Just give me back my pieces

Just give them back to me please

Just give me back my pieces

And let me hold my broken parts

I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok

I just want to be ok today

Be Okay by Ingrid Michaelson

"Dr Robbins?"

Arizona turns around when she hears her name, not quite recognizing the voice.

"Sorry, you don't recognize me." The woman says and turns around to show her backside and then looks over her shoulder, "recognize me now?" She asks laughing.

"Oh my god, yes. Charlotte, how are you?" Arizona asks laughing as she realizes that it's the firefighter that she treated a few weeks ago.

"I'm great. Thank you for everything. But I'm sorry that my wife showed up right after you asked me for coffee and I didn't get to respond. The truth is that, if I was single, you wouldn't have had to ask me, I would have asked you first." Charlotte replies smiling.

"Oh, that's sweet of you to say, but it's not necessary. I'm just, well, I'm rusty. I haven't done this in a long time and I'm just getting back out there. But thank you for telling me that, it was really nice of you." Arizona replies taking a sip of her coffee.

"I'm glad that I ran into you, Alice and I would like to have you over for a small house party." She offers. "We both have friends who haven't met yet, friends who we'd like to introduce to each other and so you wouldn't be the only one who didn't know people."

"Oh god no, now you're taking pity on me and you want to pimp me out at a house party?" Arizona asks making a face.

"No. That's not it at all. It's more like we have some amazing friends and we'd like to help them find women who are as amazing as they are, so naturally I thought of you." She explains.

"Oh well that's better but still no. Thank you and it was nice to see you again," Arizona replies, turning to go.

Reaching out to touch her elbow and get her to turn around, Charlotte asks, "Dr Robbins, how long have you been single?"

"It's Arizona, Charlotte. Almost three years. But look, I'm a neonatal surgeon, I work crazy hours and I have a daughter and an ex-wife. I really don't have time to meet anyone, let alone have a relationship." Arizona explains.

"Let me guess, your ex works here at the hospital, probably a surgeon like you. And you think if you couldn't make it work with someone who understands you job, how can you make it with someone who doesn't?" Charlotte asks.

Arizona nods. Charlotte takes her hand and pulls her over to a table in the coffee shop and they sit across from each other.

"Arizona, my first serious relationship was with another firefighter and it was great at first, but then it got complicated and the lines between work and life got blurry. Then one night it all went sideways when she was trapped in a fire and I broke protocol to try to save her and we both ended up needing rescued. We, well I almost lost my job. They transferred me to a different station and it tore us apart." Charlotte explains.

Arizona swallows hard and replies, "I was in a plane crash and my ex is an Orthopedic surgeon, one of the best in the nation, my leg was broken and horribly infected after days of exposure and I made her promise not to amputate it, even though we both knew that might be the only way to get rid of the infection. It broke us, we tried to recover from it, but eventually it broke us."

"Alice and I met at a house party about five years ago. It was this same kind of set up. Her friend was dating my friend and we met through them. So I'm a big believer in meeting people through people, let your friends screen out the crazy people." Charlotte replies, "Please come to the party. It will be fun, I promise."

"How did you know that I'd be at this coffee shop?" Arizona asks.

"Well, you invited me for coffee and this is the one that's closest to the hospital. This is the third morning in over a week, that I've come by here hoping to run into you." Charlotte admits.

"So you're basically a friendly stalker." Arizona teases.

Laughing she admits that "Alice told me that I should just go back to the hospital and have you paged, but this seemed more fun".

Taking her card out of her pocket and writing her personal cell number on the back, Arizona hands it to her. "Okay, let me know when and I'll try to make it." Arizona promises.

"Is that the best you can do? At least give me your next weekend that you're not working or on call?" Charlotte asks.

"Oh, you're really good at this. Let me check," Arizona says pulling up her calendar and showing it to her.

"Got it. I'll see what I can do and let you know." Charlotte says standing up to leave. Then leaning in and giving the blonde a quick hug. "We're going to be great friends, I can tell already." She says winking at her and leaving.

