AN: Heyo! Daiki02 here to bring you guys another story! If you are not caught up with the manga or anime than this has major spoilers by the way, so read at your own risks! Not my fault if I spoil anything for you guys!

Disclaimer: I do not, and never will own Fairy Tail. It belongs to Hiro Mashima.

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'Oh, dear mother, I love you

I'm sorry, I wasn't good enough

Dear father, forgive me

'Cause in your eyes, I just never added up

In my heart I know I failed you, but you left me here alone

If I could hold back the rain, would you numb the pain?

'Cause I remember everything.

If I could help you forget, would you take my regrets?

'Cause I remember everything.'

-Remember Everything, Five Finger Death Punch

It was a cool spring night, the waning moon showing high above the city of Magnolia, so bright was it someone could navigate through the city without need of a light source. The stars were twinkling silently in the dark clear sky, reflecting off the still canals that crisscrossed the large city. It was late into the night and well into the early hours of the morning, everyone in town was fast asleep.

Lucy Heartfilia lay in her bed, tossing and turning in her unconscious state. She had kicked off her pink comforter already, despite the coldness of her room she was burning hot. Her face was flushed her eyes loosely screwed shut. She wore nothing but a shirt she had stolen from her fire eating partner. It was one of his rare shirts that was not a vest or one sleeved. She checked, he only had around five or six normal shirts.

Normally, the soft black shirt fell well passed her bottom. But thanks to her tossing and turning, the silky fabric had hiked up to her hips leaving her underwear visible. She had kicked off her shorts as well, they lay on the ground below.

The moon in the sky was casting eery long shadows across her room, if the young blonde was awake she surely would've been uneasy. Not that she already was. It was deathly quiet in her three level apartment, the only sound was her distressed whines and moans, maybe a few slurred words would slip passed her lips.

She rolled over again, her teeth loosely gritted as she let out another whine. It was a miracle the blonde had not woken up yet, perhaps it was because she had been sleeping so terribly the past months. Or the dangerous mission she had taken with Team Natsu earlier that day, but she still was asleep and having an obvious nightmare.

"No..." She whispered, her voice having an obvious slur from being unconscious. "Aquarius..."

To Lucy she was not in her room, she was back in the Plutogrim. She was alone fighting the whole wrath of Tarteros. Jackal stood above her with that maniac smile of his as he tortured her, his explosion curse working on every inch of her body.

The blonde was curled up on the hard ground, the wet rocks digging into her beaten and broken body. She lay in a pool of her own blood, her dull brown eyes staring into nothingness as Jackal cackled loudly. He was a monster, how could someone enjoying hurting someone like this?

Lucy closed her eyes, trying not to scream as fire burned through her calf. Blood poured out of the new wound where it had not already cauterised itself. Tears leaking unwillingly down her bruised and beaten face, dripping down to the ground below.

She wanted to call out for help, but she knew no one would come. Everyone in Fairy Tail was dead, at least that's what Jackal had told her.

Lucy was not aware she was dreaming, these images and feelings were so real she believed she was back in Tarteros. "How?" Lucy croaked. "How are you still here? The dragons... Igneel... The Celestial Spirit King, he..."

Jackal cackled louder, kicking her in the gut causing her to curl farther into herself with a cry. "You think a couple of overgrown lizards and an old man could defeat the likes of Tarteros?"

Lucy was sure they had won the battle against Tarteros. The dragons, Metalicana, Grandeeney, Skiadrum, and Weislogia had destroyed face. Igneel had fallen against Achnologia. The Celestial Spirit King had totally annihilated Plutogrim. She had taken down Jackal with Urano Metria, so why was he here?

"Your not real." Lucy whimpered with finality.

"Oh I'm real, sweet cheeks." Jackal mocked, leaning down to grab her chin and bring it closer to his face. "You can never get rid of me."

The scene changed then and instead of Jackal, Aquarius stood in front of her holding her chin, glaring down at her with cold blue eyes. This was different than her normal glare, where her eyes just shown annoyance. No, Aquarius's eyes were alight with absolute hate and fury, and what hurt most of all was pain.

"Why, Lucy?" She asked, her voice cracking despite the angry tone she took. "Why did you break my key?"

"N-no!" Lucy cried, attempting to get up but something weighed her down. "I had to! I-I... It was the only way to save everyone." She whimpered the last part, her gut churning in shame.

"You weigh your friends on a set of scales?" Aquarius barked. "You killed me to save everyone else? What kind of Celestial Mage are you?"

Lucy cried harder, it wasn't true. She wasn't dead! 'Aquarius promised me that she would be okay when her key broke,' She thought to herself desparingly. 'Scorpio said... He said that she was okay! But... What if she just said that so I would summon the Celestial Spirit King?'

"I'm dead, and its all your fault. If you were stronger I would still be alive." She snarled, aggressively letting go of her face pushing her to the ground, turning she began to fade away. "No, Aquarius! Come back!" Lucy called desperately reaching towards where her first friend disappeared.

