Ok so this is a story I have been working on for a while. When I'm not working on a new chapter for a Family in bloom or trying to edit the ghost story I work on this. At the moment I'm stuck. I was going to wait until I was finished with this story and post it as a one-shot deal but I have been stuck for almost two weeks now. My mind is completely blank as to where I want to take it. So instead of having it sit and collect dust I figured I would just post it. I did start a Pinterest board for it. I'll be adding more pins to it later today.

And please I don't want to hear any bitching that I started a new story when I still have several stories unfinished. I've explained before all my stories will get finished. I am working on my ghost story which still has a ways to go but it will be finished. I'm still working on the answering service story which has two chapters left that I am slowly working on from time to time. All my stories I have been slowly working on, just because I don't post a chapter doesn't mean I'm not working on getting them finished. Please be patient.

This story has a lot of flashbacks. In the flash backs Ana is 18 and Christian is 24. Ana is the student and Christian is the teacher. When not in flashbacks Ana is 28 and Christian is 34. I didn't want them to be too far apart in age.

Alright enough with my long Authors note. I hope you like it.

I had always had a passion for writing. I wanted to be the next Sylva Day. But my love for music over powered it. It wasn't until ten years ago that I was able to combine the two of them. I wish I could blame this all on my best friend but I can't.

I want to tell you my story. Tell you how I went from being your average high school senior to being one of the best songwriters of the world, and a single mother of a ten-year-old little boy.

It all started…

*Flashback*

"Good morning class"

"Good morning Mr. Grey" We all sang in unison. Most of us off key, but hey, he got a kick out of it. He let out the cutest chuckle.

"So who is ready for the first ever talent show to ever take place right here at Seattle prep?" Most of us raised our hands while other's moaned their replies. Not everyone was happy about the talent show, and that could be because Mr. Grey is requiring us to write and sing our own songs. He told us it's part of our finale grade and that our parent's would enjoy seeing us on stage preforming something that came from our hearts.

"Excuse me Mr. Grey but do we really have to come up with our own song?" Kim whines from the side of me and I giggle.

"Yes Kimberly you do"

"But what if I can't come up with anything? I have a hard enough time in English trying to write essays. How the heck am I going to be able to write a song? Let alone sing it. Mr. Grey please you do not want to hear me sing. Even my poor shower doesn't want to hear me sing" Her last comment made the whole classroom begin to cry out in laughter.

"Ok how many of you would prefer it if I would let you pick any song that's on the radio to sing at the talent show?" He asked the classroom and about half the class raised their hands.

"Ok I'll tell you what. For those of you who want to pick a song from the radio you can" Everyone started cheering in their seats. "But in doing so you have to write a two page essay on how music has inspired your life" And that changes the cheering to moaning again.

"Mr. Grey?" I raise my hand.

"Yes Anastasia?"

"I was wondering would it be ok if I wrote a duet." I ask, not even sure if one of the male students would want to work with me.

"Of course Anastasia. The two of you will get a full grade for it" I look over to my best friend Jose who gives me the thumbs up. Now I couldn't be more excited about this talent show.

"Awesome. Thanks Mr. Grey"

"You're welcome Anastasia" He smiled shyly at me causing me to bite my lip.

To be honest any time this man smiles it does things to me. Even when I'm not the one he is smiling at. Mr. Grey is sex on legs. He's 24, and he comes from a wealthy family and had the sexiest just fucked hair look going on. And his body is something else. Clarissa gave him the nickname of "Golden Torso" after accidently walking into him one day causing him to spill his entire cup of coffee all over his shirt which clanged to his body. While he wasn't looking Clarissa snapped a picture with her cell phone and sent out a mass text to all the female seniors, and in big bold text she wrote "Mr. Grey and his Golden Torso" I just about came in my panties when I saw it.

"Ok I want all of you to use the remainder of the class to work on your songs while I grade last week's test on Bach" With that I got out of my seat and headed over to Jose's desk.

Jose and I try to come with a few ideas; at first we thought maybe some kind of pop song. Then we switched to rap, next we moved to country and jazz but neither one of them was doing it for me.

"How about a romantic love song of some kind"

"A love song Ana, really?"

"Yeah why not. I see nothing wrong with a love song"

"If you say so"

(2 weeks later. Still in flashback)

I can't freaking believe it I just can't believe it. Jose had to go and get his ass suspended from school, and now because of that he can't work with me on my song because his dad grounded him for the next 2 months. Great, just great. Now what am I going to do about the talent show it's less than a month away and I have nothing but a few lyrics written down and they're not even good.

I slam the paper down on the kitchen table causing my mother to jump. She turns to look at me and says,

"Anastasia Rose what in the world is your issue?"

"The talent show is only a few weeks away, Jose is suspended from school so he isn't there to help me and even if I tried to go to his house he can't have friends over because his stupid ass is grounded"

"Oh dear. What did he do this time?"

"He put super glue on all the toilet seats in the second floor boy's bathroom" Leave it to Jose to do some stupid prank. He is always getting himself into trouble.

"When will that boy ever learn?" My mother asks.

"I have no idea"

"Ok so what problems are you having that have you so worried about this talent show? Maybe I can help"

"Well I wanted to do a duet but now thanks to Jose I can't, and I can't think of anything to wrote because my mind is still set on doing a duet with someone"

"Couldn't you just ask someone else?" If only it was that easy.

"No mom. Half of the kids in my class don't even want to do it and the others are almost finished with writing their song. I guess I'll just have to do the essay and pick a song someone else wrote and just sing that"

"See there you go problem solved" My mother smiles and turns her attention back to the pancakes she is cooking for my dad.

I look at my watch and see that it's almost 7:45. Shit I got to go or I'm going to be late.

"I got to go mom. Bye"

"Bye honey, see you later tonight"

"Later tonight?"

"Yes your father is taking me out for our date night"

"Ok then have fun and see you tonight"

After getting to school and having a quick talk with some of my friends I head to my first class. While sitting in English class I read over a few poems that I have worked on in the past to see if anything catches my eye. I really want to write my own song.

After English is music. I'm not looking forward to today's class because Mr. Grey wants to look at what we have all written so far, and for the kids that have picked the other option he wants them to perform a verse or two.

Walking into class Mr. Grey is standing near the chalkboard smiling and waving at everyone who walks in. I smile, and wave back before taking my seat and pulling out a piece of paper and a pen. I try my hardest to write something down but my mind and my fingers fail me. Ugh!

After we are all settled in our seats one by one he asks for each student to come up to the front to show him what they have. I don't know why but I was the last to be called. Slowly making my way up to the front of the room I started feeling upset. It could be because at the moment I feel like I'm a failure because one, I don't have a partner anymore, and two because I just can't find anything to write.

"Let's see what you have for us Anastasia," Mr. Grey says. I look up at him then look towards the class. I feel the stinging sensation on my tears filling my eyes. Fuck Ana don't cry, don't cry. But I don't even listen to myself as I feel the tears slowly starting to make their way down my face. Shit!

I hand my blank piece of paper to him and run out of the class and into the closest girls bathroom I can find which happens to be two doors down from his classroom. Bursting through the bathroom door I head to the farthest stall down. Open the stall door and lock it behind me. I sit on the closed toilet seat and cry. Just cry like I have never cried before. This is ridiculous I have never gotten this upset about not being able to write.

I hear the sound of the main bathroom door open but I don't hear it close.

"Anastasia?" I hear Mr. Grey's concerned voice fill the bathroom. With the back of my shirt I wipe away the tears and in a shattering voice I reply,

"Can I have just a minute please?"

"Of course" He says. The sound of the bathroom door finally closing lets me know that he is no longer there. I take a few deep breaths and stand. I unlock the stall door and make my way to the sink where I splash some cold water on my face and the back of my neck. I look at myself in the mirror and I look like I just came out of a horror movie. My mascara is running down my face, my eyeliner is nowhere to be….nope I see it, it's on the back of my sleeve. Great my mom is going to kill me.

I wipe my face the best that I can with some paper towels. I take one last deep breath before I head out of the bathroom. Upon opening the door I see Mr. Grey standing there looking ever so worried. The sound of the door closing behind me makes him look in my direction. He sighs in relief then smiles at me before walking over to him and stopping just inches away.

"Is everything alright Anastasia? You ran out of the classroom so fast I got worried that something was wrong. Are you sick, do you need me to call the nurse?" I shake my head while looking down at my hands.

"I'm just upset that's all" I shrug my shoulders.

"Upset about what?"

"Everything. Jose got suspended so he can't work with me on the duet, and there really isn't anything good out right now that I would even want to sing. Oh my god I'm going to fail" He placed his hand on my arm and began to slowly move it up and down. There is this weird tingling feeling but I just shrug it off being my nerves.

"You're not going to fail Anastasia. I won't let that happen" He smiles at me.

*End Flashback*

'I won't let that happen' sounds like something any normal teacher would say to their student right? Of course it does. Did it have any kind of special meaning when he said it? I don't know, actually I don't think I'll ever know.

Now things between Christian and I didn't happen that day when I went back to his classroom after school let out. No that day he had asked me what kind of style of song I was looking for. I remember telling him something slow and romantic maybe with a little heartache in it.

*Flashback 2 weeks later*

Every day for the last week an half I have been working with Mr. Grey on writing my duet. I have no idea yet who will be willing to sing with me but I am willing to sing both parts if I have too.

After the finale bell rang I gathered my things and went to my locker. Today Mr. Grey and I are going to work in the auditorium. The piano he has in his classroom is nice but it's a little off key so he suggested we use the one in the auditorium.

When I walk in he is already at the piano playing a few notes that we worked on the other day.

"That sounds really good," I announce as I walk down the middle aisle towards the stairs.

"I was working on it last night at home. I couldn't sleep so I figured I would use my time wisely"

"Cool" I drop my bag in front of the stage and walk up the stairs to join him next to the piano.

"So have you written anymore for the song?"

"Yeah hold on let me get it" Of course I would forget taking it out of my bag before putting it down. I jump off the stage and bend down to get the music sheets out of my bag. When I stand back up Mr. Grey is standing at the edge of the stage with his hand reached out to pull me up. I don't know why I could have easily took the stairs like I did before but I just shrug it off and take his hand.

And there it is again this really intense feeling shooting up my hand and into my arm. I notice this every time we touch even if it's a light graze of his finger or mine. For the last 2 weeks I have been dying to ask him if he feels it too but I think that would be inappropriate for a student to ask ones teacher.

He takes his place on the bench and pats next to him for me to join him, and I do. He looks over the sheet music which has a ton of eraser marks from the two of us adding and removing lyrics.

"Ok last night I also came up with something, tell me what you think" I give a simple nod and watch as his fingers lightly glide over the ivory and starts to play. He hums for a few seconds the starts to sing.

