In the dark

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Sort of summary:

This as close to established Swan Queen as I could get. Let say everything is the same except before Emma took the powers she turns to killian an says "killian I...I'm sorry." She chooses to save Regina. When she Turns to Regina she says she loves her just barely above the noise of the wirlwind of Magic. But does Regina hear her?

This is is actually a really good story idea I wanna get out there before someone else gets close to it.

Emma uses the dagger before anyone can say anything. She takes on the darkness and turns to hold the last gazes that she can before vanishing in a spiraling cloud of smoke. I had nothing but remorse for her feeling she needed to. It was my fault that she was capable of taking it capable of darkness. It was my fault she was saving me and watching her do so broke my heart in so many ways I never thought it could.

I cried out falling to the ground seeing the last thing in her eyes being fear. There were people around me picking me up trying to stop me from fighting but I wouldn't stop until I got her back. I swore it if it was the last thing I did. I swore to Henry just before I vanished in my own puff of smoke that I was not giving her up that easy to darkness.

Emma's P.O.V.

The last thing I saw before falling into this darkness was my family. Henry, my parents and Regina. I didn't count anyone else family because nobody else could get me like them. Now I was sitting in the black abyss not sure what was happening. I thought I'd be having this big internal fight with myself by now. Maybe physically look as if I was losing my mind. I thought I'd be facing my family trying to hold back the dark ones power so they could run, hide, and keep on living. I thought I would have to fight for eternity but now I was sure I had lost. I didn't even get a fight, that I was just that weak inside.

Suddenly the dark becomes lighter and I hope this is it but I figure it's probably that I've been looking long enough it is getting lighter because I am imagining it. That isn't true though as I realize I'll just be living in a hell I don't deserve down in this darkness.

"Emma you'll find a family one day." My old orphanage caretaker says after everyone has been ushered inside. I remember this we watched another girl get a home, I watched as another friend drove away while I stayed. I said nothing though I knew at the time I wanted to start running then, I wanted to tell her I wouldn't and she knew nothing about how I felt. Eventually though I walked back inside for the night.

That night though someone caught the orphanage on fire I watched at two girls died trying to drag me from the room I was locked in that night. So I would run they said. So I could keep trying to have a family. But I didn't fight hard enough then until one girl kicked through the door only to collapse. I wasn't strong enough to hold her because I choose not to fight me way out of the room first. I was half dragged out side to firefighters thanks to the other girl. Who on the way to the hospital died of burns and smoke exposure that she received protecting me. Molly and Cindy both died because I was weak.

It wasn't the first time I was weak but it was definitely the last time. When I got better I remembered how I chose to run away and learn how to be strong on my own. To not look for support or help anywhere. It was my job to save myself. From then on I tried to be strong until I ran into Neal, had a kid, and gave him away realizing I'd never be strong enough. I still had yet to learn to be strong and the one time I found love and decided to fight for it it was to late. Right?

I was plunged back into darkness expect it to respond back with a yes. Until a moment or an eternity later like opening my eyes I saw Regina. Tears running down her face begging me to fight to come home. I wanted to and all I could do was cry out in pain at the power wishing while wishing her arms could hold me and hold it all at bay. I shook violently as I tried to hold on because I didn't want to give up this moment. The boiling anger inside me lessened at her words the more she said them enough for me to beg her to please wait for me.

"Don't forget me, I'll fight until I can control it.. Then I'll be back." Like a lid bursting under pressure the anger flooded back and I knew in my last moment of control I had to get away. I summoned what will I had and poofed away, where to I had no idea as I was back in my place of pitch black.

Regina's P.O.V.

I had went to my family tomb, vault, hoping to find away to pull the darkness safely from Emma. To save her the pain of facing the darkness. Rumple knew it and I knew it yet Emma was the one that took it on. That was fighting it and if anything made me feel weak this was it. Of all the time my mother made me weak at her hands, rumple tried to make me stronger, and I had let myself run to someone I didn't love because someone told me it was fate this made me feel weakest for not protecting the woman I love from what I knew was a horrible amount of pain.

Down here in my vault I wouldn't search until I found a way be it to the sorcerer named Merlin or some other way to pull the darkness from her. At the last step I felt a chill of pure dark magic. To the left in the back of the room stood Emma but not my Emma. No matter which way I looked at her or moved there was nothing light about her. The face I saw was dark and distant. I knew right then and there that Emma knew the sorcerer's name then so did the dark one inside her. I had to halt his search. I reach out for her to grab her jacket when black sparks struck my hand. The burn on my skin held my attention only long enough to hiss in pain but I tried again.

Not even a muscle move to defend itself because it knew now I didn't want to hurt the body it was in. The thought that it could hold Emma under in the darkness angered me. It was pointless for her to take the power of she couldn't even fight it any better than she made it appear she could. I shouted threw gusts of light magic at her trying to draw her out. Trying to find her in there.

"Emma don't let it win, I know you can't give up this easy. You have strength, more than I do. Henry knows it, your parents know it, and I know it. Even your pirate knows it." I need her to come to the surface to hear I believe in her that we all do. "Emma please fight it please! Please come home!" I've begun crying and suddenly I see emerald emerging from the black eyes. My Emma!

Her face crumbles from blank to excruciating pain and I know it's the fight. Part of her trying to push back the darkness long enough to say something. Minutes go on until finally she is grunting her words to me. Gritting her teeth forcing herself to stay in control.

"Don't forget me, I'll fight until I can control it.. Then I'll be back." An just like that her control slips and I know she has to be stronger right now but I beg her to keep trying because I believe she can do it. I don't know if she heard me as she magics away and white dust if left before me. My eyes fall on the the pages other Emma was on. Merlin is or was in the enchanted forest. And that was a picture of him. Damn!

Emma's P.O.V.

I didn't know what happened next to Regina after the darkness returned. I wondered if I went back but then I remembered it saw the page too it knew what Merlin looked like just as I did. No matter how much I wanted to worry about Regina I knew I had one chance to buck up and do something right. There was not anything I could do but fight this power if I wanted to get back to her. From the little I heard from Regina she did not hear my confession of how all this time I made myself believe I liked killian but I truly didn't. How could I when I loved her.

I didn't have a plan but maybe just maybe if I took action now I could win. Another point in my life that I had been weak in, that I gave up the fight in, began reeling like a film before my eyes. I realized the dark one was trying to know my weaknesses to get to know all about me. I felt a spark in my soul which built up my walls around the one thing I was going to guard until I could figure out a way to use it. It would not know I was planning on winning even if I had to find a way to raise it with goodness an light. First I had to make it through this hell and then hopefully have enough strength to search for something of my own.

I really wants your reviews.

So is that considered established or no? Plus I really wanna know how you feel about what I've got in mind.

Who expect a baby? I mean wow that's quick for the first chapter. I have various ways I can make this go though so tell me..

Hook baby, Regina's magic baby, or dark one magic baby. Keep in mind you don't know what I'll be doing with said baby but it's not going to be easy path for Emma.