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Mia

Forgiving someone isn't easy. My life had been turned upside down because of this girl and her father. Well more because of her father. The thing is her father hated me from day one but Ana? I thought she was my best friend. What is a best friend? I laugh at the thought. At this moment in life I don't know what best friend is anymore. When I needed my best friend the most she didn't help me and know that she needs my help, do I help her? Do I really forget all the pain her family caused and happily move on helping her?

I call the doctor for Ana as I exist Christian 's office. They both are inside, Christian taking care of Ana and to be honest I cannot watch. It's hard for me. It's beautiful to see your siblings in love but not with the one girl you sort of dislike. Soon after the doctor makes his way the 20Th floor and I direct him to my brothers office. I walk up to the seating area to take a seat.

"Mia?" I hear Taylor ask.

I look up as I try to smile at him, "Yes"

"What are you doing here? I thought you were with Christian getting a tour?"

"That isn't happening right now."

"Why"

"Because Ana fainted." His faces changes within seconds from concerned to angry.

"What the fuck is she doing here? And how? I don't understand?"

"I don't know why she was here. She was already in her office when we got here."

"Are you alright?" he asks once again concerned.

"Sort of. He said he loves her." I turn my body towards Taylor so know I am facing him completely. "Is it wrong of me to feel…annoyed bad about Christian loving her? Her family ruined my life. She being my best friend never helped me when I begged her to help me. And now…I am so confused. Christian said I should forgive her. Should I really forgive her? Should I really accept that Ana herself was being played all along?" fresh tears make there way to my eyes that I have been holding off for way to long now.

Taylor gets down on his knees in front of me and grabs my hands tightly. "You feel this way because you have the right to feel this way. Anyone would hate this situation. Its accurate of you to feel annoyed with your brother dating Ana. The only thing I would say is just do what you think is right sweetie. I'm not a big fan of Anastasia myself but I would still advice to look into things with an open mind. Christian isn't stupid; he is a good judge of character. If he thinks somehow Ana is innocent, then maybe just maybe she is. But investigate, evaluate and then make a decision"

I slightly smile at him and nod. " Thank you Taylor. You are the best. Almost like a father to me"

"Well then anything for my little girl! Do you want to leave?"

"No I would like to stay, I just want to see Christian before I go. You can go do your work. I will call you when I want to leave"

"Are you sure?"

"Yes"

A few minutes later the doctor and Christian make there way out of the office. Christian directs the doctor back to the elevator, after me makes his way to me.

"He doesn't really know what happened. Took some blood tests and stuff. Need to keep her hydrated and no stress"

"I didn't ask" I whisper and sit down once again.

"But you do care, I know you do"

"I actually don't Christian. That girl inside is part of the reason why my life got so fucked up!"

"That's what you have to understand Mia, she really had nothing to do with this. Her sick excuse of a father tricked her. He's been using his kids."

"Please stop defending her in front of me"

"I'm not defending Mia." He moves closer to me, and lightly strokes the side of my face. "I'm not taking sides. I am just trying to fix everything. Yes, what she did was wrong but she trusted her father completely. She didn't realise that her father could have been wrong."

"She still hurt me."

"In a way, Yes I agree" he slightly smiles.

"Ok fine. I will talk to her. But I am not forgiving her any time soon"

Now he smiles his beautiful smile, "Ok love, that's all I ask. I'm going to grab some medication for her." He walks away to leave but turns back just before entering the elevator, "You could, go in. I mean if you want to only" and then he's gone.

I know he wants me to go in. I can tell. Should I really go in or not? I defiantly need time, but maybe Christian is right. Maybe she really doesn't know her father.

I think for a couple more minutes and finally decide to go in. I think I should. I know for sure Christian isn't getting her medications per se, because he could just send Taylor. But he knows Ana and I need time- time to hate on each other or just time to understand things better.

In walk in Christians office, and see her sitting with my knees pressed against her chest. Her head is placed on her knees, which makes it hard to see her face. I quietly more towards her and sit on the sofa opposite her. I can slightly see her face now- Covered with tears, and overall just life less.

I hate this uncomfortable silence so I talk, "You…umm…you ok"

She moves her head making eye contact with me. "I didn't know, I swear," she whispers, looking straight at me than looks away. "We used to play hide and seek with daddy there. It was our little secret hiding place. Only Mike, dad and I… only we knew about his secret under room." She sniffs. "One day dad…Ray told us that there's a leak downstairs so he has to seal the under room. We thought…we thought he sealed it up."

