I have never really believed in the concept of luck, I just don't see how there could be some mystical force that we each have a predetermined amount of and sometimes It's there to help us out and other times it throws us in at the deep end of a bad situation. The main reason I don't believe in it though it because it implies that skill isn't necessary and that you can just put 0% effort into something and get lucky. Skill is something that defines me, I have trained near enough every day of my 16 years, whether that is acrobatics training or combat training; for the most part my skills are unmatched by mere humans like me. The other Titans don't need this level of skill because they have their powers to rely on, but it is a necessity for me.

One foot in the wrong place or lunging forward just a second to late can mean all my training and all my skills worthless and as the thundering fist of Cinderblock hurtles towards me with no sign of me being able to dodge it seems that this is the case. Without my skill it seems that lady luck is what I am falling back on now and if she is indeed real then let's hope I have some luck left to spare.

Starfire bolted upright from her sleep. Her head was in agony and there was a loud ringing in her ears. After the ringing began to subside she took a look around the room she was in, it was the medical bay of the tower but she couldn't remember ever being injured and coming here. She racked her brains for a reason she was here and slowly an realisation started to form in her head.

"ROBIN!" she screamed, tears starting to well up in her eyes as she remembered what had happened.

They had been fighting Cinderblock and slowly but surely they were tiring the 20ft rock monster out. Starfire had been distracted for the majority of the fight. Earlier that day she had heard some girls gossiping about Robin and she was interested in what the girls were to discuss and so she decided to listen into the conversation. They had been talking about all of the team but they paid particular interest to the topic "If Robin has a girlfriend" a few of the girls were denying it saying that he didn't have time for a relationships whilst another handful were demanding that he did. A few were stating that he must be in a relationship with Batgirl but then the others reminded them that Gotham and Jump were on completely other sides of the continent and that they doubted Robin would have time for a long distance relationship. Then one of the girls perked up with the idea that he must be dating Starfire considering how much time they spend together, instantly the other girls were on board almost forgetting that Starfire even existed until the other girl mentioned it. At hearing this conclusion Starfire blushed profusely.

Whilst they were in mid battle Starfire couldn't help but be drawn back to that discussion and her mind was clouded with ideas of her and Robin dating. However this distraction proved catastrophic when she heard muffled sounds and looked up to see the thundering fist of Cinderblock heading straight for her.

"STARFIRE! MOVE!" Robin yelled

Starfire was utterly disorientated "Wha-" She began but she was cut off by a hard shove to the right, as she rolled along the floor she managed to look up to see what was happening and as she did she was filled with dread as she saw Robin's limp form hurtling backwards and colliding full force with a concrete wall.

"ROBIN!" she screamed as his body fell to the floor in heap. She threw herself into the air and rocketed towards his and landed just in front of where he had collided with the wall. In front of her was the broken form of Robin. She couldn't see as her eyes clouded with tears and they fell rapidly from her face "Robin…." She sobbed falling to her knees "I am so sorry Robin".

"Beast Boy! You and me are gonna distract Cinderblock while Raven helps Robin" Cyborg commanded looking in convern at his fallen leader.

"On it!" Beast Boy responded, changing into an elephant and charging the walking boulder

Starfire rushed out of the medical room "Robin!" she repeatedly yelled as she ran through the tower. She had to know what had happened.

"Star?" Beast Boy asked running through the corridor and into the common room where Starfire was currently searching. "Good you're awake" he said with a smile.

"Beast Boy…." Starfire already feared the worst and the tears that were welling up were now spilling beginning to fall down her cheeks.

"Star, are you okay?" he paused "Raven had to knock you out back there." He said with a worried look on his face

"I was knocked out?" she responded quizzically

"Yeah you went berserk back there; we couldn't stop you so Raven had to knock you out"

Raven quickly made her way to the sobbing form of Starfire "Starfire…" she reached out to touch the crying alien's shoulder

"NO! DO NOT TOUCH ME!" tears flooding down her face

Raven recoiled back from the outburst but continued "Starfire it's going to be-"

"NO! IT WILL NOT BE THE O AND K" she paused wrapping her arms around her sides "Robin….he is dead because I was not doing the focusing. It is my fault and I will make this right"

"Starfire what are you going to-" She tried to ask but the alien was already rocketing through the air towards Cinderblock

"Starfire! Stop!" Cyborg yelled turning to look at the girl hurtling towards the rock creature

"YOU HAVE TAKEN ROBIN FROM ME SO I WILL RETURN THE FAVOUR! YOUR LIFE, FOR THAT OF HIS!" and before any of the Titans could stop her she had already buried her glowing green fist deep into the face of Cinderblock and with one swift blast he was reduced to rubble in a bright green light.

Despite Cinderblock's condition it seemed Starfire was not finished yet as she was ripping apart evey large piece of rubble left with her bare hands whilst tears continued to stream down her face.

"Starfire you need to stop, now!" Raven said in an attempt to soothe her but she paid no attention

"Starfire!" yet again no response or sign of stopping

"STARFIRE!" Raven yelled before aiming her hand at Starfire's head and speaking her mantra. And after a few seconds Starfire fell face first onto the ground, out like a light.

"I-I destroyed Cinderblock?" she managed to stammer out slumping onto her knees on the floor, utterly terrified by how easily she had done it.

"Yeah, all that was left was pebbles by the time Raven managed to stop you"

"I-I am a…..murderer" her face wrought with terror and regret

"Wha-no Star, first of all Cinderblock wasn't a person, we don't even know he came to life in the first place and second you thought he had killed Robin. I would have done the same if I was in your position and I thought he had killed one of you guys" he said with a determined look on his face.

