She got into her car without any hesitation, she wouldn't allow her friends to see the mess she immediately became after realizing that Beck wasn't going to leave the 'poker night' to get food with her.

She started up her car without letting it 'relax', as she often said her baby/car was supposed to do, she instead drove off for she didn't want to be near Tori's house.

Her face remained dead set in a terrifying glare but from her eyes poured tears, after all that she has been through this was going to be the hardest thing to get over. She's dealt with death, divorce, her father hating her, her decision to rip herself from most emotions towards others, breakups and much more.

But this breakup was different from the rest, this pain was different, this wasn't something she could deal with like her father hating her decision to start singing and acting. This pain was from a relationship she thought was going to last forever, one that would take the pain away when she couldn't take it anymore.

Besides Cat, Beck was the only other person in the world that has been able to make her smile after a bad day, to make her feel like everything was alright even though a part of her knew it wouldn't be...but as long as she had him it felt alright.

Beck made her feel complete but now a part of her was missing...but she knew what she had to do.

She went to Beck's house with determination in her eyes but the second she entered the home of her ex-boyfriend she felt weak in the knees, she felt like she could collapse any second. She wouldn't allow it though, she couldn't let herself be weak at a moment like this.

Removing her backpack from her shoulder she started to stuff all of her items into her bag, tears continued to roll down her face as she had to separate her shirts between his.

The scent of his cologne made it's way to her nose, it was already a sickening feeling to know she would have to deal with never smelling him early in the morning, after a really hot day, or even late at night when she couldn't sleep from a nightmare.

It was becoming overwhelming but as she picked up the 'stupid' stuffed voodoo doll he had gotten her for one of their anniversaries, she realized that that was the last of her items and with a heavy heart and sigh, she left his home.

Once again she entered her car, shoved the keys into ignition, but this time she let her car relax as she laid back into her seat. Allowing her shoulders to slump she threw the bag in the back seat and placed the voodoo doll in the passenger's.

She found a mirror in the glove compartment and stared at her reflection, her eyeliner and mascara was completely ruined, her eyes were a bright red/pink, and anyone from even the farthest distance could tell she was clearly upset.

Jade wasn't like this, she didn't show much emotion, only sarcasm and pleasure towards sadistic things or her remarks/thoughts. The Jade she forced herself to be was no longer present instead she found herself looking at the child she hadn't seen in a long time.

The child that cried after the death of her grandparents, the suicide of her best friend at the time, the loss of many friends to mental illnesses, abuse, or even cps taking them to a new home that was just as bad (or worse than) as the last.

She hadn't seen the reflection of that child in a long time, the child that stared into her grandparent's bedroom mirror and questioned as to why everyone she loved had to leave her. The child that made a decision no child should ever have to make, to take a blade to her thin wrists in order to draw blood.

Those same weak, vulnerable, scared eyes stared back at her once again, she was only 6 when she lost her grandparents, 7 when she lost a friend to abuse, 8 when she lost a friend CPS, 9 when she lost a friend to suicide, and 10 when the divorce happened. After the divorce she promised herself to lock up any emotions, to become the person she is now known to be.

She put the mirror away, sniffed, and drove back home. Forcing her mind to be as blank as possible she entered her home with her bag, her mother was clearly not home yet as she didn't hear her complaining about Jade being out so late.

Making her way to her room she tried her hardest not to break down crying, a part of her wondered if this is how her mother felt when she found out about the affair and realized a divorce was necessary. Did she break down crying? or did she hold back all of her feelings and simply said 'fuck the man'?

Opening the door to her room she threw her bag and doll to the ground, closed the door behind her, and checked the time. It was 9pm and surely the 'poker' game would only last an hour as she couldn't imagine Vega being allowed to stay up late.

The only good outcome of it ending early would be the fact that Cat would surely come after her, the cheerful and colorful girl would surely be worried about her best friend and how she was feeling...right?

It was painful to think that Cat would no longer be her friend after making her faint in the Janitor's room and then breaking up with Beck in front of her, the three of them had become good friends after 7th grade and then a few years later they met Andre. But would that break her relationship with Cat?

No, no she refused to believe that something like a romantic relationship would make Cat stop being friends with her. Cat was with her through all previous break ups and will be here for her during this one, it'll be the same thing as always. Cat forces Jade to watch some disney movie, or child movie, the two will eat popcorn together, talk crap about her ex, enjoy some soda then stay up doing whatever they want until someone passes out.

She waited half an hour before getting pissed off, she hated the idea of Cat being around her 'friends' and Beck any longer, she wanted the girl at her house as fast as possible even if it meant driving all the way over there to get her. So she texted cat.

Jade: Hey Cat when do you want to come over?

Cat: heeeey! the card game is almost over, robbie keeps getting upset at being teased for crying six times, andre's grandma wants him home because i guess she thinks there is a cat trying to rob them, tori is getting annoyed with trina and no one really likes trina.

Jade: Let me guess Trina is all over Beck isn't she? I should have gotten that hammer I promised and broke her face with it.

Cat: nooooo don't hurt anyone Jadey! unless it's for me i guess...i don't really have a ride to your house and isn't your mom at home?

Jade: Mom isn't home and I'll drive over there if you want me to...

Cat: you don't have to Jadey..i can get robbie to drive me there~

Jade: Ew no, last thing I need is him knowing where I live and then coming over more often to argue about things, like when he sometimes goes to your house to vent, I don't need that.

Cat: robbie isn't that bad, although i don't really like rex...anyway you don't have to but i'd appreciate it if you were the one to pick me up.

