Title: Loving Him Again

Genre: Romance, Tragedy, Angst

Pairing: GraLu

Summary: They met at the park, like the cliche stories. They saw each other every week. Lucy couldn't tell him the truth, especially when he was proposing to another woman. But on the 104th week, she got answers. Answers that completed her.

Note: This is a TRUE story (with a few changes) and I hope none of you will judge this story too much :) Please enjoy!

Disclaimer: My name's not Hiro Mashima :)

My friends used to say that I was numb. All my twenty-two years living in Earth, I haven't felt any attraction to a single guy. Anyone who tried to court me was simply rejected. Although I feel sorry that I had to reject them, they just weren't my type. Or maybe what my friends told me was true. I was really numb when it came to romantic feelings. I was starting to believe them, but I immediately pushed away the thought on my twenty-third year.

Exactly on my birthday, I met him. And I admit, just one look at him, I knew I liked this guy that I didn't know.

I can still remember what had happened from that day two years ago, Yep. It's been two years. Yet, I can still replay every second from that day in my mind. And I kept that unrequited love myself. Never have I decided or thought about telling that guy.

Because he had a girlfriend.

-FLASHBACK-

It was already eleven at night. No one was outside. Well, except me. Just one more hour to come, I'll be twenty-three years old. I only wanted to spend my first minutes as a twenty-three year old alone.

Then, I suddenly remembered what happened almost a year ago.

"The doctor said you have amnesia, dear. You got caught in an accident," my mother told me... ten months ago.

No one had an idea how I felt back then. I felt so ruined. hat about the memories I formed with my friends and families? They were all precious to me. I had forgotten about those and they'd just tell me to move on? I told them I was devastated by the news. My mom told me she was sorry and that I'll remember them soon. But they just didn't know how ruined I was. They didn't know anything. I could remember some things after two months. They'd pop in my mind, and flashbacks of my life would appear.

Though I remember most of it, Levy-chan and Natsu, my best friends, and my parents kept on bugging me. They've been telling me nonstop that there's one person who I should remember. But no, I can't remember. Nothing comes up in my mind.

"I can't remember who I should remember and I'm sure I'll remember that person soon, so please, stop pressuring me," was what I told them.

It worked, though. They stopped giving me pressure and let me remember things by my own. It's been ten months yet... I still can't remember anyone who's supposed to be special to me. All I know is that both my mom and dad, Levy-chan, and Natsu are all special to me. I don't know anyone else who could be precious than them.

I sat on a bench, looking at the dark sky above. I don't know what I should be looking up at since there were no stars and it was really dark. There were a few post lights around, the white and orange light mixing and illuminating around the whole park.

'Who am I really supposed to remember?' I asked myself.

Lately, I've been getting dreams like I'm with a guy, riding on a sand jeep at a beach together with no one else around. There was one when I was seeing myself laughing with a guy then I kissed him. I thought for sure, I was just dreaming. I couldn't even point out his face clearly. It was all a blur to me. I didn't understand anything. Were those dreams trying to convey something to me?

"Hey, what are you doing out here?"

I jumped a little in surprise as I heard someone talking to me. I turned to my left and saw him, this cool guy that appeared out of nowhere. I didn't know him but his looks were enough to make my heart flutter.

"Nothing," I mumbled. He sat next to me on the bench and I could feel his eyes on me. I sighed, whispering, "It's my birthday in an hour."

Honestly, I don't know why I'm telling him that.

"Really?" He asked me, a smile forming on his lips. He checked his watch on his left arm and then, he grinned at me. I swear his face lit up. "Then, happy birthday! It's already midnight."

I smiled. He was the first one to greet me. Knowing that fact made me happy. I looked at him and said, "Thank you."

We continued talking until it was three in the morning. I got to know him more and in exchange, he also got to know me more. We had a lot of similarities. He also told me that we were classmates during Junior High, Freshman Year. Huh, I don't remember him, though. I told him about my amnesia, and he understood why I don't remember him.

That's why I liked him more. He understood me.

Then, he told me about his girlfriend.

Like what happened ten months ago, no one understood what was I going through.

'But why am I going through this?'

-END OF FLASHBACK-

It's been two years since then. We meet up at the same park and at the same time, which is during midnight, and we just talk every night. We've been so close. We're close until now. I've never been happy like when I'm with him.

I laughed at myself as I stared at the ceiling of my room.

I saw his girlfriend two weeks ago. She was pretty. Her name was Juvia Lockser. The name itself screamed 'rich' but her outfit and looks were just outstanding. Don't get me wrong. My family is also rich, and I'm quite proud of myself and my assets but for sure, that woman would win over me. But, I have a feeling that I met her in the past... but it could be just my imagination.

That's why she and that guy are together now for two years, which hurt me as hell.

