AN: Yo!

This is my first fic ever so here's somethings you need to know

*Goku might act a bit OOC but there's a reason for that

*keep in mind that this is an AU so it doesn't really follow the ssme events and timeline of the original series

* English isn't my mother tongue but I'm a perfectionist freak that means I care alot about grammar and spelling so feels free to correct me If you found any mistakes

*Go easy on my with the reviews please :)

DISCLAIMER :I DO NOT OWN DRAGON BALL Z, I DO OWN THAT BITCH NAMED KARIN THOUGH

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Betrayal... I never thought i'd know how it feels like to be betrayed, I never experienced it before...not until recently of course. When someone betrays you, you don't just feel betrayed. No, unfortunately what you feel is sadness, anger, hate and more anger. Demons that slowly changed me into something I hated.

I can feel my very being slipping away and is replaced by this character that I always looked down upon. This is not the cheerful, strong Son Goku with the happy go lucky attitude that everyone knows and love, No this is the weak pathetic excuse of a man that is filled with rage and sadness with only one thought on his mind... Revenge

And as long as I have it I don't care who i'd hurt in the process. So here I am in the middle of a party at my 'best friend's' house gazing at this so called 'best friend' seductively .. Well as seductive as I can muster that is, I never really thought about Bulma that way, yes I admit she's beautiful with curves that can get her any man she wanted but she was the first girl i've ever met, she got me out of mount Paozu into the land of adventure, I owe Bulma alot she became the closest thing I have for a sister.

But at this moment I didn't really care how much Bulma helped me out or how much she meant to me, I felt sick inside for what I was planing on doing but it doesn't matter anymore I was a sick man already.

Standing against the wall wearing my orange gi pants and my usual navy blue under shirt without my orange gi shirt that completed my outfit since I have found it into shreds this morning apparently she thought that vandalizing my favorite outfit would somehow send a message to not wear the outfit that she hated so much luckily I was able to save the pants "ughh you're always wearing that ugly outfit, why wont you wear normal clothes for a change, Goku? it's so embarrassing " was what she said before we left her house 'maybe because it's comfortable and I fucking like it, you filthy whore' was what I thought of as an answer but I didn't voice it out instead I kept silent I really did not want another argument and got in the car soon we headed towards Capsule Corp.

I kept staring at the blue haired beauty and it seems the more I stare at her the more I see his face the more enraged I get and the more determined I become to carry on with my plans, all my limitations went through the window now the only thing that was on my mind was the look on his face when he finds out that I've taken what he considered his the same way he took what was mine, I chuckle inwardly at that thought, was she ever mine? his scent wasn't the only male scent I picked off of her, ever since I came back from Yardrat 6 months ago I was first greeted with the knowledge that she 'miscarried ' my child which I later find out that it was more of an abortion than a miscarriage, she told me with tears in her eyes I was shocked of course and a bit devastated I was quite excited about becoming a father my wife and unborn child were the only thing I thought about while still on Planet Yardrat but still I brushed my disappointment aside what's done is done, what else should I do, blame her? no I couldn't. I had to comfort her so I walked towards her and as I was a few feet away from her suddenly I cringed, there was a different scent mixed with hers and it was definitely a male scent of course I confronted her she called me paranoid and that she just came back from work and she did have to deal with her male colleagues, didn't she? Strong part of me wanted to believe her but there was this other part of me that noticed how pale her face went when I confronted her about the scent and the fact that the scent emitted from everywhere off of her body which wouldn't be the case if it was just simple interactions but I ignored this part after all I still loved her, she wouldn't hurt me like this, would she? So I believed her. Maybe she was right maybe I was being paranoid, a lot has happened that day, I was tired from my long journey back to earth , I met a purple haired young man from the future that informed me of a few very interesting things that are bound to happen plus the devastating knowledge that I lost my child, yes I was definitely overreacting, and despite the justifications I made there was slight anger building up inside of me and the feeling of being repulsed of my wife which I didn't understand why at that time, little did I know that I was slowly becoming a monster.

