Beastboy trudged back into his room after a grueling battle with cinderblock. The rock head had been causing trouble at a construction site and the Titans had been called. With all of the construction everywhere, Beastboy couldn't be as helpful to the team as he usually could. Robin, being Batman's apprentice, noticed this and decided to vent his frustrations out onto the green man. Beastboy just took everything into his mind and remembered it, he was going to need it later...

Cyborg, Starfire, and Raven had all seen what Robin had done but none of them came to his defense, they just sat there as Robin insulted the changeling over and over again. None of them said a word when Beastboy immediately went to his room when they had gotten home. They also didn't notice the kitchen knife that had gone missing. They had decided that it had been a long day, and had all went to bed, assuming Beastboy did as well.

"Green, ugly, freak!" Words and insults of all kinds were running rampant in Beastboy's mind. With every word that Robin had told him, he had made a cut. He had picked up the habit when he became the beast for the first time. Sure Raven had told him some encouraging words, but he could smell the fear from her. They never believed it was Adonis that had attacked Raven, they just tried to make Beastboy believe they did so he wouldn't snap again. They couldn't actually pin it to Beastboy, but they have a weapon to use against him if he turns again He wasn't supposed to know about all of the meeting that went on that he wasn't a part of, but with his hearing he heard. He heard every negative thing they said about him, and they had no idea. "At least with the Doom Patrol, they had the courage to say it to my face" said Beastboy to himself.

This was a habit for Beastboy now. He would remember all he truly was and he would cut himself, then he would work out for even more pain. He liked the pain because after it left, it made him numb; numb to all of the things that his "friends" say to each other. Numb to the sighs of relief he would hear when he went to his room. Numb to the fact that the ones he loved thought of him as a monster.

"Well, I'm not gonna get any sleep tonight, I might as well write" said Beastboy to himself. This was another strange habit that Beastboy had picked up. When he didn't want to deal with anyone, he would write all of his thoughts and angers into a large book. He sometimes put blood on the pages to remind him when he had went through a particularly rough day. He would look through it sometimes and be proud he made it through those days. He kept the book hidden in the mess of his room. He wished he could clean his room, but if he did that, then he would have to figure out another way to hide his things. Nobody ever suspected he actually had an order to his room. When he was done writing in his room, he heard that someone had gotten up. He smelled lavender so he quickly flew out of the window. He already knew what she actually thought of him from what she said so he avoided her whenever he could. He was so hasty in his fleeing, he didn't think to put his book back.

Raven's POV

"Maybe if I just talk to him, he'll go to sleep." muttered Raven to herself. She could not go to sleep with all of the emotion that was coming from Beastboy's room. The changeling was much more closed up since the Beast accident. She got to his door and suddenly felt Beastboy's aura change much smaller, as if he was flying away from the tower. Curious, Raven went into the boy's room and saw the open window and was about to go back to bed when she saw something that was out of place in Beastboy's room.

It was a book.

Beastboy's POV

'That was close' thought Beastboy to himself as he flew into the city. He found a place to land and then started walking around int the city, he knew he couldn't go back to the tower tonight and he didn't want to sleep right now. He was lost in his thoughts until someone appeared in front of him, blocking his path.

"Well nice of you to drop by" said Beastboy as he prepared to fight his way out.

"I'm not here to fight you, I broke into the tower and I saw and heard something about you." Red X began.

"Yeah I know, I'm a monster, they forget about my ears." said Beastboy before the not villain not hero could finish.

"If they all think of you like that, why do you stay?" asked Red X as he lounged on the side of a wall.

"Where else is someone like me going to go without being tested on?" asked Beastboy with a raised eyebrow. He had concluded that Red X was actually telling the truth, and meant no harm. He also sensed someone else close by and listening in on their conversation. "Alright, you can come out now" said Beastboy to the third person. A girl came out of the shadows and Beastboy immediately knew who it was.

"Blackfire, I thought I told you to go back to the hideout." said Red X as Blackfire walked up to the two.

"When I heard about where you were going, there was no way I was gonna let you go without back-up. responded Blackfire.

"He already knows what is happening, go home, I'll be there soon." commanded RedX

"So you and Blackfire hooked up?" asked Beastboy, grinning.

"Yeah we did, guess me and Robin are both into aliens. A distinct voice in the background yelled "I heard that!"

Both of the males began chuckling. When they both stopped laughing, Red X began again, "If you don't have a place to stay, why don't you come with me?" inquired RedX

"And where is that?" asked Beastboy. He had already basically given up on the idea of staying a titan, maybe this was the opportunity to move on.

"An abandoned warehouse on the other side of town, there's five of us and we all don't want to be villains or heroes. We just want to live as normal of a life as we can." explained RedX

"I thought you used to steal?" inquired Beastboy.

"Keyword there being used to. So what do you day?"

Beastboy thought about it for a while. He thought of all the good times he had with the Titans and how they made him feel like he had a family. Then he started thinking about all of the things that they had done to him and said behind his back. He realized that the titans were never his real family, maybe he had a better chance of finding one here. "Alright X, I'm in but I need to go get some stuff from the tower. I'll be there tomorrow night." With that he began to walk back to the Tower.

"I haven't even told you exactly where it is." RedX called after him.

"This nose knows" Beastboy said while poking said body part and then began walking again.