A/N NEW STORY LOVE ME! THIS IS A STORY I'VE WANTED TO WRYE FOR A LONG TIME AN THIS WAS GOING TO BE A ONE SHOT BUT I COULDN'T CONDENSE IT ENOUGH SO HERE I AM ENJOY THE STORY AND DON'T BE DECIEVED.

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"What you doing?" Ethan snapped his laptop together in shock and looked up at his brother.

"Hmm?" He asked

"What are you doing?" Cal said slowly, mocking his little brother

"Nothing just watching anime,"

Cal looked at his brother and could tell he was lying.

"What are you really doing?" He asked

"Again cal I'm watching anime." Ethan shifted uncomfortably under Cal's gaze.

"Lies! Tell me!" Cal glared at his brother

"I've been watching anime I don't understand.." He was cut off

"Please tell me you've been watching porn my little brother all grown up! Ethan give me the laptop I wanna see."

Ethan snatched his laptop away

"I have not been watching porn Caleb!" Ethan glared at his older brother

"Oh, then let me see!" Cal took the laptop and opened it

- casualty fanfiction archive-

"What the hell is this?" Caleb asked

- lily ethan fanfiction, Cal Connie fanfiction-

"Seriously, Ethan whats this!"

"Fanfiction" Ethan said bluntly

"No shit, why is it about us,"

"That's what they wrote!" Ethan took his laptop and left the flat.

Cal was left to his thoughts

"Does Ethan fancy Lily?"

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Ethan walked into the ed ready for work. He glanced around, taking in his surrounding, the stories from last night still clear in his mind, and headed to change. Entering the locker room, Ethan walked straight into someone. *crap* he thought as he looked up into Lily's eyes.

"Umm, hey Lily, I am so sorry, I didn't, I mean, I didn't, I'm sorry." Ethan mentally face-palmed, he couldn't have fucked that up anymore if he tried.

"Oh, no, it's my fault, I should look where I'm going more I never do, my mum always says I should look up more I always ignore her, guess she was- I'm blabbing sorry." Lily spluttered her words out like a stream train.

"No, it's my fault I should have looked too, and I ramble and that's worse. Look, I need to change or I may get burnt to death by the dragon." Ethan said walking past her smiling

"We wouldn't want that would we!" Lily said jokey sarcasm in her voice- very out of character for her. She darted away faster than she ever thought she could not wanting awkwardness between herself and Ethan. She was, however, confused. She had never heard Ethan fail and stutter his words in the manor he had this morning. She was worried, something could be wrong and she didn't want Ethan to be sad. Ever.

Ethan changed rapidly, trying to shift the thoughts of Lily at least to the pack of his mind. It was painful, the constant reminder from some people he knew that he'd never be good enough for her, the sinking feeling that he would never be confident enough to tell her and just the way he felt killed him daily. He was so smitten and what he'd read the previous night did not help at all. All day the stories he'd read kept playing on his mind and he just didn't know what to do. Who he could talk to or even I there was someone and what he'd say if there was. Aka he was screwed. He was petrified. He had never felt this way before and didn't know how to react. Cal wasn't the kind of person who you could talk to about your problems he just laughed at you or didn't care. Sometimes when he could tell something was wrong he'd ask what was wrong and try to help. Cal wasn't very good at helping, he tried but he wasn't good at it. Ethan didn't have many friends, especially none that could help in this situation. He felt so alone and wanted to break free but couldn't. Like he was drowning in his own thoughts. He needed to talk to someone soon. But now, he's got to work.