Hey everyone! So I decided to continue the story as there is still a lot left to be told. I want to thank everyone who has read Aluthsia University and welcome all new readers. To anyone that commented about the grammar, spelling and Beta; I do not have a Beta nor do I have time for it and it would take me forever to post if I got one. As for the grammar and spelling, all chapters are spell checked by Word and Grammerly but sometimes mistake will get through. If spelling and grammar is an issue for you then this story won't be for you, as people have commented that it was painful to read I would suggest you skip this story as it is meant to be enjoyable not painful.

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It has been exactly two months and fifteen days since the night of the werewolf attack. The first few weeks after the attack was dreadful. Funerals were held for our fellow students who lost their young lives that night. The funerals were held in the court yard as oppose to the assembly hall.

The court yard was beautifully decorate in memory of the deceased students. There were stunning white roses mixed with a range of colourful flowers, a colour to represent each of the students who tragically lost their lives. Students hung notes that they have written for their friends that have passed on one of the large oak trees that stood proud in the middle of the court yard. By the end of the day the tree was adorned with notes for the deceased and well wishes for the injured students.

Edward and I both wrote notes. Edward's note was for Liam. The death of his friend hit him hard and I could see the tears as he tied the note to a branch. I didn't read the note nor did I ask Edward what he wrote. The note was personal and it was not my business to know what it said. I had thought that perhaps Edward or even Rose would have written a note in memory of Lizzie, but I was mistaken. They were both still so very angry at her and what she had done. It broke my heart knowing that a piece of their family was ripped from them and that they will never be the same. I didn't know how Edward's parents were handling the news. It must be hard for them to have to lose a daughter once again.

No matter what Lizzie had done, she was still their daughter. As much as I hate Lizzie, I could never hold mourning her against her family. Having suffered through a similar situation with my mother have me a unique understanding as to the conflicting feelings the Cullen family must be suffering. I had mourned my mother, missed her and wished she would come back. When I found out what she had done, it broke my heart all over again. I didn't know whether I still loved her or missed her. I was angry and heartbroken. The two emotions constantly at war with each other. It messes with your head. You don't know whether to love them or hate them. I think that was one of the reason, perhaps the most dominating reason, for putting up with Edward's cold behaviour.

My note was too personal to hang on the tree. At first I wanted to write a note for Alice as I didn't know any of the students who died apart from Liam, but then thought better of it. She died die. She was injured but her injuries had been relatively minor compared to the other students. I refused to see what happened to Alice in the same way as the other students. Alice will go on to live a full and happy life. She has amazing friends surrounding her with love and support. Most importantly I refused to write a note for Alice as I didn't want to see her as a victim because she was a survivor.

Instead I addressed my note to my Edward. He was hurt by Lizzie directly in a way that no one will ever be able to comprehend. The attack orchestrated by her will forever haunt him as will her betrayal. Edward had loved his sister fiercely and had always looked up to her when they were younger. He had spent so much time blaming himself for her death because he was no longer able to read her thoughts.

I can still remember the sadness in his eyes the first time he told me that story and it was all a lie. Lizzie had trick everyone into believing she was suffering from leukaemia and that it ultimately caused her death. Thinking back on the sadness she caused the Cullen family makes me wish that I had been able to make her death more painful.

This was why my note was dedicated to Edward. It was a reminder that he wasn't alone in his pain and that he was never to blame for any of it. I still have the note safely tucked away in my wallet. There were many days over the last two months in which I wanted to hand the note over to Edward. The days he was depressed and his self-loathing took over as he blamed himself for the destruction caused by Lizzie.

Those were the days I wanted to give him the note the most, but I knew it wouldn't make a difference. Edward wasn't ready to deal with his feelings yet. He wasn't ready to let me in and that hurt the worst. Our relationship has taken quite the strain after we returned from the Unknown the night of the attack. Edward started to shut me out completely and he is isolating himself from the world more and more every day.

Edward's withdrawal was one of my biggest concerns, but when I walk down the hallways of the university it's clear he wasn't the only one suffering. That night had made such an impact on so many students. Just like Edward, some students began to isolated themselves. Other students lashed out in anger as they couldn't cope with the grief. The manner in which students were dealing with the aftermath of that night was clear as day every time we were called into the assembly hall.

