Hey dear readers,

first things first: WARNING! m/m lime, sexual situation happening! Mature readers only please!

So, wow, long time no read, huh? Has it really been that long since I last updated this story? Whoa, I feel ashamed of myself, especially since this is my favorite story that I wrote so far... ;_;

I sincerely want to thank my loyal readers for following and staying with this story for so long! Thank you so much! It feels like we all grew up together, ha.

Can you believe that the release date of FFXV happens in less than two months time? Can you believe this?! Well, I can't xD lol.

The night before, I dreamed of Noctis, I dreamed of playing his game. So this chapter I dedicate to wholly to him.

To his wonderful growth! Cheers!

Have fun reading!

Kamuel

P.S.: I changed 'Dius' to his official name 'Ravus'. Square Enix has officially introduced the hooded man as Luna's older brother. In my story Luna is nonexistent and Ravus replaces her somewhat. In this story Ravus is also Iedolas Aldercapt's adoptive son and he is Prompto's older brother now. I hope this is not too confusing for all of you, because I began this story before we had any official information about Ravus' real whereabouts.

P.S.: I just remembered that I myself prefer when writers post a short summary of the previous chapters. So I'd like to do the same here for everyone.

SUMMARY:

After trials, suffering and longing, Noctis and Prompto are together again. After Cor and Ravus shut down Noctis' powers, Prom came back from the ancient past to assist Noctis to heal and awaken his alien force once again. Their time spent in each others solitude and pleasure was disturbed by sudden unanounced visitors; by a deadly wounded Cor and by Prompto's older brother Ravus. Now they have to accomodate two lost souls into their secret haven, for them to heal, to learn from each other and for their bond to grow stronger together.

Chapter Nineteen - Ravus - Noctis POV

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"How do you feel?" I ask Cor with a worried frown when I see him slightly stumbling down the last steps of the ladder.

"A little dizzy still, but definitely a lot better than half an hour ago, I can breath again, all thanks to you two. Don't worry, it's nothing that a good amount of sleep wouldn't heal," he answers in a raspy voice. From the expression on his tired face it's clear how immensely grateful he is to us for saving his life.

Meanwhile Ravus guides a worn out Cor to a chair at the table nearby and I see how Prom seems to stare Ravus down.

Speaking of Prom, ever since he learned of the fact that Ravus is his sibling, he hasn't spoken a single word. Which admittedly is very unusual for him. He just stares on and off at his brother intently, as if trying to figure out some ancient piece of a difficult puzzle, his gaze focused and serious.

I wonder what's going on...

"I'm sure that you two must be famished," I conclude from watching our guests fatigued stances, gesturing to Ravus to take a seat on the second chair.

So I walk up to my soulmate to kiss his forehead tenderly, trying to get his attention when I ask, "Prom, would you be so kind to prepare lunch for us?"

"Huh? Err, sorry, of course," is his flustered response at being caught staring at Ravus for so long.

"You alright?" I whisper against his lips after I kiss them softly, relishing their feel and taste for a moment.

"Ehm, yeah, why wouldn't I be?"

I pull him to my chest to hug him gently. Now that the commotion around Cor has calmed down, I can fully focus on my soulmate again.

"Thank you so much...," I murmur into his ear, hoping that he can intuit on his own that I'm incredibly grateful for his help on saving Cor's life. Prom has grown to such an incredible and strong individual, I'm actually amazed by his powers and skills, and I can't wait to learn more about them.

He just kisses my cheek lovingly, squeezing me slightly before letting go of me with a smile on his face.

I watch his back as he turns away to open the 'forbidden door'. Despite the smile on his face, it's clear to me that something important seems to occupy his mind.

What is it about Ravus that has shaken up Prom that much? Why do I have the uncanny feeling, that there seems to be more hidden history between those two, rather than the revealed fact of them being siblings?

Lost in my own thoughts, I glance back at Prom's brother for a possible hint, but all that I can see is a young man looking weary and utterly exhausted.

I can only imagine the amount of sheer will, strength and power that Ravus had to sacrifice to uphold Cor's fragile heart alive to keep beating the entire time. My respect, and in addition a surprising fondness for him, has grown from this act alone. I can't help but regret my childish behavior toward him by now, so I promise to myself that once we are alone, I'm going to apologize sincerely and thank him profusely for bringing Cor here to heal.

As I watch Cor and Ravus, lost in my thoughts, I don't know whom to thank, aside of Prom, for giving me back two important people that I had previously thought to have lost forever...

A sudden loud clatter to my left makes me jump in my own skin.

"Noct, can you place those chairs at the table?"

