Summary: Lexa, Bellamy, Octavia, Lincoln and Echo all decide to look for Clarke after her being missing for over four weeks of being missing. Set after season 2. Mainly Clexa. Disclaimer I don't own the 100 or any of the characters but I wish I did.

So I am doing two stories on the run with each other with the Emison one and this one, hope you enjoy. I am doing this a chapter every week or mostly every week maybe a little less. If you enjoy please review, follow or favorite.

Lexa's prov

I was sat on my throne stabbing the wooden armrest with my knife trying to get out of the tireless amount of demons which surround me, Costia, Anya, Gustus and Clarke but most of all Clarke. She has been missing for over four weeks now and I have no idea if she alive or dead and it's all my fault. I stab my knife harder into the wood as images of Clarke fill my mind with her lying dead and a million every single thing she has ever said to me. The girl who I deeply care about, no the girl I love might be dead because of me and my stupid deal with the mountain men. Maybe if I would of fought beside her like I promised she wouldn't have to kill the people in the mountain to save her own. "Heda, Belomi kom Skaikru wishes to have a word with you." Indra told me entering my tent. I stab my knife deep enough into the wood so it stands on it's own. I see the look in her eyes telling me that I am being foolish about my anger towards my betrayal of Clarke but would never dare to mention it in my presence.

I wave my hand saying "Let him in." That disapproving look is getting stronger in her eyes. "Nau Indra!" I snap not having the patience today.

"Sha, Heda." She says walking out of my tent to go and allow the sky boy in, shaking her head like always whenever she disagrees with me following anything but my head which is not what I am doing right now.

He enters the tent and his look changes to a glare when he sees me. He is sleep deprived after probably picking up the scrapes of what was left in Camp Jaha due to the fact he was the only illegitimate leader left after Clarke is god knows where and the 'Chancellor' being too weak to lead with Marcus Kane not leaving her side until she was to be cleared. "What is it which you are bothering me with Bellamy of the sky people, I am busy?" I ask lying about the busy part after the war there is a silence of peace making my job very easy.

"What stabbing your throne is more important than what I have to say?" He snapped making me roll my eyes ignoring his snark. "Any way I am leading a search for Clarke." He paused and I went into a phase of emotionless trying not to let the guilt crush me.

"Why would that concern me?" I lie trying not to sound worried for Clarke even though I am. She was raised in space and doesn't know the first thing about surviving on her own, what the hell was she thinking?

"Because Echo, Octavia and Lincoln wish to join me and I think so do you." He said bluntly with a smirk. I have two options here as I always do. Go with my head and throw him out of my camp for even assuming I care about Clarke or go with my heart and agree to look for Clarke. My head is probably the best thing for my people but last time I choose my head over my heart when it involves Clarke causes pain on both of us also if they do find her she will need someone to hate, and if that means her safety I am all up for being that person. "I am waiting for an answer, Lexa." He is kinda pushing his luck right now by using my real name but he is also proving a point that he is talking to me personally not the Heda.

"How long would this search go on for?" I ask not giving him an answer yet but maybe a small hope that I might say yes, I guess he is thinking the same as me with the whole hating thing.

"Until we find her." Bellamy responds quickly.

"Why does Echo wish to come, to my knowledge she doesn't know Clarke so why risk her life for her?" I ask not getting why a women of the Ice Nation who doesn't know of Clarke so why care to save her with a bunch of people from two clans which her's hate.

"She wishes for my safety and for me to stop worrying over my best friend." I know of his plant of the key word, best friend, to show me he holds no romantic feelings towards the girl I love making me dislike him a lot less than before how I thought he did. I guess that him and Echo have become close over the past moon cycle, close enough that Echo would give up her life for him. "You know Lexa love isn't weakness. I will be back in one day and I will be expecting an answer." He then turned walking out of my tent leaving me to think about what he said. Did Clarke tell him about what happened? No she couldn't have, he was deep in Mount Whether, yes she could of told him about me telling Clarke that love is weakness but not about us. Is it that obvious? I sigh in frustration giving up on trying to control the poison which is filling my mind leaving my tent to go busy myself with something other than Clarke and her sky people.

I found Octavia and Lincoln talking with Indra about something. They all shut up seeing me, I know what it is about, Clarke. I give them all a look as to say tell me what is going on, none of them speak. "What were you all arguing about?" I ask with a cold voice looking at them all.

"Clarke." Octavia said earning a death glare from her former mentor.

"Indra what is your opinion on this matter?" I ask her directly.

"I think it would be foolish to go after the girl without a knowing whether or not she still lives." She says truthful looking at all of us. The image of Clarke dead fills my mind again sending a chill down my spine and a renewed sense of wanting her safe.

"And if she lives?"

"Still foolish, it was her choice to leave the safety of her camp and none of you should follow in her footsteps." I feel this sense of rage fill me, more than any rage which I have ever felt on the battlefield even more than when Costia got taken by the Azkwin, I must find Clarke but to do that I would have to leave my people.

