Prologue: The Accident

Connor
Hey Jude
Jude
Jude
Jude
Judicorn
Jude-y baby
ANSWER MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Jude
Oh my god what do U want from me?

Connor
Ur heart

Jude
Oh right I forgot, U R cheesy
But reall blowing up my phone?

Connor
Cause I miss U
And I want U 2 come over

Jude
U could have just said that
Lemme ask my Moms

Connor
Ok

Jude rolled his eyes and stood up from his bed, jogging down the stairs, holding his phone tightly in his hand. "Mom?" he asked, seeing Stef working in the kitchen. Stef looked up from her papers and smiled at her youngest child.

"Hey, love, whatcha need?" she asked, pulling her glasses off her eyes to focus on Jude.

"Nothing, really. I was just wondering if I could go to Connor's," Jude explained. A smile came onto his lips as he thought of his boyfriend. He and Connor had been hanging out quite a lot the past few weeks, and that was mainly due to the fact that Connor was leaving for LA soon. Really soon. Like, tomorrow soon.

"Why don't you just move there, huh? You've been spending so much time over there anyway," Stef teased, smirking at him.

"Are you mad?" Jude asked, tilting his head a bit.

"No, hun, I'm not mad. Momma and I just wish you would spend more time here, is all," Stef explained.

Jude closed his eyes. "Well, I'll be spending all my time here, starting tomorrow, so you don't have to worry about that," Jude explained, opening his eyes and letting out a deep breath. He was having trouble accepting the fact that Connor was leaving. Connor and him had been best friends for a little over a year, and boyfriends for about a third of that. Jude knew he was only thirteen, but he knew he loved Connor. And he was going to lose him, only three weeks after admitting that. But, he knew Connor needed to go. Connor's father didn't fully support him, and Connor deserved to be happy and safe.

Stef breathed a sigh, pinching the brim of her nose, then looking at her son. "Alright. Go ask Momma to drive you. I have work to do," Stef explained. She knew her son was struggling, but she didn't know how much.

"Thank you, Mom!" Jude exclaimed, moving forward and kissing his mother's cheek. "I love you," he told her.

"I love you, too!" she called, placing her glasses on her face as Jude made his way into the entrance hall. Jude texted Connor before heading back up the stairs to find Lena.

Jude
I'll be there in 15 mins

"Momma?" Jude asked, knocking against the door frame to see Lena folding clothes on her and Stef's bed. Lena looked up, smiling at her son.

"Hey, bud!" Lena greeted, throwing down a shirt onto one of the piles and turning toward her son. "Something wrong?" she asked.

"No. Uh, I was wondering if you could drive me to Connor's?" Jude asked. She looked up hesitantly, but Jude spoke over her. "Please. It's his last day before he leaves," he explained, looking at Lena with pleading eyes.

"Alright, I'll be there in a second, okay?" Lena gave in. The thirteen year old nodded and turned around to exit the room and headed back down the stairs.

"Hey, Jude," Callie greeted from the living room, smiling at her younger brother. "Going to Connor's again?" she questioned, raising her eyebrows at him.

"Maybe," he joked, smiling at her. She tilted her head, giving him a look that said 'really?'. "Okay, yes," Jude explained, smiling at Callie.

"You're gonna be back for dinner, right?" she asked.

"Don't know," Jude admitted. He felt his phone buzz and glanced at the text.

Connor
I'll be waiting

Jude smiled, then looked up as his sister spoke. "Well, hopefully you are. Mari and I are helping Momma cook tonight," she explained grinning at her brother.

"And on that note, I'll make sure to stay there for dinner," Jude teased. Callie threw him a playful glare before turning to her textbook.

"Whatever, have fun," Callie told him. She then looked up at him, smirking. "But, not too much," she winked, turning back to her book. Jude blushed, looking down and turning away from his sister. Three weeks ago, Adam had told Lena of the ordeal between Jude and Connor that had ended in Jude mortified as Lena showed him how to put on a condom. Mariana had overheard Adam telling Lena and spread it to the rest of the Adams Foster sibling. And the teasing still hadn't ceased.

"Ready, bud?" Lena asked as she came down the stairs. Jude nodded. He looked into the living room and called a bye to Callie and to Stef in the kitchen as the two went out to the car. Jude couldn't stop his thoughts from whirling as they drove to Connor's. How was he going to survive without his boyfriend?

As they reached Connor's house Jude quickly said goodbye to Lena and jogged to the porch where Connor was sitting on the steps. Connor quickly got to his feet, grinning as Jude reached him. He pulled Jude into him, wrapping his arms around Jude's waist. Jude let out a small laugh and gripped Connor sightly, burying his head against his boyfriend's shoulder. It had become a habit to hug each other when they first see each other, and when they part. Jude pulled back from Connor, but he couldn't go far before Connor's hand was wrapped in his.

"Hey," Jude finally breathed, smiling at Connor.

