Kill me
SLAM!
"What are you two doing here?!" Sonic barked at the two, gripping the doorknob tightly.
"Sonic?" Tails blinked him and Cream leaning back, taken aback.
"This is major invasion of privacy, Tails. I thought you knew better!" He chastised. Thank the gods he came just in time! When he first arrived at Amy's, he was confused as to why the main door was open. Amy couldn't possibly have gone out because it was broad daylight. At first he thought it was a thief that barged into the building so he quickly ran inside to confront this supposed criminal. Then he heard Tails' voice and then Creams...great Chaos, Sonic had never felt a chill so freezing cold than the one that momentarily clogged his veins when he thought of the grave danger Cream and Tails had fallen into! He simply couldn't imagine the scenario when he hadn't arrived just before Tails entered the devil's territory...
"It's my fault Mr. Sonic," Cream apologized, bowing her head in genuine guilt. "I was very worried about Amy and I...I had been coming to her home so many times calling for her but she doesn't even answer."
She's right to do so, Cream. Sonic thought. She's only protecting you—all of us. And he wished he could tell the rabbit the reason for Amy's behavior, but he had made a promise not to. And he never breaks his promises.
"Just go home for now, Cream," he said gently, still holding the door just in case Amy decided to make an appearance. "I check on Amy for you, okay?"
The young rabbit furrowed her eye-ridges. "But why can't I do it?"
Because you won't be able to handle her when she goes berserk, his mental editor supplied, but instead he said, "There's a better chance that Amy talks to me than anyone else, Cream," he reasoned and flashed his famous grin to further convince the young girl, "You know how she can't resist me." He spoke sincerely. He didn't want his tone to sound too frivolous because it might be interpreted differently.
Cream looked towards the floor and contemplated his words; Tails was beside her sending her a concerned look.
"Okay," she sighed, consenting, and then looked up at Sonic with large pleading brown eyes, "please tell Amy to not hide herself, Mr. Sonic."
Sonic smiled at her address and nodded. "I will Cream."
Cream pressed her lips together, still hesitant to leave. She grabbed Tails' hand and pulled him with her as they made their way down the staircase. After a while, their steps vanished, and the closing of the main door indicated that the two had left the house. Sonic exhaled a vast amount of breath, relieved that they had just evaded a huge crisis.
He turned to the door, features hardening, and then pushed it open.
...
I was poised my body in preparation to pounce on my prey, but the abrupt shutting of the door snapped me out of the hypnotic state. I gasped as my normal self obtained full control over my mind and motions, taking a few steps back. The back of my knees hit the edge of my bed and I was forced to sit on the soft mattress. Eyes wide, body trembling, I stared in horror towards the commotion coming from the other side of the wall. Sonic was there, I could distinguish his voice from Tails and Cream's. He was scolding the two and then his voice turned soft as he coaxed the two young ones to go home.
I stared down at my hands which didn't stop shaking.
I couldn't believe what I have almost done. I told myself that whatever happens I will never let myself lose control. That one time with Sonic had been enough. And yet, I almost killed Cream and Tails...I almost killed my friends. My little sister...
I've truly become a monster.
The door opened and I didn't have to look up to see who it was that entered.
...
Sonic found Amy sitting atop her bed, head bowed as she gripped the bed sheets. He strode towards her, red and white sneakers hitting silently against the wooden floorboards. He stood in front of her, unsure of what to say. She didn't move she sat there like a statue, cold and firm. However, when she did speak, he was taken completely by surprise with the words that escaped her lips.
"Kill me."
Sonic felt like he had swallowed a cannonball.
"Sonic, I beg you, kill me."
She looked up at him this time, her crimson eyes having no trace of doubt and fear at what she had asked of him. His gaze locked with hers as they searched each other's eyes for compliance and for second-thoughts. Amy's pink eye-ridges drew together due to the lack of reaction from the blue hedgehog. She hung her head as if to prepare for her execution, wrapping her arms around herself as though she was cold as tears began seeping out from her closed eye lids.