"You can't stop me from leaving Indra, remember I am no longer your second." Octavia snapped crossing her arms earning another glare from Indra.

"But the Heda can." Each one of the three looked at me.

"Octavia and Lincoln I give my blessing as the Heda for you to search for your lost friend." I say making Octavia smirk, Lincoln nod a silent thank you and a hard glare from Indra. "Do you challenge my authority as your Heda, Indra?" I ask in a cold voice and she turns back to her normal emotionless self.

She shakes her head. "No, Heda, I did not wish to offend." She then walks off in a angry huff to go and order some warriors to get back to the patrol or something like that so she doesn't make me angry causing me to tie her to a tree. Octavia seems more smug than normal about me putting Indra in her place because since I pardoned her and Lincoln allowing them back into the Trigedakru Octavia and Indra have been arguing every chance they get with Lincoln breaking it up before it can get physical.

"Mochof Heda." Lincoln said and I nod my head at him in a silent goodbye. Lincoln pulls Octavia away before she says something stupid getting herself in trouble even though I would go easy, I have developed a sort of friendship with Octavia over the last month mostly because she is the only one who told me the truth after Mount Weather which made me respect her and that respect turned into friendship.

I spot Bellamy and Echo talking as I walk past. He flashes a cocky smile at me basically saying I know your secret and what your answer will be. I roll my eyes ignoring him continuing to walk around the newly rebuild village of TonDC. Many warriors either evade my gaze for nod their head in a show of respect however most do the first opinion. I reach the place where the children over 10 are training. They all don't seem to notice me which can be seem as good and bad for a warrior however I'm not in the mood to correct anything today. The oldest of the children finally realizes I am watching them all train and elbows his friend who quickly looks at me. Their trainer, Anguz, sees their distraction and follows their eyes to me. "Heda what a pleasure to see you down here." He says with a fake smile and I notice the fear in his expression.

I walk down closer to the place where the children were. "I thought she was too busy thinking about the Skai Prisa." One of the boys, who looks about 15, whispers a little to loud to one of his friends who coughs trying to stop from laughing. I also realized Anguz had heard him and hit both of the boy on the back of the head, pretty hard.

"Anguz, another hour they seem to be not working as hard as they should be." I order him to do and he nods. The rest of the children glare at the boy who had made the comment. I walk away from the training warriors hearing the clashing of swords as I leave. I need to consider what I am going to do about Clarke and the search for her but I will not make a final decision until Bellamy comes tomorrow for my answer.

I was sat in my tent after having a horrible nights sleep with the same nightmare from the past few nights of Clarke lay dead whispering in her last words that it was all my fault. I was pretty sure my own mind was cursing me to lose my sanity because of my betrayal of the Skaikru at Mount Weather. The first week I tried not to feel bad saying it was for my people but then slowly as the nightmares and I had more time to think it was starting to break me. I was looking at the map thinking about where Clarke would of gone like I had until late in the night. I heard from Octavia she went North from Camp Jaha but that was again four weeks ago. "Heda the sky boy is here to see you again." Indra said in a stern voice.

"Let him in." I said not looking up from the map. My eyes saw the place where the Ice Nation is and a flood of worry filled me. What if the their Queen had Clarke and was using her against me as she did Costia and all I would ever see of her was her head. Bellamy coughed taking me out of my trance. I turned to look at him.

"You look like you didn't sleep at all last night." He stated and I guess he was right because I barely did.

"I could say the same for you." He did probably look as bad as me with the whole sleep deprived thing.

"So are you coming on the great search for the princess?" Bellamy said raising an eyebrow.

"Clarke told me once of how she hated the nickname princess." I add trying to hide a smile at the memory. It came up just after we were attack by Pauna and remember laughing at the story of how the name came about and why she hates it.

Bellamy chuckled "Yeah she does, I earn a glare whenever I call her that." He smiled then his smile dispersed. "I keep on thinking about what would happen if she is dead." Bellamy confessed and I could see sadness in his expression plaguing his mind.

"We will find that out ourselves." I say looking down at the map again.

"So you are joining us on the mighty quest of finding Clarke Griffin so you do have a heart." Bellamy says in amazement and a teasing voice. I roll my eyes at him ignoring his teasing for now, I do not wish to kill him but he is pushing his luck.

"Indra!" I call for my second in command who enters the tent within a few millisecond.

"Sha, Heda?"

"Go fetch Octavia, Lincoln and Echo for me please." I order and I can see the displeasure in her expression knowing all to soon what this means. She is about to argue before I open my mouth again. "I do not wish to hear it, Indra." She storms out of my tent to go get the three others.

"I was pretty sure you were going to put her on a poll for not doing it straight away." Bellamy chuckled moving next to me pointing to Camp Jaha on the map. "So Clarke went North from camp Jaha and Lincoln said if she kept going north she would be around here." Bellamy circled a part of the map above TonDc which is about an hour ride from here.

