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They are indecisive, they have difficulty making decisions, they have an exaggerated fear of failure. They only make a decision when they are completely sure to get 100% results.

Jason is pretty sure Tim knows what he's doing. Or at least that he knows about his intentions towards him. He's made them clear.

Asking him out, giving him expensive gifts, behaving like a human being, doing patrol with him and actually letting him patrol his part of the city.

Yeah… He's pretty sure Tim knows what's happening between the two of them since the very moment he stopped beating him black and purple.

So when, everytime he asks him out on a date, the only answer he gets is a lame "I'm not sure we should" with such sympathetic and pained eyes, he starts to believe that maybe Tim doesn't wants him and doesn't know how to tell him. But then Tim gives him those looks.

So pining and hopeful.

And he doesn't understand, because he has made his intentions clear. That he likes him and that he wants to be with him. That he trusts him. That he wants them to be together.

And sometimes Tim tells him things like "I'm not sure" "What if everything goes wrong?" "We can't be sure this is going to work"

And when he knows he can't assure him that everything will be alright, that they're going to work.

When the only thing he can assure him of is that they can try instead of giving him the "We can make it happen" that Tim needs.
When he knows it isn't enough.

He gives up.

And then he looks at him. Always so sad and resigned. Like telling him that he knew this was going to happen in the end.

And he feels like dying again.

They don't value their talents and potential. They see their talents as small, while those of others look great and even exaggerated.

Once. Tim hacked his way into some ofBlüdhaven's biggest Mafia bosses' entire cash vaults and donated all the money to several charity institutions. Anonymously.

In less than an hour.

It was incredible and it did really change several lives for good, but when he congratulated him for it the only answer he got was.

"It was nothing. Really- I mean you fought ten of their men all by yourself. The only thing I did was sit on my ass playing with a computer while you were fighting out there." And then he actually apologized for it.

Dick thought nothing of it, and even through the years when it kept happening, he thought nothing of it.

Because Tim probably actually couldn't see how amazingly smart he was. Maybe he was humble like that. He probably thought it was normal.

And man, if Tim thought that that was easy, he would really like to see what he could do if he really put his mind to it.

He could do great things.

Years forward, even when Tim did great things. Even when Tim put real effort in great things. Even when Tim did things that couldn't possibly behuman.

Like bring a man back from the dead or outsmart Ra's Al Ghul of all people.

He kept saying it was nothing.

And he kept apologizing.

Because he couldn't do it faster or better or just because.

And even when he knew that Tim was doing actually impossible things. He thought nothing of it.

Because Tim could probably do better.

They fear the new and avoid risks.

When Jason asks him to be his Robin, he does the only thing he can do.

He runs.

He runs because it is new. Because it's unknown.

Because no one actually wanted him for anything. His entire life is a continuous motion of people who have to put up with him. From his parents who had to raise him, to Dick who has to be his brother,to the Titans who have to be friends with him for the sake of the team, to Batman who had to take him as his Robin because he needed a Robin.

No one actually wants him more than they need him, and that's fine.

It's his safe heaven.

If he is needed, then he doesn't have to be alone and he can be with people, even when they don't actually want him to be there.

But, to be wanted. Surely he couldn't be wanted. Why would anyone want him?Him?

No, it has to be a mistake, and even if it is real, it can't possibly be safe.

Because want is such a capricious thing. Want can fade away. Just like that. Most people don't even know what they want.

And with Jason.

With Jason you never know. He's crazy. Isn't he? He would probably take him, only to realize that he didn't want him because. Why would he?

And he would probably just throw him away. Just because he could.

And it would be nice if for some reason (maybe his sanity) Jason could actually want him. It would be really wonderful.

But

He can't be sure.

He can't be sure and he knows that if he does just that. Leaves everything behind to be Jason's Robin. Be Jason's because he wants him.

Then he could be left behind without the safety of having another place to go to. Someone to go to.

It's too risky.

So he runs. And runs and never looks back because he can't be tempted. He can't afford to be tempted.

And even when he's left behind anyway, because no one needs him anymore, because there is another Robin. A better one. A wanted one.

He runs.

Because he's not sure if he can endure being thrown away again

They are very passive and avoid taking the initiative.

The kid is always there when she goes to her garden (Dick's kid, her mind supplies bitterly). He never makes a move. Most of the time, he doesn't even look at her, and that's how she knows that the kid is not there for her, but for the flowers.