"Aquarius!" Lucy screamed, shooting up frantically looking around her room. Fear shot through her for a moment when she couldn't recognize her own room. It was such a different scene than what she was just experiencing. But her eyes finally alit with recognizance, she was safe.

But she was alone. Her heart beat quickened, she was alone.

Lucy stared uneasily at the shadows, half expecting Jackal to stalk out of them with that cruel smirk, his hand alight with his curse. She could hear his insane laughter as clear as day. Lucy curled into a ball closing her eyes, covering her ears with her hands; where was Natsu?

"Natsu..." Lucy sobbed. She began to cry, not caring if anyone heard her. She sobbed loudly into her pillow, hiccuping and hacking as she tried in vain to get her emotions under control. She felt so alone, the attack of Tarteros happened months ago, she shouldn't still be scared.

Without the three main Dark Guilds, the Barem Alliance was falling apart. Lucy and the rest of Fairy Tail where busy getting rid of the smaller and weaker Dark Guilds that were causing chaos in their confusion. Team Natsu had destroyed three in just the passed month.

Lucy had worked herself to the bone with helping rebuild the whole city. In and out of the guild with requests to help reconstruct houses and fix them if they were still standing. Lucy had achieved so much money she was set on her rent for more than six months. Which she had responsibly given to her landlady right away... Which left her broke again.

To add to this exhausting regiment, Lucy had to help Mira and Levy reorganize the Fairy Tail library. Everyday she was not on a mission she would go down stairs and help till she just about fell asleep on her feet. Organizing books took a surprising amount of math and time. They had to carefully categorize each book from relativity and genre.

Luckily for her, Natsu made it his top priority to get her every night and made sure she got home safely. His excuse was he didn't want her falling into the canal half asleep, which she had done a couple of times in the past regrettably.

But once she got home she was tormented with night terrors that would not relent unless Natsu had snuck into her bed while she was sleeping. Maybe it was something subconscious telling her she was not alone in her sleep that stopped them. Whatever it was Lucy was glad, Natsu usually came for uninvited visits at least thrice a week. But he wasn't coming tonight.

Lucy let out a shaky breath, rubbing away the tears with the back of her palm. Her gut was set uncomfortably and her eyes felt heavy. After all, crying was very tiring. Shakily, Lucy got to her feet, numbly the blonde walked to her bathroom. Her eyes not focusing on anything.

She flicked the light switch on, momentarily blinded by her bright bathroom lights. The Celestial Mage quickly walked over to the sink, turning on the faucet she cupped her hands underneath the downpour of water. Splashing her face with the icy cold water Lucy let out a breath. Placing her palms on the cold linoleum of her sink counter, she locked her arms holding her weight.

Her brown gaze flickered to her reflection, her eyes were red and puffed up, dark bags under here them. She was almost sickly pale and her eyes seemed dull. The dim light of her bathroom giving her unattractive shadows.

Lucy's eyes widened as her reflection's own brown eyes narrowed at her. The world around her seemed to darken and stand still. Fear gripped the blonde's heart, she was back.

"Your so weak." The reflection snarled at her. "Always need someone to come and save you. Mom would be ashamed."

"Shut up." Lucy gritted out. She didn't need this right now.

"What's wrong, Lucy?" Her reflection mocked. "Don't like hearing the truth? Let's face it, your holding your guildmates back with your pitiful existence!"

"I said shut up!" Lucy snarled, cocking her fist back she unleashed her anger on the mirror. Her eyes narrowed as she stared at her fist, a trail of blood falling along the contours of the shattered glass.

She stared at her reflection, the many facets of the broken glass reflecting the same picture at different angles. Her face looked cracked and broken.

'Maybe this is me on the inside?' Lucy thought to herself bitterly. 'Cracked and broken like glass.'

Letting her bleeding hand fall to her side Lucy stared for what seemed like hours at the broken mirror. Her mind was blank and she thought about nothing and everything.

Then suddenly she turned, quickly she changed her clothes into something more appropriate for the chilly air outside. Slipping on a pair of jogging shoes Lucy pulled on a jacket and a bag full of a couple necessities. She would show everyone that she was strong. She just had to go train.

With that thought in her head Lucy headed out of her apartment, locking it on the way out.

Walking out to the cobblestone street, Lucy turned and began to jog towards the East Forest. Her keys jingling softly with every step.

A/N: Something I came up with earlier today. It started out as just a whim to write something new but I'm actually liking this idea a lot. I honestly don't know where I'm going with it right now but hopefully it's gonna be good.

Now, Lucy is kind of insane in this. She has a bad case of Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder and who wouldn't in her situation? She was left alone and had to fight an insane guy that even Natsu struggled against. She had to sacrifice her very first friend to save everyone else and is sure to be struggling with immense guilt after wards. Aquarius may have hated Lucy, she said so herself. But she was there for Lucy when Layla died, she was there at every step of Lucy's life and I think their relationship was very special.

Anyway, hope you like this and tell me if I should keep going with this, yeah?