I noticed that Bulma was finally alone which meants it was finally time for me to put my plan into action, I straightened my back I put my now empty glass down on the table next to me and I started walking towards Bulma.

Bulma was standing on the far side of the room taking slow sips from her drink, she really did look beautiful tonight. She was wearing a sleeveless dress that was knee long the neck line showed a generous amount of cleavage, the dress was black and tight fit showing her curves perfectly. Nothing special was done with her shoulder length blue hair yet it still complemented her look. My steps were slow my plan was simple 'seduce Bulma' , sleep with Bulma, see the look on his face, Oh it would be a joyous sight.

I felt confidence blooming inside of me, Bulma's parties were a weekly occurrence and for the last few months I willingly gave in to the flirtations of the females attending but I didn't really care about them hell I didn't even know most of their names. I was getting closer to Bulma and the feeling of being sick to my stomach returned but I brushed that feeling aside after all some of the anger I've been harboring for the last 6 months was directed at Bulma she was the one who introduced me to her, she was a close friend of her, the person who broke me.

"Bulma" I said with a genuine smile on my face as I finally reached her "Oh hey, Goku" she said and smiled back which I couldn't help but think it was fake "you look beautiful tonight" I noted " I look beautiful every night thank you very much" I chuckled at her response "I guess but..." I leaned towards her and gently touched her arm slightly rubbing it "you look especially beautiful in this dress" flashing her with a playful smile "oh why thank you,Goku " I opened my mouth in an attempt to say something else but was suddenly cut off "where is Karin? " immediately my whole demeanor changed I pulled back it was the last name I wanted to hear right now "I don't know" I spat.

"i thought you came with her ?"

"I did" I said hoping that Bulma would just drop the supject but I wasn't so lucky.

"How can you not know where your wife is?" Oh I had a pretty good Idea of her whereabouts and with whom but I didn't dare to check her Ki I didn't trust my self being angry and around people I shrugged my shoulders getting quite irritated that this conversation wasn't going as intended, I heard Bulma sigh then she said "Goku, you've been leaning against the wall for about an hour doing nothing but stare at me instead of looking for your wife" I didn't know where Bulma was going with this but I decided to play it off "maybe I prefer staring at your pretty face instead of looking for my wife don't worry your pretty little head about her though I'm pretty sure she's well taking care of" I said with a wink the look of disbelief on Bulma's face spoke volumes and I immediately realized that this conversation has taking a destructive path.

"are you putting a move on me,Goku? "

"Nooo.. I would never, I thought you knew me Bulma ? 'pure hearted' and 'innocent '" I said sarcastically taking note that Bulma have caught on to the amount of sarcasm I added, the look on her face turned to one of anger she folded her arms over her chest and shifted her wight on one leg "what has gotten into you, Goku? " I was becoming quite angry at this moment part of me just wanted to leave before I do something I end up regretting

"for the last 6 months we watched you turn to a completely different person, the first month you were distant and you were rarely as cheerfull as you used to be and whenever we asked you'd say it's nothing then you turned into this walking ticking time bomb ready to blow at the slightest nudge" at this point I kept a stoic face but inside I felt like i was losing the battle in subduing the anger that is building up rabidly inside what fuck did Bulma know about what im going through anyway?