I silently follow Prom's request, shrugging my shoulders at his peculiar behavior. I'm sure he will talk to me when he is ready.

...

"So, what do we do now?"

Prom cleans the silverware after we all finished eating our lunch, glancing up at us when nobody answers his question.

Cor rubs his belly, yawning tiredly before finally replying, "First, Ravus and I need to rest, we will conjure up a plan at a later time. We are in no rush for the moment, Aldercapt is convinced at the moment that we all are dead. My best guess is, that he's busy getting his dirty hands on the Crown of Lucis. This task will occupy his greedy mind for a long while and it might take a few weeks until he realizes that all his focused efforts toward his goal are futile, giving us in turn enough time to plan ahead and to come up with something useful to strike back. By the way, thanks for the meal Prompto, good job."

I hide my amused smile when the fork in Prom's hand clatters to the floor, genuine surprise written on his face.

He bends down to pick it up, resuming to polish the poor silverware with more force as he jokes dryly, "Wow, Cor, you sure your head is okay? You must feel pretty knackered to thank me all of a sudden, the potions must have accidentally gone up to the wrong parts of your brain."

"Don't get smart with me, brat," warns Cor with a scowl on his face, crossing his arms. "What happened to you? Grown a sudden backbone, have you?" He smiles tauntingly.

"Well, one of us had to grow up while away on adventure," is Prom's smashing answer.

Cor places his hands on the table. "I can read in between the lines, what do you want to imply?"

"I, for one, was busy searching and bringing back important knowledge to help my soulmate save your sorry ass. So tell me, what was it that you did to help Noct while I was away? Oh, I see now, you were busy playing dead, weren't you?"

"Prompto," says Ravus in warning.

Cor growls, standing up from his chair, but Ravus is already up to push Cor back to sit down again, motioning to him to stay silent.

I hold onto my head.

Goodbye solitude, farewell tranquility. It was nice knowing you.

I shake my head at those two as they glare at each other, ready to bicker some more.

Ravus meets my eyes and saves those two from further making fools out of themselves when he asks tiredly, "Where can we rest?"

My face flushes when his eyes drift knowingly over to the love nest, the only bed existing inside this room.

Prom clears his throat, placing the clean fork away. "There are extra mattresses and blankets for emergencies like this stored in the room behind you. And while we are at it, please refrain from opening this door by yourselves, it's dangerous, I'll explain later why."

Cor frowns at the door, but keeps his sarcastic remarks to himself, thankfully.

"Well then, let's rest," says Ravus, cutting all conversation short when Prom pulls out the first items out of the stasis room.

Having watched in silence how my close friends interact with each other, I can certainly say right now that the next few days, or even weeks, might become lively indeed.

I can't wait for Ignis and Gladio to finally join this madness. I miss those two terribly.

...

"May I join you?"

I blink the water drops out from my eyes to have a better look at Ravus.

It's evening already, Cor still sleeps soundly, and Prom has left us for awhile to scour our hiding place between the Niflheim mountains to check the protective wards around us; which I'm sure by now, as I watch Ravus step closer and awaiting my answer, that this was only Prom's excuse to give Ravus and myself some time to talk in private.

"Feel free to do whatever you want, these mountains are part of your domain if I remember correctly," I say, shrugging my shoulders in good humor, as if not caring in the slightest that he of all people decided to join taking a bath at the waterfall.

Ravus smirks slighly, obviously understanding my teasing jab at him that he still holds the upper hand over me, and then he starts to unbutton his long coat with precise motions of his hands.

For some inexplicable reason I feel my heart skip a beat when he slowly undresses in front of me, and I can't help myself but stare at his long, strong looking upper legs as they submerge into the artificially heated water around us. My wide openend eyes are glued to his body as he moves in my direction.

The fierce kiss, the one he stole from me back in Niflheim, now firmly in the forefront of my mind, and I feel how my cheeks heat up against my will from the memory.

The water sways stronger against my chest the more Ravus closes the distance between us, the waterfalls behind us thankfully drowning out the sound of my agitated swallow.

A surge of irritation twists my stomach into knots at the ridiculous hope that he would steal another kiss from my lips, and I stop a moment to very deliberately set those insane urges aside to ask myself, 'What's wrong with me?'

Ravus takes a long breath before immersing himself wholly under water, resurfacing with a loud gasp shortly after, and I hold my breath when he throws his head back to rake his long fingers through his wet hair. Groaning in bliss he cleans his chest first, his beautiful, pale hands scooping water to let it flow over his wet, glistening skin, and damn, I need to force my eyes to look away because all his movements are sensual as hell.