"Well that is if she didn't turn and if she did then she could be anywhere between here." I add circling a large circle on the map with a pencil. "However she knows not to go near the Ice Nation unless she wishes to scorn me with her death by the Azkwin but that would be foolish of her." I remove the area in the Ice Nations territory. Bellamy is looking at me then looks down at the map like he was trying to figure something out. "The Azkwin and I are not the best of friends. She enjoys killing people who I care for." I answer what he is most definitely is thinking.

"She sounds like a bitch." He says and I chuckle at his comment. "Clarke also knows that the south would be turning back so she probably wouldn't go that way anyway." Bellamy adds and I nod in agreement narrowing down what we have to search. It is weird how two people who would probably be at each others throats right now can unite in a common cause like finding someone you love.

I hear the tent open and both Bellamy and I turn around to find all three of the others in this search. "Wow Bell, she didn't take your head off for asking about Clarke. I'm surprised." Octavia said with a smirk making me roll my eyes turning back to the map.

"Octavia if you wish to help I would Shof op." I tease making her put her hands up in a fake surrender. "So you are suggesting that we leave both of our people leaderless until we return?" I ask Bellamy who shrugs as if it isn't a big deal.

"Clarke is the true leader and it's my duty to find her." Bellamy answers with a smirk.

"Heda, may I speak freely?" Echo asks me and I hear Octavia chuckle, after a whole month of speaking freely to me without even asking.

"Yes you may." I tell the ice girl. "At least you asked, you like someone else who decides that she has to speak freely to me at all times." I look at Octavia who laughs whilst Bellamy looks like at me like I have two heads.

He looks between Octavia and I with awe. "You make jokes?" He asks at me directly.

"When I'm not in the middle of war, I am capable of them. Please Echo what do you need to tell me?" I look back at Echo ignoring the Blake siblings totally.

She pauses looking at Bellamy before turning back to me. "Why do you wish to accompany us on our search for the Clarke?" She looks almost fearful most a amount as silence fills the tent.

"The same reason you wish to accompany Bellamy." I simply answer seeing the realization take over her face. "Any way Lincoln how long would you say it would take to search all of this." I ask the only, apart from me, Trigedakru born in the room.

He scratches the back of his head trying to work it out before answering "By foot about 2 weeks but by horse it would be about 2 to 3 days." He answers and all of us look at him as if to say why would we choose the one where Clarke has more of a chance to get away. He chuckles in agreement. "I guess we will be going by horse."

We had been travelling for a day and a bit with only about 8 hours of rest and re-evaluation about how to find Clarke. Bellamy was being nauseatingly cute with Echo with him trying to learn how to ride a horse and failing terribly. Octavia was being too witty for her own good mostly towards me making me retort quickly and then so would she, so on, so on with Lincoln always breaking it up or making a point neither of us couldn't laugh at. It was weird not being burdened with the responsibility of being the Heda 24/7. "What does Lexa and a vagina have in common?" Bellamy asks in a joking tone making me look at him questionably and the rest of them raise their eyebrows. "One slip of the tongue and you're in deep shit." He jokes making everyone bar Octavia who laughs lightly roll their eyes.

"So I'd watch yourself." I warn making him chuckle and as I turn back to look ahead. I spot a few drops of fresh blood trickling down the tree just ahead but it goes off in three directions. They seem to notice the same time as me going silent. "I'll go left, Echo, Bellamy you go straight ahead and Lincoln, Octavia go right." They all agree getting off their horses tying them to a tree so they don't run off with only the emergency supplies on my back which is bandages, water, food and a few knives.

I sprint off to the left with my hand right near my sword. I must of been running about 2 minutes before I hear the clashing off metal up ahead and a gasp of pain. My first glimpse of blonde hair comes into view, Clarke. She is battling two lone clan members, I think they were once Trigedakru but they left before the war started. Clarke's arm gets sliced just as I throw one of my knives making it land effortlessly in the back of the tallest ones' skull. My sword is in the back of the other's chest before either could even process what was happening. "Lexa?" She says in complete shock as I put my sword away.

She is bleeding heavily from the wound in her upper arm. I quickly grab the bandages and water from my supplies pouring the water onto Clarke's cut on her arm cleaning it a little making her hiss in pain. "Lexa, what are you doing here?" She asks as I wrap one of the bandages around her arm.

"Saving your life." I simply tying a knot to keep it together. I step away from her putting the supplies away not making eye contact. When I turn back to look at her a fist hits me in the face. Pain shots through my face from Clarke's strike. I look back at her raising an eyebrow. "Did that make you feel better, Clarke?" I ask fully expecting it to happen sooner or later.

"You were meant to fight with me! You were meant not betray me! I hate you!" She shouts letting out all of the stored anger pushing her back. I don't fight back as she pushes me again so I'm against a tree. Her eyes lock with mine and her lips crash into mine. I'm surprised for a moment after all she did just say she hates me and hit me in the face. I kiss her back as she kisses me more forcibly pressing me harder against the tree. She breaks the kiss. "Shouts and hitting you didn't make me feel any better but kissing did." She says with a slight smile and I chuckle.

"Do you want to come back to the real world Clarke or leave with the deer?" I ask raising an eyebrow, she grins.

"I want to come home."

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