"AND don't you think I didn't notice the feminine perfume on you right now... God Goku i walked in on you with one of my female colleagues in the bathroom a few weeks back and you didn't even realize it i couldn't believe my eyes. You of all people Goku i never expected that from you, what about Karin? Don't you care about her ? Honesty Goku I'm so disappo-" Bulma flinched and took a step back as she saw the angry glare I gave her she looked terrified for a second but then she shook her head as if telling herself I wouldn't hurt her something she would soon come to regret, she took another sigh and continued "you need to change this new attitude Goku, you're about to be a father for kami's sake" after few seconds processing what Bulma said my eyes widened in horror 'Me? A father? no no no this isn't happening' I was beginning to panic, for the last 6 months I lived with this pain and anger I couldn't tell anyone Not after what future Trunks told me I couldn't risk it, I didn't know what to do I wished someone would just tell me what to do but i couldn't risk changing the future I just couldn't, I tried to distract myself with training, indulging my self with women from Bulma's parties and even drinking. I tried to leave her once in hopes of salvaging of what's left of my soul but she cried and she promised to be faithful and as the love struck fool I believed her, I was disgusted with myself to let her manipulate me as she pleased but I still hoped that we would go back to what we used to be before i left to Namek, I hoped she would come to realize how much she'd hurt me but i still couldn't bring my self to touch her and it didn't take her long to find her way to another man's arms and it had to be him , my arch rival and our best friens's lover. Memories of of the time when she confessed that she had an abortion because she didn't want to carry the child of a monster inside her came flashing before my eyes, how could she do this to me? I loved her, I loved her

My heart ached, I felt rage and power surging through my veins,I clenched and unclenched my hand in a failed attempt to calm myself down, I looked down at Bulma's terrified face and before I even knew what i was doing my palm came crashing on the wall trapping Bulma between me and the wall "what do you mean I'm about to become a father? " the words blurted out of my mouth without me even registering it, I gave Bulma an intense gaze clearly meaning speak-the-truth-now. Bulma gulped she opened her mouth and closed it but nothing came out, I scowled I was getting impatient, I wanted an answer a confirmation, unknowingly I added more pressure on the wall debris came falling down on the ground "k-karin is.. P-pregnant, didn't she tell you? "

All the sounds in the room suddenly just vanished, my heart was pounding it wasnt like i didn't hear her the first time, it wasn't like I didn't realize what she meant, It wasn't like i didn't know what my dear wife been doing but dammit.. dammit it hurts so much.

"how can she be pregnant if i haven't touched her not once since i came back from Yard-"

Suddenly i felt a grip on my shoulder and the next thing I knew is my back crashing into the wall on the other side of the room, i felt pain and my back crashing into the wall had nothing to do with it, I stood up and immediately noticed that the room was almost embty photos, paintings have fallen or are tilted on the wall, glass shattered on the ground and there was a crack that extended from where I was standing towards the wall, I realized that I must have turned to a super Saiyan in my fit of rage, I looked back to where I was standing to get a glimpse of who pushed me to the wall and my eyes caught sight him. Never in my life have I felt this much rage and pain not even when Krillin was killed by Piccolo's henchmen or when he was killed by Frieza, all logic and commen sense have fleeted me I was barely holding to my sanity, I'll kill him.

My body was moving by itself and before I knew it I was standing right in front of him, he narrowed his eyes at me "what were you thinking of doing, Kakarot ?"

I ignored his question, a dark chuckle came out of my mouth "I should have never stopped Krillin from killing you" once again the words just blurted out of my mouth without me even thinking it, at this point I had no control over my body, speech or thoughts it was an almost out of body experience.

"but I'm gonna fix this mistake right now" there was a bead of sweat falling from his face, Vegeta might be strong but he's not a Super Saiyan and he realizes that

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"Goku, just calm down" I heard Bulma say, I looked past Vegeta to stare at her then looked back at him.

"Vegeta, did you enjoy my wife? " I heard Bulma gasp and then she took a step back I didn't care much to see the expression on her face my eyes were fixated on Vegeta, he kept a stoic face but somehow his eyes showed remorse?

