A/N: Guess who got some ideas? I did. This time, two people will be revealed. One that has been hinted at, but not outright revealed until this one. Sorry for being slow with updates, other fics, school and my reviews have interfered with my schedule.
Some ideas got triggered in my head thanks to that fucking amazing Naruto OC fic i just read and favorited and loved.
Chapter 5 Rabbit
From a young age, she had always been...different. Unpredictable. Fiery.
She had always been herself, and to hell with the world and what they think. Maybe that was why her brother got mad at her and would tell her, "Quit being such a dumbass!"
He also thought she was useless, too.
For a while, she was an only child, with a father. A loving, kind caring father.
Then she learned what she was.
"I'm human, right, Daddy?" She asked one day.
Her father had looked at her before he'd gone out to get her something. It was something...red. It was blood. It was...a foot. A foot from a human.
"You are not human," He said, "You are...a ghoul, now eat this, Touka." He urged.
And she, willing to please her father, had done so, but at the same time, while she enjoyed this meal (oh my gosh, the blood, the hands, the blood, it tastes so good, the skin...so good, good, good), another part of her was screaming about how killing was wrong and she shouldn't do it.
This is all so wrong, so wrong. Disgusting.
She had just done what her daddy wanted her to.
She was so fucking hungry, and every time she tried to eat other food, she would just throw up.
"Touka, dear," He told her, "This is the only food you can eat."
"I refuse to eat other humans!" She snapped.
That voice of her stilled, and she listened to her father, after all you always listened to what your father said, right?
"Touka, humans are the enemies of ghouls. They hunt them, they eliminate them, they destroy them. They might kill me one day, or your brother." He said, pointing at the little toddler.
For some reason, she feels like she should be the younger rather than the older sibling, but she doesn't protest. She does as her father asks, because after all, he is her father. She had to listen to him, right?
She dreams, she dreams, and when she does, she is flying, she is doing impossible things, dressed in odd outfits and fighting people with odd flashing objects.
There's a boy.
A boy with dark hair and green eyes that haunts her dreams and makes her feel so confused that when she wakes up, the little girl is very, very annoyed. So much so that she accidentally activates her kagune in anger.
This causes Ayato to call her a weirdo.
She responds by punching him. The two of them like fighting each other a lot. This is normal sibling behavior, right? Right?
Right?
This is totally normal behavior.
All siblings fight with each other. This is just how it goes.
There is nothing different about this, she thinks, other than the sweet, juicy delicious taste of the flesh that enters her mouth.
Then one day, her father disappears.
He's been devoured, swallowed by a snake, bitten, eliminated by the CCG, the group she'd heard of only in whispers as "Doves." When she pictures the doves, she pictures cruel, disgusting monsters, swooping down on her, stealing her happiness away, almost like ghosts, attacking her, controlling her mind.
"You hear that? Dad's gone!" Ayato yells, "That means it's just you and I now! Yet you still associate with humans...why?"
"Because, humans...humans are..."
Humans are monsters...cruel, disgusting, savage.
"Because humans are...like shit."
He smiles. "I knew you'd say that, Onee-san. You're not a stupid weakling after all."
She shoves him. He shoves her back.
It's one of the first violent fights they have, and he becomes worse as he grows older.
'All boys are stupid, selfish and disgusting,' She thinks.
The one in her dreams is an idiot. He's stupid, he's naive, he does and says stupid stuff, he looks like a nerd, but he has a sense of warmth about him that she can't help but admire. But at the same time, he is a human. A human.
Gradually, the pity that she has for humans turns to hatred. Instead, it's bitterness she has when she thinks of other ghouls suffering. It's not their fault they were born this way. A part of her tells her this thinking is wrong, that speciesism is wrong, that she should appreciate humans, and that there's no such thing as purity, but she silences that.
She doesn't care.
Those idiotic humans will pay.
