Clary pov

I have two older brothers. Sebastian and Jonathan, or Jon and Seb. We live in New York. We are all in collage. Seb is a senior in collage Jon is a Junior and I am a Sophomore. We share a apartment with Magnus Bane, Simon Lewis, Isabelle Lightwood, her brothers Alec and Jace. We all have our own rooms. Mine is the attic. Our house is more like a family home. We all had bad childhoods and we all have been friends since middle school. So when Seb turned 18 he bought this place and we moved in with him. We all get along fine. For the most part. Iz and Magnus go to collage for fashion design and interior design, Simon goes for computer art, I go for art, writing, and singing. Izzy, Jon, Seb, Jace, Alec, and I started a band years ago in high school. Also Magnus is going to be our manager. Iz is singing with me, Jon does the screaming parts and play guitar, Seb plays drums, Alec plays guitar, Jace does the rare piano pieces and he sings the calm parts in the back round. This year is just starting. I roll out of bed and go to my closet. Ugh I hate trying to pick something out for first days. I pull out my black dress. It's fabric on the top and then leather for the bottom. I pull out my maroon combat boots and lace them up. I put my dark maroon beanie on and grab my phone witch has a black back round with a white skull. My head phones I put around my neck and plug them into my phone. I sit down and take the beanie off so I can do my hair. I make it so that my hair is in soft curls down my back. I recently put black streaks into my red hair. I do my makeup then. I put my black eyeliner on and do a wing. Then I mix white light brown and dark brown eye shadows together. I put my mascara on and my blood red lipstick. I smile I'm showing off my tattoo's today. My right arm has a sleeve of roses white, red, blue, black. They are all bleeding and at the bottom is my mother's birth date and death date. The on my left arm I have a quote.'Strength doesn't come from what you can do, it comes from overcoming the things you once thought you couldn't.' I love the quote it defines me. On my left leg I have 'Childhood should be carefree, playing in the sun,not living a nightmare in the darkness of the soul' also 'the fact they don't love you anymore isn't what hurts: what hurts is realizing they never did' I have 'You endure what is unbearable and you bear it that is all' all on that leg and on the other I have a tree and the roots have everyones names. I just got it colored in two weeks ago. It's a fall tree and all the names are different colors. Iz is pink, Magnus blue, Seb black, Jon green, Alec grey, Jace gold, Simon orange, and me I'm maroon. I walk down the stairs and knock on Jace, Seb, Jon, and Alec's doors to wake them up. Magnus is in the kitchen cooking and Simon is playing video games and I can hear Izzy listening to music.

"Mags please tell me you are making pancakes." I say.

"Of course Biscuit." Magnus says and turns around to kiss me on the head.

"Go wake the boys." Mags says and I nod my head yes. I head back up the stairs into Jon's room first he is up getting ready and so was everyone else. I eat my breakfast before I head to my motorcycle and head to school. I pull into my parking space and then head to the school building. Of course I get stopped by Cadence, Piper, Ava, Ethan, Liam, and Noah.

"Yes." I say annoyed.

"Don't talk to us like that." Ava says.

"Your the one's who stopped me."

"Oh shut up Clary your just some emo little girl." Liam says defending his girlfriend Ava. Now I was starting to get pissed.

"I'm not in the mood to deal with you people." I say walking away when I hear something crash. My eyes widen in fear and I turn around to see my bike on the ground. Cadence next to it.

"You bitch." I growl and fling myself at her. I punch her a few times in the face and then I tried to choke her. I felt someone pulling me off of her. I turn around to hit whoever was trying to get me up to see Jace.

"Clary calm down let's just walk away." Jace said.

"How did your mom die?" Ethan says and laughs out loud. Jace let me go then knowing there was no point.

"Say it again." I say in a low voice that got them all to back up.

"I SAID SAY IT AGAIN!" I scream. Jon and Seb come over to see the who was fighting. When they see me there they back away.

"He said how did your mother die, suicide?Cancer, killed, car crash?" Noah says and I smile. I walk up to him.

"None of your damn buisness." I say calmly and upper cut him. He grabbed a hold of my wrist. I turned around and I felt a sting in my cheek. I smile again he just doesn't want to stop. I kick him where the sun don't shine. I walk away and leave them to Jon Seb and Magnus. Jace follows me to see if I was okay. He knows I'm on the verge of tears. I get into the school and hug Jace. I won't let the tears fall but I want his arms around me.

"You want to practice in the music room for later today's band practice?" Jace asks and I nod. Jace and I don't have classes for the first two things and there was no music till the afternoon. Once we get there I give Jace the music sheet and I stand next to the microphone. I play guitar as I sing as well.

well fortune favors not the young spoken words and songs unsung right? i never learned from my mistakes.

i guess i dont have what it takes right? i wish that i could walk away all this time I've lost I fell cost repaid

so save today the secrets that you prayed for and wait cause we deserve it so much more so save the secrets that you prayed for awake ill see you on the other side

a tortured soul i have become it keeps me safe and leaves me numb right?

cause in this dream im wide awake the one i love i did forsake right?

i wish that i was wrong that youll come home again

all this time ive lost ill never find again

so save today the secrets that you prayed for

and wait cause we deserve so much more

so save the secrets that you prayed for awake

ill see you on the other side

say you can help me know (4 times)

so save today the secrets that you prayed for and wait cause we deserve it so much more so save the secrets that you prayed for awake ill see you on the other side (2 times)

I open my eyes to see Jace staring at me but we aren't alone anymore. There is a whole crowd in here.

