A/N This is a story that will begin where Derek came back to Meredith from D.C., fill in the blanks, and continue on of what would have happened if Derek was there after 11x22. Thanks for reading!

Meredith couldn't believe that he was here. She had hid her emotions for so long, and her anger and fear got the best of her, so when Derek called Post-it, choking up, her walls got broken down one by one. She took a deep breath as his teary eyes stared at her and said "I can live without you, but I don't want to…..I don't ever want to." Relief washed over his face, and she gave him the slightest of smirks. They both looked at each other for several moments, just waiting for the other to move. Fear and insecurity gnawed away at her, but she slowly walked over to Derek.

She reached him, and wrapped her arms around his shoulders. He stayed still for a moment, until he wrapped an arm around her shoulders and an arm around her waist. They both breathed sighs of relief and relished in peace finally.

They stayed that way in silence for who knows how long until Meredith said "I really have missed you"

"I have really missed you too" he whispered, breathing in her lavender scent, "I'm so sorry."

She didn't say anything in reply, but decided to acknowledge it and move on. All that mattered was that he was here now and that he really was sorry.

Meredith's long day suddenly struck her with fatigue, and Derek heard her yawn softly.

"We should get some sleep" he said softly, pushing her hair back.

"Yeah"

She started walking to their room, when she noticed that he wasn't following after her.

"What are you doing?" she asked.

"Well…I just thought that maybe you didn't want me to sleep in our bed," he said looking at the floor and rubbing his neck.

"No, I want you here. I really do."

He looked up at her and then followed after her. They didn't bother changing or anything, they just kicked off their shoes and crawled under the sheets.

He gently placed a hand on her waist, and she backed up into his warmth. Derek listened quietly until Meredith fell asleep, until he allowed himself the privilege too, he already was trying to do everything in his power to prove that he didn't want to live without her.