"You came back to find I was gone, and that place is empty like the whole that was left in me, like we were nothing at all, it's not what you meant to me, I thought we were meant to be. Oh, there isn't one thing that you can say I'm sorry it's too late" God he sings really good, all the other time during class I have heard him sing but he was always playful and sounded like a goof but listening to him just now is like wow.

"That was phenomenal, and you came up with that all on your own?"

"Well with a little help from Jack"

"Jack? Jack who?" I ask and he chuckles.

"Jack Daniels"

"Oh. Are you even old enough to drink?" I tease. Seriously if you see Mr. Grey you would think he was fresh out of high school. The only time he looks remotely like a teacher is when he doesn't shave his five o'clock shadow.

"Indeed I am"

"And just how old are you Mr. Grey?" I question him. Most of the senior girls want to know anyways so why not me be the one to fill them in.

"Not much older than yourself I'm 24" He smiles. I was way off the first day I walked into his class at the beginning of the school year. I though he was 22.

"That's cool"

"So do you want to sing me a little from what we worked on over the last few days?"

"Sure" He started playing again.

"Love that one song on the wall, used to mean something but, now it means nothing. The echoes are gone in the hall but I still remember the pain of December. Oh, there isn't one thing left you could say I'm sorry it's too late" While he is playing he turns his head to look at me and starts to sing his part that he sang for me earlier. Then together we start to sing the bridge,

"I'm breaking free from these memories, gotta let it go, just let it go, I've said goodbye, set it all on fire, gotta let it go, just let it go" He stops playing and takes the sheet music and begins to write. I try to lean over to see what it is that he is writing but he just slides the paper farther over so I can't see. I cross my arms over my chest and let out a huff, all while rolling my eyes at him.

"You do know it's not polite to roll your eyes at someone behind their back" How the hell….

"How did you know I rolled my eyes your back was to me the entire time" I question.

"Anastasia I'm a teacher. Just like parents we have eyes in the back of our heads. We see everything even when we're not looking" He laughs.

"Yeah, yeah, yeah. So can I see now what you were writing?"

"Yes now you can see" He shows me the sheet and I see that he has written down once again more lyric and by the looks of it they seem to fit perfectly with the song.

"This" I point to the paper. "Is amazing. How did you come up with this so fast?"

"It's what I do. I'm a music teacher after all" He smirks. "You want to try it out?"

"Yeah"

"Ok you sing the first line then me then you again, and we go on like that until the last verse, then we'll sing the bridge together. Ok? Do you think you can handle that?"

"Yeah" He shakes his head playfully and starts to play. I swear this man has some magical fingers. The way he plays this piano is outstanding. He never misses a beat.

"Ok now remember to start off slow and soft"

"Got it"

(Bold is Christian and italic is Ana)

"I let it go…And now I know…A brand new life…Is down this road…And when it's right…You always know…So next time…I won't let go…There's only one thing left here to say. Loves never too late" For each line he sang he kept inching his face closer and closer to mine. Never once did he take his eyes off of mine. I even saw him staring at my lips while I was singing. I would be lying if I said I was staring at his forehead the entire time.

Out of nowhere he leaned even closer to me. I could feel the heat coming off his body he was that close. I don't know why but I closed my eyes and took a deep breath just before I felt his lips touch mine. It started as a simple kiss, something a boyfriend would do before saying goodbye to his girlfriend. Then it turned into something different, I felt his tongue slide over my lips. I opened my mouth just slightly and before I knew it both of our tongues was entwined together. I know this is wrong, this shouldn't be happening. But fuck if it doesn't feel good.

*End Flashback*

That was the day that started everything. Do I regret it? No, not really. Besides I got my son out of it. Not like he cares, or better yet even knows about him. I never did have the chance to tell him about Teddy. Once we got caught he cut all ties with me. I didn't get an I'm sorry, I didn't get I didn't mean what I said. Nothing.

*Flashback to the day they got caught*

I'm sitting in my English class going over some work sheets to help us prepare for our final exams next week. As our teacher was talking, the phone on the wall started ring. We all watched as the teacher went to go answer it. As soon as the phone was on her ear we all started to horse around. Throwing balls of paper at each other.

But as soon as the teacher placed the phone back in its place we all turned to the front and acted like we were all sweet and innocent. Our teacher walked to her desk pulled out a hall pass and signed her name.

"Ana"

"Yes Mrs. Herr?"

"You are wanted in the principal's office" I got the normal Oooo's from my classmates.

"That's enough," Mrs. Herr says to the class. I gather my books and take the hall pass and leave the classroom. While walking to the main office I try and think what it could possibly be that the principal want to see me about. I'm not failing anything and I haven't gotten into any fight. So that can't be it.

When I reach the main office I can hear screaming. It's my dad! I hear the soft cries of what I think are my mom. Oh shit now I'm worried. Shit I hope it's not my grandma, she's has been sick lately.

When I open the main office doors there are two police officers standing there. Mrs. Bradley at the front desk walks between them and stands in front of me.

"Ana dear have a seat. I'll let Mr. Smith know you're here"

"What's going on? Why are my parents' here?"

"You have to wait until Mr. Smith calls you in" She shows me to one of the chairs and I sit down. My stomach is doing flips as I listen carefully to what it is my dad is yelling, but it's so hard to hear over my mom's crying.

"How in the world could you let this happen? What the fuck do I pay taxes for…And you, you fucking son of a bitch. If it wasn't for the police standing outside these doors I would fucking kill you?"

"Ray calm down"

"I'm not going to calm down Carla. He's her teacher" Oh shit! Christian's in there. How did anyone find out? We have been so careful. Never once did we ever so any kind of PDA while in school. It was always when we were alone at his apartment. OMG, OMG, OMG. My dad is going to kill me.

"Mr. Steele please" I hear Mr. Smith say to my dad.

A voice comes over the intern on Mrs. Bradley's desk. "Martha is Miss Steele here yet?"

"Yes Mr. Smith I'll send her right in" My heart drops and I feel like I'm about to upchuck everything I had for lunch.

"Ana you can go in now" I shake my head no. There is no way I am going in there with my dad when he is pissed off like that. You do not want to be within 2ft of Ray Steele when he is pissed off like that. Mrs. Bradley once again walks between the two police officers and stands in front of me. She kneels down so that we are both eye level with each other. Tears are already rolling down my cheeks. My bottom lips are trembling.

"Please Mrs. Bradley don't make me go in there please"

"Ana honey you have to go in there"

"My dad is going to kill me. Please just tell them I got sick and had to leave. Just tell them anything. Please I didn't mean for this to happen"

"It'll be ok Ana. Come on" She takes my hand and holds it tightly in hers. I walk with her to the principal's office door; she turns the doorknob and pushes it open.

Mr. Smith is standing behind his desk running his hands through his hair, my dad is pacing back and forth in the middle of the room, my mom is sitting in the chair across from Mr. Smith's desk crying, and Christian is standing in the corner looking scared and pissed all at the same time.

Our eyes lock and I begin to open my mouth to mouth something to him but he presses his lips together and shakes his head no.

"Anastasia please have a seat" Mr. Smith gestures to the chair next to my mom. I take it.

"Anastasia do you know why you're here?" Yes.

"No" I say trying to sound confused. Maybe if I play dumb.

"Don't try to play dumb Anastasia Rose. Don't you dare" My dad hisses at me.

"Anastasia I need to ask you a few questions about your relationship with Mr. Grey," Mr. Smith says. I turn my head to look at Christian but he is showing no sign of any kind of emotion.

"He isn't going to save you Ana. So stop trying to get his attention. We already know what it is that you two got going"

"I-I"

"Anastasia is it true that you and Mr. Grey had a sexual relationship?" Mr. Smith asks. I don't say anything instead I let the silent tears answer his question.

"I see. Mr. Grey I expect your letter of resignation in my office by the end of the day"

"What are you kidding me? I want his ass arrest for what he's done to my daughter. She's only 18 years old and he's her fucking teacher," My dad screams.

"Mr. Steele you are free to press charges but here at Seattle prep we have an image to uphold"

"You're worried about your fucking image. Your fucking teacher raped my daughter"

"I DID NOT RAPE HER," Christian screamed from behind us. My mother started crying again which got me going for some reason. Both of us were a blabbering mess.

"Alright that's enough"

"This is fucking bull shit. I want his ass arrested now"

"Daddy no I love him and he loves me. Please Mr. Smith can't you just look the other way on this? We only have two more weeks of school" Christian pushes himself off the wall and head for the door. I get out of my seat as quick as I can and run over to him.

"Christian please say something. Tell them that we're in love"

He looks over to my dad and Mr. Smith then back at me. "I don't love you. I never did. It was all a lie"

"W-what" The tears pour down my face. I can't believe it.

"I don't love you. Good bye Miss Steele" He was just about to turn.

"You fucking bastard" I slapped him hard across the face. He didn't flinch. He just continued to walk out into the main office and out into the hallway.

My mom comes running to my side as I fall to my knees and start crying.

*End Flashback*

I will never forget that. He broke my heart. I remember sitting in the back of my father's car watching Christian leave the school. My dad wanted to follow him to his place so that he could beat the shit out of him but my mother talked him out of it. My mother somehow also talked him out of having Christian arrested as well. Her words were "Let's not put Ana through anymore heartache Ray, she been through enough"

"Knock, Knock. Ana are you ready?" My best friend Kate brings me back to reality.

"Uh yeah just need to put my shoes on and then we can go"

"Well get a move on it sweetheart we need to make it to the city by 7 and if we leave now we'll beat rush hour"

"I'm coming, I'm coming" God I love Kate but she is freaking annoying at times. I met Kate in my first year of college. She was fun and wild and I liked her style. She wanted to be roommates but I had to explain to her that I had a son and moving on campus wouldn't be impossible. God that was almost ten years ago. Slipping on my heels I walk out of my master bedroom and down the long hallway to my living room where my son is sitting on the couch next to Kate telling her all about his new video game that I just got him the other day.

"See Aunt Kate if you hit the X button and then the O you unlock the secret passageway"

"Oh well what if you hit this button" She press the square button and the TV reads Game Over. Poor Kate.

"Uh Kate I'm ready now or do you want to stay here with Teddy and play another round?"

"No I'm good let's go"

"Ok remember Teddy be good for Grandma and Grandpa. I'll be home tomorrow evening. You have my cell phone number and the number of the hotel Aunt Kate and I are staying at"

"Ana honey you don't have to worry about a thing, Teddy is in good hands with your father and me"

"I know mom I'm not worried. It's just I haven't been away from him like this since he's been born"

"Ana he's fine. Your dad is picking up the pizza as we speak"

"Alright. I love you baby boy. I'll see you tomorrow"

"Love you too mom" I kiss my little man on the top of his cooper locks. I walk over to my mom and kiss her on the cheek and remind her that if she needs me to just call. After grabbing my purse and my car keys I head out the door with Kate to my car.