"Hey," Connor answered. He squeezed Jude's hand then turned toward the porch and led his boyfriend inside.

The two made their way upstairs to Connor's room, shutting the door behind them.

"How's your dad doing about this?" Jude asked, sitting with his legs crossed, facing Connor. Connor did the same, holding Jude's hand in his. Their knees were pressed against each other as talked. Connor shrugged, looking up from their hands to Jude's eyes.

"He keeps asking me to stay. But, you know... after what happened... he'll never accept us, Jude. He'll... never accept me," Connor explained, pain evident in his voice. Jude knew how much it hurt Connor that his father wasn't supportive of his sexuality. That's why he was moving to LA to be with his mother in the first place.

Jude nodded and leaned forward, pecking Connor's lips. "I love you, okay?" Jude told him, looking at Connor intently. Connor nodded, smiling at the words.

"I love you, too," he answered.

"What... what exactly happened, though? After he dropped me off, I mean," Jude questioned. Connor had only given him a vague description. But, Jude wanted to know everything. He didn't like that Adam had hurt Connor and that he couldn't know what had happened. Connor focused his eyes on their hands, running his thumb over Jude's hand. He breathed a sigh, then looked up at Jude and explained what happened.

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Connor pulled back from Jude, his breath heavy as he turned toward his father, who now stood in the doorway. Connor's eyes widened in shock and he quickly removed his hands from Jude's waist, feeling Jude's hands leave his neck.

"Oh my god," Connor mumbled, grabbing his shirt from the floor. Adam stood in the doorway, his face stern. The man coughed awkwardly, then looked to Jude who was scrabbling to pull his shirt over his head, his face turning bright red.

"You know, Jude I think it's time I take you home," Adam told the boy who just nodded, and grabbed his backpack. Connor watched Jude as he glanced back at Connor and then swiftly left Connor's room. Connor bit his lip, looking up at his father, who just shook his head.

"We'll talk when I get back," Adam decided, then closed Connor's bedroom door behind him. Connor took a breath, shifting his eyes around the room. He pulled his shirt back over his head and ran his fingers through his hair. It didn't feel nearly as nice as when Jude had done it a few moments ago. Despite the fear of what he would face when his father got home, a grin spread across his lips as he brushed his fingers against them. Had he really just made out with Jude Adams Foster? He leaned back against his pillow, grinning. He was so happy to finally have Jude. To be able to hug or kiss him whenever he wanted. God, he loved Jude.

Connor's eyes widened and his sat up right instantly. Love? He loved Jude? He had always known he felt strongly for Jude, but now he put a name on it. Love. He loved Jude. "I love Jude," he whispered, grinning as he said it. Before he could dwell on it, he heard the front door open.

"Connor!" he heard his father's voice. The smile was wiped off his face as he heard the angry edge to his father's voice. As much as enjoyed his make out session with Jude, he didn't like the fact they had been caught.

He took a deep breath, then lifted himself from his bed and made his way down the stairs, meeting his father in the living room. His father stood beside the bed, his arms crossed over his face a mix of anger, confusion, and what seemed like fear.

"Before you say anything, Jude and I weren't planning on going any further," Connor quickly explained. He had received the sex talk when he and Daria were dating, and he was not prepared to have a different one. He saw slight relief come on his father's face. But it was replaced quickly with worry.

"Are you and Jude having sex? At all?" Adam asked.

"Oh, god, no!" Connor answered immediately, shaking his head vigorously. He knew that neither him or Jude was ready for that. Sure, the making out and removal of shirts was nice, but he didn't plan to go any further. His father nodded, still seeming not to believe it. "Dad, we aren't. We were just... fooling around, I guess," he explained, biting his lip and looking at his father.

"Fooling around? Connor, you can't just fool around whenever you want! You're thirteen!" Adam shouted. Connor took a step back. He was shocked at his father's outburst.

"Why are you getting so mad?" he questioned. "You didn't get this mad when you found Daria and I kissing. You we-" Connor stopped, his heart dropping as he realized what this was. "It's because he's a boy, isn't it? That's what this is about? It's because... I'm gay. That's why you're so mad," Connor spoke his thoughts out loud. He felt like he was suffocating. Was his father still against him being gay? He watched his father's face, hoping that even more anger, offense, or anything other than what he saw would appear. But, instead, he watched guilt wash across Adam's face.

"Connor, it's no-"

"No! I can't believe this! You still can't accept that I'm gay! That I love Jude!" Connor cut Adam off, anger flaring in his eyes. The words slipped from his mouth easily as if he'd said them a hundred times. He watched his father's eyes widen.

"You love him?" Adam asked.

Connor hesitated, then looked at Adam with confidence. "Yes. I do. I just... haven't told him yet," Connor explained, looking away.

"You don't love him," Adam decided.

Connor looked up. How could his father say that? Anger built inside him again. "Who are you to say that? You don't know how I feel! I do! Dad, he makes me happy. He makes me feel better when I'm sad. I love him. And if you can't accept it, just because I'm a boy and he is too... then... then..." Connor paused, looking away from his father as he thought.

