Edited : 8/13/2016 –I did some grammar editing, not sure if it was good enough or not, though. Nothing was changed, I only edited the grammar here and there.

Hello there~ Long time no see~ XD

I know I haven't updated my other story, I'm in an author's block. SO... maybe I need to wait a little bit more... I'm really sorry! .

I suddenly found myself fall in love with AnY! I couldn't resist to write a fanfic. There is also one fic that I really fall in love with, It is "Fleeting Chances" by xAoshiki. It gave me so much inspiration~ X3

If you haven't checked that story out, I suggest you to read that! XD

Anyway, I hope you enjoy this story~

Disclaimer : AnY is not mine in anything, I only own this fic's plot~

Rewritten Fate

By Ld-G

PROLOGUE

Kouka had gone, destroyed by them, the army of Kai Empire... Kouka Kingdom, the once great and proud empire had been reduced to nothing but dust...

This was all started by a single miscalculation in Soo-Won's part. They had never thought that Kai Empire had been plotting a surprise attack since the day Kouka defeated them all along. By the time it had happened, Kouka was too vulnerable to defend, even though the five tribes had been reunited. Kouka's strength at the time was too pale in comparison with Kai's full attack.

Seeing Kouka fallen apart broke Yona's heart and soul. No matter what happened, Kouka was and still is her home. She loved Kouka, the kingdom that was once ruled by her father, Emperor Il. She couldn't stand and watch Kouka being burned down. Taking up a sword, she went to the front line, joining those soldiers who were fighting for life.

But she forgot that she was not alone. She forgot that she was accompanied by her friends. She was too furious to realize that she was being reckless. She charged ahead without even thinking of the consequences. Her head was only full of destroying the enemy. Her friends didn't tell her to stop and didn't even let out any protest. They just did what she asked them to do. And because of that, she could not stop it when they fell one by one, either shielding her from enemy's attack or being ambushed in the front line.

When she snapped out of it, it had been too late. She had lost her friends due to her selfishness. Hak, Yoon, Kija, Shin-Ah, Jae-Ha... Even Zeno had not come back to her side... Every single one of them left her with a smile.

"Don't look so sad, Princess; I'm not going to die. This battle won't kill me that easily" was what Hak said before he set on ambushing the enemy. But he never came back. Never. Her only hope for him to still be alive was crushed to pieces when she found his cold body months later...

She didn't even know how to cry anymore. Her tears had dried up when the first time nobody came back to her side at the promised time. By the time she found Hak's body, she couldn't shed any tears anymore. It's just that, logically, she already knew he had gone but her heart kept screaming for her to still have some belief in him. And when she found this out, it was merely a proof that her heart was wrong all along.

She could only stare at that cold body with lifeless eyes. And she went away without even giving a second glance toward it, for Hak had gone, and that body is merely a corpse which could do nothing. It wouldn't calm her down, or even reassured her that everything was a lie. It would do absolutely nothing. She was now alone in this cruel world, struggling to keep living in this harsh reality, living in regret. She had failed to save everyone, from those who dear to her till her own home...

Without anywhere else to go, she travelled alone across the kingdom, wandering around. Her first stop was at Fuuga, the capital of Wind Tribe. She thought that maybe she could ask Mundok for some advices, but what she saw makes her heart freeze. She found Mundok already in the brink of death, lying on his own blood. She desperately tried to save him, but all he did was giving her a sad smile and apologized before letting out his last breath.

It was like a dagger in her heart. She felt guilt creep inside; she had failed Mundok, in every way. Not only she sent Hak to his own grave, she couldn't even save Mundok, someone who was really dear to her, someone who she had considered as her own grandfather. She wanted to make a grave for him, but as the war took place, she didn't have the luxury to even dig a grave. There were so many soldiers in every corner. The only thing she could do was to run away, leaving Mundok's corpse there.

She roamed again, to the Earth Tribe. There she saw Geun-Tae holding his covered-in-blood wife tightly, tears streaming down from his eyes. She didn't need to be a genius to know what had happened. Because honestly, what could make that strong general to cry like that unless he lost someone who was part of his soul? She didn't have the heart to go closer, because she herself didn't fare any better. So once again, she set herself out, wandered to other place.

At last, she had arrived at Kuuto, the capital of Kouka. She didn't remember the last time she set a foot on Kuuto anymore. It had been quite some time and the war makes everything worse. Now, she didn't even know what Kuuto looked like before the war, because right now, it's just ruins here and there. She wandered into the street, walked down the corner but she didn't come across Kyo-Ga, or Tae-Jun. She didn't know what had become of Joo-Doh. However, after a few days wandering there, finally, she met with Soo-Won, who was injured, but not as fatally as the others, hiding in a narrow alley.