Due to the events that night, the professors has attempted to engage students more in the magic related subjects. That night made it clear that very few students were able to use magic in a defensive way. Being a freshman myself, I knew hardly anything about how to use my magic to protect me. I know how to use my telekinesis and my mark but am still clueless as to how to properly use my magic. Since the divide of the Unknown and the normal world, witchcraft had taken a nose dive. There were only a hand full of truly powerful witches left and the knowledge being passed down by the generations is dwindling. It was a frightening thought that magic might seize to exist if we don't do something about the problems lurking in the Unknown. But was that the solution? Regain control of the Unknown? What happens then? Will witches started moving back to the Unknown and get back to practising magic full time? Would I be one of those witches? Could I give up the comfort of my life here? After what had happened with the werewolves I didn't think there would be a lot of students signing up to move to the Unknown any time soon.

It took nearly two weeks for the construction crew to fix all the damage and redecorate the hall. To this day you can still see how uncomfortable students are when we are required to be in the assembly hall. Some wore fearful expressions, some were angry and other were still grief stricken. The university had tried to change the assembly hall in a manner that the décor was still in keeping with the rest of the university. However they tried to refresh it as to minimize the resemblance to the previous décor. They tried to distance memories of that night by redecorating the place. The jury is still out on whether or not they succeeded.

The assembly hall was now decorated in light creamy colours. It was still in keeping with the décor of the university but now there were no ornamental weapons or fire lanterns adorning the walls. Instead there was a large stone mural with all the victims' names engraved upon it. The overall atmosphere the new décor created was one of peace and tranquillity even if the students were still struggling to experience it as such.

Classes continued as normal, but the absence of the deceased students was noticed by all. There were constant reminders of that night and the death of all those innocent students. I'm sure one day we will look around and cherish the fond memories of those we lost, but it'll take time to look past the horror of that night. At first the classes were quit with only the professor speaking as no student voluntarily got involved in the lectures. After a few weeks the students started buzzing with Christmas excitement. We only had one more week left before we are off for our Christmas break. I think a lot of the excitement was due to students anxious to get away from the university, even if it was only for two weeks.

I was less excited about the break. I had never been a fan of Christmas, being a self-declared Grinch. The holiday season always brought back painful memories for me. I have spent the last few Christmases with Emmett and his parents and even though I love them like family, I always felt like an outsider on the holidays. I didn't always hate Christmas. When I was little my dad and I would go find the perfect Christmas tree at. We would make a whole day of it. We always drove into Port Angles to buy our tree. It was also the closest town with an ice rink. My dad and I would stop at the famous IHOP and get some pancakes, then go ice skating before we set out to find the perfect tree. It was always a magical day with him and no one would be able to replace him. My heart hurt every time I thought of him.

This Christmas will be especially hard. I had decided to go back home to Forks with Emmett. I needed to return to Forks regardless of the holidays as I needed to sort out insurance stuff. The fire Lizzie had set in my apartment and caused an awful lot of structural damage and I needed to have it fixed. So my Christmas will be spent trying to sort out the insurance money, contractors and trying to save what was left of the things I had kept in the apartment. One more important thing I needed to do while in Forks was make a trip to Seattle. I needed to go collect the book my grandmother had given me when Edward and I went to visit her. There was still so many question I had about the book and our families. The secrets contained in that book was intimidating and I find myself wondering if I really wanted to add to the growing list of problems I had. On the bright side, I might get to spend some time with my Nana.

I had hoped that Edward and I could have a redo of our trip over the break but he had made it clear he was staying in Los Angles. Edward wanted to stay close to his family over the holidays and point blank refused to go anywhere else. On one hand I understood that he would like to spend the holidays with his parents considering Carlisle had finally been released from the hospital. However that still meant that we will spend a little over two weeks away from each other and he had seemed perfectly fine with that idea. It was clear as day how much he was pushing me away and shutting me out. I was lost as to how to fix the cracks that has formed in our relationship. What worried me the most was that he might be blaming me for Lizzie's death. Granted I did kill her but what other options did I have? Edward would have died if I didn't and I would never regret what I had done.

