Hello Everyone, FBP here! I just wanted to put a disclaimer out there. I've gone back and edited most of the chapters at the beginning (Added stuff, took some stuff out, made the timeline longer, etc.) So even if you have read this before, take another go at it. The new stuff just might have you hooked! Also, if you see that the chapter count decreased, don't freak out! I condensed chapters and made them longer.

~FBP

She awoke to feel the cold morning air on her skin. It was prickling, yet oh so satisfying. Slowly she raised her head to see that she was not alone in her room at all. Then the events of the two weeks before came to the forefront of her mind and she couldn't help but feel a smile spread across her face.

She rolled over to take in the sight before her: there he was, sleeping ever so peacefully beside her. His long, jet black hair was draped across his face and in that moment, every worry she might have had through her dreams drifted away.

She took notice of the smile that slowly stretched across his face. In her eight years of schooling with him, she had only ever seen him smile a handful of times, most of them towards her. It was the most beautiful sight she was ever given the pleasure to behold.

She continued to study his face; like it was the first time she had seen him. He wasn't necessarily a handsome man, but his features suited him. He had severely pale skin and a long slender face. Some would say his eyebrows were definitely his best feature because of the fear he could instill by arching one up at you with pure contempt; but her absolute favorite feature of his was his nose. It was exceedingly large, no doubt the cause of childhood trauma, but without it, she thought, he wouldn't look as intimidating. It was the centerpiece of his face; and after last night, she knew all too well what he could do with it that would certainly put all of those childhood bullies to shame. His lips were interesting because at times they could form into a thin line or sneer that would strike fear into every fiber of your being; other times they looked full and titillating. At the moment they were a redish pink color. All of this was framed by a strong jawline that eloquently made him look strong and forceful. Most people saw him as a sardonic git, but that trait was one that drew her to him so long ago. He wouldn't take any of his student's nonsense and only expected their best. He could be cruel when he was looking over your work, but she knew deep inside that his comments were, somehow, coming from a place of love.

Because she was deep in thought, she did not notice him stir; she only realized he was awake when he nuzzled up and whispered in her ear.

'It's a bit early for you to be so deep in thought, is it not?' he drawled out, his voice even deeper than usual.

She turned her head to look at him straight on. His eyebrow cocked upward waiting for her reply, whatever form it would come in.

She still could not believe it. This man had been her professor for so many years and no matter how many fantasies she had about him, she never thought they would actually come to fruition. Granted, she was now a professor herself, which made the situation she found herself in a bit less complicated, but she didn't even care. He was willingly there with her, and he had stayed. Her heart beat a bit faster knowing his willingness to be in her company hadn't dissipated over the past bliss filled weeks.

'Perhaps, I hadn't even noticed I how deep I was until you mentioned it,' she said with a smirk.

He responded by looking into her eyes, trying to gage her reaction to him speaking to her so straightforwardly. Oh those eyes, those dark, black holes that she always found herself plummeting into. One could lose themselves just by looking into those eyes. Although, they could be very inviting, when used correctly, they could cut your heart up into a million pieces. She had noticed something else as of late; they showed every little intricate detail about how he was feeling at the time. Whether this was something she never noticed over the years or he had actually let her in was undetermined. Yet she had feeling she might have her foot in the proverbial door.

'What are you thinking about so deeply?' he asked, intrigued by her overabundance of mental exertion this early in the morning.

'I had a dream about my Mum. She had just found out about you and seemed so angry with me for being with you. I don't know why she shouldn't be…' She admitted honestly. She didn't really know why she had been so candid so early, but she didn't think something like that should be left unsaid. He had been so passionate and sweet the past two weeks that she knew he had opened up a part of himself to her for real this time. He didn't do that to just anyone. And that didn't change upon her receiving a letter from her Mother yesterday. As she read thorough every hateful word, she felt Severus' hand on hers.

'How could she be so fucking selfish?' She spat as she threw the opaque piece of parchment down on the coffee table in front of them.

'May I?' He asked as he motioned toward it.

She sighed as she nodded her head to him.

The expression on his face as he read through the hateful post was nothing but foul. 'So she did not consent to you coming here?' he mused as he finally laid it down, speaking sarcastically. 'How surprising…'

Jordan shook her head. 'This my life. I can do whatever I want to do. Why does she think that she can choose what that is?'

'Because she is a conniving bitch. She's been that way ever since she married your Father.'

