Back to the Start

A/N: This story starts from the moments after Delphine left Cosima. I'm sorry if I cause there to be too many feels but I wanted to write in the perspective of how it would feel to find the person you love more than the world in Delphine's situation and Cosima's struggle to find out who was behind the shooting. I do hope that you enjoy reading this and the next chapter will be uploading depending on the reviews I get and the views.

Cosima was till stood outside Bubbles watching Delphine's car go off into the distance. Her phone vibrating in her pocket. The tears falling freely from her. After what felt like forever a gentle voice shook her out of the stupor she was in.

"Hey Cos you coming ba...Oh God what's happened?" Felix asked concern etched over his face.

"S...s...she's gone and it's all my fault!" Cosima sobbed.

"Who's gone? Shay?" Questioned her friend and confidant.

"No Del...Delphine." The tears coming more freely.

"OK Cos I thought you were with Shay, what does Delphine have to do with all this, and why does it bother you what she does?" Asked Felix confused.

"Because I..I..I..I love her!"

"Yeah but don't for get that she hurt you."

"No Felix this was different. We were different. This felt like a final goodbye like I will never see her again, but I don't think she wanted it this way."

Felix looked at his friend and he felt a lump in his throat. The last time he saw Cosima this broken was when Delphine had broken things off with her, and my God he didn't think she could go back to that place. Seeing Cosima like this had proved him wrong.

"Well Cos, if this is so important to you why don't you go and find her and find out what's going on. Both you and I know there are only two places she would have gone. Her apartment or to DYAD."

"What if she is at neither Fee?"

"You will know for sure then won't you sweetheart?" He sighed and pulled her into a hug. Cosima wiped her face and tried to calm herself.

"Can I use your car Fee?"

"Sure just no make out sessions in it when you get your girl. The smell of lesbians is a bitch to get rid of." He laughed.

"Fee your the best!" Cosima said as she hugged him tight

"Well duh!"

Cosima took the keys and got in the Land Rover and made her way to Delphine's apartment. She thought she may as well try there first.

Coming up to the small apartment block she looked around trying to work out if she was on the right side of the building for the underground parking. She spotted the entrance and made her way over to it. She stopped suddenly as a silver Audi came speeding out nearly hitting the Land Rover.

"FUCK! What the hell?" Screamed Cosima at the speeding car.

Ringing Cosima's number again Shay played with the card that Delphine had given her not an hour before. Her mind was trying to figure out what the hell was going on. Delphine had just basically given her blessing for her and Cosima to be together. Pity she hadn't done that before they had split up earlier that day.

Shay felt bad she knew Cosima worked in Science and everything was done under secrecy but she never thought that Cosima would have been so secretive about herself.

Looking at the 'code' written on the card she was put through to Cosima's answer phone.

"Hey Cosima it's Shay, can you ring me when you get this I think we need to talk. Call me please."

Hanging up she looked again at the digits on the card 324B21 "What does this mean?" She asked herself before putting the card on the side next to her phone.

"Hey Fee where's Cos?" Shouted Sarah over the noise of everyone else in the shop.

Helena was dancing with Donnie, Alison was deep in conversation with Art and Mrs S. Scot had left when Cosima had, making an excuse.

Felix beckoned her over and they went into the quiet back room where he explained what had happened.

"What the hell Fee, you let her go...Christ you know that it's the neolutionists behind all this is. Now Cos is in danger. I think that Delphine was protecting her. Shiite we need to go find her before it's too late."

"GUYS. GUYS. Me and Fee are just stepping out for a while to go and check on Cos. We will be back soon OK." Sarah shouted over the noise as she and Felix ran out to the people carrier parked behind the shop.

"I'm so sorry Sarah. I thought I was helping her."

"Fee I know. Let's just find her OK?"

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Cosima drove slowly into the parking lot. She hated driving at the best of times but it was worse when it was in enclosed spaces. She parked in the first space she could find and got out. She walked round looking for Delphine's car. She stopped she thought that she heard someone gasping. She looked around. She couldn't see anything. Again she heard the gasp and she followed the noise. She came to the bonnet of a white BMW and the gasp was clearer but now it was gurgled. Slowly she walked round the side of the car. She approached the trunk of the car and she saw the feet first, just a tiny movement in them.

Taking a deep breath and feeling like there was a heavy weight round her heart Cosima moved forward some more. She saw the top of Delphine's head slumped down. Then everything felt as if it was in slow motion as she moved round to see the sight of Delphine bleeding everywhere, her eyes barely open, blood starting to form in her mouth.

"No, no, no Delphine this cannot be happening. No no no please Delphine it's me it's Cosima."

"Cosi...ma."

Cosima barely heard this. The tears were streaming down her face. She took her phone out of her pocket she had to call someone. All that was on the screen was Shay's number flashing away. She reached for Delphine's bag and pulled out her phone and dialled Sarah's number. Placing the phone on the floor and turning on speaker phone the ringing tone started.

"Delphine you OK?" came Sarah's voice as she picked up.

"Sarah it's me. I'm at Delphine's apartment in the garage, she's been shot. It's bad." Cosima crying as she tries to talk.

"Cos we are 2 minutes away. Get somewhere safe OK." Sarah shouted down the phone trying to keep the fear out of her voice.

"No I'm not leaving Delphine."

"Cosima don't be stupid get yourself safe before you get yourself shot too!"

"NO! I am not leaving her."

"Cos we are on the street now. Where about are you? What cars are near you?"

"Sarah, a white BMW."

Cosima had lay Delphine down and had gotten her in the recovery position and was sat behind her blood everywhere. Her mind couldn't focus properly she knew she had to stop the bleeding but there was just so much blood. Her hands slipping each time she tried to apply pressure and the bullet had gone straight through Delphine and the wound was so big there was no way she could cover it all.

Brakes came screeching next to her and Cosima looked up. No colour in her face at all.

"Fu..."

"Fee press on the wound at the front!" Cosima shouted.

"Sarah take off your jumper. I need to try and cover the back. Then look in any car and find something plastic like a bag. Maybe we can wrap it round her to keep stuff in place."

Felix was gagging at the sight of so much blood. Sarah did as she was told. Cosima began talking to Delphine, not sure if she would hear as she was slipping in and out of consciousness.

"Hey Delphine, do you remember when we first met? You were crying on the phone speaking French? I was like whoa that girl is hot! I was so attracted to you. I knew straight away that you were my monitor but I didn't care. I had fallen for you straight away." Cosima took Delphine's hand and held it next to her cheek like Delphine had done with hers so many times.

"I didn't care that you had lied to me in the end because the first time you kissed me I knew that you loved me too. I never stopped loving you Delphine. I came back for you. Please don't leave me now. Please don't go." She couldn't continue the sobs had taken over.

She kissed Delphine's hand before leaning down and kissing her cheek.

"Cos... I couldn't find any plastic but I found some rope so I am going to tie everything in place. We need to get her out of here it's not safe."

Cosima nodded.

"I'm gunna ring Art, get him to meet us at the Loft. We need a Dr though or someone who knows about bullet wounds. We can't risk going to a hospital."

"Mark."

"What was that Fee?"

"Sarah call Mark. He was in the Military he will know how to treat gunshots."