Nope, woke up this morning and nothing changed... I still don't own them.

As it turns out she can in fact know about Bahrain.

The revelation is surprising as it is devastating. I never told anyone other Andrew what happened, never breathed a word to Phil, I never even filled out the full report. And I know that Andrew never told anyone.

Imagine my surprise when Skye told me my horrifying past was witnessed by this Jaying woman. I know I deserve Skye's disgust, but to say I'm not hurt and shocked by the way she causally tossed it in my face would be a lie. I know Coulson told her the little he knew about it, I know she knows it broke me. But I can't even hold her anger against her.

She's too defensive and I'm too shocked right now to even begin to explain that Bahrain is the reason I sent her to the cabin. That yes, I 'have thought about it' and agonized about what would happen if God forbid she became dangerous or a threat.

Yes, I have had nightmares about having to take her down. Yes, I'm terrified that if I can take the life of a child, that I can take the life of girl I love like she was my own. I wish I could explain that I sent her away to protect her from me, and not to protect us from her.

She'll never look at me the same way again. It doesn't mean I'll ever stop caring and that I won't worry that she's safe.

I know sending her to the cabin hurt, but I had to keep her safe from what I was doing to her. I almost killed her. I can't ever live through killing another girl, I can't handle being the reason this girl dies.

I hear Coulson behind me, I'm not ready to talk to him yet. I should have stopped him when I had the chance, Skye is living proof I let him get out of control, and now she's paying for my mistakes. Things will never go back to the way they were.

Coulson comes up to my side.

"I miss my plane." I say.