Hi everyone! I'm back! Today is the first of my summer posting, it's a story I started a while back, back with the whole Ethan, Cal and Taylor business, but I never got round to publishing it until now. I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who suggested ideas for future stories, they were all amazing and I can't wait to get started on them. If anyone has any suggestions for Casualty stories please leave them in the reviews or pm me and I'll try to get back to you as soon as I can.

Here's my newest addition to my stories, I hope you enjoy, please let me know what you think. As you know I always try to post daily once I've started on a new story and so I'll try my best to stick to that. Anyways, happy reading, Kayxxx :)

(Re-upload as some people were having issues reading)

Chapter One

Today was a day that Ethan Hardy had been dreading for weeks. There were a few days that he'd dreaded throughout his lifetime, the day he had to say his final goodbyes to his mother being the main by far. Though this dread, never crossed his mind once. Never did he think things would be so different, so opposite, so...wrong. Yet as his 6am alarm clock woke him from a sleepless night, he got up, dressed and headed for the hospital. This is where the difference kicked in, today he was not "hard working, excellent Doctor Hardy" he was simply, "Ethan Hardy...patient."

He pulled out an envelope he'd kept hidden since the day he received it, he told himself it was so no one else found it but deep down he knew it was because he didn't want any of this to seem real. Today was the day he was going to get back his results from countless amounts of tests that had been secretly carried out on him over the last couple of tiresome weeks. As he worked in the ED of Holby general hospital, his journeys to get tested were stressful involving in him mainly dodging members of his colleagues by entering the hospital through the main entrance, instead of his usual entry through the ED. Though it may seem silly, this tactic had worked so far. That was until today.

Police had cornered off the main entrance to the hospital.
"Um, excuse me, I have an appointment" Ethan explained awkwardly to a police man who stood his guard.
"You'll have to use the other entrance" he replied.
"No you don't understand, I'm a doctor, at this hospital, I have an important appointment concerning things I'd rather my colleagues not find out about and if I go through the other entrance, that's exactly the opposite of what will happen." Ethan continued, hoping to sway the policeman's view.
"I'm sorry you'll have to use the other entrance, I can't prioritise, this is a serious matter, I'm sure you understand doctor" He reasoned.
"But I-" Ethan was cut off.

"Ethan!" Zoe called from across the parking lot as she made her way over to him.
"Great" he mumbled under his breath as he forced out a smile in Zoe's direction.
"God I didn't have you down as the nosey kind! So give us the goss, what's happened?" Zoe asked sneakily as she pulled Ethan toward the ED.
"I'm not sure, I heard someone mention something about a knife but I could be mistaken" he replied, uninterested.
"Oh God, what a great way to start off a Monday morning!" She replied sarcastically "I'm sure Guy will know more" she added with a wink.
"Anyway, I didn't know you were on shift this morning?" She continued, changing the subject.
"Yes well, that's because I, um, I'm not" Ethan mumbled awkwardly. "I, uh, I'm here to see if I've left some paperwork in my locker which I've been looking for all weekend, though it could be at home, it's impossible to find anything there at the moment with Cal moving out and all, I suppose this is really just an excuse to get of there for a bit" he stated.
"Ah, so you're really going through with this Cal moving out thing then?" She asked surprised.
"Yes" he sighed, "it will be nice to see the floor of my flat for the first time in months, he's such a clutter bug it's unreal" he joked, with a hint of seriousness as they headed through the ED doors and parted going their separate ways.

Ethan made his way to the staff room, to make his story believable incase Zoe just so happened to see him head upstairs. Once sure the coast was clear he hurried out of the staff room and into the lift which took him straight to the floor he needed. He smiled to himself as he couldn't believe he'd actually just made it through that situation without being caught out, though the whole dilemma had left him slightly out of breath. As the lift door opened and he was met by his doctor who greeted him by "Oh Ethan, right okay if you could just take a seat in my office, I'll be right through, would you like a cup of tea or glass of water or anything? You don't look right at all" he didn't know whether it was the tone in which his doctor approached him in or the fact he offered him tea or water which was always what he would do when delivering bad news to a patient, tea and sympathy, but it made it clear to him that this was no time to be smiling.