A/N: This idea plagued my mind all day, and I couldn't just ignore it. I do not plan on continuing this, it was meant to only be a one shot, but I really felt I needed to add this on. Sorry, it's not a continuation of Lizzy and Ciel's. This one takes place from Alois' point of view and his feelings through out the second season towards Ciel, NOT YAOI.

DISCLAIMER: I do not own the characters, all rights for them belong to Yana Toboso. I only own this story plot.

WARNING: Some swear words, spoilers for Black Butler 2/Monoshitsuji.

I only wanted you to notice me.

Was it really that hard? Or were you just dead set on ignoring me? All I ever did was seek out for your approval, but you never spared me so much as a glance. Everytime I say something, no matter how intelligent it may be, all you reward me with it a sneer. Why can't you understand what I'm saying? We're two of a kind, I understand what you went through, so why do you hate me? Am I just a cruel reminder of the past to you?

You sit in front of me, cheek propped up against your hand as you contemplate your next move in our game of chess. Your blue ring glimmers on your thumb, mocking me in it's royal blue color. Your life has been full of pampering, you were born with a silver spoon in your mouth and have everything you want presented to you upon a silver platter. Oh how lucky you are. I always hope some of your luck will rub off onto to me, luck that will spare me from this cruel nightmare I'm livin, but it's always been just a wish.

I glare at your butler, Sebastian I believe, as he wheels the brunch cart in for you. Why does your butler smile for you, yet look at me like I'm trash? What's so special about you that you have even my Claude ignoring me like some filthy street rat? What makes your life so different from mine? It's not fair. Why won't you just spare me a glance? Why must you be so infuriating?

Ever since that blasted meeting Claude has been ignoring me. He's after you as well now, but I don't want you for the same reason Claude does. He just wants your soul, I want you to see the truth. We're being tricked! If we work together, we can evade the devil's tricks and be free! Don't you want that? I have the key to release you from these shackles, why won't you just see that and talk to me? How am I supposed to help you if you won't let me?

I understand now, why you won't come to me. You're trapped under their spell of false security. I was like that, I thought my Claude could do anything, would do anything, to save me, but I was wrong. I lay here, crippled due to a blasted wound you caused. I saw it though, as I laid there on the floor beneath your sword, I saw the recognition. You knew I was right, and that infuriated you. You just couldn't accept it and now you've damned us both. I wanted to scream out for you as your butler came in to sweep you off your feet. That bloody demon is tricking you, he's lying to you! I was so happy when you lashed out at him, but my hope was shattered when I heard your words. You want me dead so you can live in that false world where demons are good. You truly are a genius Ciel, but sometimes you really are quite stupid.

It took me so long to convince you, so long to show you the truth, so long in fact, that it is now too late. I'm fading, no longer a living being but merely a soul crying out in last resort to get my final wish. You finally understood, but now I'm angry with you. You could've stopped all of this, yet you didn't because you were foolish. I can't let you get away with this, to forget was I worked so hard to make you see. So I'll do the only thing I can, make you detest me so much that you'll never forget me, never forget what I told you, and fill you with angered regret at how dumb you were. I will make you live with your mistakes forever, with the frustration of knowing you lost your damn game of chess. You lost because you got rid of your most important piece.

And now that I'm gone, I hope you realize that the only reason I was so persistent on being around you, was being I only wanted you to like me. I will continue to watch over you and snicker at your pitiful demon is forced to serve you forever now. But even as I watch you suffer, I cannot stop the feeling of longing that nests within in me knowing what I lost as well. In the end, I never did get what I wanted.

All I wanted was a friend, someone to care about me.