Starfire instantly perked up hearing Beast Boy say 'thought he had killed'. "Robin…he-he survived?"

"Yeah Star, he's in pretty bad shape but Raven said he should be okay" he paused "Raven was trying to tell you that Robin was alive but you wouldn't listen, you just went straight for Cinderblock without thinking…..it was really scary watching you back there. You were covered in this green light and we thought you were might explode or something"

"I am truly sorry friend Beast Boy" She said covering her face with her hands feeling utterly disgusted with herself and letting the tears flow once again down her face.

"Hey, don't cry Star it's okay now" he said comfortingly

"If Robin is injured then why is he not in the medical bay?" she asked in panic

"They took Robin to the hospital, Raven said something about not having enough medication and equipment at the tower to deal with his injuries"

"Then friend, why are you not at the hospital also?" she asked confused

"Oh, Raven told me to stay back here and make sure you were okay. She said normal knock-out spells wouldn't have any effects on you in that state and so she had to manually go into your head and shut off parts of your consciousness to force you to sleep. She wasn't sure if that would have any side effects on you so I was told to make sure you were okay"

"I see, thank you friend Beast Boy" and without even another word Star bolted out of the common room and into the elevator and then rocketed through the air towards Jump City Hospital.

All of the walls inside the hospital were a strong white and it made Starfire very uncomfortable and anxious about being there. She stepped up to information desk "Please, which room is Robin being treated in?" she asked trying to be polite despite being extremely close to tears.

"Are you a friend of family member of him?" the woman behind the desk asked

The word friend bore deep into her, would Robin forgive her for what happened and still want to be her friend? Would she ever forgive herself?... "Yes, my name os Starfire and I am a friend of his"

"Oh of course, didn't recognise you at first. He's in room 104 which is on the right at the end of the corridor, sweetheart" the woman responded kindly

"Thank you" she looked over the desk at the woman's name badge "Pam" she gave her a wobbly smile before dashing down the corridor.

She stepped quickly into the room and the sight of Robin's bruised arms and legs shattered her heart into a million pieces. "Robin….."She staggered towards him and threw herself to his side sobbing into his gown "please forgive me…. I am so sorry". She felt herself being pulled slowly away and clutched to Robin tightly.

"Star" Cyborg said sternly but when she hung on tighter his tone became softer understanding how she must feel "Come on little lady, you gotta give the boy some space if you want him to get better"

Hearing this she quickly released him and backed away as if she thought her touch was causing Robin immense pain. "I apologise" she said downtrodden

"That's okay Star. It's upset us all….well maybe not 'clutching to him for dear life whilst crying into his shirt' upset but we are still worried" he said with a reassuring grin on his face.

Starfire responded with a nod and flumped onto a chair next to the bed staring at her feet. She was finding it difficult to look up at the bed where Robin lay without feeling a mix of guilt and immense sadness hitting her like a tsunami. She heard the squeaking of a chair and noticed that Raven had sat beside her.

"Star…I know it looks bad but I just put him in a healing sleep so that he will recover faster…and Star... about Cinderblock you-" Raven said carefully

"killed him" Starfire finished Raven's sentence for her

"Yes" Raven replied solemnly

"Then friend Raven?" she paused "Why do I no longer feel remorse for such an awful act?" she said sadly

Raven gave her a nervous look before shifting it into one of empathy "I know what it's like to see people get hurt Starfire, and sometimes…sometimes the only way you think you can fix things is by doing back what someone has done to you. You thought he had killed Robin and so you killed him."

"I believe the earthen saying is 'an eye for an eye', yes?" Starfire asked thoughtfully

"Yeah, and Star I want you to know we understand, I'm sure we all would have done the same if we were in your position" Raven replied

"Not Robin" Starfire stated "He would never kill. Even despite what had happened, he believes that no matter what. Killing is wrong" she paused as tears began to spill "he will be so upset with me" she began to cry, "what if he wishes for me to leave the team?" the sobbing becoming more muffled as she buried her face in her hands.

Cyborg walked over to Star and offered her a hug, to which she greatly accepted. "Rob may be upset at first Star but he will understand why you did it" he paused looking over to the clock "anyway it's late and visiting time is over so we be going now Star….we need to let Rob get some rest"

"No." she stated

"No?" Cyborg asked confused

"No. I will not leave Robin's in this state until he awakens. It is my fault this happened and I will fix this" she said firmly

"Star-" Cyborg was about to say before Raven interrupted him by grabbing his arm and leading him towards the door "Fine. But I'm not sure if the nurses will be too happy about you staying in here…"

"Then they will have to do the dragging of me kicking and screaming" she said, a small smile appearing on her face.

"Okay little lady, remember to get some sleep yourself" Cyborg said with a chuckle.

"Pleasant shlorvax friends" she gave them a small wave as they left through the door

Once they left, Starfire lifted herself from her seat and floated over to the bed before laying down at Robin's side and wrapping her arms around him as if creating a shield to protect him from any threat of danger. She laid there in silence holding onto him tightly, hoping above all hopes that Robin would understand when he wakes but regardless of his forgiveness she would make sure he was well again. "Do not worry Robin, I will stay by your side until you are well and I will fix the mistakes that I have made."

End of chapter 1

Author's Notes:

For anyone thinking "Hey, haven't I read 'Recovery' before?" This is a re-upload but as one story rather than split into one-shots. A couple of fans requested it and so I agreed that it made more sense to be in this format.

Next Chapter: As Robin awakes and beings the healing process of his injuries, Starfire is left trying to think of ways to recompense for the problems she has caused, and she is terrified of what Robin thinks of her now.