ok guys i really needed to get this out there
this was gonna be a one shot but now it will probs be a two shot - or who knows maybe even 3 .. nah it'll probs just be 2

anyway enjoyyy

THE TIME WHEN IT WASN'T A PANIC ATTACK

"What the hell are you talking about?" Jessica questioned demanding an answer.

"I'm talking about Robert Zane and you bringing him in here without consulting me"

"I didn't bring in shit. Mike Ross brought Zane in without asking and I had to pretend to be on board with that too"

"And now you're hoping this leads to what you've always wanted – this things over Zane goes and Mike heads out the door with him" The agitation was clear in Harvey's voice and it wasn't often he was this angry at Jessica.

"That's enough! You need to get yourself under control right now!"

"What the hell are you talking about?!"

"I'm talking about you have a problem and it doesn't have anything to do with me and you just expose it by bringing up some paranoid bullshit about Mike Ross going with Robert Zane! Because this all started when Donna left you and now you're afraid Mike's going to do the same thing" Harvey swallowed the lump forming in his throat and his jaw hardened as he bit back on his back teeth. He could feel it coming. "So you better get your abandonment issues under control cos Jack Sollof is going to keep coming and now you're going to have to put him down". It was definitely happening. His vision began to blur up and Jessica's sharp features were no longer so sharp. He turned around blinking hard. He needed to get out of there.

Harvey made his way down the corridor – how he managed, he had no idea. He couldn't see anything clearly, it was all just a blur, a mess of colours and the whole firm was spinning around him. He couldn't breathe. His breaths were coming out sharp and short and they were just about making their way through his thorax which had become extremely tight. He tugged at his collar slightly in attempt to loosen his airway but it didn't help. There was a tight sharp pain in his heart and it was spreading all over his chest. His whole upper body felt tight and he needed more than anything to drink some water and sit down. He walked towards where Gretchen was sat and thanked the heavens for helping him get this far to his office.

"Mr Specter Mike Ross is waiting for you in your office"

He heard some words but he wasn't sure what they were. He didn't have the capacity to try and think about what she had said – he just needed to get in there.

He walked into his office and found Mike standing near the window looking out of it.

"Hey I need to talk to you" The younger man turned towards Harvey at his entrance.

"Not now" Harvey's voice came out tight and restricted.

"I know you're mad from before but I need a favo-"

"I said not now" He began to undo his top buttons and loosen his tie. Mike looked over at him with eyes dressed in both shock and concern. He looked back at the younger man with wide eyes drowning in pain and desperation. He could feel beads of sweat building up along his forehead as the nausea kicked in. His chest began to throb – but this time, the pain was much worse and it was focused at his heart rather than all over his chest. It was a weird pain and it was mixed with a sense of numbness, it was almost as if someone was literally squeezing his heart. His heart began to flutter strangely and his heart beats begun to fluctuate.

"Harvey what's going on with you?" Mike's voice was filled with confusion and worry as he saw Harvey struggle to take in breaths.

"Nothing's going on – I need to go some water" Harvey around his desk and over to where the water was. He unscrewed the bottle and attempted to pour it into a glass only to find that his trembling hands got the better of him. The water spilt down his arm and Harvey's inability to pour himself a glass of water caused Mike to grow only more concerned.

"What the hell is going on?!" Harvey drank the water taking big swallows.

"Okay I'm dialling 911" Harvey heard the waver in Mike's voice as he ran towards the phone and began to dial the number.

"No you're not" Harvey looked up at his associate with glassy eyes. There was no way he was going to a hospital.

"Yes I am you could be having a heart attack!" A heart attack. The possibility never dawned upon him. He knew it felt different this time with the horrendous pain in his heart. But no, it couldn't be a heart attack – it was just a more severe panic attack. He would sit down, take a few deep breaths and then he would be fine again. But before he could say another word, the pain in his heart suddenly worsened and a sharp flare ran through his body making his chest feel like a bomb had exploded within it. He screwed his eyes and bit hard clutching onto his chest where his heart was. But the pain was too much and his legs suddenly became numb and crumbled beneath him.

