Disclaimer: I do not own Fairy Tail or any of the characters I am writing about! I own only the plot for this story and Hiroshima owns everything else!
WARNING: This is a YAOI with the main ship revolving around Gratsu (GrayxNatsu).
Foul language.
Natsu is pretty OOC this chapter.
Please, if you do not like, do not read.
THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS CONTENT WHICH MAY TRIGGER
ADULT THEMES WILL BE VAGUELY EXPLORED IN THIS CHAPTER such as panic attacks and slight assault
I HAVE ALSO CHANGED THE RATING TO M SO PLEASE BE AWARE
I have warned you now, please if you are underage or if you do not wish to read such, you may leave. Thank you. I also apologize if I offend anyone with what I have written in this. This is in no way is anything close to what real victims feel, so please don't mistake my simple intentions.
! THIS IS OFFICIALLY MY REPLACEMENT CHAPTER FOR CHAPTER 4 !
I had previously posted an author's note with explained that I was deleting chapter four and replacing it with a new version. Well, THIS IS THE NEW VERSION. Many parts may seem very similar (such as the beginning) so please don't be confused. THIS CHAPTER HAS A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT IDEA FROM MY PREVIOUS VERSION SO PLEASE READ. Or else it is very likely that you will be confused once chapter 5 and the rest is uploaded.
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I hope this chapter doesn't get too crazy!
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~Chapter 4~
Idiot
Tiny specks of flies scurried away from the heavy, humid air weighing down with no mercy. The brilliant ball of light shone in the clear blue sky, scaring any clouds and generous winds miles away from the melting city.
Lucy sighed, fanning herself with her dainty hand uselessly. "Loke, why- er how are you still wearing your blazer? I'm sweating just looking at you!"
Said student glanced at her with a grin, "If you're feeling that hot and bothered, I would be happy to take it off if you wish. Shall I also unbutton my shirt princess?"
"I-I never said that!," Lucy yelled at her smug boyfriend, flustered deeply, "Fine! Sweat and die of a heatstroke, see if I care baka!" She huffed turning away.
Natsu sank further into his arms with a bored expression as he watched the ginger now try to apologize to his huffing girlfriend.
"I'm bored…" he whined turning onto his back from his position laying on the flush grass.
"What? Is your black hole of a stomach finally quenched?" Gray mused next to him.
Natsu stuck his tongue out at the raven, "Shaddup block-head!"
"Hey Gray", Loke called, now with a blushing Lucy seated in his lap.
Gray lazily looked over at the couple, "What?"
"Come over will ya? Aquarius is coming over later tomorrow and I'm not ready to deal with her alone", he grimaced.
Lucy looked up at him with a pout, "Why aren't you inviting me? We get along so well!"
Loke sweatdropped and nervously chuckled, "U-Uh, I don't really think she's too happy when she sees you…" he muttered.
Lucy sat up straight up in his lap and turned to him, glaring, "Huh?! It's always your fault! Whenever I'm around you two, you become a pervert and I always get blamed because she doesn't believe that her dear cousin would do such a thing!" she mocked.
Natsu sat up at this and cocked his head curiously, "Who's Aquarius?"
"She's my cousin and can start criticizing everything when Scorpio isn't around." Loke smiled grimly before he burst out in a bright grin, "But she also has a soft spot for our Gray over here!" he chirped happily.
He scooted closer to the scowling raven, Lucy having crawled off earlier when she was upset. Smiling smugly, the ginger wrapped an arm around Gray's shoulders, grinding his fist on his head as he spoke, "I think she has a thing for guys who can't keep their shirt on."
Gray shoved him off, sighing, "It's on right now, isn't it!"
It was true, the white, button up shirt was barely hanging on by three buttons.
"Not for long though…" Loke muttered, before dodging a punch sent his way. "Anyways, will you? Come on, you can't deny that she can be pretty cute sometimes!"
Gray rolled his eyes, "Sure, I don't really care."
Natsu blinked at the declaration. He sat up, not liking the feeling invading his chest, what, was Gray gonna ditch him for some random girl who apparently had a crush on him?
Loke smiled brightly at the response, "You my man bro!" he cheered.
