A/N: An amazing beautiful anon sent me this on tumblr and I just went along with it:

"For ur soul au imagine dick/wally FINALLY a couple but now that theyve said their last words they wonder what eachothr would REALLY say when they die. They can't warn eachother about their fate like dinah can w ollie and they getrlyoverprotectivekbye"

The ending's sad because I'm a bad person and my beta encouraged me, okay? So, if you're looking for a happy ending, don't read the last part of this chapter.

Special thanks to Maya for being an incredible beta and fangirling with me.

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"You're a dick." Wally tells him the moment the boy wonder opens his eyes. Nothing hurts anymore and Robin knows it's something to do with how much morphine he's on, but, heyhe's not complaining.

"Shhhh... Dude, what did I tell you about secret identities?" Robin smiles at him and tries a joke because while Wally's hand is petting his hair, his face doesn't look whelmed at all, so, you know, mixed signals.

"You're a dick." Wally repeats, stops the petting and ah,now it's clear as day. He's angry, which probably has a lot to do with the fact that Robin has almost died, and Robin prepares himself for the 'you shouldn't have done that, you idiot'talk that is bound to come. "But I kind of love you."

Robin blinks and waits for Wally to continue because that can't possibly be the end of it.

"No, scratch that, no 'kind of's, I really do love you, okay?" Wally sighs and rests his forehead on his boyfriend's chest.

Robin lets his hand up in the air for a few seconds, unsure of what to do, then he pets Wally's back and tries not to think about the look of horror on his boyfriend's face right before he passed out on the mission.

"I love you too, Kid Idiot. It's kind of a soul mates thing, you know?" He says and feels Wally's lips turn into a smile, brushing against the skin of his bare chest. "But are you really letting me off the hook that easily? I was expecting a that was reckless of you, Rob, I could have taken that blow because I heal real fast so don't you ever do that again, blah blah blah."

"Yeah, I was about to, but then you'd go all yeah yeah your accelerated healing doesn't make you an invincible meat bag. Now stop being a hypocrite because you know you'd do the same in my shoes. We're supposed to have each other backs."Wally tries to imitate his voice and Robin bites his lower lip, because while Wally got his voice wrong, the words were right; that's surprisingly close to something he'd say. "And then I'd say something like yeah, you're right, I'd do anything for you bro. But that doesn't make it okay.because it doesn't. And then we'd be really mad at each other and not talk for days and I can't have that. I almost lost you, Dick." He raises his head and green meets blue.

"Wally..."

"So can we just lie here instead?" The speedster cuts him off and looks away, hiding his face in the curve of his boyfriend's neck. The hair tickles a bit and Dick can't say no to that, so he holds the redhead and kisses the top of his head.

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He doesn't get the talk from Wally, but from Batman.

"That was incredibly reckless, Dick, you could have jeopardized the entire mission. What were you thinking?" He demands to know, but the boy wonder can't give him an answer. He doesn't know what he was thinking, he doesn't know if he was thinking at all. He saw the guy aiming at Wally and his body just moved.

He accepts the punishment without complaining and, when his mentor finally leaves, he punches a wall.

Robin knows it was poor decision making, rationally he knows that he should have let Wally take the hit as a distraction and attack the guy when he was least expecting it, but he just couldn't. He couldn't risk it.

He remembers what Wally said to him right after they arrived. He was talking about how excited he was about spending the weekend at his uncle and aunt's, because Barry promised him the complete detailed story of the last time he's been off world with the league. Robin had laughed at him and called him a fanboy. It was their usual normal banter, but these could have been the last words they ever said to each other.

Nice thing about dying on a fake mission? He got to hear Wally say his words and confirm his best friend was also his soul mate. The bad thing about dying on a fake mission was that now there's no way he could possibly know what Wally's reallast words to him are going to be. It could be anything, it could happen anytime and he just can't risk it.

He knows it's stupid and highly impractical to live in fear of the possibility that something might happen to them, he knows it's damaging to the team's dynamic and that it could compromise not only the mission but also everyone's safety. His job on the last mission was to neutralize the bad guy, using his ninja skills to go undetected, and he failed. Luckily, according to the mission report he just read, Aqualad got there early and intervened, but what good is he to the team if he can't be trusted to follow instructions? How can he expect to lead his own team someday if he can't think rationally whenever his boyfriend's concerned?

Last mission was strike three and he's sure Bruce is counting. At first he's surprised Bruce only told him off, his mentor didn't threat to force him out of the team even though he had every right to do so, but he soon understands; Bruce trusts him to arrive at the same conclusion by himself and to do what is right.

Dick isn't dumb, he knows what he has to do; he needs to get over it soon or he and Wally won't be able to work together anymore. The thought of quitting the team, of leaving his friends, makes his heart ache and Dick would most definitely like to not do that.but he'll have to if this whole situation keeps spinning out of control.

He tries to think about how his life will be without going to the Mountain. He's grown used to the smell of M'Gann's burned cookies, to Superboy's constant moping, to Artemis and Wally's bickering and to Aqualad's exasperated sighs. He's grown used to having Wally greet him with a quick peck on the lips and the biggest, warmest smile, and if he quits the team, he won't be able to see his boyfriend so often.