"Harvey!" Mike dropped the phone and ran towards his boss who was on the floor clutching onto the couch. Mike ran by his side with wide eyes filled with fear at the sight of Harvey trembling on the floor clutching at his chest as if he was trying to rip it apart.

Just as he was about to pull out his cell phone to call for help, Jack Soloff appeared at the doorway – great timing Mike thought to himself.

"Jack get the hell out of here" Mike quickly rose to his feet standing in front of Harvey almost as an act of protection.

"I'm sorry if I'm interrupting something but-"

"Jack now is not the time get out!" Mike wanted to punch the sly son of a bitch who could clearly see there was something wrong with Harvey but still decided to be a dick.

"You know-" But just as he was about to pull another line Gretchen appeared at the doorway.

"Jack I suggest you walk the hell out of this office or I'm gonna have to drag your sorry ass out – oh and trust me, you will be sorry" Gretchen folded her arms as she glared at the man.

In return Jack just shook his head and marched out.

"I've called for an ambulance they should be here soon" Gretchen told Mike who nodded in return.

"Is he alright?" Gretchen walked further into the room towards the men.

"I don't know" Mike replied in a shaky breath.

"Harvey?" Mike placed a hand on the older man's shoulder. Harvey was panting and had his eyes screwed shut but wasn't unconscious. Mike remembered back to the time when he was in the waiting room at the hospital when his Grammy had slipped at work and he was flicking through some leaflets. He had read a first aid one about what to do when someone was having a heart attack and since he was pretty sure it was a heart attack, he thought it would be used to put that knowledge to use.

"Harvey I need you to sit up straight. Lean against the couch." Harvey made no attempt to move which led to Mike having to help position him so he was resting against the couch.

The pain had spread everywhere. All up his back, down his arms and along his jaw. It was terrifying. His breaths were still coming out short and sharp and his vision was still somewhat blurry. And on top of that, his head was spinning crazily and he wanted more than anything for it to stop. He heard Mike talking to him telling him to sit up but he couldn't – he just didn't have it in him.

Mike swallowed the huge lump that had formed in his throat. Harvey was having a heart attack. Harvey who was so strong and appeared so emotionless had become so vulnerable and pained and it hurt Mike to see him like that. He didn't know what else to do. He could get some aspirin but that would probably be in the kitchen and that was too far. He kept his hand firmly on Harvey's shoulder and prayed the paramedics would arrive soon.

Donna was sat at her desk rearranging some meetings for Louis when about 5 paramedics rushed past her desk carrying a stretcher. She frowned slightly and stood from her desk wondering what on earth they were doing here. Just as she was about to make her way down, Jessica appeared in front of her.

"What the hell happened?" Jessica questioned the woman who always knew everything but this time didn't have an answer.

"I really don't know but" She paused and squinted her eyes moving to the side slightly so she could see better "I think they're going towards Harvey's office".

Jessica's eyes met Donna's and they both raced down the corridor.

They reached outside Harvey's office and Donna stopped dead in her tracks right in front of her old desk. She watched, her eyes filled with shock and horror as the paramedics rushed passed her with a gurney and on top of the gurney, was Harvey. His face was masked with a look of pain even Donna had never seen before. Donna's eyes filled with tears and her mouth fell slightly ajar. One of Harvey's hands clutched at the side of the gurney and the other at his chest and she could see the pain he was in was unbearable and the sight caused her heart to snap into two.

Mike ran behind the paramedics but was stopped by a hand grabbing at his arm.

"Mike w-what..." It was all she could manage as she found herself unable to let out the rest of the words.

"What happened?" She looked over at Jessica who stood besides her wearing the same expression of shock Donna was wearing but it was masked with some composure.

Mike took a deep breath before he spoke.

"He's having a heart attack." And with that he took off behind the paramedics.

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