Abhinash who was drinking water suddenly start coughing badly.
Abhijeet stood up and hurriedly moved towards him: arey dihaan kahan hai tumhara...(patted his back)...paani bhi theek se nahi pi sktey... ab lag gaya na phanda.. chalo upar dekho shabash..(lfting his head up)
Abhinash looked at him with red eyes and spoke while coughing: ab aap aisa sawal karo ge to yehi hoga na...
Abhijeet glared.
They both forgot the circumstances. he kept patting his back until Abhinash become normal.
Abhijeet took a deep breath and going to ruffle his hairs but stopped. He also looked him with a jerk.(as if some one wake him up from a sweet and wanted dream)
Abhijeet averted his gaze and sat back on chair with: aab bolo...
Kia bolun...?
kal ja rahey ho?
Abhinash looked here and there: wo me...wo..
Me tickit dekh chuka hun Abhinash...
Abhinash got up silently and started taking steps towards the guest room when he heard the voice.. from which he still afraid.
pooch sakta hoon... kiun?
Abhinash didnt have any answer for this, so he replied hesitatingly: wo... me..me.. ri... kuch...samajh nai aa raha... tha... to...
Now this is the end... Abhijeet stood up and a rash voice which shivered Abhinash from core.
to socha ke.. bhag jaun... nikal lun yahan se...
Abhinash after this voice gathered all his courage and turned towards Abhijeet. He saw the same anger and hurt which he had seen few years back when he misbehave with Daya and Abhijeet slapped him. A brother slapped the man who misbehaved with his brother.(or he slapped because he was not expecting that from his brother ) Today the situation is almost same, a brother expelling out his anger when some one trying to snatch away his brother again.
He looked down because although he is a brave and a great doctor, he still didnt find that much courage in himself which helps him to meet with these eyes.
Abhijeet continued: bahut shoq hai na... sab decisions akele lene ka...aik bar..bhi nahi poocha janey se pehley...
Abhinash was also waiting for this, he looked up and then blood again shows its color...
He shouted: han to kiun na jaaun me... koi hai rokney ke liye..
Abhijeet came forward : to tumhe lagta hai koi nahi hai rokney ke liye...
Nahi... agar hota na to.. usi waqt...
Abhieet cut him: aik bar janey diya.. to ..kia ab usey itna bhi haq nahi ke ... wo rok paye apney bhai ko...
Abhinash looked at him.
He said in choaking voice:ya ye us adhurey wadey ki saza hai... ke us ka bhai usey ye haq dena hi nahi chahta...
Forced patience walls started breaking.
Abhinash said in teary tone while moving forward: haq cheena bhi to ja sakta tha na...aik bar keh diya hota... ke koi zaroorat nahi jaaney ki...usi tarha dant diya hota...(sniffs) lekin.. nai.. bahut strong hain na... aik bar bhi nahi rok saktey... to me bhi kiun wait karun..
(but he is still waiting)
He turned to go,
Abhijeet sees if Daya was again dying in front of him... wincing in pain... He can see an old lady begging for some thing. He can see a twelve years old boy crying and sobbing. He can see a 8 years old boy weeping silently.
Abhinash was just entering in guest room may be for the last time, when a voice stopped his feet.
Abhi... mat ja na please...
Bhaiya... mat jao na please...
Abhinash felt that his feet have no energy to turn. He felt that its a dream which will break in next second. He didnt turn.
The voice again: please ruk ja na beta... apne bhaiya ker liye ruk ja.. aik bar..
No.. its not a dream.. but he is still not beleving. He turned with fear and saw his bhaiya who was standing opening his arms and waiting for him. He also... need some rest , so he ran forward and hide himself in a protective shell.
Bhaiya me..me kabh nahi jaun ga..kahi nahi..aap..aap...
Abhijeet closed his eyes after long feeling the presence around him
shh chup... chup... ho ja..nahi jana hai kahin bhi..shh..
bhaiya... me ne bahut miss kiya aap ko..i m srry me..aap ko pata hai tab aap se me dur nahi gaya tha..darr gaya tha..soch hi nahi pata tha ke mere bhaiya mujhe pehchange nahi..or jab aap wapas aye tab aap ko Daya bhai se close dekh..mujhe bahut darr laga tha..me bina soche hi..maaf ker do na bhaiya please...
Abhijeet seperated Abhinash from himself with: me naraz nahi hun sach..us din me ne is liye nahi mara tha tumhein kiun ke tum ne Daya se bateemeezi ki thi...
pata hai..ap ne isliye mara kiun ke aap ne wo mujse expect nahi kiya tha..