What in the world is he doing? Is he trying to seduce me? If he is, I fear this mad plan of his is working, and to my own chagrin I find myself simply struck speechless at his seducing, brazing act.

I'm far from finished with my cleaning ritual, and yet I have no choice but to stand up and my feet start to walk away all on their own.

I have to go. In this state I'm not in my right mind to hold a proper conversation with Ravus tonight. I don't trust myself.

I take note of my fluttering stomach, my skittish behavior around him surely blatant to him, as the dread, of him taking further notice of my quite visible reaction to the stimulating visuals he so carelessly presents in front of me, makes me flustered and uncomfortable in my own skin. Hopefully I'm able to get away before he realizes what he's doing to me. The insistent tingling of his soft and warm lips, when his body aligned with mine, and the feel of his strength as he pressed me against that door in his private rooms a few days ago, gives me goose bumps everywhere. The memory of him on that day keeps mocking me now, provoking me to finally admit to myself that I liked that indecent kiss a lot...

Hell, I need to get away from here before I do or say something we will both regret...

But I underestimated Ravus' observation skills, because his hand shoots forward immediately to hold onto my arm to stop me from leaving.

"Stay," he whispers softly next to my ear.

The feeling of the heat of his skin as it is slightly touching me electrifies my blood vessels to the core.

Why in the world do my feet stop at his request?

I need to get away from here.

So I turn my head to glance up right into his gleaming blue irises, preparing myself to wish him a good night, but looking at his eyes turns out to be a major mistake. Now I can't ignore the yearning I found inside of them. I grow aware of his alluring, strong body standing so close to me. The erotic tension between us raises and I feel like losing the footing under me when the knuckles of his hand caress my cheek with tender strokes.

"Please, stop this...," I whisper into the darkness surrounding us, scared that if my voice is any louder something completely forbidden might happen. "Why are you doing this? Why me...?" Finally, after all these years, I have the courage to ask this question, and I close my eyes tightly to avoid his scorching gaze while desperately trying to understand where this peculiar attraction between us stems from... at first I was convinced that I felt like this because he's so similar to Chronus, to Prom's past self. But now, hell, I honestly start to doubt my own muddled mind as his feather light touches on my face make me tremble all over with pleasure.

A soft sigh escapes him, finally letting go of my arm. "You don't remember."

"Remember what?" I dare to ask breathlessly, simultaneously dreading and anticipating his answer.

"Let's sit down for a bit," he suggests softly, "The time has come to reveal to you the truths of our ancient past. But of course, in case you don't want to learn about us, in case you don't want to remember, you are free to go..."

My eyes are still closed, slowly breathing in and out in an absurd attempt to calm my nerves down. I can feel Ravus leaving my side, the cool air hitting my wet skin where he touched me before grows more and more uncomfortable the longer I stay here, like being all dressed up but having nowhere to go.

Moreover, the powerful, awakened companion inside of me nudges me relentlessly to follow him and to hear him out.

Feeling reluctant as I give in, I make my way back to the place where I sat before, watching Ravus take a seat on a vegetated rock nearby, while I try, but fail, not to stare at him for too long. It helps that his lower body is immersed into the water, else I wouldn't be able to focus on our conversation at all. The wet locks of his ash-blonde hair fall artfully over his forehead and temples, framing his lean and handsome face in a way that I can't help but find irresistible...

Shaking my head, I start to feel desperate to escape his appealing presence.

"Thank you, it means a lot to me to see that you trust me that much," Ravus says softly, his radiant, ice blue eyes following my movements.

I join his side, careful not to touch him in any way, in fear that the curling tension inside of me might snap at once. The powers inside of me are tense with excitement, keeping me firmly seated next to Ravus' enticing presence and I'm beyond confused at my companions eager reactions to him tonight.

Taking a calming breath, I say in return, "Ravus, it's me who should say thank you. For not only saving my own life back in Duscae, but for saving Cor's life as well. I behaved like a brat, didn't I? I can't apologize enough for the things I blamed you for and because I-"

Ravus' fore finger comes up to my lips to silence me, the warmth of his wet skin tingling and I fight the instinct to react visibly to it.

Why is he affecting me like this? I don't understand...

"Stop apologizing for things you had no control over. Your behavior was understandable, the circumstances demanded proper answers which I at that time wasn't able to provide. Those circumstances obviously changed by now, officially I'm a dead man. I am free from my shackles and can finally follow my own rules. You can ask me anything, you have my word that I will answer all your questions sincerely and to the best of my knowledge. But first, let me explain why I followed you around when we were young, I think this is a good place to start."