Despite the fact that he had killed her father, despite the fact that she still hated him... Right now, he was the only one that she had left. She wanted to fight with him and told him so, but he rejected the idea. Instead, he entrusted Yona with his last wish, to see Kouka become the once beautiful empire it was, before smiling while handing one of his swords to her and disappeared to who knows where... leaving Yona all alone again.

She had no choice anymore. The only thing that she could do was to fight and kill as many enemy as she could with her own hands while keep staying alive as long as she could too. With a new determination, she set off again, fending off those enemies with only a sword left by Soo-Won.

She became one of those anonymous solo fighters, those who fight for Kouka in shadow while wandering around. She met a lot of anonymous fighters, got a chance to know them a little bit, but never once did she get too close to them, as she still carried the guilt from before. Those people soon became her comrades, who fought with her side by side, who she entrusted her back to. As time passed, their bonds became tighter and tighter, and unconsciously, Yona had considered them one of her precious people.

It had been months, and then it changed into years... That war experience had changed her. She was not the old happy and bright Yona anymore. Now, she was the calculated and cold war veteran. She had forgotten the happy life she had once lived in. All that she cared right now was how to end this war. Even if she couldn't fulfilled Soo-Won's wish, at the very least, she wanted to see the day Kouka free from war again. That was her only motivation to keep fighting, the only thing that made those entire fighters raising their sword.

But alas, even that small wish couldn't be granted, for she was only a mortal, a being that had no sort of power such as granting a wish. Tired from endless war, she found that she couldn't go on anymore, as all her energy had dried up. One by one, her comrades had also fallen down. At last, from those many fighters, now only six of them were still standing in the battlefield, including her. Against so many soldiers, a thing like that was bound to happen. She was just surprised that it took a little longer than a few months for Kai's army to corner them.

She still remembered the last night she spent with them, the other fighters; hearing them sharing about their life experiences, their hopes, hearing them laughing… "You should enjoy your life, Yona! In the frontline like this, you never know when will be your turn to be called away by the shinigami!" That was what one of her comrades told her. Everybody knew it, because at the battlefield, anything could happen. You could be laughing one second and lying in a pool of darkness the next moment.

With the other five fighters, she fought till her last drop of blood and she died in the middle of battlefield like a noble soldier did. Even if her comrades saw her fell, they couldn't do anything, for they were also engaged in their own battle. She did hear a faint yell from her comrades, furiously commanding her to stand up and don't go sleeping in the battle… she was grateful to ever knowing them, thankful for their support all these years. She also felt sadness coming inside her heart as she would left them all alone behind; knowing how lonely it would be when you were being left, since she had experienced it herself.

Suddenly, she remembered about Zeno. Zeno was supposed to be an immortal being, which meant that all of this time, Zeno should still be living all alone; maybe he was also been fighting for Kouka's sake. Now, she was going to left him all alone again.

She had many regrets and guilt. As darkness consumed her, she could felt a slight pain from her head, a faint voice inside her mind, but at that time, she was too tired to figure it out. She brushed it off as a normal occurrence for someone who was dying. There was only one thought that across her mind. 'If only I can redo it... If only I have another chance... Because really… I… don't want to die… yet…'

She opened her eyes and found herself in an unfamiliar place. She thought that this was heaven, but then she saw herself being reduced to a baby. She changed her mind. It seemed like she was being reincarnate, something that she didn't know whether to be grateful or not.

She didn't understand why she still retained the memory from her previous life. Surely, the gods weren't that cruel to make her carried those memories, right? But then again, why would she still remember clearly what her name was and what had happened?

However, when she got a chance to see the outside world, she suddenly got a few suspicions, her instinct told her that she was being thrown back to the past. It was a crazy assumption, but she couldn't deny the fact that the surrounding was too similar with her previous life. It was all confirmed when she met her Father, again.

When she met him again, who was still healthy and in one piece, she could not help but broke down, crying her heart out. Because the last time she saw her father was when she had that argument about Soo-Won, and the last time she saw her father's body, he was already not breathing anymore. Right now, she was nothing but just a baby, she could not tell him how much she love him, how much she had missed him.

That was also when she realized, that indeed, she had been thrown back to the past. She found out that everything was exactly the same; from her the castle gate till the garden inside, even the flowers in it. How could that happen, she has no idea. She didn't know whether to be grateful or to be depressed by this, but at the very least, she got another chance to redo all of her mistake; as a child, as a princess, as a friend... she vowed to correct all of them.