Kate and I check in to our hotel and call a cab while we put our things in our room.

We get to my old high school and I am just blown away. It looks like I had just arrived to the Golden Globes.

"Tell me again what's going on here tonight?"

"Well for starters it's my ten year high school reunion but I'm also getting honored for one of my songs that I wrote years ago. To be honest I don't even know which song either, they left out that little detail"

"Well I don't know about you Ana but I never seen a 10 year high school reunion look like this before" Kate tells me.

"Yeah me neither. Let's just go inside and get a drink"

Kate and I walk inside; we stop at the table to pick up my nametag as well as our seat numbers. We make our way through the hallways. I show Kate my old classrooms, of course skipping the one. A lot has changed over the years. All the classrooms are now equipped with smart-boards and the whole school is wired with Wi-Fi. Something we didn't have when I was younger. Times sure have changed over the years.

We walk into the gym and the place is covered from floor to ceiling with colors of blue and gray from balloons, to ribbons, and tablecloths.

Kate takes two glasses of wine from the waiter that walks pass us and hands me one. I take a sip and savor the flavor. It's good, really good too good for just a high school reunion.

"See anyone you remember?" Kate asks and I let my eyes scan the room.

"Nope…oh wait…Yes. You see that woman over there wearing that god awful silver mini skirt?"

"You mean the one who looks like she has 2 pigs fighting under a blanket?"

"Yep that one. That's Melissa. Melissa and I used to hang out"

"What happened?" Kate asks after taking another sip of her wine.

"Well she said that I wasn't pretty enough to hang out with her anymore and just dropped me like a hot potato"

"Ouch what a bitch. But now look at her. She looks like that one woman from that Cry Baby movie. Clearly she has had way too much work done and it didn't end well if her favor. Oh shit Steele she's coming over"

"Shit. Act as if we weren't just talking about her," We giggle.

"Oh my god I can't believe it. Is that you Anastasia Steele? Oh my god it has been like…."

"Ten years?" I finish her sentence.

"Has it really been that long" The closer she gets the more I can smell the liquor on her breath. God it's awful.

"But look at you, you look so…."

"Beautiful" Kate says then smiles at me.

"Yes" She slurs.

"Have you had any work done?"

"No" I shake my head.

"You're kidding. A woman like you with your wealth I'm sure you have had something done"

"Nope I'm 100% all natural"

"Well I had a little work done myself. Cost me a pretty penny too but it was worth it" Kate chokes on her wine.

"Excuse me" Kate says and heads over to an empty table and pours herself a glass of water.

"Well it was nice seeing you again Melissa but I better make sure my friend is ok"

"You got it Anastasia," She slurs then winks at me before turning on her heel and heading back to the people she was standing with before.

"Better?" I ask Kate as I walk up to her.

"God, did she really say she paid a pretty penny for the work she had done?"

"Yes she did," I giggle.

"I would like to know what doctor she used so I can report him to the BBB"

"Please, looking at her makes me think of Karma"

"Come on let's go find our table" I tell Kate.

It only took us a few minutes before we found it. There were already a few people sitting down having a conversation with each other about how wonderful the school looks.

"Holy crap your Anastasia Steele aren't you" I nod politely, and say,

"Yes I am but please call me Ana. No one calls me Anastasia anymore"

"You don't remember me do you?" She woman asks.

"No I'm sorry I don't"

"Jill, Jill Harding. Well it's Baker now but back when we were in school together I was Harding. We had music together"

"Oh yes Jill I remember. You sat next to me for almost the entire year until…." I stop myself. After news got out about Christian and me no one wanted anything to do with me.

"Yeah" She frowns. "So how have you been?"

"Good really good. Life couldn't be better"

"I'm sure that your everyone's go to girl for hit records" I smile.

"Thanks" I say in return.

"So what do you think about the school? They sure did one hell of a job at remodeling it over the years. It was so nice of Mr. Gr…"

"Who?" Kate questioned

"Um an old teacher that used to work here. He um….he um…" She doesn't finish.

"Jill?"

"Yeah?" She looks everywhere but at me.

"You were saying?" I push for her to finish.

"I was?" She's trying to play dumb and it's starting to piss me off.

"Yes you were, now if you wouldn't mind please continue"

"Ana please I don't want too and I don't think you would want me to either"

"What is she talking about Ana? What wouldn't she want you to know? Now I'm curious," Kate said, and I sighed. Well better tell her now, she'll only found out by someone else. I take a large gulp of wine and wipe my face with the back of my hand. I turn my body so that I'm facing Kate and Jill.

"Towards the end of my senior year I was in a relationship with someone"

"So who didn't have a boyfriend during high school? I must have had like fifty," Kate states.

"He wasn't a high school student"

"Ana you dog you. You went out with a college guy"

"No"

"Ok? Well if he wasn't in college then what? Was he your teacher or something?" She says jokingly with a laugh but I'm not laughing with her.

"Oh my god he was your teacher" She gasps.

"Yes. But somehow we got caught even though we were so careful. Anyways my dad said some things, he said some things, and I never heard from him again"

"Well I wouldn't say never," Jill said.

"What do you mean?"

"Mr. Grey, he's the one who donated all that money to the school for the remodel and all the new equipment in the classrooms. He's going to be here tonight….in fact he just walked in" Both Kate and I looked towards the gym's doors and sure enough there he was in a 3 piece gray suit.

"He doesn't look like no teacher," Kate states and I agree he doesn't look like any teacher I have ever seen. The suit alone looks as if it would cost over 7 grand.

"He's not. He's the CEO of Grey Enterprise"

"Grey Enterprise? What the hell is that?" Kate asks and I just shrug my shoulders. I honestly have no idea. I haven't seen him or heard from him in over ten years.

"It's his company he started a few years back. He's a music producer"

"Wow"

I watch him carefully as he scans the room, just when I think he's about to look at me I quickly turn in my seat so he couldn't see me. Shit I need to get out of here now.

"Kate come on we have to go"

"Go? Go where?"

"Home. I need to go home now"

"But Ana we just got here"

"Please Kate just this once don't fight me about leaving early. I promise I'll make it up to you"

"Fine!" She downs the rest of her wine in her glass and stands.

"Jill it was nice seeing you again. I hope you have a wonderful life but I need to be going"

"I understand Ana. It was great seeing you again as well"

I stand with Kate and head out the side door of the gym. There was no way I was going to walk out the same door we walked in with him standing there. Quickly Kate and I make it out the side doors and into the hallway. I let out the breath I didn't even realize I was holding. When were about half ways down the hall just about to turn the corner Kate says,

"Shit, I forgot my purse at the table"

"Kate leaves it"

"What are you kidding me? I'm not leaving my purse"

"Fine hurry up" I watch as Kate goes back into the gym. I'm alone in the hallway scared out of my mind. There are so many things running through my head right now. All I want to do is leave this place and go back to the hotel and grab my things and head home. I don't even care that it'll be late when we do.

My phone starts to ring and by the ring tone I already know its Teddy. He must be calling to tell me good night.

"Hello" I answer.

"Hi mom, miss me?" It's teddy.

"Of course baby I always miss you"

"Are you having any fun?"

"I was but something came up so me and Aunt Kate are leaving now"

"Are you still spending the night in the city?"

"I think so but I'll be home first thing in the morning"

"Miss Steele?" I hear someone say my name from behind me. I turn around with my phone still at my ear. It's Mr. Smith.

"Honey I have to go ok. I'll talk you soon bye baby"

"Bye mom"

I end my call with Teddy and place my phone back in my purse. I take a few steps and extend my hand to Mr. Smith.

"Hello Mr. Smith. Wow you look like you haven't age a bit"

"Like wise Miss Steele. I went to your table but I was told that you had left already"

"Yes well something came up and it needs my attention"

"Another Artist requesting one of your amazing songs?" He smiles.

"No my son" I lie.

"Well that's a shame. We had this night perfectly planned"

"I know and I'm deeply sorry. Please just have whatever it is sent to my house. And please give my thanks to the crowd" I turn on my heel and begin to walk. I couldn't go the way I wanted to since Mr. Smith was standing there so I had no other choice then to walk towards the front doors of the school. I can hear the clacking of heels behind me. I turn my head slightly and see Kate running up behind me.

"Ana wait up" I slow my pace so she can catch up but quickly start walking again when she is at my side.

"Did you get your purse?" I ask and she waves it in front of me.

"Yes but there is something I need to tell you"

"Tell me when we get outside, I just want to get out of here as quickly as I can and not bump into…." Crash! I hit what felt like a brick wall when I turned the corner. I nearly fell on my ass but instead was caught by two muscular arms.

I lift my head from this person shoulder and I truly wish that I didn't because when I go to thank the person from saving me from a nasty fall I'm met with a pair of gray eyes that I haven't seen in ten years.

"Hello Anastasia" I can't find my voice to even try to speak. Thankfully Kate jumps in and speaks for me. Well sort of.

"Hi I'm Kate Ana's best friend" From the corner of my eye I watch as Kate extends her hand but he doesn't let go of me to take it.

"There you are Mr. Grey we were looking for you. Oh Miss Steele your still here. I thought you were leaving because of your son?" Mr. Smith said.

"Uh yeah" I stutter and try to remove myself from Christian's hold.

"Son? Are you married?" Christian asked, but I ignore him.

"Kate come on we need to get our things from the hotel," I say to her as I begin to walk away. I can hear Kate saying her good byes as well. When Kate and I are both outside I start to have a mini panic attack. I'm pacing the red carpets that are covering the entire walkway of the school. Trying my hardest to slow my breaths that I am taking.

"Ana you need to calm down"

"Kate I can't calm down. I haven't seen that man in ten years. Ten long agonizing years. I just need to get home"

"Ok but you need to tell me something and you can't lie to me either"

"What?" My voice sounding breathless.

"Why does Teddy look like him or why does he look like Teddy?" I don't say anything; instead I begin to walk away.

"Ana" She calls out but I just keep walking. In my head I try to figure out how long it would take for me to walk to the hotel from here. 'Too long' I say to myself. I pull out my phone and search for a local cab company. I make a phone and they tell me they will be there in ten minutes. I place my phone back in my purse and try to think of what I'm going to do next.

"Ana I need you to answer my question. Why does Teddy look like him?" She says a little more forceful this time.

"Because he does Kate ok"

"Because is not an answer Ana. You need to tell me. Yes or no, is he Teddy's father?"

