most comforting thing to me in this universe. I was out of it, because... I was drawn to you more than to it... more than to comfort... Do you even know what it means to me?!

Hooooo.

- You liked kissing me?

He nods.

- I did.. Even after you interrupted it so horribly... And after that I felt double bad, because I still wanted to kiss you, and you started yelling at me...

I can't take it anymore. We're positioned almost the same now that it was back then, only on my couch. I reach forward and kiss him... He kisses me back and in a few seconds he puts his hand on my thigh.

I smile

- Closure?

He smiles too :

- Yeah...

- So for closure, do we have to do exactly the same?

- For a while, - he smiles and continues to kiss me.

A while mmm.

Then in a few seconds he squeezes my thigh a little and puts his hand a little higher.

I LOVE IT!

- This is not the same... - I whisper.

He breaks the kiss and smiles :

- I know... You said you liked it...

Oh I do! If only he knew HOW MUCH I like it all..

- I do... Don't stop, - I smile.

He continues kissing me and I realize it's not movie time yet. I'm sooooo happy. So relieved. So... there are no words for it . Like the weight of the world has been lifted off my shoulders.

So it's not just now. He liked it even then... He was out of his spot!

So tell me your opinions please! Do you think they need to talk about their issues more? Or make out instead ? Should I just describe that weekend, or also include 'missing scenes' :D from Amy's birthday in the story?