Abhijeet smiled and ruffled his hairs with: hmm...or tab bahut bura laga tha ke sab jis shaqs ko mere bhai keh rahey hain wo aise baat karta hai..
Abhinash cut him with: bhaiya mujhe bahut ghussa ata tha..
He moved to the sofa and sat there looking at the duo photo on side table continued:
jab ma ki maut ki khabar aii us se teen mahiney bad mera yearly exam tha...aap ko yaad hai.. aik bar mere exam se pehle babu ji ki pension nahi arahi thi..bahut tension thi..or ap ne mujh tak us baat ki anch ta aney nahi di...
Abhijeet silently nodded.
Abhinash continued: kahan se fees laye or kaise sab hua..aj tak nahi pata mujhe..per iss bar..achanak akela ho gaya me...ma chali gai matlb pension bhi bandh..akele rehna..parhna..sab manage..
he smiled
kuch samajh nahi aya bas ghussa aya..pehle ma per..ke wah barey bete ke gham mein pati ke pass chal di..aab mera kya..(his voice choked) phir aap pe.. ke kiun yaad nahi..me koi bhoolne ki cheez hun?
He looked at Abhijeet who is sitting silently looking at him.
aa ke ghussa dikha diya..per aap ko manana tha na...aap ne manaya nahi..ulta kaha aap chehra nahi dikhayen ge mujhe..or tab ghussa aya Daya bhai pe ke kiun jab wo samney they ye hua kiun..aur un ke liye sari izzat...khatam ho gai...
Abhijeet sighed.
Abhinash starred at some non specific point: apne sare seniors se consult kiya..sab ne kaha koi chance nahi..exam mein back aya..dimag mey zid char gai..mujhe neuro surgeon banna hai...is dimaagh ki pehli suljhani hai...Parhai ke saath...Din mein 2 tutions parhaey..raat ko bpo mein job ki..or har waqt sar pe ghussa rehta tha...
Abhijeet's heart pinches, he remembers
BHAIYA RAAT KO NEEND NAHI HOTI TO SUBHA PARAI NAHI HOTI NA
Abhinash continued: jo larka aik din raat ko theek se na soye to dusre din school bhi nahi jata tha us ka daily night duty karna routine tha..ajeeb hai na?... me to humesha.. aapki omaa ki chaaun mein raha tha,... ab aik dam se wo sab face karna...(sighed)aise mein chitthi ai...or aap ne mujh se poocha ke mere mahine ka kharch kitna hai...wo sawal mere liye sawal nahi tha...Wo mere liye aik challange tha..me ne wo chitthi phaar di..or kabhi peechey mur k nahi dekha...yahan tak ke ma ke kisi bhi fixed deposit or savings ko haath nahi lagaya..
Abhijeet after long found his voice: bahut ziddi hai tu...
Abhinash smiled and made himself comfortable leaning on his brother and said: bhai bhi to aap hi ka hun...(then said in shy tone) bachpan ki tarah aap ki goud mein soun?
Abhijeet nodded tearily. Abhinash turned to that photo frame said sorry. And lied down.
Abhijeet patted his forehead softly. Abhinash took a deep breath: phir ban hi gaya doctor..apne college mein second aya..or usi din akhbar mein news ai ke aap ki rejoining ke bad pehla mission success hua ap ka..or aap ki photo ai Daya bhai ke saath..me na us raat..puri raat roya..ma ki.. or aap ki bahut yaad...
His voice stopped his red face clearly indicate his brother that he is trying to stop tears.
Abhijeet softly weaved in his hairs: nahi Abhi..nahi rotey..aab kiun ro raha hai...?
bhaiya me ne bahut miss kiya aap ko..bahut zada..har pal..kisi ko nahi bataya ke aap ko me yaad nahi..sab se aap ki batein karta tha..pata hai...kabhi koi ager keh de ke senior inspector Abhijeet ko to past yaad nahi.. to mujhe bahut ghussa ata tha..bahut..
Abhinash had already seated up, Abhijeet pulled him in a hug and Abhinash started crying loudly.
sorry..i m sorry Abhi..maaf kar de please...
Abhinash tried to nod in no: mujhe bahut jalan hoti thi..me ne jis din pehla OT kiya tha..operation se pehle call kiya aap ko..Cid Mumbai ke officer ka mobile number mil gaya tha..per aap ka mobile Daya bhai ne uthaya tha..bahut ghussa aya...kisi bhi party ki pics ati thin to aap dono saath..bahut jalan..
