What If…

Prologue

I hear the killing curse and I hear the thud of a dead body, I look down at my son knowing that Voldemort has killed James. I kiss Harry on the forehead and place him in his crib, I bend down and whisper to him that I love him so much and that he has to be brave, that was when the bedroom door was opened and there in the doorway stood Voldemort and the traitor Peter Pettigrew.

That is when it happens, a powerful expelliarmus spell hits me in the chest; I stumble and fall to the bedroom floor. I hit my head on one of Harry's toy building blocks, this causes me to black out, however the last thing I remember is hearing my poor baby Harry crying.

I come around feeling someone holding and crying above me, I slowly open my eyes and see the familiar clothing of Severus. All I can hear him saying is that he is so sorry. Apart from Severus crying, I hear silence. I feel my own heart break into a million pieces I lost my husband and my son.

I hold on to Severus and grieve over the loss of my family. That is when I hear someone in the hallway hushing someone else; I thought it was one of the order members crying over the death of both James and Harry. That was until I hear the best sound ever "Pafoo".

I bring my head out from Severus's chest where is had been buried to find Sirius holding Harry, this sight causes me to burst into tears again, I reach out for Harry and in turn he does the same "mum". Sirius bends down and hands me Harry.

I hold him as tight as I possibly can, I run my fingers down his cheek and he tries to lick them a neat trick he has learnt from Sirius/Padfoot. I kiss his cheek over and over again "Mummy loves you so much Harry."

I look up at Sirius and smile at him. Harry just giggles in my arms, he will know one day of what has happened here tonight, he will be told of his father and how brave James was. I hold Harry into my chest and I don't even bother to move out of Severus's arms.

Sirius sits down in front of us "Your love for Harry saved him Lily; the killing curse somehow rebounded off Harry and hit Voldemort. He's gone and can't hurt anyone anymore. He did leave a scar on Harry's forehead."

I move his hair from his forehead and I notice the lightning bolt scar on his forehead and I kiss it over and over again just like his cheek. "I still love you Harry, you were very brave baby."

Professors Dumbledore and McGonagall arrive, Sirius once again takes Harry so that me and Severus could stand up and walk downstairs. But as soon as I put Harry into Sirius's arms he starts to whine. I quickly stand up "will you just let me stand up boy."

Harry giggles and reaches for me, I carry him downstairs, and I notice that The Order has already moved James's body which I am very grateful for. Minerva hugs me and Harry "oh my dears are you alright?"

I faintly smile at my old head of house "yeah I got stunned and I whacked my head on one of Harry's building blocks so I passed out, Harry's got a nasty scar on his forehead."

I notice that Sirius is talking to Albus and I hear them mention James. I know Sirius will take care of that for me; right now I just want to focus on Harry and his safety. Mad-eye was talking to his aurors about securing the area and making sure that no muggles had seen what had happened.

I just hold Harry, a female auror hands me a bag that I guess have my things in it and Harry's. Sirius walks over to us "I'm going to take you both to Grimmuald; Pettigrew has never been there so he doesn't know where it is. Harry and you will be safe there."

I nod and apparate to 12 Grimmuald Place, the home of the noble house of Black with Harry. This place is a second home to Harry and I guess will stay that way; I notice that he has fallen asleep on my shoulder. Sirius and I carefully walk into the house and up to the room that Harry has here.

I lay him down in the crib and I kiss his scar again "I love you so much Harry, your father loved you loads too, and he was a very brave wizard. I will tell you all about him whenever you ask me sweetie."

I notice Sirius is in Padfoot form curled up on the rocking chair, I pet his head "thank you Sirius." I leave the bedroom; I look at the door that leads to the bedroom that I used to share with James when we would spend nights here. I know it would be too painful to sleep in there so I walk back down the stairs and get comfy on the sofa.

I look around the living room of Grimmuald place and notice that this place really isn't a home. Sirius never really did like it here, I know that Harry and I will have to find a place of our own and make sure that James's presence is there too.

I notice that the sunlight is creeping in through the dusty curtains of the living room; I also feel a draft coming in from the kitchen but as I sit up, I receive a 'wolf' hug from Remus; it had been a full moon so he wasn't there at Godric's Hollow.

Remus just hugs me and tells me how sorry he is, I look at him weirdly "ho how do you know Remus?"

He looks at me with the look of hurt written all over his face "Sirius sent me his patronus after he found you and Harry. Do you really think I did this? That I could do something like this to you and James an and to Harry."

I shake my head "No Remus of course not, I know it was not you. It was Peter, he was there with Voldemort; I saw him. HE killed James Remus, h he killed Jam James. He killed James Remus."

I fell to my knees, the news had finally hit me, my friend and husband was gone. Remus sits next to me and holds me "they'll find him Lily, they will find Pettigrew and give him the Dementors kiss. He will pay for what he did."

I must have cried myself to sleep; I wake up with a blanket around me tucked into the sofa. I notice that Harry is crawling up my body with a toy bone in his mouth. Harry sits on my stomach and hands me the drooled on toy, Harry was teething so Sirius got him a bone shaped teething toy for him to chew on.

I hold on to Harry as he happily chews on the bone, I run my thumb over the scar, I let the tears fall and I notice that Harry lays down on my chest holding a piece of my hair, he only did that when he was sad or when I was. I have no idea how you tell a year old infant that their father is no longer around….

Ten years later

I can't believe Harry is now eleven years old, I watch as he blows out the candles on his birthday cake surrounded by everyone who loves him. I rub my wedding ring that I still wear; James should really be there, celebrating with us. I miss him and I tell Harry everyday how much his father loved him. Harry is always asking Sirius, Remus and I about James, we happily sit down with him and share our memories with him.

I feel someone hugging me and I look down to find Harry sadly smiling back at me "it's okay mum, dad would want us to be happy."

I kiss his head and nod "yes he would, I have something for you Harry."

Harry sits back down as I hand him the envelope that he has been waiting for all day, he happily opens the envelope and together we read the letter that says; he has been accepted at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry.

This is where the real story begins

Gracie :)