Hello. This is Cheshire ShiroNeko.

How are you guys?

I'm so happy that occasionally, I still get notifications that people favorite-d or followed my story even though I hadn't updated for more than year, and for you to read this letter must be disappointing. This isn't an update. I'm sorry.

I would like to explain the cause of my indefinite hiatus. There's no reason for you to read beyond my apology, but I would really appreciate it if you'd stay for a bit for my explanation.

I have been suffering both anxiety and clinical depression and it had gotten worse when I found out that my boyfriend cheated on me. He is also a writer, leagues way better than I am, and he was my inspiration for writing. I was making a draft for the new chapter of both Remember and The Matchmaking Miracles when I learned about him cheating. I got so devastated when it happened that I neglected myself. I lost more than 5 kg in just a few months and I didn't focus on my school to the point that I wasn't even passing my assignments and projects and didn't study. I didn't know what got me through but I passed despite it.

And before you scold me of being dumb, he was my only anchor, my only best friend near me. He kept me sane and happy through my shitty mental state, especially because I didn't have time for music and anime anymore so I leaned on him. That's why it was devastating.

For the past few months, however, because of the recent events that led to COVID-19 and the quarantine, I was working on how to improve myself, and that's when I realized that I want to go back to writing. And yes, I am going back.

I will be back at around maybe around at the end of this year, and one of the first things to do when I get back is to rewrite The Matchmaking Miracles, Stares and Heartbeats, and Remember in that order. I won't be rewriting them all at once, and I'd like to take it slow, which will be inevitable because I'm entering college after this pandemic ends.

I want to thank all my internet friends especially Mozu the Mochi, she's been a real good buddy and she's been there for me through all the messy stuff that I've gone and even though we rarely talk (cause she's also busy), all the conversations that we had kept me going when I wanted to lose myself.

And to all the readers who still chose to favorite and/or follow my stories, thank you. I really appreciate it.

I won't be active when it comes to writing but you can message me here. It might take a few hours or minutes depending on what time you messaged me but I can assure you that I do reply. I also am in the way of making an account in AO3 and also Twitter so I can provide you updates. I might also start uploading my OC stories in Wattpad, but that's still uncertain.

I hope you stay safe in your homes, wash your hands, and don't spread germs. Spread the AkaKuro love instead. And you know what, this is also a good time to re-read those fanfics instead that you once loved.

Til my next update! Lovelots!

Cheshire