Chapter 18: Exhaustion

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"I've… I took a life." Ultear was shocked by the words he just said. 'He just took a life? Was this the first time he has killed someone?'

"N... Naruto, is this the first time you killed?" Ultear asked Naruto carefully, not wanting to trigger something within him. Naruto just looked up before giving a brief nod. Ultear pulled Naruto back into embrace as Naruto let out his pent-up emotions. Hades also looked in shock as he was being held by Meredy who could not believe the brutality of Naruto.

"T-this became more difficult than I realized…." That was all Hades said as he just continued to stare at the frail form of Naruto as he continued to hold tightly to Ultear.

(Fairy Tail)

6:15

It was 6:15 per the clock in his room; One hour, fifteen minutes and thirty seconds since Fairy Tail defeated Phantom Lord. It was also one hour, thirteen minutes and two seconds since they stepped in between Naruto and him.

He took another swig from the bottle of whiskey as he wiped any stray tears. He was feeling a circus of emotions, as he thought more of what transpired. His children stepped in, when they should have not. Naruto had every right to take his revenge, in any form given.

Makarov clutched his head as he shut his eyes. They heard the story of what he did to Naruto, yet why would they stand by him?

'I just don't understand the new generation.' Makarov chuckled as he took another drink from the bottle. 'Porlyusica would beat me dead with her broom right now, if she knew.'

Makarov gaze turned somber as he gazed at the pictures in his room. Spread across the wall and set across the dressers; pictures of him and Fairy Tail with smiles plastered on their faces.

'Hmm my smile looks really believable right there. Though I remember I actually cried that day.' He stood up and walked toward the pictures. It was noticeable that he has been drinking much, which caused him to crash on the dresser. He frowned, a picture sitting on the dresser fell over. He picked up the picture, ignoring the broken glass. He gave a sad chuckle as he seen the picture he picked up. It was the picture he put face down so he wouldn't be reminded for what he did. Sadly, he could not ignore the shame any longer.

"I really was sorry for what I did…" Makarov said as his hand traced on the picture of him and everyone in Fairy Tail during the early years. Naruto was giving his trademark smirk as he had his arms over him and Rob. Emily was standing a few feet away from them with a smile. Makarov could now tell more clearly that the smile was for Naruto.

"Hehehe everyone looks even more happier here then this new era, hn even Porlyusica looks happy…" Makarov said with a loud chuckle as he continued to stare at the picture. Unaware to him, he began to release the emotions he was feeling inside.

"I'm sorry everyone…" Makarov said as he stood up, surprisingly composed even by the amount of alcohol he guzzled down.

"I'm sorry Goldmine and Bob…" Makarov said as he took out a paper and pencil from a cabinet

"I'm sorry Porlyusica and master …" Makarov put the letter on top of a dresser as he walked out of his room. He smiled at everything around him as he opened the front door.

'I'm sorry all you young kids…' Makarov thought as he looked toward the direction of Fairy Tail; It was still under construction, but soon they will have something new to be proud of.

"I'm sorry ...Emily" Makarov choked up as he tried to mention the women he shared a child with. He turned toward exiting Magnolia as he gave one last smile toward Fairy Tail.

"I'm sorry Naruto." Makarov said as he drank something from a vial. The liquid was a transparent yellow liquid which caused him to flinch when the liquid traveled down his esophagus. He clutched his chest tightly, tremendous pain travelling down his chest. People around Makarov looked at him with alarm, which Makarov tried to ease the situation with a smile. He quickly walked away as he could reach the train station.

Makarov gave the man his ticket as he stepped into the train. He took a lone seat as he leaned his head on the train. He was feeling weak as he felt the train begin to move. He gave one last smile at Magnolia as his eyes began to close.

"I hope you know that I will never stop loving all of you…"

Makarov said as his eyes closed.

"This feeling, I know this feeling…."

Naruto felt his body feel cold as his body floated on the infinite darkness. He woke up here, in this world with no light. Naruto could feel another thing here, but he could not see him. He was only able to tell by the whispering.

Do you hate this feeling?

"I felt this feeling, I feel this feeling all the time…" Naruto said as his empty eyes stared at nothing.

Do you enjoy this feeling?

"I first felt this feeling when my mother left…" Naruto said as if he tried to speak to someone; for someone to be reached by his words.

Do you hate her?

"I felt this feeling again when Makarov left me…" Naruto said as he grabbed his face.

Do you hate him?

Naruto didn't ignore the whisper as he stopped speaking. Did he hate him? If he did, did those good memories with Makarov not matter? Did Makarov even know how much he idolized him? That is when it hit him; was the way he felt for him even hate?

"Sh..should I hate him? Does anything change If I show him hatred?" Naruto questioned as he thought of it. Will hatred give everything he lost back? The last question he asked himself was answered by the whispers.

It won't, but nothing will change if you show love

"So, hatred will not change anything, but neither would love?

You can only hate to love and love to hate, but none of them will change what you are feeling

"And what is it I am feeling?" Naruto questioned one more time as he closed his eyes as his body felt lighter in the darkness.

Loneliness

Naruto laid there in his room. Hades brought him here as he needed time to rest from what he just witnessed. Ultear wanted to stay and watch over Naruto, but even she knew she could not. Her presence was required by the council and she still needed more time before she could return. Now Naruto laid alone in his room, or was alone until a woman with red hair appeared out of nowhere.

Kushina had her hand over Naruto's eyes as a white light shined. She smiled as she watched the Naruto that seemed to be in pain, was now calm. She retracted her hand away from Naruto as she watched him with a small smile in his face. She caressed his cheek before leaning toward his ear.

"We will see each other soon." Kushina said as she caressed Naruto one more time. "I will be the one to take away the loneliness you feel."

"Sir, please sir wake up!" The conductor said as he tried to wake up the old man from the deep sleep he was in. He originally was happy that the long day was finished, until he noticed the old man still in the train. He was annoyed since the old man looked like he drank a little too much, so he was deep asleep.

"Sir we have arrived at our last stop!" The man shook Makarov one last time, before he fell forward. "Oh, I'm so sorry-"

The conductor stopped speaking midway as he finally had a feel of the old man's skin. He was cold, as if he lost all his body temperature. His eyes widened as he put two fingers on his neck, hopefully prepared to feel a pulse.

"Hey is that old man still knocked out? "one of his colleagues said with grin as he walked toward his colleague. He then could tell his freaked-out expression as he walked toward him. "Is everything alright?"

The man just turned toward his colleague as he answered him.

"H... He's d... dead."

End

Well I did a short chapter compared to the others, but I really didn't feel like stretching out what just occurred. Well I had people who wanted me to have Naruto kill Makarov and others who wanted Naruto to forgive Makarov, well I did the unpredictable choice instead.

I feel like some people won't like it that I killed Makarov, but I wanted something different from the usual Fanfic. So yeah, Naruto was taken away the opportunity to have his revenge for losing most of his life and did Naruto lose his hatred? But how will he feel about Makarov killing himself? Well yeah, I killed off Makarov early, so review your thoughts!