"Yes god dammit he's Teddy's father. And no before you even ask he doesn't know" I scream at her. I can feel my stomach start to turn, my head starts feeling light headed. I need to calm down.

"Is everything alright?" Asked a man that came out of nowhere. He has reddish buzzed hair. Light blue eyes. He is dressed in a black suit.

"No everything is not alright. I need to get out of here"

"I can give you a ride if you'd like?" I'm not one for taking rides with strangers but there is something about this guy that reminds me a lot of my father.

"Yes please" I accept.

"Right this way Miss?"

"Steele, Anastasia Steele. This is my friend Kate"

"Ma'am" He nods his hello to Kate. He escorts us both to a black SUV just as our cab pulls up. I feel bad now for calling them and having them send a driver all this way. As if Kate can tell what I'm thinking she goes over to the cab and says something to the driver before handing him some money.

The cab driver drives off beeping his horn just as I get in the back seat of the SUV. Kate gets in a few moments later and she tells the man our hotel.

20 minutes later he pulls into the front of our hotel. He exits first and comes to the back and opens the door for us.

"Thank you Mr.?"

"Jason Taylor ma'am"

"Thank you Mr. Taylor for the ride. How much do I owe you?"

"No payment ma'am"

"Please I insist" I open my purse to take out a twenty and hand it to him.

"No ma'am really I couldn't accept"

"Alright, thank you again for the ride"

"You're welcome" I stood there and watched as he got back into the SUV and pulled out of the hotel's driveway.

My body now starts to relax. I can't believe all this happened in less than two hours. I know Kate is going to have a million questions for me once we get up to our suite. There is going to be a lot of question I'm not going to want to answer but I feel maybe now would be the time to tell her.

Kate doesn't say anything to me in the elevator, not a word while we walk to the door of our suite but as soon as I open the door and let it close behind me her mouth starts going a mile a minute.

"Kate, please one question at a time. I promise I'll answer as many as I can"

"When did it all start?"

"It didn't start until the middle of senior year he was helping me write a song for our schools talent show. See what happen was, Jose my friend had gotten suspended from school for two weeks, so Chris…Mr. Grey offered to help"

"How long did it last for?"

"Until two weeks before graduation when somehow we got caught. Still to this day I have no freaking clue who freaking found out"

"When did you find out you were pregnant?"

"When I was 3 months. God Kate I was so scared but yet so happy to be pregnant. I was scared of how my parents were going to react. Specially my dad"

"How were you happy that you were pregnant? You were only 18?"

"I don't know. I guess it was because I was pregnant with his baby that even though he was gone I still would have a piece of him with me. Kate I loved him so much and I honestly thought he loved me too. But I found out that it was all a lie. He never loved me, he just used me" My eyes begin to sting with the tears that are starting to form.

"Awe sweetie I'm so sorry"

"Thanks Kate" She puts her arms around me and hugs me.

"I just have one more question Ana"

"What is it?"

"How come you never told him you were pregnant?"

"How could I? After that day I was called into the principal's office I never heard from him again. It was as if he dropped off the face of the earth. I tried looking for him. I called all his old numbers but nothing they had all been disconnected. I even went to his old apartment but when I got there someone else had already moved in"

"So now what are you going to do?"

"Nothing. I don't plan on doing anything"

"So you're not going to try and track him down and at least tell him that he has a son?"

"No I'm not"

"Well that's your choice; I can't force you to do something you don't want to do"

"Thank you Kate. Now I think I'm going to make use of the suites bathroom and take a long hot bath and try to erase everything that has happened tonight out of my head"

"Ok well if you need me I'll be in my room," Kate says.

I walk into the bathroom and turn the hot water on. As the tub is filling I begin to remove my shoes, dress, and underwear. Getting into the tub is painful the water is hot. Once my body is used to the water I try to relax. But memories of the day that I told my parents I was pregnant rushed into my head.

*Flashback*

No no no no. This can't be right. Oh god what the hell am I going to do. This can't be happening to me right now. Fuck my dad is going to kill me. How the hell could this of happened? I was on the pill for crying out loud.

"Miss Steele are you ok?"

"Yes…I mean no. How could I be pregnant? I was on the pill" I ask the doctor.

"That may be but sometimes even the best birth control sometimes fails. Now when was your last period?"

"I don't know I never really kept track of it since I was on the pill"

"Lay back on the table and we'll have a little look see to see how far long you may be" I do as the doctor asks and lay back. She lifts my shirt to just under my bra and tucks an oversized paper towel into my pants. She squirts some blue gel onto my stomach and with the probe she begins to spread the gel around. With a few taps on the keyboard of the ultrasound machine the screen comes to life.

"Let's see what we have…..wow ok, Ana it looks to me as if your about 12 weeks pregnant...see that there, that little blip. That's your baby"

"My baby" I swallow hard. Tears roll down my face. I'm alone and I'm pregnant with his baby and he's gone.

When the doctor was finished I got dressed and made a follow up appointment. I have never been so scared in my life. What in the world am I going to tell my parents? What in the world are they going to make me do?

Walking into the house my father is sitting on the couch reading his paper and my mom is cooking away in the kitchen. I kick off my shoes and walk over to the couch and sit down next to my dad. I feel my body shake in fear. Neither of my parents has ever spanked me for being bad but I have a feeling that may all change once I tell them I'm 12 weeks pregnant.

"Dad can I talk to you for a minute?" He closed the paper and fold it twice then throws it onto the coffee table in front of him and turns to face me.

"Sure princess"

"I'm not really sure how to say this. Especially to you"

"Is everything alright Annie?"

"No" I whisper while shaking my head.

"Are you sick? Do you need me to phone the doctor?"

"I just came from the doctor's office"

"What did the doctor say? Do you have the flu or something? I know your mother told me she heard you throwing up the other morning"

"I wish it was the flu," I mumbled under my breath.

"Please princess you need to tell me what's wrong" Ok here goes nothing.

"Daddy I'm pregnant" Silence. My dad and I both sat there for at least time minutes not saying a thing to one another. That was until my mother walked in the room and seen the look on mine and dads face.

"Ray?" Nothing. He did move an inch. He didn't even look up at my mother.

"Ray?" Still nothing.

"Ana?" She now questions me.

"Yeah"

"Is everything alright with your father? He is white as a ghost"

"Umm" I don't know if I should tell her the reason why he looks like this right now.

"Pregnant" My father finally says something. Even though it was just a whisper but he finally found his voice.

"What did you say dear?" My mother asks.

"Pregnant" He says again.

"No sweet heart I'm just bloated a little"

"Not you Carla. Our daughter. She's pregnant"

"No" My mother said shaking her head. She couldn't believe it.

"I'm going to fucking kill him" My dad gets up and starts searching for him car keys.

"Dad please you can't"

"Don't tell me what I can and can't do in my own house Anastasia. That man raped you and now you're pregnant with that fucker's child. You think I'm not going to kill him"

(End flashback)

I start to shiver, as the warm water is now cold. I get out of the tub and wrap a towel around myself and walk into the bedroom. I reach into my suitcase and pull out one of my old shirts that I packed in my overnight bag to sleep in. It isn't just any old shirt either. It's was his. I put it on like I have every night for the last ten years. It reaches down to my knees and has more holes than I can count but I can't part with it. It's the only thing I have to remind myself of him besides Teddy. I still remember the night he gave it to me. It was the first night I slept at his apartment. The first night we made love. The first time he told me he loved me. Thinking back now, it's the first time he lied to me.

(Flashback)

"So what did you tell your parent's?"

"I told them I'm spending the weekend at Jessica's house," I giggled.

"Who's Jessica?"

"I don't know it's just a name I came up with," I giggled again.

"You are such a naughty girl Miss Steele"

"Oh and would you have preferred it if I told them I was spending the weekend with you?"

"No I see your point," He says before getting out of his car first looking around making sure there isn't anyone around that we might know. He pops his head back in the car and says,

"It's clear come on" I get out of the car and he rushes to my side grabbing my hand and runs to the front door of his apartment. Once he opens the door to his apartment and we're inside he lets out a breath that he was holding.

He turns on the lights to his apartment. It's a nice apartment. Nothing big and fancy. A small one-bed room apartment. There is a couch and a loveseat in the living room with a couple of end tables that has lamps on them. A small TV stand with a flat screen. The kitchen is off to the side with a small eating area that has a table for only two.

"Would you like a tour?"

"Sure"

"Over there as you can see if the kitchen. That door right there is the bathroom. That's a closet" He takes my hand and walks us to the living room. He stops in front of a door and turns the knob.

"And this is my bedroom" He reaches his hand inside and flips on the light switch. Just like the rest of his apartment his bedroom is nothing special. There is a queen size bed in the middle of the room. A small end table at the side of his bed with only an alarm clock on it. There is a small closet with no door.

"So what do you think?"

"Well it's not what I pictured," He laughs.

"What did you picture?"

"I don't know. An ivory tower in the sky. Floor to ceiling windows, marble floors. A grand piano in the middle of your living room" I giggled.

"Maybe if I was paid a little better" He chuckles.

"I thought teachers made shit loads of money," I tease.

"Some do, some don't. I'm in the music department our funding is always getting cut"

"Oh. I'm sorry"

"It's not your fault baby so don't worry" He kisses me on the cheek.

"You hungry?"

"Sure"

He made us dinner. I didn't picture him as a cook but he did a pretty good job. He told me he learnt from watching his mother over the years. After dinner I helped with cleaning off the table and did the dishes.

"You want to watch a movie?" He asked.

"Sure"

"What do you want to watch?"

"What movies do you have?"

"I have Netflix's" He smiles.

After popping the popcorn and pouring some soda we both cuddled on the couch and searched for something to watch.

"What are you in the mood for? Comedy, Drama, Romance?"

"Romance sounds good" He searches through the romance section. There are a lot of movies to choose from. Hope Floats, The lucky one, Come undone, Ghost, Only you. I squeal when I see Legend of the fall.

"That one"

"Legend of the fall really?"

"Why not? It's a great love story" I pout.

"Fine" He rolls his eyes and presses play. He grabs the throw from the top of the couch and covers our legs. About an hour into the movie my face is stained with tears. Christian is holding me close to him. And it comes to the part where Tristian and Susannah are kissing next to Samuels grave I start biting my lips.

I know what's going to happen next. Yep there it is. Brad Pitt fully naked making love to the beautiful Julia Ormond. I can never get over the fact how much my mom looks like her. I swear they could be twins.

I feel Christian fingers circling my knee. I turn my head to look at him. He beautiful gray eyes are staring at me. I suck in my bottom lip and bite. He moves his hand from my knee to above the blanket. With his thumb he removes my bottom lip and swipes his thumb across my lip. I close my eyes. I feel him move from the side of me. When I open my eyes he is right in front of me.