Heading back to the hospital, Arizona can't help but feel a bit brighter. She's made Richard go out with her to the lesbian bar twice now and while he's been a good sport about it, she has to admit it's a little odd and probably not really helping her cause. She needs to start going alone or at least drag April along with her.

"Hey Robbins, is it true that you've been dragging Webber out to be your wingman?" Amelia asks when they run into each other in the locker room.

Busted, Arizona grimaces, "How did you hear about that?" She asks.

"My surgery tech, Naomi. She saw you guys there the other night. Webber, really?" Amelia asks again.

"I know, he offered and I couldn't say no. He's not a bad wingman, but he certainly stands out in that crowd." Arizona admits.

"Tell you what, how about I go with you next time?" Amelia offers.

"You'd be up for a lesbian bar?" Arizona asks surprised.

"Don't look at me like that? I went to college, I've dipped my toes into the lady pond before." Amelia says laughing. "Robbins, I know how to swim."

The blonde's mouth drops open and she stammers a minute, before blurting out, "Uh, what about you and Owen?"

"There is no me and Owen. In fact, there's no me and anyone. I just moved out of Meredith's place. So please let me hangout with you, all this alone time is making me crazy." She explains.

"Okay, how about tomorrow night? It's an 80's theme night at the bar and I just dug out my old Clash t-shirt to wear." Arizona says laughing.

"Oh 80's night sounds fun. Let's do it." Amelia says shutting her locker.

"I'll call you tonight with the details." Arizona replies watching the brunette leave.

Humming and singing 'Should I Stay or Should I Go' to herself Arizona shuts her locker a few minutes later and runs right into Callie.

"I'm sorry, I didn't know anyone else was in here." The blonde admits embarrassed.

"Singing The Clash, so you're in a good mood today." Callie remarks curiously.

Smiling at her, Arizona waves and heads out to start her shift.

"How did it go? Did you meet anyone?" April asks sliding up beside Arizona on her way to the ER.

"It was fine. I did meet a few women, it's just I don't know none of them stood out. Nothing clicked." Arizona says trying to explain. "How is it going with Jackson?" she asks changing the subject.

"Amazing, confusing, terrible, awesome..." April says slumping against the wall and covering her face with her hands.

"You had sex again didn't you?" Arizona exclaims. "I told you not to have sex while you're in counseling." She asks.

"I know, I know. But we're in living together and we had such a nice evening, we had dinner, watched a movie and then it just happened." April says helplessly.

"Okay, so did you at least talk about it this morning?" Arizona asks.

"No, I woke up early and came into work. I've been dodging him all morning." April admits.

"You can't do that. You need to talk. Not talking is what got you in this mess." Arizona points out to her friend.

"Uh April, do you have a minute?" Jackson asks coming over to where they're standing.

"She does. I was just leaving." Arizona says giving her friend a nudge towards him as she walks away.

"Hi." April says shyly.

"We need to talk about this. Last night was..." Jackson begins.

"DON'T say it. Jackson!" April says loudly, then quieting down as people glance at her, she adds, "I know what you're going to say and I can't hear it. Not right now."

"You don't know what I'm going to say. If you did, you wouldn't have reacted like that. April, come on. You have to give me a chance. We need to be able to communicate if this is going to work. I have to be able to tell you when I've enjoyed an evening with you with you freaking out." He replies frustrated.

"Wait you enjoyed last night?" She asks, "I thought you were going to say it was a mistake," she replies softly. Then adding, "Jackson I enjoyed last night too. But then I woke up beside you this morning and I was afraid that you would think it was a mistake, so I left. I'm sorry." April says searching his face for a sign that he forgives her.

"Look, you need to stop running from me, from us. If we're in this together than we have to stick together and figure it out, it's not up to me or you, it's up to us." He replies searching her face for a sign that she's listening.

Nodding, she bites her lip. "I-I'll do better. I promise." She whispers as he pulls her into an embrace.

"How did it go after I left, did you get her number? Are you going out with her?" Webber asks when he runs into Arizona in the hall.

"Uh, yes I got her number, but no I'm not going out with her. I just didn't feel a connection." Arizona says trying to explain it.