He forcefully seperated from the hug,both teary eyes met.
aap ko pata hai..aap ki har birthday pe me aap ko pco se call karta tha..par baat nahi..or mera birthday koi yaad karne wala hi nahi tha..aap..bachpan mein kitney achey se..or ghussa aata tha mujhe bahut bahut zyada..
Abhijeet nodded tearily.
jab mera research Australia mein approve hua.. to mujhe laga meri itney din ki har khwaish puri ho gai..wo sapna jo mujhe leke dekha tha aap ne wo...(he stopped)per tab tak to aap ki ankhon se or dil se mera har sapna door ho chuka tha..
nahi Abhi me.. me ..bahut bad qismat hun... jo apne bache ki aik bhi kamiyabi na dekh paya..maaf kar de mujhe..
he tried to fold his hands
Abhinash immediately hold them: phir kabhi ye nahi karna bhaiya... warna sach mein ghussa ho jaun ga..
Abhijeet smiled through tears and wiped his tears.
Abhinash smiled: pata hai bhaiya... me ne soch liya tha akele rehna hi meri taqdeer hai... phir achanak hi Nidhi...
He looked down, this brother is not less than a father to him he cant say about his love life in front of him.
But Abhijeet said softly: tu ne to usey bhi sab sach nahi bataya tha na..?
hmmm..wo me ne aik bar usey as a case study pura bataya tha..us ne kaha ke koi hope nahi..aise patients dimaaghi rup se...(sighed)to me ne phir kabhi nahi kaha..or aap ko bhi mana kiya...
Abhijeet sighed: or me ne us ka bhi galat matlab...
theek hi to kaha tha aap ne..Daya bhai na hotey to aap kia sambhal patey?par me ye samjha hi nahi..
jab ap ko sab yaad aya to mera shaitani dimaagh jag gaya...Possesive ho gaya..itney din ke bad..aab aap ko kisi se baatne tak ka man na tha..Per(he stooped)..or sagai wale din ke bad se to..bahut gussa aya,,ap pe..or aap ki demotion..mijhe laga ma ke sapno ka apaman.. or meri bhi to khwaish thi aap ko top rank pe dekhney ki..To bas sab bahar aa gaya...Ye bhul gaya ke anath to me bhi...
"Abhi..." Abhijeet uttered in shock
Abhinash looked down: Kaash wo thapper aap ne bahut pehle lagaya hota..bachpan mein jab bhi maarte they phir bahut pyar bhi karte they..us bar pehli dafa aap ki ankho mein aisa ghussa dekha ke jis mein pyar bhi jal ke khak ho jata...or me line pe aa gaya...
Abhijeet smiled then said hesitatingly:Mujhe uss din thappar nahi marna cahiye tha...Pyar se bhi smjha sakta tha per..teri zuban se wo shabd..kabhi socha nahi tha..or Daya ko koi wo sab kehta to wo bhi..bas..dimaagh ghum gaya or.. isi liye nahi rok paya tujhe... ke... wo thappar marney ka haq hi nahi tha shayad muje...
(abhi tried to say smething... but Abhijeet contnuied) Daya ne samjaya bhi ke... aik baar rok ke dekhun lekin me... bas usi aik thappar mein ulajh ke reh gaya..
He sighed and started looking down.
Abhinash said: bhaiya... kaha na.. sahi kiya aap ne...
Abhijeet smiled: nahi abhi...kuch ghaltiyan...aisi hoti hain jinhey kabhi theek nahi kaha ja sakta... or me ne bhi...(he started looking down)
Abhinash stood up from sofa and sat in front of his bhaiya and placed his head in his brother's lap: bhaiya to aisi ghalti to me ne bhi ki na... to phir aap bhi mujhe maaf nahi karo ge?
He ruffled his hair: kon si ghalti...
jab aap ko meri zarurat thi tab dur jane ki..aap ke diye huey har sanskaar ka apaman karne ki..or aab phir se bhaag jane ka decision lene ki...
Abhijeet kissed his head and said: na beta tum ne to na samjhi mein...
He looked up: phir to aap ne bhi majbur ho ke hi haath uthaya tha na mujhvpe...
Abhinash looked at othet side, his face was red , eyes become puffy. Abhijeet felt like some one is priecing the arows in his heart, he turned his face towards him.
Abhinash looked at him he can saw the same concern in his eyes which he wanted to see. Abhijeet wiped his eyes and noded in no, but he again hugged him like a frightened kitten hug his mother when he afraid from seperation.