"You're making it hard for me to watch the movie when you keep biting that lip"

"Sorry" I whisper.

"Don't be. I just want to be the one that bites that lip"

"Then do it" I bravely say.

And he does. He pulls me forward and latches down on my lip. While my lip is being sucked into his mouth his tongue is slowly running long it. Chills are running down my spine. I've never been kissed like this before by him or by any boy.

He releases my lips and starts kissing me passionately. When we break from our kiss we're both panting. He takes my hands and pulls me up from the couch. I wrap my arms around his neck. His hand finds my backside, and lifts me. My legs go round his waist, and before I knew it he was walking us to his bedroom.

He walks until his knees hit the side of the bed. The thought of him throwing me on the bed is the first thing that came to my mind. But instead he turns around and sits.

He lets go of my butt and moves his hands. One hand is at the small of my back holding me tightly and the other is spread around the back and side of my neck.

"You are so beautiful" he looks me in the eyes. My hands take over and I begin to remove his shirt when I'm finished he removes mine.

I get up from sitting on his lap and slowly remove my pants and stand in front of him in just my panties. His eyes roam my body. He stands himself and removes his own pants then stands in front of me in just his boxers. His erection is trying to poke through the small slit in the front of his boxers.

I take a step closer to him running my fingers alone the top of his boxers. He does the same with the tops of my panties.

"We don't have to do this if you don't want to Anastasia"

"I want too. I want you to be my first and my last" I look up to him. He has the softest smile spread across his lips.

He closes the small gap between us and crashes his lip to mine. Both of our hands roam each other's bodies. I threaded my fingers through his hair tugging lightly. I pulled away from his lips panting.

"Take me to bed Christian" Christian swept me up in his arms and placed me on the bed. His eyes darken to a color I have never seen before.

"As much as I love these panties they need to go" His fingers slipped inside the hen and he lowered down my legs until they were off. Kneeling between my now spread legs. He lowered himself and started kissing the inside of my legs moving slowly up to my thighs.

"Please Christin. Oh, God" He moved himself higher until his lips reached my breasts. His tongue softly stroked my nipple and then the other. As he continued to suck, bite, and lick his right hand traveled down the side of my body over my stomach and between my legs.

His middle finger slipped through my wet folds and came in contact with my swollen clit. His finger rubbed small circles into my clit. I felt something building in my core. The feeling is so intense.

"Oh God, Oh God" his finger moved faster and faster. Flicking, rubbing, and pinching.

"That's it baby feel it" But then he stops.

"Christin why did you stop?" I asked panting.

"Because I want your first orgasm to be while I'm inside you while I'm making love to you" Love. He wants to make love to me. I nod my head. He gets off the bed and heads towards the nightstand where he takes out a condom. He comes back to the bed and removes his boxers.

Wow just wow. My eyes widen at the sight in front of me. He's big. Huge. I'm not even sure he'll even fit inside of me. And as if he was reading my thoughts he said,

"Don't worry your body will adjust" I didn't say anything. He climbed back onto the bed between my already spread legs. He kneeled in front of me and ripped the foil packet opened and rolled it over his harden erection.

He positioned himself over me. The head of his cock at my entrance.

"Are you sure about this?"

"Yes more than anything in the world"

"Ok" He whispered before his lips met mine. His kiss was soft and sweet. I felt him slowly push his cock into me. It wasn't that bad at first but the move entered I could feel myself stretch then there was this earth shattering pain that caused me to scream out.

"FUCK!" He tried to go as slow as he could but the slower he went the more I could feel the pain. He stopped.

"Please just do it"

"I don't want to hurt you baby"

"I know but the slower you go the more it hurts. Please just do it" He looked into my eyes. He took a deep breath and held it. In one quick move he pushed all the way through. Tears slipped out my eyes.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry," He chanted.

"It's ok just give me a second to get used to it" He did. He stayed completely still. I'm not sure how long time passed until I could no longer feel the pain but once it was gone I said,

"I'm ok. You can move now"

"Are you sure?" He asked.

"Yes" He kissed my forehead and began to move.

"Fuck Ana you are so tight" he said before he started to move his hips.

I can feel my orgasm building already. Just as it was when he was fingering me. I begin to moan in pleasure underneath him. Fuck this feels so good.

"That's it baby feel me. Feel all of me"

"Christian" I moan out. I close my eyes enjoying the feeling of our lovemaking.

"Open your eyes baby. I want to see those beautiful blue eyes" My eyes shoot open and look into his gray eyes.

He starts to quicken his movements. Kissing me. Caressing me.

"Oh god Ana" he moan into my mouth.

"Fuck Christian….I'm….coming, I'm coming, I'm coming. Don't stop….Ahhhhh fuck don't stop" I scream. He thrusts harder into me.

"I love you," He says look at me. I sucked in a breath. Oh my god he said he loves me. ME! He loves me.

With a signal tear that escaped my eye I tell him,

"I love you too Christian"

"Say it. Say it again Ana"

"I love you. I love you Christian"

"Fuuuucccckkkk" he screams as his orgasm takes over his body.

He falls on top of me. He buries his face in my neck. We both stay like this until our breathing becomes normal again. When he lifts his head back up to look at me he asks,

"Did you mean it?"

"Did I mean what?"

"What you said? Did you mean it when you said you loved me too?"

"Yes I did. Did you?"

"With all my heart and soul. I love you Anastasia Rose Steele"

"And I love you Christian Grey" I kissed his lips softly.

We ended up making love three more times before we were completely exhausted and could no longer move. Before we went to bed he handed me one of his t-shirts to put on.

(End Flashback)

I lay in the hotel's bed and cry. Why did he lie to me? Why did he tell me he loved me when he really didn't? Why put me through all that pain? Why make me believe that we were going to spend the rest of our lives together? Why? Why? Why?

I cried myself to sleep. I cried for myself. I cried for my son. I even cried for Christian.

(The next morning)

I wake up to the sun beaming down on my face. I slowly open my eyes trying to let them adjust to the light.

I get out of bed and go into the bathroom to relieve myself. I wash my hands and walk through my bedroom into the main sitting room. Kate must had ordered room service because she is sitting at the table digging into her pancakes.

"Morning" I say as I take my seat and open the silver lid to my own meal.

"Morning"

"So how did you sleep last night?" Kate asks.

"Alright I guess. How about you?"

"I slept fine"

"That's good" I smiled at her.

We finished our breakfast and changed out of our pajamas. As I was packing the thought came to me that I haven't called Teddy yet. I look around my room for my purse but I can't find it. I go into the sitting area and look round but still I'm unable to find it.

"Kate" I call out. Maybe she has it.

"Yeah?" She pokes her head out of her room.

"Have you seen my purse?"

"No why?"

"My cell phone is in my purse and I need to call Teddy"

"When did you last have it?"

"At the high school. I was talking to Teddy on my phone but I had to let him go because Mr. Smith stopped me. Then I bumped into Christian, and then we left"

"Maybe you left it in that guys car that gave us a ride back to the hotel?"

"Shit, I think you're right. Great now what am I doing to do?"

"Here take my phone and call Teddy. I'll go see if I can find his name in the phone book" She hands me her phone and I take it.

I go back into my room and call home.

"Hello" My mom answers.

"Hi mom"

"Ana! You're up awfully early. I wasn't expecting you to call for at least another couple of hours"

"I know. Kate and I went back to the hotel early last night. Is Teddy up?"

"Yes hold on"…."Teddy its mom. She wants to talk to you"

"Hi mom"

"Hey kiddo. Miss me?"

"I always miss you mom. When you coming home?"

"Soon baby. Aunt Kate and I are just finishing packing then were leaving"

"Cool. I love you mom"

"I love you too Teddy bear" Teddy hands my mother back the phone and we talk for several minutes before ending our call.

With my overnight bag I walk out my room. Kate is there waiting for me with a disappointing look on her face.

"What?" I ask.

"He wasn't in the phone book. Sorry Ana"

"It's ok. I'll call and cancel all my credit cards when I get home"

"In that case you ready to go?"

"Yes please"

(Taylor's POV The night he took Ana back to the hotel)

After driving Miss Steele and her friend back to the hotel I returned to the high school and waited for Mr. Grey. Two hours later. Mr. Grey walked out of the high school and got into the car.

"Escala Taylor" He ordered.

We were about half way to Mr. Grey's "ivory tower in the sky" as he likes to call it when he asked me,

"Taylor what is this?" He holds up a small purse to show me.

"While you were inside I gave a women and her friend a ride home. She seemed very upset about something and needed to get out of there right away." I tell him.

"Did she give you a name?"

"A Miss Steele Sir. Anastasia Steele" His face went blank. He stared at the purse in his hands for I don't know how long. I pulled into the parking garage at Escala and parked the car. I got out and opened the door for Mr. Grey but he didn't budge.

"Sir we're here" He got out of the car with the purse still in his hands and walked over to his private elevator.

(Ana's POV)

Kate pulls into my long driveway. I let out a sigh of relief. Home finally. Never thought I would be so happy to see Portland again. Kate takes my bag out of the back seat and hands it to me.

"So lunch tomorrow?" She asks.

"Sounds good"

"Bye"

"Bye Kate thanks again"

"Any time" I got out of the car and walked to the front door. Once I was inside I heard Kate car drive away.

I placed my overnight bag on the floor of the foyer and went in search of my family.

"Hello anyone home" I called out as I entered the living room.

"We're in here" I hear my mother reply back from the family room. As I was walking through the living room and into the hallway I took off my shoes. I don't mind wearing heels but they always killed my feet when I wear them for too long.

Walking into the family room I see my mom and Teddy curled up watching a movie while my dad is on his IPad that I got him last Christmas watching a football game.

"I'm back" I plop down next to my mother on the couch.

"Mom!" Teddy squeals before climbing over my mom to get to me.

"Hey there kiddo" I wrap my arms around him and squeeze him tightly.

"So how was it?" My mom asked me.

"I'm not sure. Kate and I left early"

"You mean you didn't stay for your award. Oh Anastasia why would you do that?"

"Mom believe me I had my reasons"

"Well why don't we make some lunch for our boys and you can tell me" I knew my mother wasn't going to let it go. That's Carla Steele for you.

"Alright" I roll my eyes. I follow my mother to the kitchen. She grabs a few items from the pantry while I get a few things from the refrigerator. We both place everything on the kitchen island and begin to make sandwiches.

"Ok so tell me why in God's green earth did you leave early? And start from the beginning. Don't leave anything out" She says and she opens up the jar of mayo.