She had also met a young Min-Soo, who at that time was only a new servant. She shuddered when she recalled the last time she saw him back in her previous life, or maybe the future... Min-Soo always protected her in any way he can. He was the only one that remained on her side when everyone other than Hak, betrayed her. She was really grateful for his presence here. It was really calming her racing heart.

Then she saw Joo-Doh. He was still the same. It seems that no matter how old, his face would always accompanied by scowls. It was really weird, how could he manage to scowl despite whatever the situation was good or bad? She didn't exactly have a good opinion about him, for he has betrayed her and her father, but regardless of anything that had happened before, she must try to at least stay neutral with him. If not, it would only raise a lot of unwanted questions later.

This time around, she decided not to maintain her old personalities. Even if she wanted to, she could not anymore, not with the war experience that she got and the experience of losing precious comrades, friends, loved one... This time, there wouldn't be a happy bright Yona anymore... This time, there would only a calm, strong and collected Yona. She could try to not be so cold, but smiling or even laughing might need a whole lot of work and time.

She chose to maintain her short hair, as short as boys' hair, so that it wouldn't get in her way. It gave her a sense of calmness, as it was the only physical way of telling her that she still had her unfinished duty. Starting two years old, every time her hair had grown a few centimetres, she would ask her parents to cut it again. But they always refused, and after a few attempts, the shortest hair that they agreed to was until her ears. 'Well, there is another chance when she grows older, though...' she thought.

She also chose to wear a normal civilians' boy's clothes, saying that they were more comfortable for her, much to her parents' dismay. They had tried to force her wear high quality dresses, but she always refused and always found a way to change back to the boy's clothes.

Finally, both of her parents agreed to her wearing boy's clothes but with a condition that those clothes she wore need to show her status as someone from a royal lineage. She reluctantly agreed, but she never failed to reject any clothes that was too glamour for her taste.

It was by pure chance that her father thought of simple clothes like civilians' but using silk as the differentiation. She loved the idea since both parties would get what they wanted. Since then, she always wore clothes like that, and acts tomboyish; climbing here and there, running and sneaking into places, and so on.

A lot of people didn't like her attitudes, saying that even though she was not a princess, she still was a royal. Thus, she needed to act like one. But some people, especially servants, thought that Yona was really a humble child as she didn't act all cocky and arrogant with what her status could offer. In fact, Yona always helped her servant in any way she could, be it cooking or even washing dishes, or something else.

Of course the servants were afraid that they would get mad at by Yona's parents, however when dealing with a stubborn Yona, it seemed like getting blood out of rocks was even easier than making Yona listened to them. So, they all stopped caring about the consequences after a few weeks. Although her parents didn't happy about it, they also didn't do anything at all, especially when they saw Yona had that shining eyes whenever she learned to do something new.

Little did they know, the reason why Yona did that all was because that was the easiest way for her to obtain information regarding her kingdom. Servants tend to complain a lot about their problem, while soldiers tend to complain all about the military part. By mingle inside the lower status people, she could get so many information without the need to sneak out from the castle. She knew that one day, she would need to see it with her own eyes, but right now, she couldn't do that.

Starting two years old, she also started to force herself to read a lot of books, to get as much knowledge about her kingdom and its inside, even if it is boring as hell. She read all kinds of book, from fairy tale till history, all kinds of general knowledge, even books about medicine.

Of course, she tried to look like a normal child which happened to love books, not reading; because really, what kind of two years old child know how to read complicated books? Even reading simple books like children books was also impossible for someone who was only two years old. That's why she chose books which had a lot of pictures.

Sometimes she also pretended to draw doodles in the books if the books only have words inside. That doodles actually was her notes, but because her muscle was not strong enough, her handwriting looked like doodles.

People inside the castle never saw her without at least a book, and when reading she never stayed inside her room. She either climbed up the tree, which always gave the servants a heart attack, or lying down in the garden with her books.

Seeing her interest in books, her father never commented or asked about it, even if Yona took those books out from library and never put it back. All the books that she already took would be taken straight to her bedroom. Sometimes if her father needed them, he wouldn't search the library first, but instead, he would asked Yona whether she had taken those or not, since Yona's bedroom could already be considered as a mini library.

She was three years old when she met Soo-Won again. She was sitting on a bench in the garden, reading her favourite book; the story about King Hiryuu and the dragons. Suddenly, those familiar voices came to her hearing. "Yona! Good Morning!" was what he said.

When she saw him, she was really shocked. She knew that this day would come, so as to the day when she would meet Hak again, but no preparation could make her to actually stay calm when it was happening. Meeting with her ex-crush, not to mention this time, he was still the carefree, pure and innocent Soo-Won... It was really hard for her... when the fact that the same person would be the one who murdered her Father kept getting inside her head.

