Forgetting Part of Me

Chapter 1- Gone

To understand what I am about to tell you, you need to do something first. You need to believe in the impossible, can you do that? Good.

My name is Barry Allen and I am the fastest man alive. And my story is pretty complicated.

My whole life I have been running. Running after the girl that I believed was the love of my life. Iris West. Ever since I can remember she has always been by my side. And even though I never told her that I loved her, I expected for her to love me back. I expected her to wait for me to tell her how I felt, but I guess that I was to slow. Too late.

It was Christmas Evening and Iris was finishing up decorating the Christmas tree and accomplishment that she was very proud of. I remember looking at her and deciding that this was it.

I had just finished talking with my dad and he gave me the final push I needed to confess to her. I thought that the timing was perfect. I wasn't in a relationship and she wasn't in one either. I had a very stable job and I really just wanted to get started in creating a family. Yes I was only 25 but I was eager and ready.

Looking at her I breathed in and spilled everything that I wanted to for far too long.

"I love you Iris. I loved you ever since I knew what the word meant. But then my mom died and I particularly had to be around the girl that I had a crush on because my dad was to hurt to see me for a while. There were so many times I wanted to tell you; junior prom, when I went to college, when I came back, the nights we spent talking. All the birthdays and holidays, but I-I never did. I kept it in. I was afraid that if you didn't feel the same I would lose you. But now I have realized that I am ready. I love you Iris and I want us to be together." I had said with great confidence smiling at her.

"Barry I-I I don't know what to say. M-Maybe a couple of months ago, if you had confessed to me I would have a different answer. But I...I can't be with you. I met someone else. And ever since I met him, I can't imagine myself with anyone else. He is my boyfriend, and I kept him a secret from you, not because I am ashamed but because I didn't want my dad to get mad. It's Eddie. I love you Barry but as a brother. The love of my life is Eddie. I am so sorry." Iris had said tensely as she looked at me with tears in her eyes. Guilt etched in her face.

All I could think about at that moment was, I was to late.

I believed that after Iris, there would never be someone else for me. But then I met her.

Doctor Caitlin Snow.

"I am Caitlin Snow it is very nice to meet you." She had said brightly as she started at me with a big smile on her face. Her big brown eyes had stood out from the crowd hypnotizing me and forever making me her slave.

And from that day forward everything changed. She became the person I never knew I needed. I had just stopped running after a girl who only looked at me as a best friend. She had just gotten out of a five year relationship. And suddenly we were in love.

She was the perfect girl for me. Cait was a scientist with a promising career at STAR Labs, she was intelligent, caring and beautiful. She made me hers the day that she looked at that bar that January night. I am not sure if I could ever live without my Caitlin.

Within a year after I met her I asked her to be my wife.

It was the most important decision of my life.

And she said yes. We moved in together after that, not wanting to wait until the wedding. And while everything was perfect all good things had to end.

I was supporting my fiance at the initiating of the particle accelerator along with Iris. Once we had settled that we in fact weren't meant for each other, everything went back to normal. She was happy for me and approved and loved Caitlin just as much...well not as much as me. Everything was going according to plan when suddenly I got a call from Joe. They needed me at my lab to examine a blood sample that they wanted ASAP. With great resignation I mouthed sorry to my beautiful soon to be wife and headed to the precinct.

Looking at my watch I realized that soon that particle accelerator would be launched so I started at the window in hopes that I could catch some of the action.

I saw the lights of Star labs illuminate with colors of pink and orange contacting with the rainy weather. Noticing that rain started to enter my lab through the open roof top I went ahead and started to close it. It was then that everything changed.

My shelf, which was filled with different liquids started to float mid air as if we were in outer space. Looking up I saw the glass shatter as lightning struck my body.

All I could think about was Caitlin. Suddenly I blanked out and my whole life was erased.

Nine Months Later…..

"What are you doing!" A familiar female voice exclaimed words filled with worry.

"He likes this song….I mean he can hear things." Another familiar male voice said as he tried to sound cheery.

I searched my mind looking to see where I had heard these voices but I couldn't. My whole body ached and my head was pounding. Suddenly as if someone poked me with a needle I jolted from my resting position.

"Barry!" The female said as she rushed to my side looking to see if my pupils were dilated. She hurried to check every inch as my body as she ordered the boy named….Cisco? To call Harrison Wells.

I stared dumbly at her for a good 2 minutes. She was beautiful with big brown eyes and brown almost reddish hair. Her eyes held relief as she looked at me up and down, examining every fiber of my being.

She seemed so familiar but at the same time I couldn't remember where I had seen her before. It was at the tip of my tongue but I couldn't get it out, and it was bothering me.

Finally not standing the loudness and suffocating room, with great determination I found my voice and asked a simple question that soon caused everything to stop.

"Who-Who are you?"

And suddenly my whole life was gone.

Authors note:

Okay hey everybody so I got this idea from two very awesome people. They are youtubers who created this equally amazing trailers for this similar concept. What if Barry and Caitlin had met before the particle accelerator. What if they were getting married. What if Barry lost his memories. What would have happened. I really wanted to read this type of story with Snowbarry but I couldn't find it. So at last I decided to start writing once more. English is not my first language but I love writing even though I haven't done it in quite a while. So please review and help me improve.

I strongly recommend looking at the trailers in your free time and letting me know what you think. The links and info are in my bio so head over there. Anyways enough talking and thanks so much for taking the time to read this silly old fic. Hope you enjoyed and have a wonderful evening or whatever time it is out there.

P.S Its not every edited because I was eager to post it so pardon any mistakes you see.