"Fine. When we got there everything was decked out to the nines. Red carpets, spotlights. It looked as if I was walking into the golden globes or something. It was beautiful. Kate and I grabbed a glass of wine and that when I spotted Melissa. God mom you should have seen her. She looked awful"

"Surgery?"

"Yes and lots of it too. She looked like a Dolly Parton experiment gone wrong. Anyways after talking to her Kate and I found our table which was near the stage of course. That's when I bumped into Jill Harding. She told me a few things that surprised me. Like big time surprised me"

"What did she say?" She questioned.

"Well, I had mentioned how nice the high school looked. She told me that someone donated a lot of money for remodeling"

"Well that was nice of them. Who was it that donated the money?"

"Christian Grey" I said looking my mother in the eyes. She dropped the knife that was in her hands and grabbed ahold of the edge of the counter top of the island.

"Mom calm down. Take a deep breath"

"I'm calm" She exhales. "Ok so Mr. Grey donated money to the school for remodeling. How does an old music teacher donate tons of money for something like that?"

"Apparently he's a music producer now. Mom please don't let dad find out. If he does he'll end up hunting him down and possible killing him"

"And your father would have a right to do it too. That man manipulated you into thinking that he loved you to get you into his bed. And where did that leave you. Pregnant at the age of 18"

"I know mom I was a naïve little girl back then but I'm not anymore"

"I know you're not sweetheart" She smiles at me before picking up the knife and continuing to cut the sandwiches. "So what else happened? What caused you to leave so early?"

"He showed up. That is what caused me to leave early. Only thing though as Kate and I were rushing out she forgot her purse and rushed back into get it. As I was walking down the hall Mr. Smith was there and stopped to talk to me. He asked me where I was going and I told him I had to leave because of my son.

Kate came back with her purse then started asking questions that I told her to wait until we got outside. Because I wasn't paying attention to where I was going thanks to Kate I ended up crashing into someone"

"Oh? Who?"

"Christian" My mother's eyes went wide. "That's not the worst part either. Mr. Smith caught up to me as Kate was talking to him. Mr. Smith had said something like 'oh Ms. Steele your still here I thought you were leaving because of your son' Well that earned a look and a question from Christian"

"What did he ask?"

"He asked me if I was married"

"What did you tell him?"

"I didn't tell him anything. I completely ignored him and told Kate we needed to leave, and we did"

"Good!"

We put the finishing touches on our lunch and brought them into the family room with a large bowl of potato chips. My parent's stayed for a little while after we ate our lunch.

Teddy and I couldn't go out to dinner like I promised him because of me leaving my purse in that man's car. I already called the credit card companies and cancelled them. I should be expecting new ones in the mail in the next 24-48 hours.

As Teddy was getting ready for bed I couldn't help but think of what Kate had said on how Teddy looks so much like Christian. I guess I never really noticed it before until now. I haven't seen Christian for ten years. I burned all the pictures I had of him a few days after Teddy was born.

I didn't want him to end up finding them when he got older and start asking who that man is in the picture. Now after seeing Christian. Even if it was only for that brief moment I see a lot of him in Teddy. From the way he walks to his messy copper colored hair.

If it wasn't for Teddy's blue eyes he could be Christian's twin. Just a few feet shorter.

Teddy walks out of his bathroom running his tongue over his freshly brushed teeth. I pull back the covers on his bed and he gets in. I tuck him in and give him a kiss on the forehead before telling him good night.

I close his bedroom door and head downstairs to my studio/office. Lining the walls of my office are all the awards that I have won over the years for the songs I have written for various Artists.

My favorite award by far is the one I got for writing the song (Every time for Britney Spears) I wrote it when Teddy was just a week old. Even though I hated Christian so much, I missed him. Every time I closed my eyes I pictured him here with us. Teddy in his arms and me curled up next to him listening to him telling us how much he loves us.

I grab a pen and a pad of paper from my desk and sit down in front of my piano. I was contacted a few weeks ago by Chad Kroeger of Nickelback. He was hoping that I could come up with something. I have written songs for him in the past as well as his wife. The band is almost finished with their new album but they are lacking the fact that they don't have a good enough love song.

With my fingers on the ivory's I start play the cords they sent me last week.

"After dark, laughing in the rain. Silver heart locket on a chain. Well pictures fade and silver turns to grey. But the best of thieves couldn't take my love away. Give me just one wish…"

My mind instantly goes to Christian.

"I miss you so, so, I do. I miss you so, so, I do. I miss you so, so, I do. I miss you so much" Damn you Christian Grey. Almost every song I have ever written has almost always had something to do with the way I feel about him. Bastard. Why can't I just forget about him? You'll never be able to forget about him. He was the love of your life. Or so you thought. Pipe down woman. No one cares what you have to say. And besides weren't you the one crying with me when he told us he lied about it all. Bite me! Yeah that's what I thought.

"I just woke up from a dream today. Time gone by but you still look the same. It felt so real to have you back with me. It's just too bad it's just another dream" God he did look the same as he did ten years ago. Still handsome as ever. Time has truly been on his side. Of course his suit did seem to have been upgraded just a little. Ok a lot. Geez I just wish… Save it girlfriend and put it in what you do best. My music.

"If I could give it all away I'd do it for one more day. Trade it in for one more moment. Tell you what I never told ya. All the things I left unsaid. I meant to say before you left. I thought I had the time to wait. Now it's too late to tell you. That I… I miss you so, so, I do"

Fuck! He's like a cancer. After several treatments you finally get rid of it, and years go by without even thinking about it. But then all of a sudden out of nowhere it comes back and hits you like a ton of bricks.

I write out what I came up with so far and call it a night. I'll e-mail Chad in the morning letting him know I'm almost finished, and that I should have it for him within the next two days. This way he can add whatever finishing touches that he and or his band would like on it.

I strip myself of my clothes when I'm in my bedroom. In my closet I grab one of my simple nightgowns and put it on. I turn down my bed and get in. I liked the mattress at the hotel but nothing beats my mattress at home.

Normally right now I would have my phone in my hands looking through e-mails or even reading a story or two from one of those Fan Fiction sites but since my phone is somewhere back in Seattle I am reduced to counting sheep.

(The next morning)

I wake up to the sound of music coming from my alarm clock. It must be 7.A.M already. I'm not sure what time I fell asleep last night but I know it was between 155-165 sheep.

I get out of bed and do my normal routine of going to the bathroom, washing my hands and walking across the hall to wake Teddy up for school. Teddy is a dream in the morning. He doesn't give me any problems at all. He gets up goes to the bathroom, takes a quick shower, and changes into his school clothes then head into the kitchen for his breakfast.

I hear him walk down the back staircase, which is my cue to plate up his normal bacon and eggs and pour him a glass of milk.

"Morning honey" I greet him.

"Good. How about you?"

"I slept like I was on cloud nine" I winked, and he giggled.

"Hurry up and eat or you're going to miss your bus"

Teddy finishes his breakfast and rinses off his plate before putting it in the dishwasher. He goes to the half bath down the hall and brushes his teeth. I wait for him at the front door with his book bag. When he's done I open the front door and him and I walk down the driveway and wait for his bus. Three minutes later his bus arrives and he gets on and takes his seat near the middle of the bus and waves. I wave back and wait until the bus drives away before walking back to the house.

Back inside the house I go to my office to type up what I came up with last night and send the e-mail to Chad. Ten minutes later the house phone starts to rings. I look at the caller ID and see that it's a Vancouver number. Only one guess who that could be.

"Good morning Chad"

"Good morning sunshine. I have a bone to pick with you"

"You do? What for?"

"Yes I do. Where the hell were you the other night?"

"What do you mean?"

"When I finally made it to your old high school your principal told me you left in a hurry"

"What were you doing at my high school?"

"To honor you of course"

"Honor me? What would YOU be honoring me for? I was there for my ten year reunion and to get some kind of achievement award"

"You would be correct but you were also supposed to get an award for that song you wrote all those years ago"

"What song….Oh" Now it makes sense. Now I get why it looked like I was at the golden globes and why Christian was there. When I was 8 months pregnant with Teddy I sold the song that Christian and I had wrote together. I didn't sell it for much but it's what got me started in the music writing business. It wasn't until 3 years ago that Avril's agent came across it. In fact that's the song that got Avril and Chad together.

"Yeah that song my dear"

"I'm sorry. If I would have known you were going to be there…."

"You still would have left anyways. Babe it's ok. No sweat, I understand" When Chad and Avril first contacted me asking me for permission, even though I had already sold it to a music label they still wanted my ok. They had asked me where or how I came up with the song. So I did. We met for lunch the next day and I pretty much spilled my entire life story to them. Poor Avril was in tears.

"Thanks. So what do you think of the lyrics I sent you?"

"Great! They are amazing Ana. You really out did yourself again"

"Well it's not completely finished"

"Don't even worry about it. After reading it over a few things popped in my head to add to it" See what I told you. I knew he would put his own touches on it.

"That's great. I can't wait to see what you came up with"

"I'll make sure to send you and little Teddy a copy of the CD before it gets released to the public"

"He'll love that"

"Alright sexy Mama I need to get going. I meeting the guys at the studio in an hour"

"Have fun. Lay off the yager it's still early"

"Yes mom" He teases.

"Bye" He says his good bye and we end the call. I'm very happy that he enjoyed what I sent him. I wasn't sure if he was going to like it or not but after talking to him and listening to him tell me how amazing it is, I breathe a sigh of relief.

Well now that I don't have to worry with come up with the rest of the song I might as well call Kate and have her come over early instead of waiting around until lunchtime for her to show up.

Still in my office I pick the phone back up. Just as I was about to turn the phone on and dial Kate's number the phone rang, startling me. I look at the caller ID and see that someone is calling my house from my cell phone.

"Hello?"

"Good morning is this Miss Steele?" The voice over the phone sounds familiar.

"Yes. Can I ask who this is and why you're calling from my cell phone?"

"Miss Steele this is Jason Taylor. I'm the one who gave you and your friend a ride back to your hotel. Later that night my boss came across your purse in the back seat. I was wondering if your available tomorrow morning at your house so that I can drop it off"

"Oh god, forgive me. I didn't mean to get snippy over the phone. Yes please tomorrow morning will be just fine. What time is good for you Mr. Taylor?"

"Anytime ma'am. My boss and I will be in the area"

"Well my son and I wait for his bus at the end of our driveway around 8. You can just swing by then"

"8 A.M it is. Have a good day Miss Steele"

"Thanks. You too" I ended the call. Thank god there are still nice people in the world.

I called Kate and told her to come over. Kate showed up about ten minutes later with takeout sandwiches from our favorite bistro.

"These look so good. Thanks for picking them up Kate"

"No problem. So what's new?"

