Its been forever..... here.
(I own nothing but my own characters)
She stood wondering why this place seemed like so much of a home to her. She remembered her old home, her mother's stupidity, her father's Inconsiderate behavior, Her brother... Her brother, of all people to think about. "I will miss him" she said softly to herself. "Miss who?" Heero chimed in looking up at her an almost child-like curious expression. She though for a second standing in scilence. The then turned swiftly and walked to the bookshelf in the corner her hair laying delicatly on her back. "my brother" she paused for a second then continued "He seems like the only one I ever cared about" .She placed her hand on the shelf and looked down. He stood swiftly and walked to her placing his hands on her shoulders "we can go get him...bring him here?". She quickly moved out of his reach and turned to look at him with tears almost brimming" NO! why would I ever do that to him... To make him this monster!" She quickly coverd her mouth. A broken look came to his face " I have made you a monster...... I am a monster. there is nothing more I do." He turned and walked out shutting the door behind him leaving her alone in the room. She relized what she had done her hand falling from her mouth in an almost puppet-like fashion. She began to step backwards comming in contact with the wall and sliding down, her and knees to her chest. She looked up as the tears began to flow. "I'm sorry" she whispered friviously. "If anyones a monster its me... I now know that". The door opened slowly as she quickly tried to whipe the tears away. Emerald walked in her hair now a burgendy and slighly shorter. She looked at Usagi's tear stained face and walked to her sitting next to her and not directly looking at her. "What would be the problem dear?" Emerald asked not moving her head but directing her eyes to Usagi. "I called him a monster" she said with great regret. "We are all monsters but you were a monster before this. They all are. We are just a little more.......... delicate" She looked around the room when she said thisher accent still sweet like fine sugar. "What are you saying?" Usagi asked slightly confused. Emerald moved her hands back pulling her dark hair into her hands and moved it to one shoulder. She then looked at Usgai "Whats so diffrent?. We both kill.... we both love.. we both hurt. They don't do it forever like us." She took in a deep breath "After being called a monster long enough...you start to forget that you werent a monster before". She understood....Usagi understood everything at that one point. "I'm not a monster anymore am I?" Usgai said. "I personally think I have a better chance of going to a good place when I demise then I did before."Emerald said this looking back forward at the door. She stood making her way to it. "Emerald... Stop, please?" She looked back at the beautiful blonde girl a slight nod with it. Usagi smiled " I like your hair.." A silent laugh came from Emerald " Out with the old and in with the new it seems" She walked out and closed the door softly with a click.
Love's an excuse to get hurt
And to hurt
Do you like to hurt?
I do
I do.
Then hurt me.
She sat for what seemed like hours just thinking. She stood opening the door and walking out the patter her her small feet down the wood floor hallway made her think of her brother once again. She closed her eyes still walking and thinking...remebering. She remebered the way she would hear footsteps in the night. Her door opening slowly with a creak her brother's head peaking in. She would sit up in her bed pushing the covers aside and watching as he would run to her and jump in with her. She would hug him close under the covers and watch as he fell asleep. She giggled softly her eyes still closed. in the mists of dreams she hit something soft opening her eyes swiftly Rebecca in front of her was what she had hit. " I'm going to make you go away now!" she said almost insanely but with feracity. Usagi stepped back slowly getting a few feet away. Rebecca lunged at her. Usagi swiftly closed her eyes terrifide. Nothing happened. She opened her eyes again seeing Rebecca on the floor out cold and Heero in front of her. She grabbed him holding closely " I'm sorry" she said " You arent a monster...you saved me.....and not only just now but before. You made me something wonderful."she closed her eyes and stayed in his arms. He smiled holding her as closly as he could "be happy". She thought about her brother one last time "Out with the old and in with the new....it seems."
I got a hunger and I can't seem to get full
I need some meaning I can memorize
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind
But you
but you
You write such pretty words
But life's no story book
Love's an excuse to get hurt
And to hurt
Do you like to hurt?
I do
I do
Then hurt me.
I added some song lyrics from Bright eyes- Lover I dont have to love
More soon I hope.