I sighed. "Should I just tell that cute dork?" Cute dork. I don't know how that guy thought of it, but he just called me that. In return, I also called him that and it seemed that he liked it.

When I told my parents about him, their faces lit up. And their only daughter doesn't have a single clue why. Even when I met Juvia. She was so nice to me and she kept giving the dork teasing looks. Surprisingly, she wasn't mad that her boyfriend of two years was meeting up with some girl at midnight alone. Why the hell am I not knowing what they know? Even Levy-chan and Natsu looked happy that I met him.

"I should just get going," I said to no one as I stood up since it was nearing midnight already. My parents know every Sunday night, I go out till midnight because I'm meeting with that guy. And they're perfectly fine with me going out with him.

Walking to the park was longer than the usual. Maybe it was because I was taking my time and I was taking small, slow steps. Maybe I was doing that because I was nervous, because I'm going to tell him now. I could give a damn about his girlfriend and our friendship, but I want him to know now. I've had enough in hiding it for too long.

When I reached the park, no one was there. He wasn't here yet. Huh, what happened to that dork? I sat at our usual bench, thinking of how should I tell him.

"Boo."

"Kyaa!" I yelped in surprise. I jumped up and turned around, facing the very own Gray Fullbuster-slash-the-cute-dork. As I calmed my pounding heart, I started to chuckle. This guy... I swear, if I hadn't loved him that much, I would've already taken his head off. Then, he laughed with me. Yeah, we're laughing together.

My laughter died down then I narrowed my eyes at him. "Are you laughing with me or at me?"

He laughed louder. "Both, Lucy."

"Dang it," I mumbled, annoyed.

He sat down with me, his laughter gone but his smile was still there. I stared at him. I swear, he was glowing. And it made me happy. Well, until he spoke up. "I'm proposing to her today at dinner."

And then, my heart...

"Really?" I asked, lowering my head. Why are there tears in my eyes? The first time I fell in love and probably the last... also the first and last time I'll get a heartbreak like this.

"Yeah. I already have the ring and the flowers ready... now all I'm waiting for is when the sun comes up and her answer."

... My heart just got broken.

What kind of friend would I be if I wished for Juvia to say no? And I doubt that Juvia would say no. She wouldn't. When I saw them together, they were really happy and their gaze to each other was different. I could never compete to that. And I would never even think of competing with Juvia and taking her man away. I will never do that.

In that moment, my decision was changed. I won't tell him and I won't show up to him anymore after this.

"I really hope she'd say yes," he said. It was obvious he didn't know about my feelings and there was no way he would know anymore.

I faked a laugh, trying my best make it look like genuine to him. I mentally sighed. I already knew this day would come. After all, they'd been together for two years. So I just told him, "She'll say yes to you. When I saw you two together, you were really happy and I think she really loves you."

"Yeah. We really love each other."

Kill me now for wishing Juvia would say no.

"That's good," I replied. I didn't know what else to say to him. I thanked myself for not stuttering. But, my tears... they were still there. No matter what I do, they won't fall. We stayed quiet, with me looking at the ground while he was looking at the midnight sky.

I'm here too. Look at me.

Luckily, I received a call. I took my phone and looked at the called ID. It was mom. "Sorry, I gotta take this," I said as I bowed my head apologetically at Gray. But he just smiled at me. I stood up and walked away then I answered the call. Without hearing my mom's statement, I said, "All right, Mom, I'll be there in ten." I just hope mom won't get suspicious of that.

And I ended the call. I went back to Gray after wiping my eyes since tears were daring to fall. "Gray, sorry but I need to go. Mom says it's important," I said. Funny how I could lie to his face straight.

"Go on. See you next week."

There won't be a next time.

"Good luck with your proposal."

And I left him alone there.

As soon as I opened the door to our house, I sawmy mom was standing at the living room, looking at me sternly. She had her arms crossed and her left foot was tapping the floor repeatedly in an impatient manner. My dad was only sitting on the couch. I'm guessing it was about her call earlier and why I interrupted her with such nonsense. I closed the door quietly and slowly walked to her. The tears were coming back.

"Lucy, what was that about - Oh my, what happened?" She immediately asked when she saw my eyes.

"Mom!" I sobbed as I hugged her tightly. Mom immediately wrapped her arms around me, rubbing comforting circles on my back. "Mom, he's p-proposing to her..."

"Shh. It'll be okay." No, it won't. My mom's embrace tightened around me. Somehow, it was comforting. It helped me... a bit.

This time, I wasn't a coward enough to let out all my tears. And they fell endlessly.

I knew... I was safe in my mom's embrace.

Tantrum Zone: Yep. This is really a true story. Not mine, my aunt's :) So I really hope that no one judges this story (also theirs) too harshly. But please, tell me in a review about what you think!

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