Disclaimer: I don't own Dan and Phil nor anyone associated with them

Hello Pastries, so This isn't a request, this is one that I thought up of and yeah I hope you like it, its basically Dan having his first Existential crisis in years and the kids comforting him so yeah I hope you guys like it. For those that don't know, there are references to 'The Secret Fafnfiction Author', where Destiny meets Charlie and long story short Dan almost died so yeah.

Destiny - 12

Zach - 7

Lillian - 5

Dan was turning thirty-five today...thirty-five years old, the Youtuber stood there and looked at his reflection in the mirror his hands on his face tugging and pulling. His brown eyes looking over each and every detail, searching for a flaw even one tiny one. His laugh lines were becoming a bit more prominent and the crinkles around his eyes, which were most noticeable when he laughed were starting to become...a bit more noticeable. Other than that, he didn't look that old...still, he looked himself over in the mirror. Thirty-Five years of life, twelve years of marriage, and three children, nineteen years of doing Youtube, as well as all of the other things he and Phil did...having written a book, done cameos in a Disney Movie, among other things, created an app, they were known as the Youtube Power Couple, they had done so much...still...he could feel that familiar dark feeling arise. He hadn't experienced an existential Crisis in so long...but here it was...the dark shadowy corners ebbed as the thoughts echoed in the back of his mind.

'What have you really accomplished? What is your place in the universe? Have you really done enough with your life? When you die what will the legacy be that you've left behind for others to see and know of your existence?' He stumbled outside and landed on the floor laying there faced down with his face pressed against the floor. His mind going off and thinking about the inevitability of death and contemplating his own existence...especially with his near brush with death. What if he had died? What if Charlie had hit him deeper or somewhere else? What would've happened? He stopped when he felt a weight on his back, he looked and saw Lillian sitting there.

"What are you doing sweetheart?" He asked, the five year old shrugged in response.

"What're you doing daddy?" She asked curiously.

Dan sighed and laid his head down, unsure of how to explain the complexity of an Existential Crisis to a five year old.

"Nothing, where's papa?" He asked curiously, maybe Phil could cheer him up, he always had after all. He remembered before, when Phil used to cheer him up after every crisis...with hugs, kind words, cuddles, comfort food, anything to make him smile again and for the dark thoughts to go away...because they both knew what happened when the thoughts got too dark. He looked as Lillian got off of him and laid down faced down beside him making him chuckle. He got on his elbows and as did she, her brown eyes looking up at him excitedly. "Well?"

"Um, papa went to the store because we ran out of cereal...again...because papa, Des, and Zach gobble it all up." Said Lillian, Dan lifted an eyebrow at her.

"Oh so its only those three who steal the cereal?" He asked teasingly, Lillian looked away with a mischievous smile making Dan chuckle she giggled and stuck her tongue out between her teeth as she laughed much like how Phil did. " I live with a bunch of Cereal Thieves."

"But you love us anyway." Said Lilian with a small giggle, Dan smiled warmly and nodded. He sighed and laid on his back staring up at the ceiling as did Lillian and it was quiet, as the quiet set in the darkness came back and the questions, as did the thoughts. He placed a hand on his stomach where the scars from his C-sections and the scar from the 'incident'. He winced when he remembered that. "What is it daddy?"

"Nothing sweetheart, today's just my birthday." He replied non-chalantly, and Lillian immediately gasped excitedly before tackling him in a hug.

"Happy Birthday!" She cried out nuzzling against him. "So then why aren't you happy? Is it because you think we forgot? We didn't! Papa went to the store for cereal and for cake, and we got you presents so you don't have to be sad! No one should ever be sad on their birthday."

Dan smiled and hugged the five year old tightly, as he kissed the top of her head.

" No sweetheart, I didn't think that...it's just I don't really like my birthday very much." He confessed.

"Why?" She asked curiously, as she sat up. Dan sat up and leaned against the wall, her brown eyes looking up in confusion wondering how anyone didn't like their own birthday?

" Well, it's a reminder that I'm getting older and...well...it's complicated grownup stuff, but basically I usually have a thing called an Existential Crisis and I don't feel so good. " He explained, "I'll be fine though. Don't worry sweetheart."

Lily still didn't understand but she was determined to make daddy feel better, after all everyone should feel well on their birthday. She stood up and rushed to her room where she came out with her doll house as well as her tiny puppets making Dan chuckle.

"What're you doing?" He asked curiously.

"Making you happy, " She replied simply. "Everyone should be happy on their birthday, and playing with my puppethouse makes me happy when I'm sad so it'll make you happy too!"

Dan nodded, and watched as she cleared her throat and began to tell a story with her puppets. they both looked up, when they heard loud noises and shouting coming from the lounge. They went over, and saw Zach and Des playing a video game, both of them were trying their hardest to kill Zombies in the game and Lillian immediately jumped on the couch and began cheering for them. Dan chuckled softly, his kids were laughing and having a great time, albeit two of them were very frustrated. It was hard to believe that after all these years, he was a father to three amazing children. Even if they didn't always listen, even if they shared Phil's cereal thieving habit, and didn't pick up after themselves...they were adorable, and sweet, and polite. He sat down with Lily, and watched as the dark thoughts went away.