I had also been assigned a new room which caused another rift in our relationship. It had taken a while to sort it out but I was just happy that I wouldn't have to share a room with torpedo Tanya. When I had told Edward the news he had seemed almost relieved that I will no longer need to bunk with him. I had to take several deep breaths to calm myself that day and had to remind myself that he was hurting. I continued to tell myself that it wasn't personal and it was just his way of dealing with everything. He had seemed so worried about me that night in the Unknown and now it seemed like he no longer cared. I pushed thoughts of Edward no longer caring to the back of my mind, afraid that there might be truth to it.

My new roommate was …. I don't really know how to describe her. Her name is Victoria Biers. She is stunningly beautiful. She is tall with legs that go on for miles and had curves that made me envious. She has long red hair that is always styled into tight curls that suited her bone structure perfectly. She had hazel coloured eyes that complemented her pale complexion. She was both nice and a bitch. As long as you were on her good side you were fine but the moment you piss her off she turns into the spawn of Satan. So far we have managed to get on well enough. She has a twin brother, Riley. They were similar in complexion and features, however Riley had a head of blonde curls and stood nearly a foot taller than me. I had met him a few times now and he was a lot friendlier then his sister. He was also smoking hot and way to charming for my comfort.

I was currently stuck in my Into to Magic exam. Professor Mike Newton was walking up and down the aisles of desks, housing focused and bored students. This was by far the most boring and useless class I have had this year. I have learned hardly anything apart from the fact that Mike enjoys eye fucking his female students. Emmett was sitting across from me, drawing crude stick figurines on spare exam paper. I had to stifle a laugh every time I glanced at his paper. Emmett knew about the problems Edward and I were having and he always tried to cheer me up. I could always confide in Emmett even though he was dating Edward's sister.

I was counting down the minutes to the end of the exam as I was already finished but wasn't allowed to leave. Our group of friends had agreed to meet up for coffee after our exams. We had a two hour break in between our next exam and were in desperate need for some good coffee.

The coffee shop owned by Jacob's dad has been closed down and someone else had opened a new coffee shop in its place. It turns out that the pack of werewolves that had attack the University that night was not from the Unknown, but the extended Black family. All of the Black family were werewolves. None of us were sure whether it was passed down genetically or if they simply bit and turned each other.

The new owners completely redecorated the place. It no longer had that cosy homey feeling to it. Now it was all sleek and modern to the point of it feeling sterile and clinical. There were a lot of white. Black and grey with the only pop of colour being fake ferns cleverly placed. Regardless of what it looked like they still made the best coffee on campus. Their cookies & cream muffins were to die for and has caused me to started working out more to keep the extra fat away from my ass.

"Five more minutes left" Mike announced. Thank god! I will be out of here in five more minutes and then I can indulge in my coffee addiction. I looked over to my right where Edward was seated a few rows over. They had both freshman and sophomores writing exams in the same hall, with juniors and seniors in a different hall. His hair looked wild as he had been pulling at it all throughout his exam. I couldn't stop myself from sneaking glances at him every few minutes.

I could see his face as he was leaning on his hand as he wrote furiously trying to finish his exam. His posture was stiff with concentration. He wore my favourite black knitted V-neck sweater that showcased his delicious muscles. He teamed it with dark washed jeans and his favourite black converse. He looked good, really good even though I knew he would have dark circles under his eyes due to stress and lack of sleep.

Across from Edward sat Heidi. I can still feel anger course through me at the thought of that bitch. Just like me, she was unable to keep her eyes of Edward for long and it annoyed me endlessly. Heidi was model beautiful. She had the figure of a model apart from the huge tits. Her shiny black hair nearly reached her ass and her grey eyes were mesmerising. Today she wore a tight bandage black top that pushed her boobs up to her chin. Ok, so maybe they didn't reach her chin but it sure looked like they were trying to. She had a blood red cardigan that was open in the front so that it doesn't obstruct the view of her tight flat stomach and massive boobs. (I might be a tad jealous of her boobs.) She paired it with black skinny jeans and red skyscraper heels. Who the hell would wears stilettoes to an exam?