Abhijeet smiled: acha ab... bas...
Abhinash nodded in no.
Abhi kia hua...aise rote nahi beta...chup ho jao..please..
bhaiya mujhe aab kahin nahi jana..
Abhijeet: lekin... Abhi...jana to ho ga na bachey... wahan teri job wo sab... or Nidhi...(only he knows how much effort he gave . when he speak the first few words)
Abhinash shook his head in no stubbornly.
Abhijeet: Abhii... ye kia bacpana hai han... (bit angry voice)
nahi mtlab nahi...
per teri job..?
wo bhaiya me wo..
kia?
me ne resign ker diya...
kya?...kab...?
yahan aney se pehle... or mere yahan aney ke baad nidhi ne sari formalities puri kar dein...
per...phir ja kiun rahe they? Abhijeet asked in total confusion.
bhaiya me jab aya tha... me ne tab hi decide kar liya tha .. ke mujhe wapas nahi jana per..yahan mujhe laga ... me kese... yahan...
Abhijeet slapped his forehead, Abhinash looked down.
Abhijeet looked at him and started softly : han me kafi disturbed tha..Daya achanak aise..shayed is wajah se tum se waise behave nahi kar paya jis ke tum haq dar ho..par Abhi me...
nahi bhaiya ab me Daya bhai se jealous nahi hun..or mera un ki jagah lene ka koi irada bhi nahi..
Abhi humare dil mein sab ke liye alag jagah hoti hai..koi kisi ki jagah nahi cheenta..teri jo jagah bachpan se thi wo kabhi Daya ne nahi cheeni..or na us ki jagah tu kabhi cheen paye ga...
Abhinash looked at him, he smiled: tujhe yaad hai... mere training pe janey se pehle tu ne aik wada manga tha..jo tab me kar nahi paya...ab karta hun..wada karta hun...
sachii...
Abhijeet nodded smilling then stood up from sofa. Abhinash also stood up.
Abhijeet pushed him with: chal... ja... ab ja ke bag un pack kar... or Nidhi ko call kar..usey bhi to ana hai na...
arey han..usey batana to bhul gaya..
He moved to guest room when heard: Abhi ... ab wahan kiun...
Abhinash turned and smiled: kiun ke aik banda spare mein bhi to hona chahiye.. jo meri baat sun sakey...
Aain?
arey ab aap ka to pata nahi... kab ghussa ho jao ge...meri baat sunney ke liye bhi to koi ho...to me ne decide kiya hai ke jab bhi aap se larai hui... me fat se Daya bhai ke pass... un se aap ki shikayat karney...
Abhi... tu nahi sudrey ga na...
Abhi nodded in no. Then after some seconds
waise bhaiya..aik baat puchun...?
hmm...
mujhe aap ne jab me ne jo manga wo diya...per bhabi...
Abhijeet glared: Abhi...ruk tu...
Abhinash automatically escaped from the sight.
Abhijeet smiled then turned to the photo on center table he took the frame in hands and spread his hand on HIS picture.
Tears started welling up in his eyes.
ab khush...? ab akela nahi hai tera boss... lekin aik shikwa hai tujh se tu ne wada kiya tha...ke muje khud se door nahi karey ga...jab me ne apna wada pura kiya.. to tu ne apna wada tor diya... kiun yar...?
Some drops fell on HIS picture. Abhijeet felt some ONES voice.
boss rotey huey bilkul bhi achey nahi lagtey...boss please... takleef hoti hai muje...
He can feel Some one wiping his tears...
He jerked his head and wiped his tears and again started his convo with the silent listner(silent for the world but he can feel his voice)
anjane mein hi sahi bahut ghalat kiya me ne Abhinash ke saath...,aab sab sudhar lun ga...sach...bas tu saath dena...
me humesha tumhare sath hun...
(sighed)pata hai yaar... bhai ki kami to phir bhi mit jaye gi par aik dost...aik humraaz...humesha kaami rehe gi...or ye sab sirf aik shaqs hi pura kar pata..Daya..teri kami humesha rehe gi yaar...
i miss u too boss...
He sighed then heard a call from guest room so wiped his eyes and moved with : "aya.."
He turned once more to Daya with: ata hun..good night..
khayal rakna boss... apne ABHI ka bhi... or mere ABHI ka bhi... good night...
He moved in , leaving the smilling face behind with a golden and (now) satisfactory smile.
END OF STORY
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