It had been a few weeks since Gray first became his serva-ahem bodyguard. Even though he had quite fun working the raven to death during the first few days, guilt easily overwhelmed the boy. Especially when he saw how it affected him at school. He could tell that Gray wasn't being top notch with his schoolwork now that he was busy pampering his spoiled butt, so he started letting the raven leave a couple minutes to eight when he was safely tucked into the protected eye of his father.
He hugged his legs to his chest as his large, emerald eyes followed Gray's movements. Of course none of their friends knew about their arrangement. They would all have different disagreements and things would get annoying, no matter how much Natsu wanted to brag about having The Gray Fullbuster at his mercy. But if the idiot wanted to play it this way… he chewed on his lower plump lip in thought.
Huffing, he stood up, almost bumping his head into the branch lazing above him from the sakura tree he was situated under. Narrowing his eyes, Natsu placed his hands on his hip sassily, "Oi! Ice Block, exactly where do you think you're going today mister?"
Gray paused his punch which almost delivered to the ginger's head and rolled his eyes. He could sense the tantrum the boy was about to have, "It's fine isn't it? I'm just heading over to Loke's for a couple, I'll be back before your lazy ass even leaves the school grounds."
The disheveled mess from the previous rough housing next to him whined before pouting when Gray glared at him to shut it.
Gray sighed, one drama queen at a time please.
When he looked back up he noticed the pinkette struggling to stomp over to him from the thrown bodies lazing on the grass whom were their friends. When he finally did make it over to the seated raven, he crossed his arms huffing, "And what if someone bombs the school while you're away? Or if some machine thingy goes haywire nearby. Idiot! If you think that you can just do whatever, you have another thing coming! I take my life very seriously. Don't think I'll forgive you if I die!"
Gray ruffled his dark locks, the idiot stood there as if he was proud of his small lecture while his so called friends started snickering before doubling over in laughter behind the boy.
"Nah, I don't think you should take your life too seriously Na-chan, if ya die, ya die, ya know?" Gray snorted.
Natsu furrowed his brows, was he making fun of him?! He balled his fists, feeling rather upset.
"Hey! Ice-block, take me seriously!"
"Fight me shorty."
"No! You don't get it! You can't go!" Natsu yelled furiously, frustration overwhelming him. The other boy didn't even seem to care the way he was just flicking his words away.
Gray finally glared at him from under his bangs, lowering his voice so only the pinkette could hear, "I have been working my ass off doing your will every single fucking day, if I ask for an hour of not being tortured, I think I fucking deserve it dumbass."
Natsu didn't like it one bit. That glare that Gray gave him, it further upset the pinkette more than it should have. So what if he didn't want the other to go?! Just don't go dumbass! He bit his lip, swallowing down the emotion bubbling up, but unfortunately he didn't do as much of a good job for his voice cracked and his voice went high pitched, "But-! I don't want you t-to go-"
"I'm going."
Gray cut Natsu off. He had an air of authority and his expression told the pinkette to shut it. It hurts.
Natsu bit down a hiccup. So Gray would rather hang around with some slut rather than him. Fine! He didn't care! Especially since it looked like Gray doesn't care about him at all…!
Natsu sniffled quietly, when did Gray's eyes become so mean? Biting his lip, Natsu cried out hastily before stomping away, "Why don't you do your job instead of flirting with some bimbo!"
Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.
Natsu thought angrily as he wiped roughly at his leaking eyes with fists.
Turning the corner quickly with blurry vision, his heart gave another yank, pulling out a sob which he barely concealed.
So in Gray's eyes, Natsu, who met Gray since childhood was worth less than some girly Gray could ogle at. Turning around another corner, Natsu scurried down the hall with blurs of colors for sight while trying to hide his face under his bangs. It hurt! His chest was hurting! So. Bad.
Amidst all the hiccups, Natsu let out a squeak when he was abruptly slammed into a hard chest. Natsu's mind whirled a billion thoughts per second as he glanced up through his bangs and saw Zancrow, a student who should be a senior as of now but was held down a grade because of his ugly nature.
Not only that, but he was also accused of previously assaulting Lucy during the past year and almost assaulting himself if Gajeel hadn't been walking by.
