AUTHORS NOTE: I know I should be staying away from all things hurt-related… But this plotbunny jumped me. I had no defense…
At the same time, it's still kind of light and funny in a way, so I guess I'm all right xD

I own nothing, wish I did, No-one's paying me for this, wish they did…

~First conversation~

"Yo, Genma'."

"Morning, Kakashi, I thought you were still in the Sand village?"

"Neh… I got bored," The silver-haired shinobi moved to lay beside the other on the grassy hill.

"So, anything interesting happen while I was drying up in the desert?"

Genma moved the senbon around in his mouth, "Define interesting…"

The copy nin didn't reply for several minutes, when he finally did, he'd changed the subject completely, "Funny seeing you here, though, thought you were working today. Did the Hokage give you the day off?"

"Something like that…"

Again, the other fell silent. Insecurity practically radiating from the younger man's body.
Genma simply waited. He knew the other would say it – eventually…

"So, eh… Where's Raidou?"

"Working…" Wait for it…

"Right… And you have the day off?"

"I'm here, aren't I?"

"I suppose…"

The long silences were becoming awkward, but Genma made no effort to break them; only replying when the other asked it of him.

"So… How've you been, Genma?"

"Fine, I guess…"

"Did… Did something happen?"
Genma dragged it out, moving his senbon around once more, "Stuff happens every day. It's called life."

"Yeah… Eh, right…"

Kakashi shifted a little. Now we're getting there…

"So nothing… Peculiar?"

"Like what exactly, Kakashi?" Come on, say it… I know you're dying to…

"I… I don't know… Just curious, I guess…"

"Hmm…? If you say so," Genma had to suppress a smile, This is going to take all day!
He spat his senbon straight up in the air, catching in again between his teeth.
Yeah… I think I'm going to hurry this along a little…

"Anything in particular you wanted, Kakashi?"

"No… Not really…"

Yeah… Right!

"Say… Genma?"

"Yeah?"

"Did- never mind…"

"Did what?"

"Never mind, it's not important…"

Not important? My ass! You chicken…

"So… Nothing happened at all?" Kakashi sounded disappointed.

"What's it to you?"

"I- I don't know… I guess I thought…"

"You thought…?"

"I was hoping you might have something to tell me," The silver-haired man muttered.

"Sorry? I didn't quite catch that last bit."

"I said… I was hoping something'd happened."

"Anything in particular? Dancing frogs, flying ramen bowls? We had those when Jiraiya came by…"

"No… Nothing like that…"

"Then what were you hoping for?"

Kakashi shifted uncomfortably, "I dunno…"

"So you were waiting for something to happen, but you don't know what that something is?"

"No… I know… It's just…"

"Just what?" The senbon flew up again, twirling a pirouette before getting caught between white teeth.

"Genma…" It stayed quiet again after that, the birds in the nearby trees the only ones to break the silence that steadily grew thicker.

"Kakashi…"

"Yes?!" The younger man snapped to attention.

"Nothing, I just thought we were calling out each other's names," A chuckle escaped the long haired brunette, This is just too much.

Out of the blue, the other appeared above him, on top of him.
"You're toying with me," Accusation in his voice.

"Now why would you say that?"

"Because you are."

"Kakashi, what on earth makes you think I would be toying with you?"
Now we're getting somewhere…

"Because… Because… You know why!"

"I absolutely haven't the faintest clue, Kakashi. Why don't you explain it to me?"

The other looked away, taken aback, "I- I can't.."

"Why not?"

"Because…" One single grey iris fixed on his face, before fluttering away again, "It's embarrassing."

"More so than you suddenly straddling me?" He couldn't keep the chuckle out of his voice, didn't exactly try hard either.

"I- I'm sorry," He tried to move away, but Gemna grabbed his legs in a firm grasp.

"You're not going anywhere. Not until you explain yourself to me," He could see the blush creep up the other's face, could feel him tremble.

"Genma, please…" A mere whisper.

"Please what, Kakashi?"

"Let go, please just let go of me," He whined.

"I told you, I'll let go once you explain yourself. Just what is it exactly you've been waiting for?"

"Please… I beg you, let me go," Was that a tear filling up that big, grey eye?

Genma sighed, I'm not being fair, here…
"Kakashi, look at me," No response, "I'm serious, look at me, goddamnit!"
A sideway glace. I'll take it.
"You're talking about the flowers, right? The chocolates. The notes hidden away where only I would find them. That's what you mean, isn't it, Kakashi?"

He tried to push himself off, but Genma increased his hold on the younger man, "Isn't it, Kakashi?"

"Yes…" A whimper, a breath, less even.

Genma's heart ached, "Why didn't you come to me directly?"

"Couldn't…" Still barely audible, still looking away.

This isn't so fun, anymore… Gemna, you basterd!
"You could have," He kept his tone warm, soft.

"No, couldn't…"

Genma sighed, spitting the senbon out to his right, "Kakashi, come here…"
The younger man shuddered, dared not to look at him.
He repeated his request, receiving only a skeptical look in return.
Damnit! Why did I have to go and tease him like that? Now he's too scared to even look at me properly…
"Kakashi, will you please just look at me?"

"Let me go, Genma…"

"And have you disappear on me? No, I think I'll keep you here a little longer. Look at me."
The only response was another struggle to break free, but Genma refused to let go.
"Kakashi! Stop it! Damnit, would you just hold still, at least?"
It seemed to work, the fight left the younger man. But as a hot tear fell onto Genma's cheek, he knew he'd only made things worse. Again…
"Kakashi, please," He was pleading now, "Don't look away from me…"I've been an ass today, and yes, I was toying with you, but… I never meant to hurt you…"

"Too late…"

"I know that, and I'm sorry. I'm really, terribly sorry. I… I don't even know what I was thinking… I should've realized sooner… Kakashi, please, will you just look at me?"

"No," His voice cracked, choking on his tears, "I want you to let go of me."
"I know that, and I'd grant your request if I even had the faintest believe I'd ever see you again. But if I let go now, you're not coming back to me, are you?"

"No."

"Then I can't let go," I have to fix this!
Without thinking, Genma pushed off. Rolling over to the left – as his senbon was still to the right of him – until he was laying atop the younger man.

"Genma, please… Don't…"

"Don't what?" He breathed.

"Let me go," Kakashi's head was turned away.

Still not looking at me…
"Don't let you go? I don't want to. I don't ever want to let you go. I should've said that the moment I saw you. And I don't know why I didn't, because I truly never meant for any of this to happen. Kakashi… Please, look at me… I'm trying to make things right here when I don't even know if you're ever going to give me another chance…"

"You don't deserve one…"

"No," The brunette sighed, "No, I don't, you're right. But-"

"I'll give it to you, anyway."

Wait, what?

Kakashi was still laying there, limp. Staring at the senbon in the grass. The tiny, usually visible part of his face shielded by the hitai'ite as his own, grey eye was hidden away in the grass.

"You wil?" Genma swallowed hard, tears blurring his vision, but he could still see… Kakashi finally looked at him.

"Don't hurt me again."