"Well he didn't"

"He is sick…so sick to keep you there. I…I thought you left." She looks towards me once again, fresh tears in her eyes.

"I tried. But with what he did to me…with me, he could never let me go back to my family."

"I wish I knew. I wish I could help you."

"I was pregnant with Mike's child when that sick bastard raped Me." my voice cracks.

A painful sob erupts, which I realise is Ana's. "I'm so sorry for not believing you. I am so sorry"

Again am I too nice or is it just how Grace raised me? I feel terrible for her.

"Its in the past." I choke out. I can't watch her hurt; after all she was my best friend. "I'm trying to move on. Things are getting better."

"I should have given you a chance to explain," she cries.

"Maybe…but I." I stand up, this is harder then it looks. "I understand," I painfully admit. "He was your father. No can even think of his/her father doing such a disgusting thing. I understand how he tricked you. You unconditionally love your family and he took advantage of that. I do understand, but it's going to take time. Have I forgiven you? No not yet. Will I forgive you? Maybe, yes. Just give me time."

"Thank you" she sniffs. "I missed you, Mia"

"Hate too admit it but I did to" we stare at each other for some awkward seconds until I speak again, " I guess my brother really likes you"

She looks away, as she wipes her tear stained face. "I don't trust him," she whispers, almost pissing me off. She doesn't trust Christian? Why what in the hell. He fucking adores her and she doesn't even care.

"How can you, out of all people fucking "can't trust him"? He fucking cares for you…he for some stupid reason loves you" I hiss more harshly then intended.

"He cheated me the same way Mike cheated you. He fucking played me for your revenge. He wanted to leave me like Mike left you. He only wanted to give me pain"

"You should understand why he did this."

"Believe it or not I do understand but still…I'm hurt"

"Of course" I roll my eyes. Just at that moment Christian enters his office looking at as with a confused, surprised look.

"Um I should leave" I say and make my way to the door.

"Mia, listen…"

"I'm ok Chris." I smile genuinely. "She's the one that needs you"

ANA:

I can't feel anything. Its like my world has been turned upside down. Every thing I ever trusted was…. is a lie. Every thing that Ray said, or has been saying is a lie.

I painful sob breaks out of me. I cover my face with my hands and let it out. Suddenly I feel strong arms around me, as they lift me and then I am sitting on his lap with his arm tightly ripped around me.

"Everything's going to be ok baby," he whispers. "You're not alone"

I move my hands and circle his neck tightly as I hug him with all my power. "I'm sorry for choosing him over you Christian. I couldn't trust you…. I still can't but I…I love you too" I cry out. He pulls away from me, and looks completely shocked. "Oh god I wanted to say this so bad…but I couldn't I…the trust thing killed me. And now after everything is out…. I don't know what to do. I don't know who to trust"

He strokes me cheek and kisses my forehead with pure love. "Me. You can trust me baby. I am so sorry for what I did. I am sorry for hurting you. You have to believe me when I say that I love you. You have to believe that I can't even imagine my life without you. You have to believe that you…you changed me. I love you Anastasia Steele! I love you so much. Tell me how can I make you believe me? How can I make you trust me?" he begs with tearful eyes, breaking my heart.

"Marry me." I whisper, with even realizing what I just said.

"What?" he whispers back, moving closer to me.

"Make me yours. Give me your name. Marry me Christian. I choose you. I want you to make me believe you every day for the rest of our lives. I want to make you believe that I love you. I want to forget all this. I want to live my life with you. I just want to forget." I hold his beautiful face in both my hands and put his forehead on mine. "I just want Ana and Christian."

He closes his eyes with a beautiful smile on his face. A single tear makes it way down his eye.

"I love you Christian" I whisper and kiss his tears away.

"Say it again" he whispers with his eyes shut.

"I love you. I love you so much Christian. I love you"

"Yes" he opens his eyes. "Yes I will marry you"

A smile breaks through my face and jump at him kissing his entire face, everywhere.

"I'm sorry"

"Sssh" he puts his finger on my lips. "We are even. What we both did was horrible, so that evens us out" I smile. "No more of this. We both love each other and that's all that matters."

"What ever you say, Mr. Grey"

"Now according to me, we haven't…really done "stuff" for a really long time and I am about to burst" I giggle out loud, kissing his cheek.

"Mmm even I missed having you inside me" I whisper in his ear and wiggles on his lap.

"What are we waiting for?" He groans kissing my neck.