She tried to maintain her poker face and decided to go back to her book, completely ignoring him. It seemed her ignorant attitude taken him back. He tried another approach, like asking what book that she was reading, or trying to take a glimpse on the book, which Yona skillfully hide from him. When she decided that she had had enough, she closed her book and went away from him. He asked where she was going. "anywhere without you there" she answered coldly, which stopped his track completely. After that, he didn't follow her anymore.

She thought that her little stunt just now would make him never get close to her anymore. Little did she knew that it only sparked his curiosity even more and made him interested in Yona, like Yona was a really big messy puzzle that he needed to solve.

And then, Soo-Won became her constant companion. He came every day and would searched for Yona everywhere. At first, it was really a difficult task to track Yona down, but after a few weeks, he already knew a few spots that Yona never failed to go, such as a big old tree beside the gate and the castle's inner garden, which made Yona really annoyed, because her precious time was being taken away.

However, she didn't have any excuse to shoo him out, so she just let him came and ignored him all the way. Although she never payed any attention to him, he always tried to strike a conversation with her, which always failed. She never gave any response nor any indication that she heard him, but he always talked. Soon, he stopped asking her questions and chose to tell her story about his life or journey or anything that came to his mind. So far, he was the only talking one, though the occasional glance that Yona gave him assured him that at the very least, she didn't completely ignore him.

There was also times when Soo-Won chose to observe her and the surrounding, that he stayed silent instead of speaking. At those times, more often than not, Yona would found him already fall asleep beside her. She could not find in her heart to leave him alone, so in the end, she stayed beside him while reading books or just watching the cloud, an activity that learned from one of her previous comrades.

That person told her how nice it was to do cloud watching without any care to the world. At that time, she didn't know that feeling but now, she knew it is true. It is really nice to watch the cloud, drifting in the sky, without the fear that someone would suddenly come to tear your body apart. She had even make a habit to cloud watching whenever she had free time.

Soo-Won would wake up before the sun sets, although there were times when he would get a real long nap that needed her to wake him up since the sun already set. He would wake up with his sleepy face and became really sheepish soon. Those attitudes always made Yona's stoic face almost fall apart. And that was how her days go by.

It was a few months later that she met with this young Hak. It was a pure coincidence that she strolled to the meeting room, and that day there was a meeting between her Grandfather, who was the current Kouka's emperor Emperor Joo-Nam, with the five tribes' leader. It seemed like somehow Mundok dragged Hak to come along and that was how they met.

As soon as she saw him, the first thing that she did is freezing up. She didn't prepare at all for his arrival. She didn't remember when she met him in her previous life but she thought that it wouldn't be this soon. It had been only a few months after meeting Soo-Won, and Soo-Won was her cousin for goodness' sake!

That was why, when that happened, she did the only thing that she was really good at doing; to run away. Of course her action surprised Hak, since he never met someone who would run away at the first sight of him. Not to mention, at that time, he thought that Yona was a pretty boy, seeing her clothes and such.

Yona didn't give a damn about what Hak would think about her later. Her only mind was focusing on staying as far away as she could from Hak. She didn't know why, but inside her heart, it was hurting... she had always felt the pain whenever she thought of Hak, but now, seeing him in flesh was even more painful.

Even though she should had been happy, that now Hak was still breathing, alive in this world… she couldn't help but to think that this Hak was not the Hak before, not the Hak who was protecting her inside and outside castle, who gave her a reason to keep alive, who had never betrayed her. This Hak was not her Hak, and knowing that gave her so much pain. She knew she was selfish, but still... a small part of her always longed for the day she could be with her friends again, even if it's merely an impossible dream.

That day, she stayed inside her chamber, refusing to get out, even as far as locking the door and window. Her sudden action made all people in the castle worried. The castle was in jeopardize, and she could heard rumours about how Hak had scared her or even did something to her, starting to travel from mouth to mouth.

She could faintly heard Mundok and Hak's argument outside, but she could care less about that. That day, she cried her heart out, for that would be the last time she shed any remaining tears for her Hak, until she fell asleep.

She didn't get out for days, which made people even more frantic. She ate a little, and never allowed anyone to step inside her chamber, not even her parents. Soo-Won tried to pursue her, but as usual, she ignored him. After three days, people seemed to get the message that she wanted to be left alone. Even though they were a little uneasy, they still respected her space.

It was five days later that Hak came. "I don't know what had happened, Yona-sama, and I don't know what I did for you to be like this, but whatever it was, I apologize. If there is anything I could do to make you feel better, do tell me. I'll try to make it up to you." He said.