"How did you guys get so good?" Someone asks.

"Practice." I say. They all crowd around Jace and I. J ace looks as annoyed as I am. Ethan walks out of the crowd and comes right over to me.

"Hi princess." Ethan says to me.

"Go the hell away and if you even call me princess again I will not only physically harm you but mentally too. More than you are already." I say. Jace wraps his arm around my waist and he drops me off at my art class. I start a sketch for a mural I'm doing. Then the class is over so I head to my other classes and soon the day is over. I head home and practice singing.

I can't fly but I keep finding myself soaring high above this I have nothing left but I keep pouring out like I am endless

Impossible Impossible

I don't run too fast but I'm looking back and miles and miles have passed I can barely breath but I'm singing out like this is nothing to me

Impossible, woah, Impossible

every morning I see another miracle I can't believe I'm living the impossible we are the signage and we are the wonder another day of living the impossible

impossible impossible

I choose to be alive especially because the odds say I should die I wrestle death again I know more of his moves now and I won't give in

impossible, woah, impossible

every morning i see another miracle i can't believe im living the impossible we are the signage and we are the wonder another day of living the impossible

when im weak i wonder if im gonna be alright but too many times ive seen this all come to life if i make my self stop and remember

every morning i see another miracle i cant believe im living the impossible we are the signage and we are the wonder another day of living the impossible ( 2 times)

impossible.

I hear clapping behind me and turn around to see Seb, Jon, Jace, Simon, Magnus, Alec, and Iz.

"It took you forever to remember the lyrics!" Seb yells and I chase him. I end up falling on my face.

"Ow" I say and get up. I go back to the music room. I pull out my phone and look at my twitter. I see all the messages.

Clary is such a bitch!

clary cheated on Jace with Ethan.

Ew what a slut!

How can someone even date her I mean she is so ugly?!

I drop my phone and the tears are streaming down my face. Seb goes for my phone with Jon while Jace comes over to me.

"Those bastards!" Seb yells and Jon holds him back from going to his car. I grab my bag and leave. I get onto my bike and head for the abanded park. I sit and draw the sunset. By the time I feel like I'm not going to cry it is pitch black out and the stars are shining. I get back onto my bike and head home. I go straight for Jace;s room. I go in and wake Jace up.

"Jace can I sleep in here tonight?" I ask quietly.

"Of course, come here Clare-bear." Jace says sleepily. I go onto the other side of the bed and go into Jace's arms. I snuggle into his chest. I fall into a fitful sleep. I wake up to Jace's phone. I look over at it. It's Ethan saying crap about me. I get up and get dressed. I put on a black mini skirt, dark grey crop top and my maroon combat boots and my beanie. I do my makeup how I did it yesterday same with my hair. I take my phone and bag and head downstairs. I eat a apple and Jace comes down the stairs.

"Morning." Jace says. I get up and walk towards the thing by the door where my keys are hanging. I pick them up.

"What did I do?" Jace asks. I flip him off and walk out and get onto my bike and drive to the school. I go to the art room. I finish my mural by the time my actual class starts. I start drawing another one.

"Mrs. Fairchild may I speak with you?" The teacher asks and I get up. I walk into the hallway with the teacher.

"Yes." I say.

"I love how your art is and how skilled you are so I think you should go for the more experienced art classes."

"Really you think I can draw like that?" I ask her.

"Yes I think you could graduate from this collage next year if you work hard."

"Thank you so much."

"Don't thank me yet, thank me when you publish an art work."

"Okay." I gather my stuff and head for my next class. When I get there I forgot that I have this with everyone in the band. I go in and sit inbetween Jon and Seb. Jace comes over to us.

"What did I do wrong Clary?" He asks.

"Look at your damn phone Jace." I say. He pulls out his phone and looks at the messages from Ethan.

"Clary none of this ever happened, I didn't even respond to them."Jace says.

"So what your telling me is that you didn't tell them that I broke into tears after reading there comments, and oh you didn't tell them that I left and didn't come back until 11, you also didn't tell them how to hurt me. Like hell I would believe that Jace. You where the only person I trusted with those secrets so I know it was you." I say trying to fight back the tears.

"Leave her alone Jace." Seb tells him and he walks away. I get up and leave the class going to the tattoo place.

"Hey Paul can you do one right here." I say and point to the section between my index finger and thumb.

"Sure what do you want?" Paul asks.

"Lights will guide you home." I say and he gets to work on it. When he finishes I give him the money and leave. I head home and I go into my room and I read.