As I was glaring at the back of Heidi's head someone placed a hand on my shoulder and gave it a quick squeeze. My head whipped around to see who was touching me. I came face to face with none other than Mike Newton. Oh great. He was bent down so that he was at my level. He was way too close to me. I could practically feel his onion breath on my face. Ewww! The dude really needed a lesson on personal space and how to use a toothbrush properly. Mike's hand was still on my shoulder and I could see his eyes raking down my body. I suppressed the shiver of disgust as I was afraid he might think he had a positive effect on me. Edward's touch always sent a shiver of desire through me but Mike's touch just made me want to douse myself in bleach and scrub till my skin is raw.

"I see you have finished your exam early, Bella." Mike whispered near my ear. I tried to keep my eyes cast down as this already felt super awkward and inappropriate.

"Yes sir. I studied hard and knew the answers to the questions," I answered truthfully. What else was I suppose too say? Your exam sucked so did all of your lectures?

"That's good Bella. Did you have any questions about the exam?" Mike asked as he squeezed my shoulder once more. My eyes snapped up at him unsure what he meant. What was he going to do? Give me the correct answers? And why the hell was he still touching me? When I made eye contact I could see lust burning in his eyes and then his eyes darted to my mouth. To my utter shock and disgust he licked his lips. He licked his fucking lips!

Before I could respond or look away, there was a loud snap in the quite exam hall. My eyes darted in the direction the noise came from. Edward had his pen in a death grip, well what was left of his pen anyway. The snapping sound must have been when Edward literally snapped his pen in half. He was looking over at me and Mike with burning eyes. He looked absolutely furious. If looks could kill Mike would be drowning in a pool of his own blood by now.

Before Mike could continue to harass me the other supervising Professor called the end of the exam. We were order to put our pens down and stop writing. Mike walked to the front of the hall and started to collect exam papers. When he reached me I simply stuck out my paper for him to take and I refused to look at him. I kept glancing over at Edward but he had his eyes cast down. It almost looked like he was shaking slightly. Once our papers were collected we were free to leave the exam hall. I shoved my pens into my bag and slung it over my shoulder.

I glanced over to Edward as I waited for Emmett to pack up his stuff. His professor collected his paper and Edward practically jumped out of his seat and stormed off. He was clearly still fuming. I wondered briefly what he might have seen in Mike's thoughts and then realised I didn't really want to know. Edward's anger and jealousy shocked me a little bit. At least I thought he was jealous. He had always been possessive but lately he was so distant that I didn't think he would care or even notice if a guy flirted with me. I mean Edward hardly kisses me anymore and we have only had sex once since the werewolf attack and it was passionless. I know its mean to refer to sex with your boyfriend as passionless but it really was.

Edward stormed out of the exam hall and Heidi ran after him like a lost puppy. I couldn't decide whether I was angry or sad about what just happened. Edward had clearly reacted over the Mike incident and decided to do what? Throw a tantrum like a kid and run off with his ex-girlfriend following him? How dare he do this! He was the one that was ignoring me and pushing me away! I knew this was a hard time for him but that does not give him the right to treat me like crap! I took a deep calming breath and promised myself that I will be rational and not over think everything. "Damn it Bella! Pull yourself together. You are a grown woman and not a love sick teenager!" I internally scolded myself. I knew I would get a chance to talk to Edward alone later today.

Despite the cold distance between us, Edward had insisted that he trains me at least thrice a week. Every Tuesday, Wednesday and Friday we meet up at five and Edward teaches me a mixture of martial arts and Krav Maga. Our training sessions are gruelling but I love them. The only problem is my lack of concentration when Edward removes his shirt during training. That boy's body should be illegal or at least come with a warning label. Our training session are always hot, sweaty and intense and they leave me horny as hell. I was so lost in thought that I jumped when Emmett place his hand on my shoulder.

"Hey, you ok Bells?" Emmett asked me. I gather my wits about me and turned to face my best friend.

"Yeah, I'm ok. I just don't know what his deal is any more." I confessed.

"I saw the way he reacted when Professor Douche nozzle was all over you. I know you guys are going through a rough patch but Bells no guy will react that way if he felt nothing." Emmett said as we headed to the coffee shop.

"If he still cares then why is he treating me like shit? Why the hell run out the hall first chance he gets instead of talking to me?" I asked through a chuckle at Emmett referring to Mike as a douche nozzle.