It's difficult to focus on his words when he holds my cheek, the soothing warmth of his hand calming me a little, his thumb caressing my lower lip in tender movements. A slight shudder of arousal goes through my body and I can hear the alien power inside of me chuckle slyly when I tense up.

'What's so funny?' I snap at my companion, irritated that he seems to know something that I don't.

He just stays silent in answer and I have to roll my eyes inwardly. Damn him...

"Noctis, what I'm about to tell you, will most probably change the dynamics of your relationship with Prompto. It's not my intention at all to complicate matters or to make both of your lives unnecessarily difficult, you two are too important and dear to me for that. So I need your permission first, for me not to infringe upon your free will with the knowledge that you will get to learn tonight. Are you sure that you wish to remember details of the life you did once lead in Accoris?"

Swallowing my saliva down, I give a nod in a gesture to my consent. My heart starts beating furiously in my chest at the prospect to finally get some proper answers to my most pressing questions.

"Ravus, I need to remember my true self. My father, Prompto, Cor and now you; to me right now it seems like everybody else knows more about me than I myself do and this has been driving me absolutely crazy." I take a nervous breath to keep myself grounded before adding, "Please, tell me everything you know, I need to learn who I was, who I am now and who I need to become to understand the full picture."

Ravus lifts my hand up to his lips. Placing a meaningful kiss on my knuckles, his glowing eyes almost burn themselves intently into my own when he answers softly, "As you wish."

I feel my face heat up right to the top of my ears at his fiery gaze, hoping that the truths he shares with me will finally shed some light over this strange attraction and fascination I seem to have with him tonight.

Trying to ignore the electrifying caresses on my hand, I listen closely as he begins his tale, "I was fifteen when dreams about you began to haunt me. Those dreams rumbled around my subconscious mind for weeks and for months with no imminent end in sight. I was desperate for them to stop. Those dreams were erotic in nature; their content about the two of us, exploring and enjoying the pleasures that your powers bestowed on us. Because of my upbringing, in my youth I hated you with every fiber of my being. At first I couldn't piece together why it had to be you to star in those maddening dreams. By that time I grew up brainwashed, tainted in my strong belief that you and your family were my archenemy. Iedolas used the advantage he had over me to tell me fabricated lies, stories of how Regis had been the one responsible for the horrific war that eradicated my entire family. So naturally, I gave my all at all times to despise you with my whole being."

I frown inwardly at the subject of his dreams.

They were erotic in nature, he said.

This sounds exactly like those dreams that Prom and I have witnessed a few weeks ago... but Prom and I are soulmates, we were lovers in the far past.

So why did Ravus dream of me in this context...?

His serious tone of voice changes to one of humor when he tells me something funny, "Alone the sheer notion of you and I engaging in any sexual activities together had been absolutely ludicrous to my jaded, teen aged mind. Just imagine the trauma I had to endure when I met you in flesh for the first time. My reaction to you was as alarming as it was hilarious."

I snort out a somewhat embarrassed laugh. "Yeah, I can remember that moment well."

I remember a horrified Ravus stumbling over his own feet as he ran out of the meeting room as soon as my father introduced me to him. "You were sputtering various unintelligible things. 'Ohmygodhe'shere!' and 'OhmygodIcan'tfacehimnow!' being the only words I could catch at that time."

We smile at each other at the amusing memories. I watch him take a deep breath, then he resumes his tale with a fond expression, and I continue to listen in silence, my eyes secretly drinking in his natural charms.

It's really strange... now that we are all alone, the longer I am in his presence, the more I feel my heart growing attached to him...

"You were even more beautiful in person than the image I had of you in my dreams. As you had witnessed, the forces of hate and desire kept me in your presence on my toes at all times. I acted like an imbecile around you, followed you everywhere but didn't know what to do about the potent attraction I had felt inside because of you. But in the end, the sacred message that my dreams were trying so masterfully to beat into my stubborn skull for years have miraculously prevailed," he pauses, looking down at our joined hands to gather his thoughts.

I'm now curious to learn why he dreamed of the two of us so intently. It should be alarming to me that the content of his dreams were haunting him for years... and even more alarming because they were about me and him having sex, and yet here I am, nervously waiting and wanting to know more about it.

"Well, I'll give you that, you certainly had me confused," I say dryly, a hint of humor in my voice, "at that age I was still naive, you could have kissed my breath away and I still wouldn't have understood what you were trying to achieve."

"Ah, so you do suggest that I should kiss your breath away right now? It would be interesting to find out if you understand my intentions tonight in comparison to your younger self," he suddenly flirts with me while pulling on my arms with a firm tug to make me slide closer to his body.

"W-wait, I didn't mean it like that," I stutter out, heart hammering as our knees touch.

