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The One with the Happy Ending.
A Year Later
I'm not sure why I was staring at Fili's desk. But I had nothing else to do. Fili and Kili were in a meeting with Thorin. Dis was looking after the twins and Tauriel was busy looking after Kali. Pushing my hair from my face I remembered the look of shock on Kili's face as his daughter was handed over to him. With bright copper hair and small pointed ears she looked like a hobbit baby. As for myself and Fili we never had any more. Despite what I'd said we did try again but this time I did miscarry and we agreed to be content with what we had. Besides, I couldn't have coped with three children – two was bad enough.
Moving towards Fili's desk I shook my head at the mound of papers and letters that littered it. Most of them were all the same; state papers and diplomatic affairs. Nothing of any interest.
Dear Juliet.
That did catch my eye. Pushing half of the mound onto the floor my shaking hands picked up a small pile of letters. All of them had my name on and all were in Fili's handwriting. I couldn't understand it. Fili had no need to write to me! We spent all of our time together! Peering closely I saw the first one was dated from around four years ago – around the time I first arrived at Erebor. Looking up at the door I chewed my lip – I knew I had no right to this. These were Fili's after all, but – as ever – my curiosity was getting the better of me. Easing into his chair I placed the pile of paper on my knee and picked up the first letter.
Dear Juliet,
Even putting that is killing me. I want to write something like "my darling Juliet" or "Juliet, my love" but I know you won't know what I'm talking about. I want to hold you and cover your face with kisses but you'll only push me away. I want to see your eyes light up at my face but I know I can't.
At this very minute I'm waiting for Gandalf to arrive. Waiting for him to bring you back to me, or rather your memories. Each night I hear your screams and all I want to do is run to you and hold you. But I daren't. I daren't see that lost look in your eyes. That vagueness when you look at me. I don't think I can bear it. The others keep getting their hopes up, they believe Gandalf WILL be able to help you. But I don't think I can allow myself the hope. Supposing he fails? Supposing he makes you worse?
So I've come up with this plan. If he can't save you then these will have to do. Everything in these letters is to help you. I know Kili and the others have told you about the Dragonstone and the quest. I know they've told you what you did and who you've saved. But I know they haven't told you about me. So this is what I'm going to do. I'm going to tell you about the dwarf prince who has given you his heart.
Firstly I want you to know something. I never told you but I had never planned to come on this quest in the first place. Only a month or two before I overheard what Thorin was planning for me. I'd found out he was having a meeting and that I wasn't supposed to know about it. Of course this worried me and with some help from Kili I managed to sneak in and hide – in the cupboard of all places! And after about half an hour I overheard everything. His plans to marry me off to "a suitable match", I've no doubt he meant one of Dain's daughters. And when I heard this the bottom dropped out of my world. At first I was angry at Thorin for doing this, and behind my back! But, later on I was upset. Was I so difficult to love? Were the chances of me having a One so non - existent that I had to have an arranged marriage? I never told anyone that I knew until much later. Kili knew something was wrong of course. But he didn't push me to tell him. But if it hadn't been for him I'd have never gone on this quest. But after much of his nagging I finally agreed. If anything it would give me a chance to get Thorin to drop the whole idea of the marriage.
I often wonder what would have happened if I had stayed in Erebor. I have to assume that I would have met you as you are now, without any memories of me. And I think I'd take that at the minute. Then at least I could court you and help you love me again. Obviously that didn't happen and things took a different turn.
We never knew when the void would next open, Gandalf just told us to be ready. As it happens we were travelling to the Blue Mountains on a visit when it happened. We'd just passed the Shire when it opened. As you can imagine Kili jumped at the chance to see another world. And despite everything I wasn't going to miss out either. So in we went. And I don't mean to be horrible but I don't like your old world. It's far too noisy and dangerous. We almost got killed twice. But all we were focused on was finding the stone and it's wearer. People in middle Earth share a connection to that stone. It was never as powerful as yours but it allowed us to track it down.
And then we met you.
Looking back now watching you being attacked was one of the most horrible things I could see. And when we first met I could feel this strange sort of feeling in my chest. I didn't know it at the time of course but I fell in love with you then and there. When you ran away I wondered if I'd scared you. I couldn't stand the idea of that, but later on I knew you just didn't believe us.