"Maybe he got covered in ink and didn't want you to see him all dirty," Emmett joked and gave me a wink.

"Ha-ha Emmett. For some reason I don't think that's why he ran," I said with a defeated sigh.

"I think there is a reason he is pushing you away but it's up to the two of you to talk about it. As for why he stormed out, all I can say is maybe he was too angry to talk about. I know you're worried about Heidi following him out but Edward won't cheat. He's not that kind of guy." Emmet assured me. The thing was, I wasn't sure what kind of guy Edward was anymore. I decided to push Edward out of my mind till after my last exam. I just needed some coffee and to relax a bit before my next exam.

Emmett and I walked down to the newly opened coffee shop, Café Insomnia. Alice, Jasper and Rose where already waiting for us at the corner table. We always tried to get the corner table us it as armchairs and a couch instead of hard upright designer chairs. We placed our order and chatted about the exam. It didn't escape my notice that Edward wasn't at our table.

"You do realise Newton has the hots for you," Emmett teased as we walked over to our table.

"Who has the hots for Bella?" Alice asked.

Alice has dealt with the whole I-turn-into-a-werewolf-every-full-moon situation like a true champion. We took turns helping her with the transformation. Two of us would go down with her to the dungeon and help chain her up before the transition. At first we wanted to try and swipe some morphine from the infirmary for her to help with the pain of the transition but she refused. She was afraid that an addiction could stem from it and she would rather deal with the pain then have to fight an addiction as well. She never complained about it and constantly thanked us for our help and support.

There are still times it's clear that she's afraid that she will lose us but that's never going to happen. The next full moon is in two weeks, when we are on our Christmas break. Alice has decided to stay at the university and celebrate Christmas with Jasper and the rest of the Cullen clan. Jasper and Edward has agreed to help Alice with the transformation over the break and Rose is on standby if they need her help. Alice will also be meeting Jaspers parents for the first time since she was a child. I think she is more nervous about that then the whole werewolf thing.

Alice and Jasper have been going strong and was so in love with each other. It was sweet to watch them walk hand in hand and steal quick kisses when they thought no one was watching. Alice had already dragged me to go shopping for the perfect 'meet the parents' dress. I have never seen her so nervous about something. It was adorable to watch poor Jasper try and calm down the little hurricane that is Alice.

Emmett and Rose have decided that it was time she met Em's parents as well. Rose wanted to spend Christmas with her family because of Carlisle's return home. They ended up compromising and agreed that Rose will bring in the New Year with me, Em and his parents. I had thrown the idea out there to Edward but he quickly turned me down.

I sat in my comfy armchair sipping on my liquid heaven as I looked at my friends. They sat close to their significant other and they all looked so happy and in love. I was truly happy for them but I couldn't help but feel a little jealous. They were all moving forward in their relationships but mine was falling apart. My rational side told me to start preparing for the break up that seemed more inevitable every day but my heart was screaming it's not over.

I was never the girl to listen to my heart. It always just caused me pain so I stuck with my head and logical thinking. However, this time trying to listen to my head was killing my heart. Maybe spending the holidays apart will be good for us. Perhaps the time apart will give us perspective and give us time to decide what we want. I wasn't ready to give up fighting for our relationship just yet. Perhaps I needed to take a more initiative approach to fixing it. I decided not to think about it anymore and just enjoy the company of my friends. I had three more exams to get through and I can't do that if my mind was focused on Edward.

"So what are you guys going to do for New Year's?" I asked Alice and Jasper as I dug into my muffin.

"Esme always plans a huge extravagant party. She goes all out. She organises a big fireworks display. It's always awesome." Jasper said excitedly.

"That sounds awesome," I said with a big smile. I loved fireworks. I always found them magical.

"What are your plans for New Years?" Alice asked as she cuddled into Jasper's side.

"We are having dinner with the parents and then we PARTY!" Emmett shouted and jumped up and rocked his hips seductively….well more like moronically. We all started laughing at Emmett's little dance. He was such a goof ball sometimes and I loved him for it.

"Our friends back home always have a big bonfire party down at first beach. The guys always set of fireworks and sneak in beer. It's always great fun." I explained through my laughter at Emmett's antics.