"what are you talking about Goku? "

"you know Bulma, for a genuis you're quite stupid. So how about it Vegeta. Why won't you tell Bulma here how you've been spending your free time on my wife's bed"

If Vegeta knew what was best for him he would have kept quiet but the proud moronic prince that he is he didn't. I watched as his lips curled into a defient smirk "I don't owe the women any explanation ... And its not my fault that you're incompetent even in bed that your wife had to resort to me for pleasure "

My fist implanted itself into his guts the soon as he blurted those words his back bent from the sheer force red liquid came out of his mouth, and before he can pick himself up my hand found its way into his hair fisting it as hard as i can and slamming his face into my knee breaking his nose into pieces, my grib on his hair was hard as ever as i threw him into the bar into the wall behind it my body flew to where he was straddling him i brought my fist into his face but it came into the ground cracking it, the bastard was able to dodge it it seemed. Mustering every ounce of energy he had he slammed a punch into face turning my head aside with the amount of adrenaline rushing into my vein and the fact I was in my Super Saiyan state it didnt have much of an effect on me. I grabbed his wrist and shifed my eyes to glare at him I put as much energy as I can into my hold until I heard his bones cracking and listened to the cries of pain erupting from his mouth, I let go of his hand letting it fall limp at his side, my brain has blocked all noises around me and pleas for me to stop fell on deaf ears as my fists came crashing into his face and chest over and over again, i flared my Ki behind me as i felt someone approaching then i heard a crashing sound not even stopping my administration, thick red liquid stained my fists and a moment later I felt three pairs of arms trying to restrain me two of them held each of my arms and one hugged me from behind trying to pull me away from my pray that layed unconscious before me and on the verge of death, having caught me off guard they succeeded into pulling me away i thrashed and struggled trying to get out of their hold shouting "Get off me" and a moment later I flared my Ki pushing the three figures in different directions, I was panting listening to the sound of my breathing having quenched some of my anger I started to regain my senses, voices and groans were heard, and at that moment I felt that one familiar Ki, I turned towards that familiar Ki and there she was standing at the door way in all her glory her light brown eyes looked at me with disgust, I walked towards her slowly, there was something I had to confirm as if I needed more confirmation but I had to, and soon enough i was standing right in front of her, she was staring at me defiantly, pain and anger dwelled inside of me again from just looking at her I took a deep breath retracting most of my energy after a few deep breaths I was in my original state again I reached my hand and tried as gently as possible to put my hand on her belly but it seems with my current emotional state being as gentle as possible was able to push her roughly against the door behind her "you monster" she spat and I ignored her trying as hard as possible to push all the anger and pain to the back of my head to sense the Ki of the life forming inside of her and soon enough enough I felt it it was faint but it was there, there's no more room left for doubt no more hope for fixing things ,we were over

I looked back at her disgusted face from her blond hair to her light brown eyes to her red lips and finally to her neck pain and anger that i had pushed back have returned and in that moment i couldn't help but think how it would feel to hold her slender neck into my hand and just snapping it.

The scenario played over and over in my head I closed my eyes took a deep breath and opened my eyes again "you should feel lucky that I relieved most of my anger on your lover boy here" I said as I pointed to the unconscious saiyan prince lying on the floor "I guess you finally showed what you truely are" she glared at me folding her arms over her chest, where did she get this confidence? Was I not intimidating enough for her? Was she that sure that no matter what she did I would never hurt her? And she was right I could never bring myself to harm her.

"and what would that be Karin? A monster? " I chuckled "funny you don't seem to mind monsters very much... But don't worry this monster you won't have to deal with anymore " I said struggling to subdue the pain that was ripping my soul apart. Not wanting to look at the women witn the currently shocked face for another second,I turned around to find another exit and a second later I wished I never turned, the room I was standing in was practically in ruins i scanned the damage and immediately realization has hit me ten folds, my heart sank even lower my throat was dry and I was struggling to swallow the lump that formed in my throat, I felt sick.