"Well I finished the song I was working on for Chad"

"Oh yeah. That's awesome"

"Yeah, and that guy called me today too. He is going to be in town tomorrow with his boss so he is going to drop off my purse for me"

"That's nice of him. And his boss too for letting him"

"Yeah it is. You know I was just thinking to myself earlier today that there are still nice people in this world"

"It's rare," She mentions. "Soooo I was looking online last night at a few things"

"When are you not online Kate?" I laugh and she joins.

"I promise I wasn't doing any kind of shopping. I was doing a little research"

"Research. On what?"

"No what. Who?"

"Kate please tell me it isn't who I'm thinking of"

"Ok I won't" She bites into her sandwich and chews looking anywhere she can but at me.

"God Kate. Why?" She swallows her food and shrugs her shoulders.

"I don't know. Maybe it's because I know you and you won't tell me anything about it. So I had to go and find out for myself"

"Kate" I sigh. "It's not that I don't want to tell you. It's the fact that I don't know anything about him. I mean…yeah I know him. The old him. I have no clue what he is like now. I'm not even sure they stuff he told me back then was even true. He lied to me about being in love with me, so what's to say that everything else he told me was a lie too"

"Did you know he was adopted?" She asks and I nod my head. I guess he was telling the truth about that.

"Did you know that his older brother Elliot, and his younger sister Mia were also adopted as well" Again I nod my head yes.

"Did you know that it was because of his sister that he started to learn to play the piano so that he would play her a lullaby to get her to go to sleep?"

"Yes I knew that too. I guess he wasn't lying about his family when he told me. What's your point?"

"My point is, maybe the only thing he lied about was when he said he didn't love you"

"Yeah. Right" I said sarcastically. How would she know? She didn't see the look in his eyes. And that's just it. There was nothing. No sign of sadness, no gault for what he was saying. Nothing.

"Ok let's change the subject shall we"

"Yes please"

For the remainder of our lunch we talked about up and coming Artists that are just hitting the music scene. After lunch Kate left and I began my own routine. Which normally is blasting the music throughout the house while cleaning. I always start with the upstairs first then work my way down. It doesn't take me long since it's just Teddy and I.

Once I'm finished with the cleaning I jump into the shower. I wash my hair, my body, shave my legs and my under arms then get out. I was never one for taking long showers. I find it a waste of time and money just standing there under the water.

I put on a pair of jeans and a green Duck Dynasty that Kate got me a year ago as a joke. After throwing on a pair of flats I walk to the end of the driveway and wait for Teddy's bus to arrive. Everything has felt so odd today. Not having my phone with me is killing me. I live for my phone. I don't think I have ever gone this long without it.

I heard the bus honk its horn about mile away. The driver must be at the Johnson's house dropping off Jimmy and Angelina. In no time at all the bus pulls up to the front of my driveway. The bus driver waves to me with a smile and Teddy comes running towards me. Once Teddy is safely at my side the driver drives off.

"How was school buddy?"

"It was great. We had music class today and the teacher called on me to play on the piano"

"Oh yeah and how did you do?" Teddy is amazing on the piano. He started playing when he was just three years old.

"I did really good, I only missed one note but that's because the teacher started yelling at one of the other kids who was throwing balls of paper in the back of the room"

"Mom do you think we can play something later tonight before bed?"

"Of course baby, anything you want" I lean down and kiss the top of his head.

Later that night after dinner Teddy and I went into my studio and began to play on the piano.

"What do you want to play?" I hand him the folder of sheet music I have. He takes a few out and looks them over carefully. He stops when he sees John Legend's – All of me.

"Can I play this while you sing?"

"Teddy you know I'm no good at singing"

"Yes you are. Please mom"

"Alright but only if you sing with me"

"You got it" He smiled before sitting down on the bench. His little fingers started playing the notes. I can't believe how talented my little boy is. Just like his… Nope not going to say it.

Two songs later Teddy started to yawn and I decided it was time to call it a night.

…..

Another morning my alarm wakes me up and I play super mom to my son. I wake him and go downstairs to start breakfast while he showers and changes into his school clothes. After he eats his breakfast and brushes him teeth, I grab his book bag and wait for him at the front door. Just like yesterday morning we start out little walk down to the end of the driveway.

(Christian's POV)

Taylor and I have been in Portland since last night. After he told me he called Anastasia and she agreed for him to stop by her house to drop off her purse, I dropped everything and had Gail pack Taylor and I a bag.

We left the hotel about 30 minutes ago and are just about to pull up at her driveway. My stomach has been doing flips all morning. I hardly got any sleep last night. I kept tossing and turning. I'm nervous as to how she is going to react once she finds out that I'm Taylor's boss.

Taylor parked the car across from Anastasia's driveway. I'm sitting in the back seat watching her as she walks down the long driveway with who I guess is her son. They're too far away for me to get a clear view.

(Ana's POV)

As Teddy and I get to the end of the driveway I see a black car parked across from my driveway. That must be Mr. Taylor's car. I look at my watch. He's a few minutes early. I watch as his car window goes down and he gives me a small wave. I wave back and smile.

"Mom who's that?" Teddy asked.

"Someone who gave Aunt Kate and me a ride back to our hotel when we were in Seattle. I left my purse in his car by mistake and he was kind enough to bring it to me"

(Taylor's POV)

The closer Miss Steele gets to the end of her driveway with her son the more I think my eyes are playing tricks on me. Her son. Her son looks like a spitting image of Mr. Grey only a few feet shorter.

"Taylor?" He sees it too.

"Y-yes Sir?"

"The background check that I asked you pull for Miss Steele. Did it give her son's date of birth?"

"Y-yes Sir"

"What was it?"

"March 7th Sir"

I watch in the rearview mirror as Mr. Grey counts on his fingers. His breath catches in his throat and his eyes widen. His face goes from shocked to anger in a flash. He opens the back door but quickly closes it when a big yellow school bus pulls up to the side of us.

"Are you fucking kidding me" He says to himself, among a few other choice words.

Miss Steele walks her son to the bus and gives him a kiss on the top of his head. The bus doors opens and her son steps up. She takes a few steps back and waves to the bus as it drives off. As soon as it is out of her sight she turns and begins to walk towards the car. Fuck I have no idea how this is going to go but by the look on Mr. Grey's face I don't think it's going to be pleasant. Right now I'm thankful that the back passenger windows are tinted.

(Ana's POV)

"Morning Mr. Taylor"

"Morning" His voice is a little shaky. It's like he is scared about something or maybe nervous?

"Thank you again for bringing me my purse back. I've been so lost without my phone"

"Not a problem ma'am"

"Is your boss with you as well? I would like to thank him for allowing you to come here" I look at the back window but it's tinted.

I hear the car doors unlock and the back door open. I take a few steps back waiting for whom I assume is Mr. Taylor's boss to get out. My heart begins to race when I'm met with a cooper haired gray-eyed man. Christian.

"Oh what the fuck" I blurt out.

"You can say that again. Hello Anastasia"

"Christian what are you doing here?"

"You see Anastasia Taylor here works for me. So that makes me his boss" I turn to look at Mr. Taylor and he gives me an apologetic smile.

"I don't have time for this. Mr. Taylor can I please have my purse" I hold my hand out and wait for him to hand it to me.

"He doesn't have it I do"

"Then can I please have it" Christian reaches in the back seat and grabs my purse. He then closes the back door and leans against the car.

"Here you are Anastasia. Your purse" I take a step and hold out my hand to take it. When I do try to take it, it's like he has a death grip on it.

"Let go of my purse Christian"

"No. Not until you answer one question" I let go of my purse and let out a huff.

"What?" I hiss.

"Your son?" He knows. Oh god he knows.

"What about MY son"

"What's his name?"

"Why do you want to know my sons name? What is so important that you need to know his name?" I know why.

(Small flashback)

"What are your parents' like Christian?"

"Well my mother is one of the sweetest women I know. She is kind, loving, and very important to me. She saved my life"

"And your dad. What's he like"

"My dad is a Lawyer. So you can just imagine what he is like" He laughs.

"Are your grandparent's still alive?"

"Yes" He went on to tell me all about his grandparent's and how he used to spend all his time with his grandfather Theodore on his boat.

(End flashback)

"Just humor me Anastasia"

"Theodore. Theodore Raymond Steele"

"Theodore huh" He smirked.

"What do you want Christian? Why are you here?"

"I'm here to return your purse that you left in my car, and because I wanted to see you. You left in a hurry the other night we never had a chance to talk"

"Talk?"

"I think there's a lot that you and I need to talk about" He steps closer to me. His right hand reaches for my face. I want to lean into his hand but I can't. I just can't. Not after everything he has done to me. I take a step back needing to put some distance between us.

"I think I need to go," I tell him.

"Please Anastasia just give me a minute to explain"

"Good bye Christian" I turn on my heel and leave. Walking towards my house I don't even bother looking over my shoulder to see if he is still there, I can feel his eyes on me.

Once I was safe and sound in my house I called Kate. I needed her here. I needed someone I can talk to. Twenty minutes later Kate arrived.

"So chick what's up?" She asked as she sat down on the living room couch.

"I don't even know where to begin"

"Well start from the beginning and we'll go from there"

"Alright" I take a deep breath then let it out. "Ok so you remember that guy who gave us a ride back to the hotel. Jason Taylor. Well it turns out he works for Christian"

"Wait Christian? As in Christian Grey. Your ex?"

"Yup that would be the one. Well Mr. Taylor showed up this morning like he said he would, and guess who just so happened to be with him?"

"Christian" She answers.

"Yeah"

"So what happened? What did you do? What did he do?"

"I didn't so anything. I do him I had to go. He said he wanted to explain"

"Explain? Explain what?"

"I don't know, I didn't stick around long enough to give him a chance"

"Why not?"

"Because I was afraid of what would happen"

"What do you mean?" Kate looked at me confused.

"Whenever we were together there would be this….God I don't even know how to explain it"

"Ok don't worry about that. What else happened? Did you slap him, hit him, and beat the shit out of him for what he put you through"

"What? No Kate, come on, really? He asked me what Teddy's name was"

"What the….Teddy was there? He saw all this?"

"No this happened after Teddy got on the bus"

"Oh thank God. I couldn't even imagine how you would have to explain this all to Teddy"

"Yeah me either. What am I going to do Kate?"

"Maybe it's time"

"Maybe" I sigh.

(One month later. Nickelback's CD release party)

Kate and I arrived in Vancouver this morning. Chad and Avril insisted that we stayed in their guesthouse instead of some hotel. I have visited their house before on many occasions but this was the first for Kate. Pulling into their driveway Kate's jaw dropped. She was a little shocked at the size of their house. I wanted to tell her if you think this is huge you should see the house they own in LA but I kept it to myself.