"That's cool but isn't it like freezing and constantly raining down in Forks this time of year?" Alice asked as she scrunched up her nose at the thought of getting her hair and pretty dress wet.

"It's always raining in Forks," I replied dryly.

"Yeah and Bells has perfected the drowned rat looked!" Emmett joked and everyone laughed at my expense. Assholes!

"Yeah well the rain always hid you wetting your pants when we were little, Em!" I said and stuck out my tongue at him. The look on Emmett's face was priceless. His cheeks were tinted red with embarrassment and his eyes were wide and his mouth hung open.

"Oh my god! Is that true?" Rose asked as she laughed hysterically. He was going to kill me, I just knew it. This was one of Emmett's most embarrassing stories.

"Of course it's not true!" Emmett said rather loudly which just caused us to laugh harder and other students to glared at us.

"Oh I need to hear this story," Jasper said as he tried to catch his breath. I looked per at Emmett, silently asking for permission. He let out a dramatic sigh and nodded his head for me to continue.

"My parents hired a slushy machine for my sixth birthday party. Emmett being the biggest slushy fan decided to drink as much as possible. At one point he just put his head under the tap to drink. Once the brain freeze wore of he would run back to the slushy machine. Any way he had a lot of slushy and after a few hours desperately needed the bathroom. It had started raining and everyone ran into the house. Unfortunately for Emmett this also meant that both bathrooms were occupied. The house was buzzing with people and he was dying to pee. So when he couldn't hold it in anymore he grabbed my hand and pulled me outside into the rain. When we were out of the view from the other party goers Emmett threw his head back, closed his eyes and let out this massive sigh Turns out he peed his pants as we got drenched in the rain." I explained through my laughter.

"Hey! That was a brilliant plan and it worked! Nobody knew what I did expect you," Emmett declared proudly. Well he got over the embarrassment rather fast.

"That's still gross," Alice said as she laughed.

"Oh come on Ally Cat, like you haven't done anything gross before?" Emmett asked with a raised eyebrow, almost as if he knew something.

"But if you guys are going down to the beach in the cold and rain what will you wear?" Alice asked returning the conversation back to the original topic and effectively avoiding Em's question.

"We always just wear jeans and a nice top with a jacket. We always bring blankets to keep warm. Plus it doesn't rain as much down at the beach as it does in Forks." I explained and Alice looked horrified.

"What?! So you don't wear dresses? No dressing up to start a new year?" Alice asked disgusted. I couldn't help but chuckle at my fashion addicted friend.

"Relax Alice. Our New Year is about comfort not style" I tried to soothe her.

"Yeah and a bunch of us go for a swim in our underwear!" Emmett shouted excitedly. That was always his favourite part. Some of the guys try to convince us to go skinny dipping but no one is brave … or stupid enough to do it.

"Alice, if it makes you feel any better we can go shopping. You can help Bella and me to pick out a cute, beach appropriate, outfit. I still need to get a few presents so we can make a day of it," Rose offered and Alice started bouncing excitedly in her seat.

"That's perfect! Oh we can get pancakes again! Oh Rose you will Mrs. Cope's pancakes." Alice said enthusiastically.

"She's right, the pancakes are to die for," I agreed. My mouth was watering at the thought of eating those fluffy blueberry pancakes once more.

"I want pancakes too!" Emmett whined.

"Why don't you guys come with us? We can all go for pancakes and then do some shopping," Alice said with puppy dog eyes knowing the guys aren't keen on shopping.

"I'm in." Jasper said and kissed Alice sweetly.

"Woohoo! Pancakes for all!" Emmett cheered.

"So it's settled. We will head into the city on Thursday," Alice said.

"That's fine with me. My last exam is Wednesday afternoon." I said and everyone else agreed Thursday is fine. Thursday was really the only day we have to go as Em and I leave on Friday. I needed to go shopping anyway so I wasn't dreading this trip as much as I would normally. Plus, if I get bored I can stick with the guys and leave Rose and Alice to their shopping.

"Bella, are you going to invite Edward?" Rose asked a little unsure. Edward hadn't shown up to meet us at the coffee shop and I was sure everyone was trying not to bring to much attention to it.

"I'll ask him. Not sure that he will show up though," I said not sure what else to say.

