As Lapis scanned the water for traces of her former fusion partner, she growled in frustration when she found no trace of her. Was she heading towards Beach City towards Steven? She prayed that Jasper had gotten lost or that if she did find them, she'd have been defeated. Jasper was a persistent gem as well as a powerful one as well. If Lapis hadn't had her water powers, she was sure that Steven would have been killed. As she made her way back to the surface after her gem had gem and her energy had been restored, she wondered what Jasper would do once she reached Steven. She disliked the young child and his guardians. Lapis didn't like them either, but she did like Steven. She had thought of his as a close friend. Actually he was the only friend he had.

Ever since Jasper cheated on her with Peridot, she had distanced herself from the rest of the world around her and very few people held her trust these days. Jasper had broken her heart more than once already and she had more than reason enough to not care if Jasper was alive or dead. Yet deep down, she hoped nothing too bad happened to her. She wanted Jasper to be safe though at the same time she wanted her gone. She remembered when she had come back to the homeworld. Seeing Jasper, she had begged and pleaded for Jasper not to let them lock her up. Her pleas fell on deaf ears as Jasper told them to imprison her. That night, they actually got to talk. Jasper had come in and consoled her, telling her things she had wanted her to hear. That everything was going to be okay and that Jasper wasn't going to let her be killed.

True to her promise, Lapis was spared as long as she told them everything about Earth and the gems there. Lapis had agreed to give in, but at the cost of Peridot coming in. Lapis had been shocked she was the one interrogating her and she asked for another one. Of course the request was declined and Peridot got down to work. She was brutal and there had been times where the blue gem thought she was going to die if the torture kept going. It was only when Jasper was there was when she could relax as Peridot eased up on her. Jasper had treated her kindly and before she knew it, she was confessing that she never stopped loving her and asked if there was something wrong with her.

One thing lead to another and the two shared a night of passion before Lapis was hauled off to another section and interrogated again. Soon she was given to Peridot and Jasper again to go to Earth. Once they stepped on the ship, Jasper acted as if she didn't even know her. She treated her like trash, much to the satisfaction of Peridot. Lapis felt hurt, confused, and betrayed. Was what happened before been a facade the whole time? Was her ex-mate only doing this for the Diamond Empire's sake and all the things she said and did was an act? Lapis didn't know what to do next.

Then when the time came down to it, she trapped Jasper inside of their fusion. It was a fusion made to protect Steven. However it was also a fusion made out of hate, anger, and somewhere in the mix was desperation to still be near the gem she still had feelings for. Now her mission was to get back to Steven before Jasper made it. Well IF she hadn't already. If she'd have to, she'd defeat Jasper herself. She felt upset at the thought of it. She was still in love, but she wanted to fight it off and destroy that feeling forever.

"I'm just a fool." said Lapis mournfully as she made for shore. "I love her, but she's nothing but a dirty stupid liar! I hate her so much! Why would she do this to me? After all we've been through together, what did I do to make her leave me?"

She had tried asking Jasper, but she just shushed while holding her, wiping away the tears in Lapis's eyes. The question had been forgotten at the moment in time and Lapis just took in the warm feeling brought by Jasper's muscular, but gentle body. She loved being in the gem's arms and wished time would stop so they could be like that forever. At that moment, the two reminisced about their past together. Lapis shook her head clear of those thoughts. She needed to focus on her current situation she thought as she flew. Get to Steven and protecting him.

Meanwhile Jasper was on the beach with Lazurite as the blue gem skipped water across the vast ocean. "I still can't believe we have to wait until Steven goes to sleep and wakes up. How long is that going to take?"

"Depends." shrugged her mother. "Lazurite...what are you going to do about your father?"

"What about her?"

"If or should I say when she finds us...promise me something."

"What?"

"If something happens...anything...don't get mad at whoever lives. Just love who's left."

"What do you mean, mom?" Lazurite looked back at her mother. "Are you implying that..."

"I'm just saying in case anything happens to me or your mother or heaven forbid both of us...take care of your sister."

"They're not going to..." Lazurite looked terrified. "Mom you're not saying that either they or you and dad are going to fight are you?"

"Your mother and I haven't been on the best of terms and neither have I with those Crystal Gems." sighed the larger gem. "Just remember what I said."

"I understand, but if it comes down to it I'll protect you from anything that comes our way."

"Even your father?" Lazurite looked uncomfortable about the question her mother asked.

She couldn't hurt her own family. She never did understand why her parents were no longer together or why her father cried when Lazurite asked about her in the times she was with the older gem. She wanted her mother happy and couldn't see why the two of them couldn't talk to another without harsh words or fist or weapons being involved.

As Lazurite went back to skipping rocks across the ocean, Jasper wondered if she would have to go against Lapis for real. She wanted to make up for the lies and deception, but only time would tell if Lapis would be forgiving or not. As she looked towards the ocean, she wondered what she was doing. Was she on land? Was she circling the world searching high and low for her? Had Peridot gotten to her? Speaking of Peridot, maybe it was time to get to looking for the gem although she doubted Lazurite would like this idea. Ever since Lazurite was a child, she had never liked Peridot and wasn't shy about showing it while Blue mostly didn't mind being around the green gem.

Jasper wondered if Peridot would by some miracle find her and what would happen after that. Peridot would of course want to repair the ship as fast as possible and head home. As much as Jasper wanted to head home herself, she didn't want to leave behind Lapis either even if the blue gem most likely hated her. She wanted to start over and pretend like the past had never happened. She wanted it to be that simple, but the trust between had long disappeared and turned into dust. If she ever saw her again, she'd beg if it'd help and prove to her she was worthy of Lapis's trust if not her love.

'On day, Lapis. I'll make this right.' Jasper thought as she drifted off to sleep.