And whilst I'm at it I want to apologise. During the start of the quest I allowed my anger towards Thorin determine how I treated you. It was wrong of me and when I look back I'm ashamed of what I did. I could sit here and pretend nothing happened. That I was always nice to you. But I can't do that. I promised to be honest with you and I will, even if that means telling you the bad things as well. But, at the same time I was horrible towards you BECAUSE I loved you. I wanted to keep you safe and protected from the world and yet you seemed determined to dive headfirst into danger at every opportunity. I was also worried you didn't share my feelings or that I would be forced to marry another girl. I didn't want to risk either you or myself getting hurt.
And when it comes to being honest I have a small confession to make. You had a small red mirror in your bag. I know you won't remember it but you did. You lost it before we reached Rivendell. Only you didn't lose it, I took it and threw it away.
I hated that mirror. Every so often we would be riding and I'd see you get it out and look at yourself. And every time you did that the light would vanish from your eyes. You'd rub at a random spot on your cheek or forehead before sighing and putting the mirror away. Even if you carried on smiling I knew you were unhappy. Sometimes you looked like you were going to cry! And I couldn't stand it. You're so beautiful. I didn't want anyone or anything telling you any different. So one night I stole it and threw it away. I never said anything in case you got angry at me, and by the time I told you I loved you I'd forgotten all about it.
That's a moment I'd always hoped you'd remember. That morning when I told you, you were my One. After realising you had heard me tell Thorin you were nothing to me I was almost too scared to go through with it. But I had to tell you, you had to know the truth. And when I did you began to cry. I assumed you still hated me. That you could never love me. So when you took my hand and said those three words it was like my world was being rebuilt. I've never loved anyone the way I loved you and to see you now, a mere shadow of your old self – it tears me apart. All I want is my princess to come back to me. And if Gandalf can help, if he brings back your memories then I'm not going to waste any time. I'm going to ask you to marry me straight away. All I want in my life is you, without that it's hardly worth living.
If Gandalf can't help then I'll give you these. This and the other letters in the hope you'll start to remember. And even if you don't then I won't give up. Even if it takes the rest of my life I could never give up on you.
Yours forever,
Fili
Wiping my eyes I quickly scanned through the other letters. All of them went into such detail it was like reliving the whole quest all over again! How Fili managed to remember every single detail was amazing. Sliding the letters back onto his desk I stood up just as the door opened and Fili himself walked in. He had yet another stack of papers in his hands and before he tripped I moved forward to take them from him. Kissing his cheek I bit my lip; waiting for him to notice my obvious red eyes.
"Juliet? Juliet what's happened?"
Fili sat me back down in the chair and knelt before me. As he rubbed my hands I swallowed the last of my tears.
"I saw…those letters you wrote to me."
Fili's own eyes fell on the pile and he sighed.
"I know they were private and I know I shouldn't have looked…"I bowed my head, "Did you really believe you could help me?"
Nodding Fili got to his feet and pulled me against him.
"I would have done anything to help you Juliet. Anything at all. I still would."
Allowing him to wipe the few reaming tears from my face Fili gave me a sly smile.
"Mother said she'll have the twins tonight as well. Meaning we have the rest of the day to ourselves."
Nodding I allowed him to lead me from the room.
I'd lost track of time ages ago. Fili lay underneath me whilst the thin sheets only just covered my lower half. Fili grabbed my bum whilst my lips moved up and down his neck. He let out a small moan before I slid off of him and snuggled up against him. Fili wrapped an arm around me whilst our legs remained interlinked. Kissing his chest I gazed up at him.
"I can't believe it, six years on and look at us."
He whistled, "Six years? I can't believe you've managed to put up with me for three!"
Gently elbowing him I drew lines on his chest with my fingers whilst Fili squeezed me.
"No matter what's happened to us Juliet, I'd never change any of it for the world."
I nodded; despite all of the pain and torture we'd been through I'd still keep things the way they were. Fili pressed his lips into my hair whilst I hugged him hard.
"The end of an era," he sighed wistfully. I shook my head.
"Start of a better one."
So there we are! The end! Big big thanks for everyone for following, favouriting, revieweing and just basically reading it because it means so much. Although I'm really going to miss Fili and Juliet I'm not doing a sequel because I like how things have ended for them (was reading 'Jinxed' last night and actually started crying!) However, I have another Hobbit fic coming out at the start of September which (fingers crossed) you can look forward to. Let me know what you thought xxxx