"look what you've done to Bulma, Goku" a voice said which I recognized as Yamcha's standing alongside side Krillin and master Roshi the three pair of arms that tried to stop me earlier circling two individuals a man with purple hair and a women with blonde curly hair crouching over an unconscous...Bulma ? Mrs Briefs sobbing echoed in the room "Bu-" I didn't dare utter her name, "what have I done? " the question played like a broken record in my mind, I was panicking. And if the realization that I hurt my friends wasn't enough to break me then the look they gave me sure did, The look that I've seen so many times now, The look that I never once thought would be directed at me, The same look they gave a powerful enemy.

I wanted to scream and shout that this wasn't me, But it was. The urge to just ran away from their judging eyes was overwhelming and once again my body moved on its on I headed towards the bar, grabbed three bottles of whisky and flew through the ceiling as fast as I can. All I wanted was to get as far away as possible ..

I didn't know how much time I kept flying, and I didn't care, images of of what I've done kept playing in my mind. The look on my friends's faces and the unconscious body of Bulma, guilt, pain and remorse were all I felt but I was exhausted and all wanted was to lay down and either wake up from this nightmare or never wake up at all. I decided it was time for me to land I flew for a while and a few minutes later I landed, it was dark and the only light present was the moonlight that reflected on a water surface which I assumed was a lake, I sat down facing the water I grabbed one of the bottles and in an amount of seconds I drank the whole thing. The events of the evening flashed before my eyes the lump in my throat returned and my heart pace quickened and I was taking sharp intakes of air and then something inside snapped, my eyes became blurry and warm liquid slid down my cheeks and I let an earth shattering sob and for the first as long as I could remember I was crying . It was the only thing I could do for I had no where to go, my friends probably hate me and my wife...well my wife was pregnant with another man's baby, I felt miserable.

So I drank and cried until I eventually blacked out ..

I tossed and turned trying to get away from that irritating light, I wasn't ready to wake up yet, My head was throbbing with pain and all I wanted to do is go back to sleep so I dragged my self upwards trying to just run away from that stupid light source that decided to show its self like any other day, I kept dragging my still exhausted body and before I knew it my head hit something hard followed by a shake and birds chirping and other small hard objects kept falling on my face and the rest of my body, I groaned and abruptly sat up obviously there's no escaping this fucking hell.

At this point my irritation level skyrocketed, I rubbed my sore head and fluttered my still heavy eyelids open, my vision was blurry so I rubbed my eyes to get a better look at my surroundings and the first thing I noticed was that that damn sun was already high up in the sky, then there was this lake which was surrounded by fields of flowers, noticing that I was in the shade I looked up at the huge tree with red round fruit that were obviously Apples "so the hard thing my head slammed into was this tree huh?" I took another look at the view infront of me and for some odd reason this place felt so...familiar I felt like I've been here before but still my memory escaped me.

I shrugged that feeling aside and tried to stand up my body ached miserably and suddenly the throbbing pain in my head became worse, I felt like I just came out of battle with a mighty foe, I took a few steps forward and looked into the distance wondering what could I possibly do now? After a few minutes later of just staring ahead and contemplating the situation I was in a squeaking sound brought me out of my daze, I abruptly turned around facing the source of the sound and there stood a female wearing some kind of blue Chinese dress, a skirt with two long slits and a baggy pants under it, holding an embty basket. The girl had raven hair tied at the back of her head and two strands framing her face, she had a shocked expression on her face and a red tint covering her cheeks, she opened and closed her mouth and then suddenly I heard her voice "Go..." my eyebrows furrowed in confusion huh? go? She wants me to leave?

" Go..Gok.." she said again and the next thing I noticed were her eyes rolling to the back of her head and her body falling comically unconscious on the ground ...okay that was awkward.

I sighed irritably and scratched the back of my head as if I dont have enough problems, now I have an unconscious girl at my hand.

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There goes chapter 1 I didn't really want to do that to vegeta but couldn't help myself Yamcha is used way too many times as the cheater and honestly Yamcha would never betray his best friend like that but don't worry I'm planning on fixing everything.

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