I don't know how many of you watched ESC last night, but although my personal favorite Great Britain unfortunately wasn't much better than Germany it was a great show and gave me quite a bit of the inspiration I've lacked lately (Estonia's song was just too JIBBS-y to pass up the occassion). Hope you'll enjoy.

-DISCLAIMER: I OWN NEITHER NCIS AND ITS CHARACTERS NOR "GOODBYE TO YESTERDAY" BY ELINA BORN AND STIG RÄSTA-

Goodbye to Yesterday

He was sitting at his desk wishing for his boat to distract him when all he could think about was the redhead up in the corner office. His mind reeled, he felt lightheaded as he buried his head in his hands, ignoring the questioning look from DiNozzo and McGee. They blamed it on his grief though, so there was no reason to worry they might find out what this really was about.

There was a killer on the loose, but all of them were too numb to really function, not with the drama that happened earlier today. He could still hear her body slamming to the ground, her eyes staring surprised at him, even when she had been long since dead, till DiNozzo had closed them. Gibbs looked up in time to see their new Mossad side-kick taking her place at Kate's desk, feeling even worse at the sight. It had taken him a long time to accept that this was Kate's desk, not Jenny's anymore, and he had the feeling it would take him even longer to adjust now. It seemed as if all its occupants went away, with a mess to clean up at his hands.

His thoughts went to Jenny once again, like they had done constantely all day. He couldn't believe she came back as his boss, as Director nonetheless. This was karma biting his ass, and he knew it. It came like a shock, a hurricane on his tortured mind. When she turned around in front of him everything else was whipped away. She was the dominating force in his thoughts, always had been, always would be. He wasn't sure if there was a "would" left though, she'd made it clear she wasn't interested.

He took his mobile and his jacket, strolling over to the elevator. Maybe he could catch a few hours of sleep on one of the slabs in Autopsy and she would be out of his head by the time he woke up again.

"Personally, I think it is good that you're here again, my dear. It will certainly help to get him through this when he knows his partner's by his side again."

"I'm not too sure about this one Ducky. He didn't seem all too happy to see me again."

The redhead sighed and turned around, going over to his desk to pour both of them a cup of tea. Her mind seemed to scream He isn't my partner anymore, but everything else told her he still was. She picked her cup up before she turned to the elderly doctor again. "What was she like? You know, Agent Todd?"

Ducky closed his eyes a moment, taking a steadying breath before he answered. "Funny, caring, nice to be around. A lot like you actually, just not that squeamisch concerning autopsies. I believe that's why Jethro wanted her to join the team in the first place."

She cleared her throat gingerly, this wasn't what she'd hoped to hear. "Was there more to them than just a working relationship?"

The ME arched an eyebrow and gave her a hard look. "I don't know what you hope I'll say Jennifer." She shrugged, averting her eyes. "But I'll answer your question anyways. There wasn't. The closest thing Jethro got to a relationship after you left was his third marriage, and I would call that neither happy nor stable."

Jenny nodded, staring at her tea unseeingly. Her voice was not more than a soft whisper as she finally asked her next question. "Do you think he's missed me as much as I've missed him?"

He exited the elevator, having resisted the urge to just stop it and forget everything; Ari, Kate, Jenny. He strolled over to the automatic doors of Autopsy. They opened with their usual whoosh and he was face to face with his new boss once again. She didn't seem to notice him, her eyes glistening with what seemed to be tears as she turned to Ducky and asked "Do you think he's missed me as much as I've missed him?"

He was furious, livid, as he saw her petite frame crouching on the ME's chair, her crimson hair falling like a curtain in front of her face. He'd given her a second chance, and she'd turned him down without a second thought, the only thing she'd wanted was for him not to make this difficult.

"Jennifer-" Ducky began, nervously looking over to Gibbs.

"I think that's my story to tell." He said harshly, his voice raw. Jenny's head whipped around to him, she gasped in surprise at his angry expression. "Give us a minute, would you Duck?" He more commanded than asked, and the Scot nodded before he hurried out of autopsy.

"Jethro-"

"Safe it Jen, I don't want to hear it. What do you think this is? Some kind of fun? A game? I sure feel like I've been played." He hit the desk with his fist, taking satifaction in the way she startled. "I told you I missed you, there's no need to act all unsecure around Ducky." He yelled, his temper flaring.

"You're grieving Jethro! What do you expect me to do? Being a distraction till you're done mourning?" He was silent, his hard gaze trained on her eyes, forcing her to say something. "I didn't even know how much there was going on between you and her-"

"Nothing."

"But I couldn't know that. It's just so much like back then, when I was still on your team. Me, you, two other guys at the sidelines. The whole situation is just so similar, how was I supposed to know that your relationship wasn't?"

The fury was still etched into his features as he turned to look at her again. "You thinkin' I fuck all my female co-workers?"

"That's what it was for you? Fucking your co-worker? I hope it had enough appeal for you." She hissed.

"Couldn't have meant more to you either." He lashed back, taking a few steps towards her till they were nose to nose.

"It meant the world to me, but clearly to you it didn't." She wanted to rush past him, but he grabbed her arm, keeping her in place.

"You were the one who left." Gibbs forced through gritted teeth.

"And you've just proved that it was the right choice. My love was never going to be enough for you. I took my things and was out of the way."

"You didn't even give me the chance to convince you to stay, I'm pretty sure I would've told you to stop."

"And then what?" Jenny asked flatly. She looked tired, exhausted. "We would've gone on like we'd done before? You holding back and me trying to make it work? It would've broken me Jethro. I had to get out before it was too late."

"We were happy Jen."

"Were we? When I woke you at night, because you were tossing and turning around you wouldn't tell me what it was, instead you'd go to the living room where I'd find you the next morning, an empty bottle of Bourbon next to you. You didn't trust me, Jethro."

"I trusted you with my life."

"But not with your heart and that's why we would never have worked." She put her hand on his cheek, enjoying the feeling of him leaning into her touch. "I'm sorry I left."

"I'm sorry too."

He put his arms around her, craddling her like he used to do when they were still together. "You think we can ever make it work, Jen?"

She shook her head. "Not today Jethro."

"Never?"

She shook her head again. "I don't know. I hope we can. Just not today."

He nooded, pressing a kiss to the crown of her head. "I'll try Jen." He said gruffly, smiling for what felt like the first time in six years.

"Me too."

I woke up at six AM,
my eyes were closed but my mind was awake,
pretended I was breathing in a deep sleep pace

Got dressed so quietly,
I was frozen by the jingle of my keys at the door
as I got outside I smiled to the dog

I didn't wanna wake you up,
my love was never gonna be enough,
so I took my things and got out of the way now, girl

Why didn't you wake me up?
I'm pretty sure I would have told you to stop,
let's try again and say goodbye
Goodbye to yesterday

Why would you think like that
yeah, we fight a lot, but in the end,
you and I, we're a perfect match

I wouldn't want it any other way,
but now your gone and I'm all alone,
lying here naked and staring at the phone

I didn't wanna wake you up,
my love was never gonna be enough,
so I took my things and got out of the way now, girl

Why didn't you wake me up?
I'm pretty sure I would have told you to stop,
let's try again and say goodbye,
Goodbye to yesterday

I didn't wanna wake you up,
my love was never gonna be enough,
so I took my things and got out of the way now, girl

Why didn't you wake me up?
I'm pretty sure I would have told you to stop,
let's try again and say goodbye,
Goodbye to yesterday

Goodbye to yesterday

Ooh, goodbye to yesterday

If that isn't like Paris, then I don't know. Just scratch 'girl' and leave a review xD.