I'm sorry in advance for any OOC elements, or mistakes of any type. (Feel free to point them out, I'll be really grateful and fix them immediately.) Also I'm sorry if it's boring/not good xD.

Disclaimer: I'm not Cassandra Clare thus own none of the characters.

"WHO DARES TO DISTURB THE HIGH WARLOCK?!" Boomed Magnus to the speaker. He really wasn't in the mood to interact with anyone and hoped to scare away whoever it was. "It's A-" stuttered a painfully familiar voice and Magnus froze "A client…" it amended as the Warlock stared in surprise. It's been a week since he broke up with the Nephilim and he already missed him terribly. He didn't think he'd lay his eyes on him again, so soon. Soon…Everything is relative… It wasn't soon at all for Magnus. The past week was Hell and those who would follow it were bound to be worse, he knew that. But there was nothing that could be done… 'It wasn't working, it couldn't work between us… I shouldn't let him in…' he thought 'But I want to see him…' another voice whined inside his head 'I need to see him, one more time…' Wordlessly and despite his better judgment and the voices still waging wars in his head, he did let him in. He distanced himself from the door and stood near the kitchen, arms crossed over his chest to hide his anticipation as he waited for the boy. A terrible looking Alec wobbled inside the loft slowly. His raven hair was a mess, and fell in front of his eyes that were glued to the floor, concealing them. His clothes were tattered and torn in places, like they'd been clawed by demons. Magnus drew a sharp breath at the sight, but the Nephilim didn't notice, being busy with breathing slowly to calm himself and not burst out crying. Magnus kept his silence, waiting for him to speak first. Finally, Alec calmed down a little and managed to say in a brittle voice "I… I'm sorry… for bothering you…" He was still standing in the threshold, eyes never leaving the floor, not daring to look where the Warlock stood, lest his control failed him. 'I shouldn't have come…' he thought 'No, there was no other way, I-' "Close the door and come in." ordered the older man in a husky voice, snapping him out of his reverie. Alec took a deep breath and turned his back to close the door, raising his head momentary. Magnus thought he'd finally face him but when he turned his way again, his blue eyes were downcast once more.

Magnus was getting annoyed. He longed to see the boy for so long, despite what happened, and now he stood before him and wouldn't even show his face! "So?" he said annoyance painting his voice. The Shadowhunter flinched at the tone and Magnus bit his lip, immediately regretting it. When Alec spoke, his voice quavered but his words were formal and polite, as if he was talking to a stranger. It hurt and the Warlock fought not to let it show on his face. "I… Please… I would like you to make any recollection of me disappear from the minds of those who know me." He said, effectively startling the other man into silence for a spell, but not too long. "What?!" he asked incredulously and the boy flinched again. "I'm sorry… I wouldn't… bother you, but… you are the only one I can ask…" he responded, nervously fiddling with the hem of his sweater and after a few seconds added, in a small voiced laced with affection and pain. "There is no one as powerful as you…" Magnus felt his heart constrict. He wanted to look at him so bad… To see his face… Those blue eyes he loved so much… 'Why won't you look at me?' Frustrated beyond measure, the Warlock seethed "Look at me when you're talking…" "I…" "LOOK AT ME!" he shouted, his growing distress turning into rage. However, when the boy did face him, startled, his head shooting up, his anger evaporated.

Alec's face was etched with grief and there were deep dark shadows under his eyes which were sunken and red, terror instilled in them by the Warlock's sudden outburst. "Alexander…" Magnus gasped, his tough exterior slipping, and the boy though mesmerized by the cat-eyes he loved so much, noticed that the Warlock was far from okay too. His hair was not styled, his face devoid of make-up revealing dark shadows under his amber-green eyes, and there wasn't a speck of glitter on him. He looked tired like he hadn't slept for days, but was still so breathtakingly beautiful… Just looking at him hurt, but he couldn't take his eyes away. He took a step forward, his hand rising on its own volition, reaching out for his beloved, but then Magnus blinked and the spell was broken just like that. Realising what he was doing, Alec dropped his hand at once, falling back towards the door and lowering his head again "I'm sorry." 'I have no right… To touch him anymore…' the boy thought on the verge of tears.

Before the Warlock could respond or react, something fluffy flew through the air towards Alec who caught it reflexively. "MEOWR!" It climbed on his neck, licking his face and Magnus felt a pang of jealousy. 'You brought this upon yourself' an inner voice reminded, and he inwardly scoffed at it. Alec petted the cat affectionately and hugged him, hiding his face in his fur "I'm sorry…" he whispered, not for the last time. He let him down, and Chairman walked past Magnus, scratching his leg as he went, effectively ripping his black silken pyjama pants. The Warlock looked at him in disbelief and hissed "Traitor." In response, the Nephilim, who looking down, hadn't witnessing the scene, gasped and looked up, immeasurable hurt in his blue eyes. "The cat." said Magnus quickly and Alec dropped his eyes again. 'How could you think that?' The Warlock thought, pained. 'Do you really think I hate you?'

Silence descended upon them, neither knowing what to say, both fighting to keep their distance and composure. Alec was breathing deeply to steady himself, not daring to look at him. He hadn't thought it would hurt so much to be close to him now that he wasn't wanted anymore. Meanwhile, having decided that staying like that wasn't good for either of them and unable to take it anymore, Magnus stated as tonelessly as he could manage. "Sorry, you can't afford me." He hoped and at the same time hated to disappoint the Nephilim, but there was nothing else to do. "I know that." The boy whispered. "I just… wanted to know if it can be done… and for how much. And I will return…" "What are you going to do? Rob a bank?" The boy looked up shocked. "Of course not!" Just then, he noticed that Magnus wasn't wearing a shirt "I… I…" he stuttered, blushing when meeting Magnus' eyes and dropped his head again, breathing deeply, shaking his head. Seeing that reaction and the blush he loved so much took all of the Warlock's self-control to not run to Alec and kiss him. After another minute of inner struggle, he reluctantly decided to address the issue at hand instead.

"I don't believe you have the right to make that choice." he said matter-of-factly struggling to make his voice indifferent again. "As it is not your decision to make." "No one would miss me…" the boy whispered "What?" "I'm sure they wouldn't mind…" he amended, stealing a glance through his eyelashes at the Warlock who paled having heard him the first time. 'Stupid, stupid Nephilim…' He thought shocked, but said nothing, just sighed and named a price. It was too extravagant, since there was no way he was erasing any memories and wanted to discourage him. And he did, for a moment. The boy gasped, but then a look of determination came upon his features and he nodded. "Thank you. I'll be back." The Warlock stared dumbfounded as the Shadowhunter raised his eyes to look at him with poorly disguised longing and giving him a beautiful heartbreaking smile full of pain whispered. "I'm sorry again… Truly sorry…" The boy turned his back and Magnus raised his hand taking a step his way, wanting to reach out to him, to stop him from leaving, but hesitating to do so. Alec had paused at the door and Magnus saw his shoulders trembling slightly and heard him choke out in a brittle, strained voice "I'm going to fix everything…" Before he had a chance to stop him, he opened the door and run away, oblivious to the Warlock's shocked, pleading look.

Note: This concludes part one, there will be one or two more, what did you think? Was it okay? Was it horrid? I'd love it if you'd let me know! =3 [I'm editing the other chapters now, will upload them either tomorrow, or in the next few hours or so, if no one disturbs me. I promise I won't take more than a day, the story is finished already, but I'm double/triple checking it to try and make sure there will be no mistakes.]