"U-Um, I-I-… E-Excuse me-me…" Natsu mumbled, hiccups jumbling his words to be even less understandable. Before the blonde could utter a word he pushed off and began racing down the hallway again, this time with his heart raging against his rib cage. He thought that Zancrow had been expelled for a few more weeks after the past rumor had spread about him.
Turning the last corner before his destination, Natsu glanced back, anxiety crawling up his neck before he gave a relieved sigh when he found Mr. Macao dragging the towering blonde off somewhere else. Relieving a hushed sob, he finally pushed the heavy door to the boy's bathroom before sliding down to his knees and quietly crying.
Who was this stupid Aquarius bimbo anyways?! So what if the stupid womanizer already had some slut ready to undress him? Fine go ahead!
Sniffling, he rubbed his eyes in the sleeve of his soft sweater. Why did it hurt so much then? He didn't care! Let idiot Gray have his fun with some stupid stranger girl. He didn't deserve his amazing presence anyways.
Natsu pulled his knees tighter to his chest while hugging them, stray hiccups escaping his pink lips. He glared at the innocent trashcan against the opposite wall.
He knew why he was so upset. It was because he was just sleep deprived, not because of that big idiot. Who cared about that stripper, he quietly huffed. He was just crying because he was tired and sleepy. His dad woke him up again at ungodly hours this morning just for a stupid checkup with his doctor. And of course, just as always, Natsu knew nothing of what was happening once again.
He was injected some anesthetic again before he blacked out, only seeing his doctor step close to him with inquiring eyes and a boring clipboard as all faded to a soothing black. When he came to, he had a breathing mask on and some tubes connected to his underarm with sharp needles impaled deep into his soft skin. On a tray next to him, Natsu could clearly see heavy liquid trapped in glass containers which could only identify to be his.
Another blood test.
He had tried to regulate his breath and not hyperventilate as panic started creeping up his back as always whenever he found himself in these situations. He should have been used to them now, but he knew he wouldn't ever be. However, the sight of his father leaning against the counters and reading some reports calmed him enough. He was ok. He was ok.
Breathe Natsu. Breathe. In no time he would be back at school with all his friends. Just breathe, and he will be okay.
He turned his attention to his doctor who didn't seem to be in such good shape either. He had been shuffling over papers repeatedly in frustration which didn't help Natsu's panic. He had a slight scruff and red seeping into his eyes which had indicated his nights without sleep.
Was there something wrong? Was there something wrong with him? Is something he would ask himself every time he found himself in these situations. He was told to never bring these appointments up when he was outside of this room. And so he didn't. But secretly, these moments always terrified the poor pinkette. They had recently started causing him nightmares well into the night with him being diagnosed to some deadly disease or having some terrible infection.
His eyes glazed over, having suddenly felt a heavy weight invade his chest. "A-Ah..."
He then glanced down at his arm, and numbly watched the needle retreat from his soft skin. Natsu shut his eyes, trying to tune everything out. He suddenly felt more aware his heart beat, it had echoed loudly in his ears and pounded against his chest. Now what was happening? He swallowed thickly and opened his eyes to gaze at his father, searching for an answer. He received none.
Feeling tears grow at his lashes, Natsu bit his lip. He hated these sessions. He didn't know what was happening and all he ever saw his father do during, or for a few hours after these appointments was shuffle through reports with a frustrated glare. Was there something so bad about him that his father didn't like?
He jumped when a light hand rested on his rosy locks. He glanced up through his bangs and sniffled his tears back. His doctor smiled at him brightly despite his tired appearance.
"What's that face for? You are the most perfect young boy your father could have ever wished to have. He's just realizing how special you truly are right now." Natsu turned to watch his father as the man in question rubbed his face tiredly. His doctor laughed at that, "Its just hard for him to accept it. But I promise you there isn't anything wrong here. There isn't anything to fix. You're just more gifted than your father originally thought you were." He ruffled his hair.
Natsu turned back to face his doctor. He never paid much attention to the man during these moments, his attention was always focused on his father. This was the first time that he had spoke to him like this. And Natsu didn't know whether to be relieved or not that it was the doctor speaking to him instead of his father.
"Kay..."