Eos, another kiss between us would only make this sexual tension between us grow worse!

Ravus laughs out loud and I find myself entranced by the enchanting sound of his laughter.

"Stay calm, Noctis. I was just teasing you."

Right, teasing he says. I'm not an idiot, I am aware that he desires me for real... and yet I somehow truly feel like an idiot, because of my conflicting emotions that are confusing me right now.

He roams his eyes appreciatively up and down my chest, his unnerving, radiant gaze staying there and making love to me with their ardent caresses everywhere they look... hell, the sheer nerve of him of not even trying to hide his blatant desire makes me want to either punch the living daylights out of him or to furiously jump him to make his desires a reality.

Once his lascivious eyes have taken their fill, he gently strokes the sides of my arms before letting go of them to continue his explanation.

As I analyze my emotions, after Ravus victoriously managed to scramble them up like those eggs I always eat in the mornings in his licentious wake, sexual arousal and denial being the strongest ones of them all at the moment, I don't even know where to begin to explain to myself of why I dare to feel disappointed... what exactly did I expect to happen anyway?

"I was eighteen when the veil suddenly lifted from my mind," he startles me, bringing me and my volatile emotions back to the present.

I give my best to focus on his next words, because the insistent flames frolicking inside my groin become harder to ignore the longer his gorgeous eyes bore into mine.

"I was able to remember slices of the past live which I once led in Accoris. I finally understood from those dreams that they were not a curse, but actual precious memories of you and I."

I tense up instantly, heart fluttering.

What did he just say? They were actual memories?

Gods... where we lovers?

I bring up my hand to my lips, staring in shock at Ravus.

"Because of those memories, I started my research to find out the truth about the mysteries of Accoris. Little by little I was able to piece the puzzle to its original form over the years. It's only after I successfully retrieved some of your own past life memories recently, that I woke up fully to my real purpose. Finally I had all the answers and the truth was indeed life changing to me."

"What truth?" I ask impatiently when I see him hesitate to go on.

"What you must know, Noctis, in our previous lives, I have been your master to introduce and initiate you into the world of sexual pleasures. It's been my duty to make sure you learned to lead a sexual healthy life, to awaken your powers and to help provide your etheric body with as much life force as possible to help you grow into your full potential. Our bond was so strong that our relationship lasted almost ten years. It was unusual for a bond between a master and his pupil to grow and to last that long without any of us dedicating our lives to a proper partner for life. What we had experienced was truly special. The people of Accoris looked up to us and envied the level of trust you and I had shared between another continuously for so many years."

I can hear my own blood rushing through my veins when he confirms my suspicions.

I feel like fainting now.

So this is it. That's the reason why I continue to feel attracted to Ravus.

Heaven, master and pupil, whatever this means, in my eyes he and I were lovers for almost ten years!

Did he awaken my powers, and did teach me to control them in the past, in the same way as Prom did two days ago?

I'm speechless.

I suddenly need to bring some space between us, so I stand up to step back. Raking my hand through my wet hair in agitation, I remember how Prom measured thrusts have pleasured me on that night, alone the memory of the mind-blowing orgasms that I experienced make my knees grow weak again.

To imagine that Ravus had been the one to do the same to me in the far past... hell, the currents of pleasure that run through my body right now, as the tendrils of my powers frolic around my body in recognition of the truth he just revealed to me, tells me everything that I need to know about myself.

I hide my red face with my hands, trying to keep a tight grip on my emotions. Indeed, I must have clearly enjoyed the time I spent at Ravus' side. It's clear that such a harmonious relationship, which lasted almost ten years, would be enough time for both of us to get to know each other inside and out.

We must have trusted each other quite a lot to make something that private and intimate work for so long...

Eos... it seems Ravus has always been an imperative part to my own personal growth.

As I glance back at him, I already know that I can't escape him. I never could, never wanted to.

"Noctis, the crux to my tale, and I can only hope that one day you are able to forgive me my failure, is that in this incarnation I had been charged by the divine with the same mission as in the far past. Because of the high level of trust and compatibility of our spirits, before you were born you chose me to be once again your master. Hence, it should have been me, from the moment you had reached your sixteenth birthday, to help awaken your powers and to guide you to become the greatest, wisest and most powerful King the world has ever seen."

I... I don't know what to say right now.

All my emotions are actually blown away by everything.

It feels like my eyes were finally opened, and I'm incredibly relieved to finally understand the true source of my attraction toward him...

But I don't even have time to come in terms with everything he told me, because Ravus' next words are even more shocking.