"Just end it already."
Silence fell between them. Sonic stared down with an unreadable expression towards Amy, who was silently crying. Emerald green eyes narrowed.
"Compared to you asking me to marry you, Amy," He began with a bit of a hiss, "that's the craziest thing that you blurted out." He glared at her, furious of what she said, and a tad disappointed because she would give up so easily, "Did you honestly think that I'd kill you because of what you are? Amy, just because you're different now, it doesn't mean that I'd be treating you differently too!" his voice rose a level in volume, peach-furred chest heaving as his temper threatened to flare out of control. "Amy Rose, where the heck did you get that from?!"
"I almost killed them!" Amy shrieked, slamming her fists against the soft mattress, causing a rippling effect. She sneered towards the male hedgehog, sharp fangs bared. "I almost killed Cream and Tails! I was prowling them, planning to suck their blood until they're nothing but dry left-overs!
"Don't you understand? I'm a monster, Sonic, a MONSTER!"
Amy slapped her hands against her face, unable to hold the tears that leaked from her eyes.
"I can't take this anymore. Just kill me already."
His jaw hardened. Sonic the Hedgehog disliked many things and amongst them is the coward's attitude, which Amy was displaying right that moment. "I didn't know Amy Rose was actually a coward." He said, fists clenching. "I'd seen her take on robots ten times her size, faced brutal monsters and creatures that normally frightened her and had been in situations with seemingly impossible odds but still overcame. She never gives up, never backs down or loses hope. She believes in miracles and rely on them, and though how dire the situation she was able to pull through."
"Don't describe me like I'm you!" She snapped at him rising in outrage, eyes flashing dangerously. His words offended her rather than serving its original purpose to uplift her spirit. "Even if they were true it was only because you were there to save me."
"No," he disagreed, "it's because you're strong." He leveled his gaze. "What happened to that Amy?"
That look. The soft eyes and gentle features...Amy had always loved it whenever Sonic would show such a tender face, but she hated it for the reason that pulling it off could render her weak, tear down her walls. She turned away, "she's gone."
"You hid her."
"I want to."
"So bring her back."
"I can't."
"Why not?"
"I'm trapped." Her voice cracked, heavy with emotion. "I can't get out. I want to, but I'm too weak. It's stronger. I'm losing control over my own mind. I can't hold it anymore. Sooner or later I'll be full-fledge." Amy grabbed a fist-full of fabric from the covers, and balled her hand tight.
"I don't want to kill anyone."
He understood the feeling. He himself didn't want to take anyone's life despite what the other had done. It has always been inflicted in his mind that one has no right to end someone else's life, for he did not give it to him in the first place. Like Eegman, the evil scientist had committed unforgivable crimes in the past up to this day and still, the hero didn't once consider killing him to rid the world of the fear and danger he always cause whenever the doctor hatch one of his corrupted plans. Life was too precious, and too short.
Too short. She's only fourteen, and she was already set on cutting it off there. No. She had many years ahead of her. There are plenty of things she can do and surely want to do in her life.
He grabbed both her hands and gave them both a reassuring squeeze. His eyes burned with determination as they locked with her red cores. "We'll find a way, Amy," he ascertained, "I promise I'll bring you back to normal. Just hold it a little longer. But you have to promise me one thing as well." He paused.
She blinked in anticipation.
"Whatever happens, don't lose hope."
Amy felt something in her chest stir, some sort of unknown energy, running through her body producing a somewhat warm feeling. She pressed her lips together as this emotion clashed in her chest, bringing down whatever barricade she'd place to prevent anything from coming in.
However, a warm feeling was all it was. She couldn't feel what before was a beautiful explosion of giddiness whenever Sonic would be so close to her. Since this transformation, she had felt no happiness, no love, only fear, despair and anger. She wished she could go back to normal, she wanted to be normal, so she wouldn't rot with negative emotions like this. So she can smile again, laugh again, and love again.
She just wanted to be back to her old self.
In a moment of desperation, Amy grabbed Sonic's face and pressed her lips against his.