Right there, she wanted to scream out whatever inside her heart, but she knew she could not. It will only serve as a trouble. She choked back a sob, desperately trying to hold back her tears.

However, Hak was clueless as to what happened inside. He waited for any answer, but none was coming. A slight sob coming out for a moment and he thought that maybe his presence was what made her uneasy.

"I'm sorry if I scared you. I'll leave now." And then he walked away slowly as if waiting for her to come out. As he walked farther and farther, there was no sign of her coming out. He only let a sigh out and was going to go back to where Mundok was, before he heard a slight crack. He turned around and sure enough, Yona was opening the door a little, only enough to look at her small eye.

"I don't mind you here." She told him. And that was all she really told him before she closed the door again. Although she only told him that short statement, that single sentence already gave him so much relieves, for it seemed like, all these things was just a misunderstanding.

Two weeks later, Yona had finally overcome her break down stage. However, every time people asked her, she would shut her lips tightly. No one knew why, and people was curious, not exception Soo-Won. He might only know Yona for only a few months but he knew that Yona never shared her secret. Forcing her to spill it would only anger her more.

He wanted to know so that he could help her but he also respected her privacy. As he learned more about Yona, he felt like Yona was similar to him in more than one way. So, he would help her from other little things as much as he could. For example, trying to ease the tension between Yona and a certain kid.

She didn't know how Soo-Won and Hak could meet or how they could become friends. She only knew that somehow Soo-Won managed to drag Hak to accompany her. Again, She didn't have a reason to shoo Hak out, so she reluctantly let him in. She did what she always did, reading books while ignoring Hak and Soo-Won. At least, now Soo-Won had someone to talk to, instead of talking by himself till he fell asleep.

Both of them would never failed to show up at her private space, whether it was at her favourite tree or at the inner garden or even the library. Whenever they came to the castle, it seemed that it has become their habit to track her down. They would accompany her for the day till the sun sets or even as long as they stay there.

Sometimes they would chat; sometimes they would also join her to watch the cloud. They didn't know why she did it, but they never voiced that question, until one day, Soo-Won asked her himself. "Why do you like to watch the cloud?"

It was a simple question, one that he never expected any answer since Yona never did it anyway. It's just he was really curious as to why. Actually, there were so many why about Yona. Like why she liked to act like a boy, or why she always so quiet and cold, why and why and why... there was a never ending whys.

That's why he was surprised when he heard Yona's small voice. "Because when you can watch the clouds, it means at the very least, your life is bearable." That's Yona's first answer from all the time Soo-Won had been with her. The answer itself was puzzling, for that was a half-truth half-lie in Yona's part, but Soo-Won didn't really care.

What he cared the most was that finally, Yona was opening herself up to him, and knowing that, gave him the most happiness in his whole life. Even if it was only a sentence, at least he felt like Yona was starting to have some trust in him. And that made him so happy.

He had always admired Yona. Yona might not knew it, but there was times when he found Yona helping the servants or did the gardening herself. Seeing her humble attitudes made him really admired her. Even without any spoken word, she could show how much she cared about other people.

Servants could even share their hardship or worries, complains, or anything to her without being scared that she might told her parents, since she never did so. She might not offered a solution, but she always found ways to cheer them up, such as patting their head, giving them flowers, or drawing pictures... true, it was only a small gesture, but even that small gesture was enough to warm people's heart.

Soo-Won really admired that. He tried to be like Yona, and he wanted to learn more about Yona. It had been only a few months since they met, but he already set Yona as his role model. He knew that Yona was much younger than him, but sometimes, Yona's gaze felt older than how she appear to be. His gut was telling him to earn her trust; that he should never made an enemy out of her. That was why he kept trying, every single day, to earn the trust of his self-proclaimed sister.

And so, the peaceful day passed with the three of them together, until the day she finally hit four years old.

To be continued

And... CUT!

There you go! I hope you like it so far. I try to make other characters to not as OOC as I can. There might also a lot of grammar errors. I've tried my best in checking it, but I'm not that good in grammar part… so, yeah… .

Oh, and I've also publish this story in wattpad under the same title but the writing style is completely different. It's not I who write that though. It's lynrhyne who write that. We do some kind of collaboration in doing this fic, with me doing the shorter version and she do the longer version. I don't know who will finish first, but my own is already farther that hers though. If you have time, you can checked hers out on wattpad~ :D

Review, please, minna~ I will appreciate any comment, critique, correction, or other ideas from you, readers! So, don't forget to review after you read this chapter! XD

See you again~

Ld-G