Jade: Be there in 10

Cat: Kay kay! lol i feel like i'm saying cake cake, get it, ha see you soon Jadey~

Jade drove as slowly as possible to Tori's house in hopes to avoid Beck, a part of her felt silly for asking Cat when she was coming over. Cat isn't her pet, she isn't some object and she wanted to apologize for assuming she'd want to even come over after tonight's events.

There Cat waited with Tori outside the Vega household, she waved enthusiastically with the biggest smile on her face. Tori walked Cat to Jade's car and gave the goth girl a sympathetic smile as the window rolled down, "you feeling alright?" Jade placed both hands on the steering wheel and sighed.

"Does a watermelon feel alright after being smashed with a sledgehammer and having only a hard table underneath its body for a 'cushion' as its sad, sad life is taken away...although it could have had a happy life being with other watermelons...it was chosen to die for a theslap video stunt, does that watermelon feel aright Vega, does it?"

Tori didn't exactly know what to say to such a response "I-I- I don't know...watermelons generally don't have feelings Jade-" her nervous laugh was replaced with a small glare from Jade.

"Exactly watermelons don't have feelings, so the real answer was that the watermelon is perfectly fine with its untimely death. Even if it 'felt' it deserved a better outcome."

She no longer knew why she was having this conversation with the girl she didn't consider a friend, but luckily Cat butted in with "I love watermelons! Jade can we go to the store to get one? Pleeeeeease?"

Jade rested a hand on her best friend's knee "of course Cat, let's go get as many watermelons as you want, we'll give them feelings together" Cat squealed at the idea of giving the watermelons names, families, relationships and so on.

Giving a half assed wave to Tori Jade drove off to the nearest store/market with watermelons, she didn't know why she agreed to do something so childish but she figured it was Cat's way of trying to get her to smile. She could already imagine the girl naming one of the fruits after Jade and trying to give her a happy life and ending.

When they finally got to Jade's house with 4 watermelons, popcorn, and soda the girls found that Ms. West was home.

"Jade? Out late again?" her mother called from the dining room having dinner by herself, "Hi Ms. West!" Cat entered the dining room with a smile on her face.

Ms. West adored Cat, when the girl was around (or Beck) it was the only time she saw her daughter smile and although she normally had strict rules as to when friends could be over she sometimes made an exception for Cat.

"How are you Catarina?" she looked up from her magazine to smile at the girl who had a watermelon in between her hands.

"I'm doing fine! how's work?" Jade was busy cutting a few of the watermelons into triangles because Cat loved them that way, she liked how they looked, and how easy it was to eat that way.

"Work has been fine, you plan on staying over hun?"

Cat nodded as she put her watermelon on the kitchen counter and started chewing away at the already cut up fruit "alright just don't make too much noise-" Ms. West put her plate into the sink "and Jade..."

Jade answered with a wave of the knife she held "be gentle with her" Jade stuck the knife into the watermelon named 'David' who had 2 kids, a wife, 7 best friends, he was currently attending college and planned to be a doctor if everything worked out. The man was simple and adored his wife, he was the stereotypical 'good husband' type who never hurt his wife and did the best for his kids, he was everything most girls wanted.

Except for the fact that he was now currently bleeding out on the kitchen counter from the stab wound, he couldn't cry out, he couldn't even shed any tears as he laid there staring deep into the ceiling. Oh and he's also a fucking watermelon so he isn't actually dead but Cat decided to give out a tiny shriek for David. He was a good man...

Jade on the other hand glared at her mother, who had just teased her, until she made her way up the steps.

"Jade! David is dying! We need to get him to a hospital" Cat now whispered so she didn't wake anyone in the house even though only Jade's brother was asleep.

Not wanting the innocent girl to get cut by the knife Jade removed it from David, wiped it down, and returned the knife to it's proper place. Away from Cat.

"I'm sorry Cat but once the knife has been removed there is nothing I can do to help my patients, David will slowly bleed out because we do not have the proper tools to revive him, tell his wife he loved her."

Cat stared at Jade with the saddest face possible "what if I was David's wife?"

Jade wrapped an arm around Cat's waist and pulled her close to her "well you got me...so why worry about David? With him dying he doesn't have to find out about us darlin'" Cat giggled as an old skit between the two was being reenacted minus the ex being named David .

"You're just so muscular baby with those big arms of yours and amazing abs, tell me have you ever held a girl this way before?" Cat recited her line with a wink and smile

"Course not sugar! You know you're the only girl for me, all the other girls? I don't care for 'em how about you join me in my ride for a little fun?" Jade reached for the plate of watermelon slices with her free hand as Cat spoke.

"As long as I can ride you in the end..." that wasn't part of the original skit and it caught Jade off guard, but having a sharp tongue she made up the perfect response.

"You know I'm glad I cut the watermelon of you up-" Cat stared horrified and saddened "-because now I get to eat you out"

I randomly got obsessed with the idea of Jade and Cat dating after I woke up this morning and thought about how I missed watching the show, then I went on a fanfic hunt until like 5pm (starting from about 10am) to read a bunch of stories of the two. I decided to try and make my own story of them. Sorry if it is a bit too short and cut off randomly, I was once told that having cliffhangers was better because it leaves people wanting more. Anyway let me know what you think about it so far, I'll be going over it so do expect possible changes to grammar, sentences, or even the smallest detail you might not notice. The second chapter should be up soon if I stop sleeping all day. But until then

-Ciaossu