'Then there was the bit about Gale. As if him being gay is my fault at all!'

Severus reached over to hold her hand. 'You are not at fault for any of this, Jordan. You know as well as I do if not more than she throws a fit when she doesn't get her way. And she hasn't got her way at all.'

She looked him squarely in the eyes. 'Yes, but what is going to happen when she finds out about us? I mean we're together now.'

'I wouldn't classify us as that yet, Jordan…' He responded with a unimpressed look.

'Sex, shmex, Severus Snape. You have yet to brew a contraceptive, and when you do, you'll get all the sex you want, but until then' She moved her hand around her neither regions in a circular motion. 'Off limits.'

He rolled his eyes. 'That's not what I meant. I meant we aren't official because haven't even told anyone yet, Jordan. You may love me, but what are you going to do when good old Mummy Minerva comes bounding up in here shouting to high heavens because someone's seen us viciously snogging in a corridor?'

Her cheeks blushed as she thought back to their afternoon make-out sessions on the third floor. No one ever came up there, so it wasn't like they'd be caught. He'd told her that himself the first day they'd snuck up there. 'I will very maturely, and calmly look at her and tell her that I love you. Because I do love you. And she'll see the genuine look in my eyes and say, 'Oh, Jordan! How could I have not seen it all this time?! You two are madly in love! Madly I say! Let us throw a party and plan the wedding! How many children are you going to have?!'

Severus chuckled at her theatric display and took her hand before pulling her down onto his lap. 'Yes, she'll say just that, right before she slaps me clear across the face. And we aren't exactly in the clear either. Draco may have left before anything was resolved that night, but he's suspicious as to what happened and you know it. He snuck into the library yesterday when we were fooling around in there.'

She shook her head at him. 'Yea, yea I know if you didn't have the hearing of a bat, we'd have been caught and everything would have been spewed all over the teacher's lounge. Besides he looked surprised to see us anyway. He was talking with the Know-it-all. Well… to is more like it. Has she always read that much?'

He cocked his head. 'It's serious, Jordan. Don't think that just because we're allowed to have relationships, that it won't be disputed. We are Heads of House, what will someone say if we're caught somewhere and student's see?'

'That's the thing though, Severus. We aren't going to get caught! We have a whole set of rooms to carry on in. Once there are student's we won't do anything outside of them.'

'But I like to do things outside of them.' He replied with a childish tone.

'Well, you're just going to have to wait for Christmas hols then. And then spring after that. I promise you, Severus that you will not want to do anything anywhere else once I get my hands on you.'

His eyebrows rose as he pulled her in at the hips and rotated them. 'Oh yea? And just what does that entail?'

She let her eyes flutter shut before she snapped them open and glared down at him. 'Severus…'

He sighed. 'Forgive me, love. Your time table not mine…'

She let her glare sink into him before he huffed and rolled his eyes. 'Fine, fine! I'll brew the bloody contraceptive. But if I do that, you have to promise not to worry that little head of yours about your Mother. Who cares what she thinks, you're here now.'

Jordan sighed before nodding her head to him. 'You're right.'

He gave her a look before kissing her on the cheek and getting up. 'I have to meet Minerva in my office, so don't read too loud now…'

She flipped him off before he chuckled at her and walked into his office, closing his door as not to raise any suspicions.

'Jordan.' He spat back. 'What did we agree to just yesterday?'

'That I wasn't going to feel bad about what she thought or her letter or what happen if and when she does find out about us.' She mumbled under her breath as he wrapped his arms around her.

'Exactly. And what are you doing right now?'

'Worrying to the point of dreaming about it…'

'Yes.'

'But she was so angry! She marched up in here wands blazing and demanded Minerva see her. I got sacked…'

He sighed. 'Jordan. You are a wreck because of a dream. You are making everything worrisome for no good reason.' His hands moved up to her shoulders and massaged them. 'You're stressed as I'll get out and the term hasn't even started. What are you going to do after that?'

'I don't know…' She breathed as her eyes flickered shut. His massages were magnificent. Magic fingers that man had, pure magic.

He leaned up to look at her and let his hand drop slightly. 'I think I might know something that could completely relax you… I would never trod without permission though…'

Her eyes snapped open. 'Severus! You haven't even walked into your lab since we've talked about our little agreement! How could you even insinuate something like that without holding up your end of the bargain?'

'I'm busy Jordan, and not that it's not important but I can't exactly do it with others around. And neither of us really are holding up anything now are we?'