I parked my car next to Chad's yellow Lamborghini. Kate's jaw dropped even more. It has been a dream of hers to own one.

"Kate your drooling" I shake my head and giggle.

"Come on I'm sure if you ask nicely he'll let you drive it"

"Really!"

"Maybe" I shrug my shoulder before getting out of the car.

"There she is" I hear a deep man's voice coming from a few feet behind me. I turn around and see Chad standing there in a pair of old blue jeans and a black t-shirt.

"Chad!" I squeal before running over to him and wrapping my arms around him. He lifts me up and spins me around. God it has been so long since I have seen him.

"Hey! Will you two get a room," Chad stops spinning me and we both turn to look behind him and there she is. His beautiful wife all in black like usual.

"Av" I go running and pull her into a hug.

"Look at you. You look amazing," I tell her.

"Thanks so do you. God I can't believe you're a mom. Shit I can't wait to have kids if it means I'll have a body like yours" I blush.

"Well you better jump on the good foot and do the bad thing," I tease.

"Girlfriend you have no idea how many times we have jumped on that foot" She laughs and I join in.

"T.M.I"

"Ahh but you love it" Chad chimes in.

"Yeah, yeah" Kate clears her throat.

"Oh shit. Sorry Kate. Chad you remember Kate right?"

"Yeah totally" He walks over to her and shakes her hand.

"Avril this is my best friend Kate. Kate this is Avril" They have never met before and I know Kate is a big fan of hers.

"Nice to meet you Kate" Avril walks over to her and gives her a hug.

"Oh my god. I can't believe it. You're Avril Lavigne. I'm such a huge fan"

"Thanks" Avril blushes.

"Why don't we show you to the guest house, let you two get settled in for a while before we need to leave for the release party?" Chad said.

"Sounds good to me" I smile and help him with the bags.

An hour later Kate and I are settled in and changing into our dresses for the release party. I wasn't too sure what to pack so I went with what I always thought worked. A little black dress and what Kate likes to call my come fuck me heels.

"Kate you ready?"

"Just about" She comes walking into my bathroom with her hands at her ears trying to put on her earring.

"There all finished"

"Great the limo is waiting out front for us" Chad and Avril left a little while ago in their own limo. I spray a little hairspray in my hair and I'm good to go.

This is the third release party I have ever been to. Their all the same but yet different. It all depends on the band or Artist. If it's a signal Artist they are more laid back. If it's a rock band it can get a bit crazy.

…..

Driving to the release party location I get this weird feeling in the pit of my stomach. It's like it's telling me something is going to happen. I can't make out if it's something bad or something good. But whatever it is it's making me 10x's nervous than I should be.

The driver comes to a stop and both Kate and I look out the tinted window. Wow, there are reporters everywhere. The first thing I do when the driver opens the door for us is put on my sunglasses. The flashes from the camera are killer on the eyes. All the celebrities do it. After you ever seen a picture of a celebrate getting out of a car without having sunglasses on? If you do it's rare but 95% of the time they have something covering their eyes. Day or night.

I'm the first one out. People are screaming my name left right and center. I turn my head a few times so that they can get a picture of me from all angles. I then reach my hand inside the limo to help Kate. She steps out and is instantly blinded.

"God Ana how do you put up with all of this?"

"Why do you think I put the glasses on" I giggle then reach into my purse for the second pair that I brought with me just for Kate.

"You are awesome Ana. Thanks"

We walk the red carpet both stopping every few feet for out picture. Questions are asked mainly to me. There were a few reporters asking Kate who she was and why she was with me. Kate's answer to most of the question's, was that she is my best friend and we always go everywhere together. Which is true.

The closer we got to the door the more and more that feeling in my stomach grew. It is making me so uneasy. I don't like feeling like this. Kate sensing something wrong she puts her hand on my arms and asks,

"Something wrong Ana?"

"I'm not sure. Let's just get inside maybe it'll pass" She nod's her head and we continue to walk. The doorman opens the door for us and we step inside. The first thing that hits me is the smell of liquor. Bottles are already flowing. "There's no party like a Nickelback party," I say to myself with a little laugh.

"Let's go find Avril and Chad," I say to Kate. She hooks her arm into my mine and we make our way through the crowd. We get stopped a few times by a couple of people who try and strike up a conversation with us about anything and everything they could think of.

I hear a couple of teenage girls scream out of control in excitement. With my eyes I follow the screams and that's when I see Chad and Avril.

"Excuse us," I say to the people we were talking to and make out way over to the lovebirds.

Chad is the first one to spot us. He waves for us to come over. We wave back and head over there. Greet them both with a kiss on each cheek and a small hug.

"We thought the two of you weren't going to make it. You had us worried there for a while" Avril states.

"We've been here for a while now. We just keep getting stopped by everyone" Kate replies.

"Well we're glad you're here" A man in a black suit came up to Chad and whispered something in his ear.

"The guys are here," Chad said once the man in black left. "Ana you're sticking around for a while right?"

"Yeah of course. Why what's up?"

"Av and I have something special for you"

"Please you guys didn't…" He cuts me off.

"Your right we didn't but we want to"

"Ok so what is it?"

"It's a surprise. You just have to wait and see. Give me about an hour. I have to go take some pictures with the guys and do a quick interview then you'll see" He grins. God I hate it when he grins like that. He is just a sneaky bastard.

"Alright. We'll keep Avril Company for the time being"

"Sounds good" He kisses his wife good bye then takes off towards one of the doors on his right.

Kate, Avril, and I stand in the spot where he left us and sip on a few drinks that we were served from one of the passing waiters. While we are waiting I keep getting this eerie feeling that someone is watching me. I mean I know there are people looking at me but this feels like something different.

I try to scan the entire room but it's so large and filled with so many people I'm have a hard time focusing on where I should look.

More than an hour goes by before Chad returns. He tells us about the interview and how everyone is looking forward to the tour starting. About another hour goes by of us just talking.

"Ok you ready for your surprise Ana?"

"Sure!" They two of them walk us over to the stage. In front of the stage are rows of seats. Kate and I are placed right in front. Both Chad and Avril make their way onto the stage as well as the rest of the band members.

Now I understand why the band is getting on stage but I have no clue why Avril is up there with them. Daniel takes a seat behind the drums, Ryan picks up one of the guitars and well as Mike. Chad and Avril sit down on two stools that are places right in front of mics.

Oh what the hell is going on?

"Welcome everyone to the Here and Now CD release party. The band and I want to thank you all for coming and supporting us. As you can see we're going to play a few songs from the CD but first there is something my wife and I would like to do" He looks over to Avril to let her speak.

"Years ago a young woman sold a song that she had written. That song went to the back of the pile. It wasn't until a few years ago that it was present to me by my agent. I took one look at the lyric and instantly became in love with it. A few months later I had asked my agent look around for a male Artist who would be interested in singing it with me as a duet. A month later I got a call saying that they found someone who would be perfect" She blushes. Chad grabs her hand and lifts it to his mouth and kissed her knuckles.

"Anyways I can go on for hours about this. The song is what brought Chad and I together and today we want to thank her for that. So Ana we want to thank you by singing your song to you. We love you"

The sounds of the piano starts to fill the entire room. My heart skips a beat. The last time I've heard this song sung live was when I sang it with Christian and the talent show in his high school.

As soon as I hear Avril's voice it takes me back. A small tear escapes. I don't even try to wipe it away I let in roll down to my chin. This is the first song I ever wrote and it holds so many memories for me.

Out of the corner of my eye I see someone sit down next to me. The whole right side of my body starts to tingle. I've felt this before. Numerous of times when Christian was near. I turn my head to look at the person sitting next to me and sure enough it's him.

I don't want to cause a scene so I return my attention back to Chad and Avril. While I continue to listen to the two of them I start to ask myself a whole bunch of questions. Why is he here? What does he want? Was he invited? Why hasn't he tried getting ahold of me? It's been over a month since he showed up at my house. Does he still want to talk to me and explain to me what happened all those years ago?

His hand covers mine. He entwines our fingers together. I want to pull away but I don't, I can't. Maybe it's because of the song. Maybe it's because I miss his touch and what it does to me.

When it comes to the one part of the song where Chad sings, "I won't let go" Christian squeezes my hand tightly. A few more tears slip away and I wipe them away quickly this time. I don't want him to see me crying.

His shoulder brushes against mine and he whispers, "Can we talk after this. Please" I turn my head to look at him and I'm shocked when I see that his eyes are glossed over with fresh tears waiting to escape.

"Ok" I whisper back. For the rest of the song he doesn't let go of my hand and I don't try to take it away either.

(Ten minutes later Christian and Ana alone)

Christian closes the door behind us. We're the only two people in the room. I walk toward the middle of the room and turn to look at him.

"You look beautiful Anastasia"

"Thank you Christian. You look very handsome" We stand there in silence for a while. He looks as if he wants to say something but not sure where to even start.

"So what did you want to talk to me about?" I ask.

"How have you been?" He starts.

"I've been just fine Christian. Please tell me you didn't bring me in here just to ask me how I'm doing"

"No I didn't. I brought you in here because I wanted to talk to you. I haven't seen you in ten years Ana so forgive me for wanting to break the ice with asking how you are"

"Ok so talk," I hiss out between my teeth.

"Why are you being like this?"

"Are you serious right now?"

"Yes I am"

"You left. You didn't say goodbye. No in fact what you said was worse than any goodbye. I haven't heard from you in over ten years. Then out of nowhere you end up showing up to my highs school reunion. How the fuck you even managed that, and then two days later to my house. So yeah I have a right to be like this. To be pissed at you"

"I'm sorry but please let me explain. The reason I said what I did" He pauses. Running his hand through his hair. "I reason I said what I said was because…" He stops.

"Because why Christian?" I put my hands on my hips and begin to tap my foot. He doesn't say anything.

"You know what I don't have time for this" I throw my hand up and turn towards the door. As my hand reach for the doorknob Christian grabs my wrist and spins me around.

"God dammit Ana just give me a minute to explain. I said those things so it would have been easier on you to forget me. I did it so you could have a better life"

"To forget about you? Ha! I tried so hard to forget about you but you know what? It's hard to forget about someone when there is a little boy calling me mommy who just so happens to look exactly like his father"

"Ana if I knew…."

"What? Let me guess. If you knew I was pregnant you would have never left? Christian I didn't know until I was three months pregnant. I tried calling you, going to your apartment but you were long gone"

Ok so this is where I got stuck. If anyone has any suggestions please feel free to PM me. Or if an idea comes to your head and you want me to know please PM. Write whatever you feel should be added and I'll try and go from there. Again let me remind you that it might be a while before I update again.