Okay, so I've been gone a while. And I definitely had the time to write in the time I've had, and I can understand if some of you, or the majority of you are confused or even upset with me because of my absence, especially after I said that I was never going to abandon my readers.

And the truth is, you have every right to be upset, because I have no excuse. My personal life is choc-full of free time now that I've managed to balance school and work, and I've had the motivation to write for a long while now, I just didn't use it here. I have however been working on original projects that I've had in the back of my mind for some time now, and while I still have to work out some rough edges, I'd say I have a solid chance of writing a legitimate novel. Things have been great with me for a good while, every since I started going to therapy and sorting out my depression, and my personal life has never been better.

That's why I want to say I'm sorry. Truly, and whole heartedly. I started this series back in 2015 because I thought that I'd be able to make a name for myself doing the things that I love for other people, and for a while, probably in mid to late 2016, I felt like I was on top of the world. I was getting followers every other day at that point, some reaching out to do collaborations and some looking to me for inspiration. I felt like I mattered to so many people at that point, and I was beyond proud of what I had done, but of course, with every good thing comes a bad, and mine was a 2 year long spiral into depression and self hatred. This started after my grandad, god rest his soul, passed away. It was the first death I had ever experienced, and while it didn't hurt at first, it eventually came to bear down on me. I began to feel worthless, and started to overthink anything I every did, leading me to isolating myself constantly, trying to hide myself away so no one would ever have to deal with me. My family want very helpful either, since they thought that I was simply being ridiculous, and that I only wanted attention. Don't get me wrong here, they eventually came to understand what I was dealing with, but at that time it only made me feel worse. Clashes with friends began happening, and there had been a few instances where friends simply gave up on me at the drop of a hat because they didn't like something I did. This hurt like hell, and to this day, I still regret losing one of them. Finally though, I started seeing a therapist, and we talked over numerous weeks, and I now take a regular dosage of fluoxetine to help keep my depressive and suicidal thoughts at bay. I'm at a point where I could actually say I'm happy, but that came with the trade off of isolating you all.

Trust me, I never wanted to hurt or upset, anyone, that was the last thing I every wanted to do, but every when I did try to write another chapter for this series, like a Cafe AU or a sequel to the Bad Boy AU, but they never came up to a standard I saw as good enough, and I trashed them. This is by no means a goodbye story, but it is a warning.

Down the road, I might come back or I might not, it all depends on a lot of things. Maybe if things go the right way, I'll even get back to posting regularly. But right now, in this moment, I have no plans to post anything. Not any oneshots, or any chapters to any of my other stories. I can't gaurantee that I'll ever be able to finish any of them. I've met some amazing people on this site, and if I do end up not coming back, then by all means, take the mantle of my stories. If you want them, come talk to me, and you can have em. I'll at least follow them to see how they progress my work.

So I guess that's all I really have to say. Ladies and gentleman, or whatever kind of gender you are, this may very well be it. Thank you all for the love and support you've given me over these past three years, and I hope I'll be able to come back someday, in some fashion. Thank you all for over 80,000 views too, I know it's not about the numbers but hot damn that is not something to sneeze at.

So until the future, I'll see all of you later Brochachos, and Brochachas. Have a wonderful life.

Peace.