She turned over and glared at him. 'We can sneak around everywhere and snog constantly but you and I can't sneak out while the staff goes to the Three Broomsticks for a pint. We literally have the castle to ourselves and you haven't bothered to do anything. At least I'm trying to forget about my Mother, but it's not exactly that easy. Everywhere I go, I hear her voice nagging at me. And here you are trying to fucking get me to lower my guards. I want to have sex with you Severus. More than you know, but what if I got pregnant? How can I be sure that you aren't going to leave me?'

As she finished her sentence, she knew it had been the wrong thing to say. His hands lowered and his features had changed drastically, 'Why would I leave you? I love you.' he responded, looking bemused.

She knew she should tread lightly, but the anger welling up inside her was bursting to the brim. 'You didn't stay when times were tough before. You just slithered away without anything. That's what I've come to expect…'

He looked utterly confused and a little angry at her words. 'What could I have possibly said or done to make you think that I would do something so cruel?'

'Are you daft? Oh, sorry, let me jog your memory. If you'll care to remember, it wouldn't have been the first time I fell asleep in your arms and woke up to an empty bed with a little more than I bargained for.' she again answered truthfully with a bit of spite in her this time.

At this he straightened up in the bed, his eyes aflame. 'You have no idea what happened that morning. For your information, I didn't leave because I wanted to; I left because I was forced to. And for your information, if and when we have children I will be there with you every fucking step of the way. But I guess I'll go then, since you see me as a self-centered git like the rest of them. I would hate to disappoint your obviously well thought out expectations.' He stood to go.

She immediately shot up and tried to make him stop. He had been forced to leave her? Merlin, how could she have been so dumb. She hadn't even thought about that. And now he was leaving? He couldn't go! She didn't want him to go! Especially after he forgave her for all that was left unsaid for so many long years. And he had thought about children? Gods, she was such a fucking idiot. 'Please, Severus, don't go!' She shouted, a little louder than she thought it would be. 'I'm sorry, I never should have said it.'

'After all we've been through… I've opened my heart up to you, Jordan. Apparently more than I should have. I just thought…' He looked down at his feet looking completely devastated that she would say such a thing to him after he completely let his defenses down for her. He then quickly pulled his hard exterior shell back into place, 'I guess, I will see you in the staff meeting then.' He strode over to the door, very facet of his body sending a shiver down her spine. He put his hand on the door and swiftly turned back to look at her. 'Oh and it was a bloody good few weeks, Ms. Brooks. Remind me to never do it again!' he spat at her, venom in his voice. And with that he turned and left her chambers, slamming the door in his usual fashion.

She flopped down on the bed and the dam that was her hopes to finally have some kind of working relationship with him broke. She sobbed hysterically. How could she say those things to him after he had promised her to always be there? She felt so embarrassed. What had she done? She single handedly recreated and ruined their relationship in one fail swoop. Her Mother was fucking right. She was a screw up. What was she going to do now?

All she wanted was to race after him, bring him back to her chambers, and make it up to him; but just as she got up and walked into the bathroom to pull her teaching robes on, she heard the floo sound from the fireplace in the bedroom. Reluctantly, she walked into the room to see Minerva McGonagall's smiling face.

'Good Morning, Headmistress, how are you?' She said with the most pleasant voice she could muster at the time.

'Good Morning, Jordan. I was hoping I could have a word with you in my office,' she said sounding as jovial as always.

'I would love to Headmistress. When would be best for you?'

'Well, it's almost noon right now, Dear. How about sometime around one?'

'It would be my pleasure. You know I must ask, seeing as this meeting seems to be quite urgent, have I done something to get myself in trouble?' She prodded with her fingers crossed behind her back. There was no way she could have known about her and Severus, they had been so careful the past few weeks and besides her chambers where down in the dungeons. Minerva's where on the opposite side of the school near Gryffindor tower.

'Oh, no Dear! I just wanted a chat with my favorite Deputy Head of House. I want to make sure you are settling in well. There might even be tea and biscuits in it for you if you play your cards right.' She joked.

'Well, I needn't keep you waiting for me any longer. Let me put some clothes on and I'll be right up.' She said a little less stressed than before. Perhaps Minerva would help distract her from the lump in the pit of her stomach she'd had since Severus started to become cross with her.

'Take your time, Dear!' She kindly said before closing the line between their fireplaces.

Yes. Maybe paying Minerva a visit was a good idea after all…