Then she meets Yoriko, who's different. Yoriko, who's not stupid like the rest of them. Yoriko, who's kind and understanding and oh-so-loving and-oh god, she actually likes a human? No way!
She doesn't understand why on earth she would disobey her father, why on earth would she suddenly like a human? It doesn't make any fucking sense. And for some reason, she notices that the girl has orange hair and it brings out a sense of nostalgia in her. A sense of nostalgia which she can't understand.
It pisses her off. She hates not understanding her own emotions.
Yoriko tells her one day she thinks she's anorexic, because she seems to have trouble eating the school lunch. Touka doesn't tell her the real reason why she can't eat their food.
But she asks what that is, and she explains it to her and Touka nodded and confirmed it, more afraid that she would be rejected by Yoriko, picturing the disgust, the fear on her face, how she would call the CCG on her ass and get her killed.
Imagine that, this nice, sweet girl will probably call her a monster and then run away from her, leave her to die while someone controls her every movement. Like hell that would happen, she controls her own destiny.
She is after all, a fierce rabbit.
Years pass by, and she doesn't think about the dreams for a long time. Then, he comes in. That idiot.
Kaneki.
He's an idiot. He's thoughtless, he's stupid, he's kind, yet at the same time, he's so bigoted towards her kind that it pisses her off, acting like he's better than ghouls when he's one, too, so maybe he should shut his arrogant mouth and see how things actually work.
But a part of her is strangely nice to him and when he is in Anteiku, she finds herself thinking about how she misses his smiles, his calls of "Touka-chan", she gets angry, wondering how she could ever like someone like him.
Then whenever she sees him after everything that has happened, after him being tortured to near insanity, she realizes-he is broken. She'd hated him because she was innocent-like that boy.
But now, the look in his stormy gray eyes spoke nothing of the innocent boy she once knew and now it strikes her that with his white hair, he looks like a sad, wizened old man-why does that sound so familiar?
Someone who watches over others.
"Kaneki," She mutters, trying to reach out to him.
He turns to her, "I'm sorry, Touka-chan."
He smiles, then leaves.
Then he's back.
"How dare you come back here like this!" She screams.
She just feels tremendous regret after she knocks him to the ground.
And then she sees him again, as a member of the CCG, pretending he's human, pretending he's not a ghoul, it pisses her off. He either chooses one side or the other, yet she can't help but be fascinated by him, but she's not in love with him, she's not in love with him, dammit!
Yet, she is.
It's not like he is her savior or her hero or anything, somehow Touka Kirishima is in love with Kaneki Ken and she fucking hates it.
She also fucking hates those dreams of hers. They piss her off.
And then there was the utterly confusing person, that friend of Kaneki's-what was his name-the redhead. She didn't even remember his name!
He was so annoying and stupid and forgettable that it drove her nuts trying to deal with him. Especially the way in which he pried into other people's business!
Seriously.
Yet, there was an aura about him that made her suspicious and yet fascinated. It was a familiar feeling, like she knew him and yet didn't.
"Hey, Kaneki's really okay, isn't he?"
The way in which he was looking at her, it took her off guard. She stared at him for a couple of seconds.
"Hey, you. Have we met before?"
"Not that I'm aware of, unless of course, you're a cute girl."
"You're just annoying. Really, really annoying." She snaps, glaring at him viciously.
"You're very cute, you know." He says.
She doesn't understand why it strikes her as wrong that he's hitting on her, but she kinda ignores him.
Ignore, ignore, ignore, ignore, ignore!
It doesn't help.
Then, after everything happens and Haise appears, he is in the hospital and she is stuck looking after him. Oh, great.
The thing is, this Hide person...he never shuts the fuck up. He's always talking endlessly about Kaneki, about himself and it's annoying.
But somehow, she doesn't care.
"You're an idiot."
"I know I'm an idiot." He laughs, "But I did everything I could for Kaneki, because he deserves it. He deserves to be happy after everything he's gone through."
"He has been through a lot." She agreed.
"Do you love him?"