His doctor chuckled again and gave his hair another quick ruffle. He turned around and walked over to the tray with his blood samples before reaching for a syringe and turning to his father, "Sir..."
Natsu watched his father cautiously, this would be the first time his father would look up from the papers since he woke up. All Igneel offered was a glance at the medicine contained in the tube of the syringe and giving a swift nod. Then he was back in his documents with a sigh.
Natsu looked at his doctor with questioning eyes. He gave him a wrinkly smile and held up the syringe, "I want you to be careful today my boy. This medicine is going to increase your heart rate, thus increasing your sensitivity to your surroundings. Your emotions are going to be hyperactive so try to keep them in check okay?"
Natsu nodded despite not understanding a single word. It didn't matter anyways, he still didn't know what the purpose for it was.
Gray's eyes were still wide from when he caught a glimpse of the unshed tears in the pinkette's glassy eyes. The group had resumed lazing around and chatting thinking nothing of their small display. Except Loke. With him being the only one close enough to the fighting duo previously, he also had just barely caught a glimpse of Natsu's teary expression, stunning him as well. He couldn't hear what the two were hissing at each other about but to see their pinkette this upset made him wonder.
"Oi…" he called as Gray ruffled his hair and sighed in exasperation, his expression nothing less than furious.
"I know." Gray growled, "Don't say anything. I know I fucked up."
Loke gulped, "Yeah… kinda did man… I mean I dunno what the both of you were talking about but you didn't need to be so harsh on him man."
Gray groaned, letting himself fall into a laying position on the flush grass, "I know, it's just that, he's so fucking infuriating with his selfish demands bro…"
Loke chuckled , dropping out of the tense atmosphere, "If I didn't know any better, it would sound like you two are dating, and Natsu's got you whipped good."
Gray glared at him, "Whatever."
Loke turned back to the cherry blossom tree in thought, "Bimbo though…"
They both erupted laughing.
Gray snorted, "I have no idea where he came up with that."
Loke grinned, "You got a jealous boy in your hands, dude. Good luck." He peaced out before crawling back over to his girlfriend as the bell rang.
Gray groaned, burying his face in the soft grass, too tired to lash out at the idiot.
"Oh also!" Loke called, getting Gray's attention from cuddling with the grass, "If he's that upset, why don't you invite him too? Maybe Aquarius will find a liking in him too and I won't have to depend on you and your shirtless fetish."
Lucy blinked, once second she had her boyfriend's head in her lap and as he hand went to play with his hair before heading to class, his head disappeared. Instead she could hear bloodcurdling screams echoing across the courtyard with Gray's threats following close.
"Oh ho ho, look at you, curled up into the corner", Natsu was startled awake when a large hand caught his shoulder and raised him up before slamming him into the wall, "Aren't you just the sweetest little thing."
Natsu's eyes dilated in panic when they met Zancrow's crazed red ones, his thoughts jumbled as his sleep dazed mind was harshly pulled out and into consciousness. He glanced behind the towering should be-senior and found the bathroom he was previously wailing in. He must have fallen asleep!
Zancrow laughed cruelly, "I got have my fun with the pretty blonde thing but when I got to you…" he came so close that their noses were almost touching and Natsu couldn't help but gag at his breath. It was as if he didn't brush for days!
"… Redfox got in the way. But now, no one will or can. No one will come to find you because classes have begun. So smile for me honey, we can have this time all for ourselves."
Natsu silently cursed free periods, he all of a sudden didn't like them anymore because if he didn't have them, then right now he would be in class! The one time the stupid womanizer isn't with him..!
Gritting his teeth, Natsu gave a powerful kick right in between Zancrow's legs before he caught his leg and twisted it. Natsu screamed loudly before Zancrow muffled it letting go of his neck, "Now, now", he whispered, "I think it would be best if you stayed quiet, after all we don't want any teacher now do we Natsu Dragneel, eye candy of Magnolia?"
Natsu was too busy recollecting fresh batched of air as he tried to focus his blurry vision. He felt a hitch in his breath, why now of all times? And where was that idiot Gray?!
"Unfortunately though... No matter how much I want to play with you this second, all good things will come in good time." Zancrow's face once again invaded his owns' personal bubble as his wretched breath invaded it. "I heard about you," he whispered as nibbled on his ear, "I heard about the rumors…"
Natsu couldn't think clearly, what rumors?!