It's kind of cute.

Sometimes the kid just stares at her when she waters the plants. And his eyes are full of such want that makes her flinch with the instinctive desire to beat him. Because,at some point along the way, she started to hate men and their eyes and lustful looks.

But then she notices.

That his eyes aren't set on her chest or her ass, but in the whole action of her wateringthe flowers. And she knows. That the want is his desire to do justthat.

And Kory wonders why he never does it or why he never asks.

She knows she is pretty frightful. She has built herself to be like that. Strong and threatening.
That's her safe heaven.

Butsurely the kid knows that she would never hurt him for wanting to water her garden? Maybe he's just shy.

So she waits. For him to ask. Because she knows the kid will treat her flowers with respect and kindness.

But he never asks.

So she takes the initiative.

He's hesitant at first. Kind of clumsy. So different from the Robin she's used to see. He trembles and always waits for her to tell him what to do.

And she likes it. The submission in his actions.

It's different from the kind of submission she's used to trigger in men. This is a deep down in his soul submission- Like. He knows what his place is when it comes to her.

And she kind of craves for it.

They are isolated people. They're shy and have almost no friends or very few.

At some point (probably when Bruce returned and he could go back to being a brother instead of a parent), Dick realizes that Tim is never in the manor anymore.

And he might have his own flat now, but even when he was a kid and lived in a very different house, he was always there. Like- a 24/7 sort of thing.

But now he's lucky if he sees him out on patrol. Because apparently now he has his own rogues' gallery and his own part of the city, and now the only one who ever sees him is Jason, and only when he's Red Hood and Tim Red Robin.

It's like they're strangers all over again.

But now Dick is the lonely kid and Tim is the betrayed and hurt young man. And the worst part of it is that he knows this is partly his doing.

He asks around.

And no. Tim doesn't talk with the Titans anymore. Even Conner is lucky if he answers his phone once in a while. Bruce doesn't even notice, because Tim is doing his job at WE and he's patrolling so he must be fine.

Dick wonders if there is a way to fix this. He wonders day and night, especially when he watches the back of his brother's cape in the distance and doesn't have the courage to follow.

He wonders and wonders.

And he's not sure if he wants to know the answer.

They don't like to share their feelings with others.

He sees Bruce hugging Damian as if it's the most normal thing in the world. And he wonders. Is it normal? Do parents always hug their sons without reason? Just because?
He wants to ask.
And he wants to ask. Why haven't you hugged me like that?
But he knows that it isn't his place.
So he walks away.

He sees Bruce telling Jason (almost on the verge of tears) That he forgives him and that he will always love him.
And he wonders.
Have you ever told me you loved me? Do you?
Is anyone able to love me?
I'm not your son. Am I? That's why you don't forget my mistakes.
That's why you'd never tell me that you love me?
But he knows that it isn't his place.
So he takes his leave and leaves them alone.

He sees Bruce congratulating Dick for finally getting together with Babs again. With such pride. And obviously happy for his son's happiness.
And he wonders. Have you ever been proud of me? Have you ever been happy for my happiness?
Do you even care?
Am I part of this family or just a convenient worker for your crusade?
Would you notice if I was happy? Do you realize that I'm not?
And he wants to yell at him.
I'm not happy! I'm not content! I don't even feel like I'm alive anymore!
Do you care about it at all?
But he knows that it isn't his place (and he doesn't know if he wants to know).
So he walks away. Far, far away.

He sees the family making a birthday party for Alfred.
And he remembers.
Dick's birthday, Jason's, Damian's. The celebrations for them. All happy and always full of love and the unknown feeling of family.
And he remembers.
His birthday.
When no one remembered it. When Dick was far away in Blüdhaven, and when Jason told him to go the fuck away on patrol, and when Damian told him to return to his place because the manor wasn't his home anymore, and when Bruce asked him if he got the weekly WE paperwork ready.
And him alone at night trying to take a bullet from his leg with a bottle of Vodka on the table.
And he wonders.
If birthday parties are supposed to demonstrate the joy that you feel for someone being alive. Does that mean that you aren't happy for me being alive? Would you care if I wasn't? Would you notice it?
But he knows it isn't his place to ask and he knows that he probably won't like the answer.
So he takes his keys and tells them that he's busy and that he is sorry but he has to go. He smiles when no one turns to look at him and wonders when they will notice that he isn't there.
And then he wonders if they even will.