"Well, Catherine is coming home tonight. So I'm afraid that I'm not going to be able to go out again for a while." He explains.

"Right, well you were a great help Richard. I really appreciate it. Hey, do you remember the firefighter from a few weeks ago?" She asks.

"The one that you finally asked out only to find out she wasn't single?" He remarks, "Is she single now?"

"No, she's still not single. But I ran into her today and they've invited me to a house party to meet new people." Arizona says proudly.

"Oh, well that's a great way to meet someone. I met Adele at a party in college." He remarks as he's walking away. "Wait, Robbins." He calls to her turning around, "What about 80's night?" He asks.

"I'm going. Amelia just agreed to go with me." Arizona adds. "Did you know that she moved out of Meredith's place?"

Richard watches the blonde walk away and then turns around abruptly, he better go check on her. She's missed the last two meetings, which isn't unusual with a surgeon's schedule, but he better check to make sure that's all it it.

"Dr Shepherd may I have a moment?" He asks sticking his head into the viewing room where she's standing with Edwards and her interns.

"Edwards, give me the room and take them with you." Amelia replies.

Richard shuts the door behind them and steps a bit closer to Amelia. "I haven't seen you at a meeting. Is everything okay?" He asks.

"I'd rather not do this at work. I'm in the middle of a case Richard." She replies nervously chewing her thumbnail.

"You moved out of Meredith's? Hunt is suspended and no one's heard from him in over a week. Are you telling me that you're handling both of those things just fine? If you are, then I'll be on my way. If you're not then you and I are going to be leaving here and going to a meeting." He replies staring steadily at her.

"I am fine. I wasn't fine last week. But I'm fine today, for several days now. I've been fine." She admits, her voice shaking a little.

"Tell me what happened." He says softly, not judging her.

"I was at Joe's and it was after my fight with Meredith, after she told me to get out of her house. I shouldn't have gone there, but I did and I was just drinking club soda. But then a guy came up and offered to buy me a drink. I declined of course, but then I watched him a moment and I asked for a vodka tonic. He bought it and set it in front of me and I took a drink. It tasted amazing. It tasted like maybe I could just let go of my day and be free for a little while." Amelia admits.

"What did you do after tasting the drink?" He asks.

"I called Edwards and asked her to come and get me. She took me back to her place and I told her about my fight with Meredith and I stayed on her couch. I haven't had a drink since that one sip. Richard, I've been going to the early meeting across town, it's closer to Stephanie's place." Amelia explains.

"So you're staying with your resident?" He asks.

"Not any more, I just found a place and I'll be moving at the end of the month. I'll just have to get my things out of Meredith's house." She points out.

"You should have called me. I am always here for you." He reminds her.

"I know, I just didn't want to admit that I'd let myself get to that place again. I survived Derek's death and Owen's deployment, how is it that I let Meredith do this to me?" She asks tearfully.

"You and Meredith have been tight and I know that Blake has been an issue for you. I don't think I realized how difficult it would be for you to have her here and I apologize for that. But you're a strong, strong woman. And you pulled yourself back from the abyss, so that tells me that you're taking care of yourself. But I'm concerned now, Robbins tells me that you're going out with her this weekend. Are you sure that a bar is where you should be, in light of all of this?" He asks concerned.

"I'll be fine. This isn't about me going to a bar to forget, this is about going out with a friend to be her wingman. And it's a lesbian bar, so I'll be completely distracted, drinking will be the last thing on my mind." She replies smiling.

"Does Robbins know about any of this?" Richard asks.

"She knows a little. If it will make you feel better, I could invite Edwards, she knows everything and she's been great the past couple of weeks." Amelia suggests.

"Okay, that's probably a good idea. You're Chief of Neurosurgery, you have a lot to lose Amelia. Take care of yourself and call me if you need me." He says firmly, his eyes full of concern.

"Thank you Richard. I'm sorry that I haven't been in touch. And tomorrow, I'll see you at our regular meeting, okay?" She replies.

"See you there." He replies slipping out the door.

A/N: What do you think? Will this get us through until Feb? I'm going to try to get one more chapter of this out before I start vacation!