"Noctis, I am the sole reason why your father had sent Cor to give his allegiance to Niflheim. Cor came to me with the purpose to offer to me your past life memories and in turn I promised to keep you alive. Your ancient memories hold all the answers that your father had been looking for. Before King Regis died, he somehow learned the truths of ancient Accoris, and because of that, he somehow became aware that I was once involved with your past life and thus involved intimately with the core of your powers. Your father had been searching in secret for a cure for your sickness. To get rid of the blockage that held you back from expressing your full range of magic, Cor and I had to shut down your powers completely, for they would have killed you from your inability to rest your body fully at night. The true objective was for me to talk to you and to get your consent to awaken your powers through a sacred bond between master and pupil once again. This would have been the only way for you to continue to live on with your powers intact and fully developed to fulfill your divine mission."

I stare at him wide-eyed, completely taken aback by my fathers actions.

I didn't have a clue about any of this!

"You mean to tell me, that the alien powers inside of me could have killed me, and that my father did hide this from me the entire time?! Hell... why didn't he say anything? Why did he keep something so important to himself? I can't help but feel betrayed and abandoned once again..." I look down at my hands, the nails digging into my skin as I form them to fists, my anger and disappointment growing.

Ravus leans forward to grasp my arm, pulling me to sit down again. He strokes my back to calm me as he says softly, "Noctis, there were good reasons why your father had to keep all these things secret, even from his own, beloved son. There were forces of evil who watched him very closely, day and night, they monitored every step he took toward raising you to become his heir. You are but a mere mortal in those evil entities eyes, a mere human being who bears the potential to be the one responsible for their demise one day. It's understandable that your father had to thread very carefully around everyone, but sadly, in the end he wasn't careful enough. As you know by now, Iedolas has his eyes and ears everywhere at once. He has connections to those higher beings, to those evil entities who can wield diabolical powers which none of us living here would ever be able to comprehend. You have to take this seriously and stop blaming everyone and everything for keeping secrets. The world as we know it is ending, on the verge of chaos, you have no time to wallow in self-pity."

I feel tears of frustration blurry my vision when Ravus places his hand under my chin so that I can meet his eyes again.

"Noctis, that's why Cor and I had to keep everything we knew to ourselves. It's important for you to grasp the reality, that we all did keep secrets from you not to spite you, but for your own protection, to keep you safe. You are the chosen one, the Deities who once lived on this planet have bestowed your spirit with the means to heal this world from evil. You are the only one with the means to save all of us from being erased by the forces who created this physical reality in the first place."

A distressed noise comes out of my throat. "Of course I know it's foolish of me to feel and think like I do now, and yet I'm crestfallen that people whom I trusted the most continue to keep such important facts from me. This isn't protection! Look at what happened to my father! Look at what happened to all of us! All of this could have been prevented if everyone would have been honest with me from the start!"

Fresh tears drop down on my cheeks and I turn my head away to squeeze my eyes shut in despair. I'm aware that none of this is truly their fault. But damn it all, I feel helpless! I'm mad at myself for having been weak and blind to all these dangerous situations around me and allowing so many people to get hurt and die in the process!

I'm not even one step closer to reclaim the lands of Lucis back, nor to avenge my father!

Isn't this truly pathetic?

The burden everyone placed on my shoulders feels too heavy by now to bear it all alone...

"I'm scared that I won't meet everyone's high expectations," I whisper, escaping Ravus' grasp to hug myself as I stare completely lost ahead of me into the night.

Ravus stays silent, observing me for awhile, but then I feel him hesitating before he speaks again, "Don't doubt in yourself. It's all because of me. I have failed you. You had to struggle and suffer so much because I couldn't be there for you, I wasn't able to guide you when you needed my help the most..."

I shake my head, wiping the tears away with trembling hands. "No, I understand now. Aldercapt made sure that you and I would never meet under good terms. A healthy relationship between us was ruled out from the start. The dislike and antagonism we felt for each other separated us early in life. None of it was your fault."

"Noctis..."

"It's funny when I really think about it." A hollow laugh follows as I struggle to get the next words out. New tears continue to sting my eyes, this is something that I didn't share with Prom, and yet I find myself sharing these absurd thoughts about myself with Ravus instead. "Everyone expects miracles and noble deeds of me, and yet I wonder, who would have been the chosen one if I would refuse to meet those expectations? What turn would have had this world taken if I hadn't been born into this place? Would my father still be alive? Would everyone in Lucis live happily ever after? I imagine that Prom would have lived a normal life, grown up with you and all of his family intact. You see? So it must be me, right? I am at fault, my simple existence in this world is a mistake. Just think about it, without me-"

A low growl is my only warning, before all of sudden, my next words get swallowed by Ravus' lips which desperately intertwine with mine, and I can only moan huskily into his mouth in a mixture of shock and arousal. His firm grip feels relentless on my chin as he angles my head to the side to deepen the almost bruising connection of the searing open mouthed kisses that follow immediately after.