She flushes. "I don't love him! No fricking way!"
"It's so obvious, I can tell." Hide says, folding his arms, "You always look after him, you know. For some reason, I think with your hot temper, your hair should be red rather than purple."
"You're talking crazy," She snapped, "Red hair is stupid."
That's why, when she's busy working in the cafe...
"Excuse me."
It's him, Kaneki or as he calls himself now, Haise.
"Um, have we met before?" She asks.
"No, not that I'm aware of." She says coldly.
"But I was just wondering-"
"I'm afraid you haven't met me before." She says curtly, leaving a confused Haise behind.
But now...now she sees, him.
It's Kaneki.
He's walking down the street.
He looks utterly broken, again.
This wasn't Haise, the look in his eyes was that of Kaneki.
"Kaneki," She cries.
"Touka-chan, they...they...lied to me."
"I know."
"They were...using me."
"I know."
"I'm a ghoul."
"I know, don't say that shit out loud. You'll be killed." She scolds.
"But I-" He mutters. "I don't want to be a hero or anything. I just want to be happy."
He passes out then and then she realizes, he's bleeding. What the fuck did those CCG idiots do to him?
What. Did. They. Do. To. Him?
Suddenly, the anger is taking over, but she manages to hold it in enough until she goes home before unleashing her kagune on everything that's not Kaneki.
She doesn't know why she cares about this stupid idiot, but somehow she does.
Hide had to get a good laugh out of teasing Touka.
She was such an interesting person.
She reminded him a lot of Hermione, but not really.
If anything, he was reminded a lot of...but that couldn't be. No way in hell.
Whenever the realization hit him about who she could be, his eyes widened.
He suddenly realized..who else was so fiery and hot-headed?
Ginny? Was that really Ginny?
No fucking way. He must be insane.
"What are you staring at?" She snapped, blue eyes blazing in anger.
No way in hell could his sister be a ghoul.
Not someone so fierce. But fierce, hadn't that always been Ginny? Hadn't she always been a fierce girl who'd stuck to what she believed no matter what?
"Ginny..." He muttered.
She turned to look at him. "What are you saying?"
"Nothing," He said cheerily.
"We don't serve alcohol here."
"I know. It's just I knew someone."
"Hey, Nagachika, talk sense, or else you're getting thrown out of here." She said, pointing at the exit to the cafe, "Humans aren't welcome here."
"That's not very nice. I'm here to look after him, after all." He pointed at the white-haired, black-haired young man, who was trying to recuperate. "Is he truly all right?"
"I don't think so. He still talks about going back there, but he remembers."
Hide shot up, looking at her. "Are you serious?"
"Yes, he remembers."
"What did they do to him?" He hisses.
"I don't know, but they're gonna pay for hurting him."
"You really do love him."
"Never said that." She slammed his cup of tea on the table he's seated at before storming away.
He can tell, despite Touka Kirishima being very hard to read, annoying and a jerk, he knows that deep down inside, she is or was his sister.
"Girls are scary." He mutters.
He wonders what Hermione would do if she heard him say that.
Though there is that quiet, bookworm girl...no way.
Like hell.
If anything, he would've thought Touka would've been Hermione...not his fucking sister. He felt like puking when he thought about how he'd tried to flirt with her, but this isn't the same world he'd grown up in.
They're strangers here.
He wasn't Ron Weasley anymore, he was Hide Nagachika and he had to accept that. She was no longer Ginny, but now Touka.
"You don't need to look after me." She snapped.
"I'm just a friend." Hide said.
"An annoying friend," She added.
He was just sorry that Ginny had to be a ghoul, but Touka was strong.
"Kirishima, it would be nice if you remembered that you can ask for help sometimes."
"Ha, don't go talking to me like that!" She snapped.
Kaneki's eyes opened in time to see Touka standing over him.
"Finally woke up, you idiot."
"Touka," He muttered, "I wanna talk about...Arima."
"What did he do?" She said icily.