"Your old man couldn't keep it a secret from my family. Grimoire Heart knows everything! What an old fool!" he laughed.
He tilted his head, snatching the boy's chin between his long fingers, "Don't glare at me slut. The day we leak this information, is the day your father's company falls!" Zancrow smiled crazily.
"Oh how I would to have a look for myself…" He squeezed his ass causing Natsu to squeak, but his watery eyes stayed firm with a glare. "Imagine if I told… how about your beloved Gray?"
Huh...?
Natsu paused, "I've heard that he's become quite close to the Dragneel family, I don't know how or why, but I do know you care for that dick. So… what if I told your dear Gray about the Dragneel's secret?"
Zancrow laughed loudly at Natsu's expression, "My dear! You don't even know the secret, it's supposed to be kept top secret by your father, so what's that face for?" he growled, squeezing his delicate neck. Natsu choked, blind spots starting to dance in his vision. He gasped for fresh batches of air, feeling faint. Just as he felt his consciousness being snatched away, he was released.
The pinkette dropped harshly to the tiled floor, and he immediately gripped tightly onto his sweater, breathing heavily. His heart was going haywire. "Ngh..."
He looked up at the crazy blonde with a glare as he tried to breathe. Natsu coughed a little but that only caused his chest to explode. He started regretting not asking his doctor what was in the medicine.
Zancrow took a step forward causing Natsu to scramble further back against the wall. The senior laughed at the panic in Natsu's tearful eyes. Crouching down, he grabbed ahold of the pinkette's chin once again and tilted his head in wonder.
"G-Gray..."
Zancrow's face suddenly scrunched up at the sound. Growling deeply, he slammed Natsu's head against the bathroom wall. Without another word, he left, almost ripping the wooden door off its hinges on the way.
Natsu collapsed on the tiles, pulling at his sweater. His head felt dizzy and he could barely tell if his lungs were accepting the oxygen he was snatching from the air. A sob escaped his parched lips, with only one name pounding against his skull.
And when Laxus slammed the door open minutes later, rushing to his hyperventilating figure, all Natsu could see or comprehend was that Gray wasn't there.
It was quiet. Too quiet. Gray didn't like how his thoughts were screaming in the silence. His wrinkled shirt lay on the edge of the bed where a small form was bundled up.
It was past eight by now. He rubbed his sharp blue eyes while watching Natsu sleep. What did Makarov mean a panic attack? That was the most fucked up explanation. It didn't explain any of the the bruises or small injuries. They had to be shitting him.
Sighing, his biggest regret... he wasn't there.
Natsu yawned loudly, surrounded in cloud-like material. He sat up in his fluffy surroundings only to discover that it was his bed. He blinked his doe eyes and looked up to find something stuck to his forehead. Resembling a confused bunny, he reached for the annoying thing and ripped it off only to find his wrists wrapped in bandages and an ache in his ankle.
He touched the bandages with a finger before snatching it away and frowning.
He looked at the "thing" and found a ripped paper with messy handwriting which he could only identify as the womanizer's.
I ditched Aquarius. If your lazy ass needs me, I'm with the tailor.
Natsu put the note to the side as his gaze once again rested on his wrists. Flashbacks ran through his thoughts as his lip trembled.
His doctor smiled at him, "He's just realizing how special you truly are right now."
Zancrow sneered at him, "I heard about you."
Idiot Gray... he's scared.
A/N: Hello! Once again, please I don't mean to offend anyone with the assault scene, or what was supposed to be a panic attack. I just believed that these scenes are important to my storyline and incorporated them in.
I HAVE CHANGED THE RATING TO M!
Also, does anyone ever read the Warnings? Cause like, I don't want angry people after me, so read it peoples! :)
! THIS IS MY REPLACEMENT CHAPTER 4 !
I had posted an author's note already addressing this but I deleted my previous chapter 4: Emotions, and this is the new version. The previous version of chapter 4 was interfering with the storyline I had set and I had to redo it, thus this is my new version. I HOPE YOU ENJOYED AND THAT THERE IS NO CONFUSION.
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