Gods, his tongue is just as skilled, just as erotic and unforgiving as his brother's had been two days ago, and if I wouldn't know it any better, I would say that Ravus might have been Prom's teacher in the past instead of mine.

My heart and groin are throbbing, my powers flare up to burn me deliciously from the inside and I feel the tendrils reaching immediately out to fuse with Ravus' familiar life force. We both groan out as the ecstasy between us intensifies, the fiery kisses multiplying by the minute, but then sudden images, no, rather ancient memories appear one after another inside my mind. Various vivid memories of Ravus and I, teaching me how to pleasure a man, take my breath completely away and make me gasp out loud for air as I clutch at his strong shoulders for my dear life.

But before I can make any sense out of what I had just witnessed, the bruising kisses are already over.

Ravus lets go of my chin as if he had been burned, and I feel him resume his former posture as he increases the distance between us to sever the connection of the tendrils still intertwined with his life force. I can hear him inhaling and exhaling sharply in fierce arousal, the distance between each other not wide enough for him to keep a clear head, and when I open my red eyes, I can see his obvious restraint on himself as his jaw clenches in an attempt to calm his voracious desire. His shaky, tight fists are held by his side and his muscles drawn taut and tense, his body shivering despite the water surrounding us being almost too hot for our skin.

What... what did I see just now? Were this his memories of our past selves making love?

My lips still tingle and burn in delight from the consuming kisses Ravus and I just shared, and I can only sit there in a daze, the erotic images which his memories delivered to me now vivid and clear.

No wonder it had felt so natural to pleasure Prom the first time he and I touched on that night at the Coernix station. I didn't accumulate any sexual experiences in this life before making love to Prom, and yet I unconsciously knew what to do, I knew what would feel good for both of us beyond mere instinct. Strangely, not even once did I stop to question where exactly this sudden insight and knowledge came from...

Now I know.

Ravus was the one to teach me all these maddening, delightful sexual acts... if I still had a sliver of doubt of what Ravus had previously told me, his memories in which my powers just tapped into are most definitely hammering the truth back home.

I'm completely overwhelmed. Barely able to wrap my mind around all this.

I can only stare at Ravus' immensely handsome face, drinking in his features as he gazes hungrily at me while simultaneously trying his best to resist me.

I still can't get over the fact that he looks so eerily similar to Chronus, which doesn't really help to cool off my attraction toward him one bit.

Hell, does Prom know about this? Does he know that his brother and I were once lovers in the far past? Is this why he behaved so peculiar and strung up all morning?

My hands come up to rub over my flushed cheeks with my hands.

"I...," I start, but swallow dryly instead of continuing, searching for proper words to describe my feelings but finding nothing appropriate to express myself.

Ravus' breathless sounding voice reaches my ears, "Noctis, when you met my brother for the first time after he came back from his long journey, I was the one who decided to end our relationship. It was a love at first sight that reigned absolute in your heart. Chronos was your entire world. I recognized the divine bond between the two of you and there was no other way but for me but to let go," he pauses, avoiding my eyes. A trait of his which tells me that he's not completely honest with me.

"But...?" I confront him to tell me the truth.

"But... I didn't count on myself to have fallen madly in love with you, Noctis. To let go of everything we had, it was very painful. It still is," he reluctantly admits to me, his voice husky.

Eos... why? Why didn't he told me earlier? All this time I thought it was a simple crush, I thought it was only lust that made him follow me around all these years. That's why I never took his desires seriously.

It's because of Prom that I learned what true love feels like. If Ravus' emotions are of the same scale of intensity as mine are toward Prom, then I don't think my heart can take it to let him suffer a one-sided love again. Nobody deserves such a cruel fate. For him to fully remember all those years we've spent together so vividly, I can't possibly imagine how hard it would be for him to live on with this knowledge, live after live, nor how heartbroken he would be because of it...

"Ravus...," I whisper his name in surprise when I feel his restraint vanish. His hands pull me yet again to get close to him, his thumb coming back to trace burning trails over my lower lip.

"I had the privilege to kiss those lush looking lips of yours countless times in the past, I now remember every single one of them, each one as precious and important to me as the one we just shared tonight. What surprised me at that time was, that it was my brother who suggested to include me into your relationship. But I had to decline the request for obvious reasons. You two are soulmates. You have no idea how hard it was to resist you. Our bond made me look for you in every reincarnation. I have never taken another pupil nor another lover to my bed. You were my first, and you will be my last. Even in this life my spirit has longed too strongly for you," he pauses for a moment to push my lips apart and to stroke over my tingling skin of my mouth with his thumb erotically.