They've been inseparable since the failsafe simulation, and maybe some distance will do them good. But maybe it won't. Dick fails to understand how not seeing his boyfriend is going to help with the anxiety, the relentless worrying that something may happen to Wally when he's away.

He's back to reality when he hears someone knock on his door and in enters Wally. Speak of the devil.

"Hey, Dick, Alfred let me in, I just wanted to check on you, is it okay?" Wally asks and Dick doesn't have the heart to tell him that he's the last person he wanted to see today, or maybe he doesn't say it because it's a blatant lie.

"Yeah, I was trying to do my homework, but can't seem to focus on it, so your intrusion's welcomed." Dick smiles at him and Wally's suddenly there, sitting on the bed by his side, shoulders bumping and a hand on his own.

"Homework while Batman's out on patrol? Dude, are you grounded or something?"

"I'm not grounded. I'm benched."

Wally snorts. "And what's the difference?"

"The difference is that benched sounds a lot less humiliating than grounded, okay?" Dick slightly punches Wally on the arm, and the heartwarming laughter that follows makes him feel better about everythingalready.

He was afraid of things being awkward or tense between them after another display of reckless, almost fatal, overprotectiveness. He doesn't want to worry or burden Wally with his problems and doubts about the future. Wally, as a speedster, constantly lives on the right now,and it's rubbing off on him because right now they're together and Wally's laughing and everything's okay. It feels good to have at least one thing in his life that's not falling apart.

The boy wonder tries to imagine a world in which he doesn't listen to Wally laugh at least three times a day, and in the majority of scenarios his mind makes, he ends up becoming a bitter paranoid others, he ends up becoming Batman,and that was something he always wanted to be until recently, until the failsafe simulation, in which he had to sacrifice everything he cared about.

Wally hands go to his boyfriend's face and they're kissing. It's slow at first, but Dick raises his hands to touch Wally, and he wants to touch Wally everywhere. He wants to explore every inch of skin he can reach and the kiss turns possessive and desperate and he needs to keep reminding himself that Wally's here.Wally's here and it's okay. Everything will be okay. Everything needs to be okay. Please.

"Whoah." Wally smiles against his lip and gently pushes him away. Dick's first instinct is to go after him in order to end the painful distance between them, but Wally's hand keeps him steady. "Dude. Dude, I'd love to stay here and make out with you, but I need to head back to Central City."

"Why? Can't you stay over?" Dick hates how his voice breaks, but forces himself to carry on. "We could play some games and pretty soon Alfred's gonna start making dinner, so..."

"Are you trying to bribe me with Alfred's food, Rob? Because that's evil." Wally holds his hand.

Dick squeezes it and looks away. "I just want you to stay."

"Yeah, I'd stay if I could, bro, but uncle Barry wants me patrolling with him today. If I don't show up there, he shows up here, and two speedsters in Gotham in the same place at the same time surely goes against one of Batman's orders."

"Yeah, it does." Dick says, but holds his hand harder. He thinks about the million things that could happen to Wally after he leaves. Maybe tonight's the night Central City Rogues break their vow not to kill while fighting Flash and Kid Flash? Maybe an alien radioactive meteor will fall down from the sky and wipes Barry's house out of the map? He knows he's being ridiculous and blowing this whole thing out of proportion, but he can't help it. Anything could happen and "yeah, it does" are going to be the last words he ever says to Wally.

"See you tomorrow, okay?" Wally replies and gets up, but doesn't try to pull his hand back. Instead he leans to where Dick's seated and kisses him again. "Love you."

This kiss is a bit different this time, it's slow, but not hesitant. Dick tastes the love right on Wally's tongue and it's sweet, but at the same time there's a hint of longing and longing's always bitter. Thinking that everything was okay with Wally was stupid and very naive of him, because of course the redhead's struggling and freaking out just as much as he is. Wally's smart (and that's something everyone keeps forgetting, himself included, apparently,) and he probably already knows that if they don't fix it, they'll have no other choice but to leave the team. His boyfriend's dealing with it a lot better than he is, though.

Because Wally, knowing that these words could be their last ones, makes them count.

"I love you too." Dick lets him go, watches a streak of yellow and red leave the manor from his window and feels slightly better. 'I love you's make good last words. They don't know when it's going to happen, it could happen today, tomorrow, five months from now, five or fifty years from now. It's impossible to know so Dick's going to have to keep telling his boyfriend he loves him and that is definitely something he can do.

There are worse fates than that.

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"Shit." Wally says when another flux of energy from the Crysalid hits him. He knows what's happening, he knows why it's happening; he understands that being the slowest speedster makes him an escape valve and he's surprisingly okay with it. Well, mostly okay with it. "Dick's going to kill me."

"Kid!" Barry yells after him, and then turns to Impulse. "Bart, we need to slow down."

"Uncle Barry, it's okay. There's nothing you can do, don't blame yourself. Just please tell Dick I..." Wally closes his eyes. He's still running, but he can't feel the lower part of his body anymore and the nothingness seems to be spreading. "Oh, he knows." He still feels the 'love you too' whispered against his lips. It feels good, for the eternity of a second and then nothing.