Chapter 1: Why Am I Here

The 22 year old girl looked down at the brooch in her hand before she tucked it away in her pocket, still in the clutch of her hands. She walked through the airport for some time in search for some familiar faces. A sigh escaped her once she realized that she was lost, but as luck had it, her gaze uplifted at the sound of her family calling out her name. It had been five years since she last saw them and wow…it seemed like her parents were much older than she could last recall. However, it put a smile upon her face to know that they were still around and nothing happened to them while she was gone abroad in Canada.

Everything had gone quiet since the battle with Galaxia and now the world was at peace. She may have been the leader of the senshi, but she needed a break, especially since things ended badly between her and Mamoru. The fight between her and Galaxia had taken a toll when she found out that Mamoru's star seed was taken from him and he died. When everything went back to normal, he wasn't the same. He didn't regain his memories of her. He didn't know her anymore or anything that happened between them. He lost his memories the moment his star seed was taken and all she could be happy about was the fact that the love of her life was alive again, but he just couldn't be hers. She was devastated and cried until her heart couldn't take it anymore to the point that she could cry herself to sleep.. There would be no Chibi-Usa in her life, no Mamoru and no Crystal Tokyo. Usagi was left with nothing to look forward to. Would she even be able to marry anyone else, asides from Mamoru? Would she even have children? Or was she destined to be alone for the rest of her life?

She shook the depressing thoughts as she approached her family and gave everyone a hug. Shingo had grown up so much that he was much taller than her and in his last year of high school. He gave her a crooked smile as he patted her on her head, "Welcome home sis. I almost didn't recognize you since you changed your hairstyle."

Her trademark "odangos" were no longer her signature giveaway. She gave up on them since they were a reminder of how Mamoru would tease her, so she kept her hair down. Perhaps one day she would revert back to her normal hairstyle, but that would be the day she truly accepted her loss. All she could do now was live in denial and hope that her future would not be so bleak.

"….Well? Was Canada fun?"

"Hmm?" she didn't realize that her mother was speaking to her. She smiled and responded, "Yes. Toronto was cold at times during the winter, but asides from that, the summers were beautiful and it was nice to live somewhere in North America. University was great too….I made some good friends there and they taught me a lot about the city and how to navigate."

The ride home was full of questions, but at least it wasn't a quiet one which left her to her thoughts. She skipped dinner that night as much as her mother was against it and went straight to bed. Luna was no where in sight the entire time and she assumed that she didn't even know that she was coming back home. 'She must be at Rei's or Minako's…' she thought. It only made sense for her to be with Artemis after she left. She glanced around the room one more time looking for her companion before she closed her eyes and drifted off to sleep.

She leaned in against the tall, muscular frame which held her as the smell of roses wafted into her senses. It kept her at ease and total peace. She nuzzled against the comfort of her Prince as they both stood there in each other's embrace, watching the sunset. She had snuck out again to see the man she fell in love with, risking the chance of getting scolded at by the senshi and her mother.

She could feel the vibrations of his deep chuckle against her back, sending shivers up her spine. Craning her neck, the young princess stared into the deep blue eyes before a blush appeared on her cheeks, tinting them pink. "What is it?"

He held her gaze for a long time before he responded, "I am just thinking of how furious Venus is at you right now for sneaking out."

The princess pouted for a brief moment and shrugged her shoulders, "It doesn't matter because I wanted to see you and nothing could stop me from being here…" she mumbled, looking down at the ground nervously. He cupped her chin and lifted it up as his deep blue eyes bore into her cerulean ones. He bent down and captured her lips in his, taking her by surprise. She melted against his warmth and kissed him back eagerly while her heart fluttered with joy.

He tightened his grip around her waist when they parted, ensuring that he would not let her go. "Serenity…" he whispered with want before he continued to lay kisses from her shoulder to her neck.

She held back a moan and squirmed in his grip, before breathing his name out, "…Endymion?"

"Hmm?"

"I don't ever want this to end…"

He breathed out, the corners of his lips curving into a gentle smile, "I don't either…"

She woke up that instant and sat up, the dream still vivid in her mind. She replayed the event over and over again in her head while she grasped her blankets tightly in her hands until her knuckles turned white. It was the only way she could stop herself from breaking down and losing herself. She steadied her breathing and shakily let go of the fabric. She hadn't dreamt of their distant past in so many years, so why now? It dawned upon her the irony of her situation; she could never have him. Their love was forbidden when she was a princess and when they could have each other, they both died at the hands of Beryl's kingdom. Reincarnated, they loathed each other in the beginning, then he was brainwashed by the Negaverse, he told her he didn't care about her anymore when Chibi-Usa came into the picture, he was brainwashed again but by Nehellenia and then his star seed was taken by Galaxia. She smiled sardonically and shook her head in disbelief, "I can never have you, can I? There was always something, so was it a sign that we should have stopped trying long ago? …I…." she choked up as she felt that dreadful lump in her throat, "…why am I here?" she whispered to herself.