Eos help me... if he doesn't stop this, I fear to succumb to my own desires to kiss him again.

"Your beautiful lips... they couldn't make me forget their feel, nor their exquisite taste, no matter how often they forced my soul into crude flesh to function in this world...," he murmurs forlorn, bringing his face closer to me, our noses touching as his beautiful eyes become half-lidded with yearning, "Noctis, all this time I've been haunted in my dreams by your pure heart, by your immense beauty, by your incredibly sensual pleads to bring you higher, to get you to that place where time and space cease to exist..."

"Gods... Ravus, I want to remember everything we had..." At this moment my heart is so heavily touched by his honest feelings, by his love and raw desire for me, that I find myself unconsciously leaning forward to meet his open-mouthed kiss as soon as our lips brush another again.

My past identity, Atlas, who lives on in my heart, feels so strongly attracted toward Ravus that I can't even begin to explain to myself.

The kisses that follow are madness in itself, imbued with a passion and familiarity almost as old as time itself. His arms embrace me tightly, pulling my body down to sit on his lap and I throw my head back with a rapturous moan when his hands find all my erogenous spots immediately. His open-mouthed kisses over my wet skin make my powers flare up viciously and the connected tendrils fuse merge now completely with his life force. My desire for him and my heart beats increase when all ancient memories, of Ravus and I making love countless times, resurface into my conscious mind all at once.

"Ravus...! Ahnn!" Alone from the overflowing memories can I tell how much Atlas yearned for his touch...

Ravus' lips are devouring me, his tongue ravishing me, those long, slender fingers touching me in ways that make me absolutely heady and just like that he simply destroys my ability to think clearly, his strong emotions, his memories of our past selves making love to each other are seeping all at once into the forefront of my overwhelmed mind and I can only moan keenly when I reach a violent climax and the past and the present suddenly merge into one.

Everything comes to a sudden halt when Ravus embraces me fiercely, his body taut and tense, forcing himself to stay calm and obviously denying himself his own release.

"Noctis, forgive me, my soul was too weak to resist you...," he whispers in agony, "please, let go of me..."

I gaze into the darkness with half-lidded eyes, panting harshly from the strong arousal still cruising through my body. The tendrils of my powers cling on his vital life force, enticing him, arousing him, searching for ways to make him resume what he started. When he still doesn't move an inch, my hands grasp his face so that I can catch his lips into another breath taking tongue-kiss, but instead I feel his hands letting me go, all of a sudden pushing me back to make room for him to stand up.

"Forgive me...," he apologizes again full of despair, "This is as far as I am allowed to touch you. Your powers have been already fully activated, you don't require my assistance anymore."

I need a few moments to clear my head from the strong arousal wreaking havoc within my body and mind, still trying to make sense out of all the past memories that I now can clearly remember.

"Ravus, wait," I call after him.

I watch him disappear inside the cave while my broken heart still beats furiously from his burning touches and breathtaking kisses, the powers inside me still pumping and being excited in the same way, with the same intensity, as only Prom has been able to arouse them.

I can't say for how long I stared into the distance, the darkness outside complementing the absolute chaos reigning over my emotions. When my arousal cooled off, I could feel nothing at all, my heart seemingly empty.

I didn't care that my skin turned all wrinkly and pruney in the water.

All that I cared about was the conclusion of tonight's events that haunted my mind.

It's not until Prom silently joins me, complete understanding reflecting inside his beautiful, sad eyes, when his arms embrace me lovingly without prejudice about what I've done, that I figure out all on my own something important.

Ravus deliberately left out one little detail. Something that I now find out myself, not only because of the past life memories I just remembered, but because of Prom's understanding and compassion toward his brother and myself.

A long time ago, the future King of Accoris had been in love with two remarkably strong, wise and gorgeous looking Deities. But as a mortal being, he was not allowed to consort with both.

Fate made him choose one over another, and now the same devastating knowledge, of having forsaken a loved one, is in the process to tear his soul apart all over again.

As it once happened far back in Accoris, Chronus' warm lips brush against Atlas' forehead in soothing motions, whispering sweet nothings into his ear, holding him tightly and healing his hurt soul with his strong, unconditional love and radiant presence.

It's only then that I, my identity as Noctis, finally allow myself to break down in Prom's arms and cry.

In the end, Ravus still managed to teach me a painful but valuable lesson tonight.

That in order to gain something, something of equal value must be lost.

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To be Continued.