"I can ask him if you want." Jasper offered with a sympathetic smile.

"No, it's ok. I'll ask him later." I said slightly defeated.

We finished our coffees and muffins before we headed of towards the exam halls. Only Alice and I had an exam this afternoon so we slowly walked over to the examination hall. Once we said good bye to our friends, Alice and I walked to the exam hall. Once we were walking alone the Alice inquisition started.

"So how are things between you and Edward?" Alice asked softly. I mentally sighed, not sure how to answer that.

"It's fine." I lied, not really in the mood to get into my problems with Edward before my exam.

"Bella, I know it's not fine, we all do. Talk to me about it. We are all worried about the two of you," Alice said as she took my hand and gave it a sympathetic squeeze.

"It's not fine. It's horrible Allie. He is so distant. We hardly spend any time together other than our training sessions and when we do it feels strained on his part. Kind of like he really doesn't want to be there. I can't remember the last time he kissed me and our sex life is non-excitant," I confided. I felt relieved talking to someone but my heart hurt from admitting to our problems out loud.

"Oh Bella, that's awful. Do you know why he is being so distant?" Alice asked as she took my hand and gave it a sympathetic squeeze.

"I thought it might be with the stress of everything that happened. Perhaps he is having a hard time dealing with it all but I feel like there is something else but I don't know what it is." I said dejectedly.

"Edward loves you Bella. I know it might not seem that way but he still looks at you in that I-can't-live-without-you way he always have," Alice tried to assure me.

"You think so?" I asked.

"Yeah, I really do. I don't think he will ever stop loving you. Plus I saw how he reacted to that pervert Mike flirting and touching you. If that doesn't scream that he still loves you then I don't know what does," Alice said with a knowing smile.

"You know something don't you?" I asked suspiciously.

"Let's just say that I won't worry about you and Edward not ending up together in the end," she said vaguely. We rounded the corner to the hall and before I could question her anymore she stopped abruptly and I walked straight into her back.

"Alice, what the fuck?" I hissed as I tried to regain my balance. She didn't answer me so I looked over to what she was staring at. In the hallway across from us stood Edward and Heidi, hidden from the flow of students heading to the exam hall. From what I could see Heidi was leaning against Edward's torso with her hand moving up and down his chest. She was whispering to him what looked like it was meant to be seductively. Edward on the other hand looked absolutely furious. His hands were clenched into fists and was held rigidly at his sides. I couldn't help but smile a little at the clear anger on Edward's face at Heidi's advances.

I slowly walked closer as I really wanted that bitch to stop touching Edward. I was a few feet away from them when Heidi stood up on her tippy toes and tried to kiss my man. I saw red but before I could do anything Edward pushed her away from him harshly before she could get her lips near his.

"What the fuck do you think you are doing?" Edward hissed at Heidi as he held her away from him.

"Oh come on Eddie. I know you want me. Everyone knows you and the trollop are done for. So why are you denying yourself the touch of a real woman?" Heidi whispered seductively as she tried to kiss him again. Damn, she really can't take a hint.

"Don't you dare talk about Bella like that! I don't want you! I lo.. I will always want her and that will never change! How much more clear can I make that to you?!" Edward sneered at her as he pushed her away from him again. My heart did a little jump at hearing Edward say he will always want me. However it almost sounded like he was about to tell the skanky troll that he loves me. He hasn't said that to me yet but he has assured me in many way that he does. Well he did before the werewolf attack anyway.

I cleared my throat and both Edward and Heidi's heads snapped towards me in a comical way that nearly made me laugh. Before Edward could say anything, that douche nozzle Mike Newton called us into the hall as our exam is about to start. The three of us reluctantly walked into the exam hall. Before I could make my way down the aisle to my seat Edward grabbed my hand and pulled me into him. His hand slid into my hair and he crashed his lips onto mine hungrily. The kiss was filled with passion and dare I say love? He pulled away too quickly for my liking. I pouted up at him and he gave me his signature smirk.

"Good luck with your exam love" Edward whispered as he let me go.

"Edward…" I started but he cut me off with a quick peck to the lips.

"Not here. We'll talk about it later," He said with pleading eyes. I nodded and wished him luck and made my way to my table.