"Then what, Connor?" his father asked, his eyes narrowed.

"Then maybe I should go live with Mom."

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By the end of the story, the two boys were sitting side by side, Connor with his head on Jude's shoulder and Jude with his arm around Connor's. "I'm sorry," Jude whispered, kissing the top on Connor's head.

"It's not your fault. It's his. He can't accept me. That's on him," Connor explained, burying his head against Jude's neck. Jude ran his hand up and down Connor's arm.

"What am I gonna do without you?" Jude mumbled. Connor laughed a bit. He sat up, turning his eyes on Jude.

"I don't know what I'm gonna do without you," Connor explained, smiling at Jude. Jude grinned back.

"We'll figure it out. There are trains, right?" Jude brought up. Connor laughed, shaking his head.

"God, I love you," Connor told Jude.

"You said that," Jude giggled, scrunching his face in his smile.

"I don't get tired of it," Connor admitted.

"Good. Because I love you, too," Jude agreed. He leaned forward and pressed his lips to Connor's, smiling against his boyfriend.

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"Call me as soon as you wake up, okay?" Jude mumbled, gripping his boyfriend tightly and closing his eyes.

"Okay," Connor whispered. He held onto Jude for dear life, not wanting to let him go. Ever. "And, you'll come visit me?" Connor questioned against Jude's shoulder.

"Yes. I love you, Connor," Jude told him, leaning back and look at Connor.

"I love you, too, Jude," Connor spoke, then leaned forward and kissed Jude's lips softly. "I'm gonna miss you so much," he told Jude once they pulled away.

"I'll miss you, too. Talk to you tomorrow?" Jude asked, moving back and tightening his grip on Connor's hand.

"Of course. Bye, Jude," Connor dismissed Jude, pecking Jude's lips again and releasing his hand and watching Jude walked down the porch steps.

"Bye, Connor," Jude told Connor, getting a good last look at Connor before he walked to the car where Stef sat waiting. Jude got into the car, taking a shaky breath and trying to hold back the tears he could feel coming. He looked out the window, watching Connor on the porch as Stef drove the car away. Jude turned his head forward, feeling Stef's hand on his knee.

"It's gonna be okay, love," Stef told her son, glancing at him, then focusing on the road.

"What if he finds someone better, in LA?" Jude squeaked out, closing his eyes as more tears flowed down his cheeks. He had been thinking of that a lot and was finally voicing his fears.

"Oh, sweetie, no, no, there's no one better than you!" Stef spoke confidently, turning the car.

"To you... but what if there's someone he lov-" Jude paused, quickly changing the word. Stef didn't know the two loved each other. "likes more?" But, the mistake hadn't gone unnoticed.

"Love?" she asked, smiling and looking over at Jude. Jude sighed and nodded.

"Yeah, I told him I love him and he said it back," Jude explained.

"When was this?" she asked.

"Callie's adoption," Jude admitted, glancing away from her. Stef nodded.

"And you really think he's gonna find someone else, when he loves you?" Stef pointed out, raising her eyebrows.

"I mean..." Jude sighed, running a hand through his hair and letting out a small sob. "LA is just so far away," Jude told her, resting his head against the window. Stef squeezed his knee.

"Do you think you could find someone better than Connor?"

"No!" Jude answered immediately. No one would ever be better than Connor.

"That's how he feels," Stef explained. Jude nodded, not completely believing it casting his gaze out the window. He breathed a sigh. The next few minutes were silent. Jude took a deep breath, then opened his eyes and looked out the window. His eyes widened, and he sat up, watching a car speed toward his side of the car as they drove through and intersection.

"Mom!" Jude yelled, moving closer to his mother. Stef looked over, confused, but her eyes widened as she saw what Jude was looking at. The car raced toward their's and then crashed into them.

Alright! So, that was the first chapter! I hope you guys liked it. I was going to take a different take on this, but after last night's episode I decided to take it this way because it will be so much better like this. This is set three weeks after the finale. Speaking of JONNOR I LOVE YOU'S AH!

I hope to update this every Monday from now on. I know it will never replace the show, but I can do my best.

Okay, here's a sneak peak for next week's chapter:

"Jude? What about Jude?" Connor asked into the phone, his voice frantic. At this point all his tiredness was pushed to the back of his mind as thoughts raced through his head. Was Jude okay? What had happened?

"He... he and Stef... they got into a car accident," Lena spoke. Connor froze, even his heart beat seemed to stop.

"What? Wha- are they okay?" Connor asked. Silence. "Mrs. Adams Foster, are they okay?!"

Okay! I'm going to try to post the next chapter to Bring Me Home today too. Also, I'm working on writing a one-shot for the make-out scene we didn't see ;). Alright!

Disclaimer: I do not own The Fosters or anything you recognize.

-HJ