Authors Note – Yo people, this is my first story and I wrote it when I was 15, so don't judge. Anyway, a little back info on the story, Beatrice is 14 years old, Tobias is 16, and they have been dating for about two years. Caleb and Tobias are brothers, and Caleb is her best friend. It's the night before the Choosing Ceremony.

Beatrice POV

I walk up the last doorstep and knock. My dad and I are outside waiting for Caleb, or anyone for that matter, to answer the door. My dad is this big government person he has a lot of work to do with the people who work with him. Both in this town and outside. Right now, though, were we invited to Andrew Prior's family for dinner, and most likely some kind of important government discussion and what not.

Tobias, Mr. Prior's eldest son, also known as my boyfriend, has been saying for a month now that he wants to change faction. That he doesn't want to stay in Abnegation anymore. Every time I see him in secret, I'm hoping that he is going to say that he has changed his mind, but I have a feeling since it's the day before the Choosing Ceremony and he hasn't said anything yet, that he isn't going to stay. Which is why this dinner isn't going to be very fun.

Don't get me wrong, I want him to be happy and if this faction, this place, doesn't make him happy, I don't want him to stay because of me. I don't want him to stay period. No one should be stuck in a place where they aren't happy. I know all about that.
But he's my boyfriend, you know. I want him to stay with me. I don't want him to leave. Who in their right mind would want their boyfriend to just leave?

Caleb – being Tobias younger brother and my best friend - opens the door and he lets us in. He is the only person who knows I am dating Tobias and the only person that knows that my father blames me for my mother death. My dad - or Marcus as I like to refer to him - has been or is an abusive father. No one knows, except Caleb of course. But then I do know how to hide my feelings, then again, I have had some practice.

When we come in the door we see both Mr. and Mrs. Prior speaking with Tobias in the living room. They finish quickly when they see us coming in and the last thing I hear is Mr. Prior telling his son that he loves him anyway.

"Beatrice, it's so nice to see you again. How are you?" Mrs. Prior asks me. Being the nice woman that she is, she pulls me for a quick hug, even though us Abnegation don't really show feelings like that. Or maybe it's just my family that doesn't. She is the nicest woman I have ever met, being both sweet and kind, always saying and doing the right thing. I have always envied Caleb and Tobias' parents or their relationship with them.

"I'm fine, how are you?" I ask, not wanting to draw attention to myself, knowing what my father would do I do.

"I'm fine, thank you." She says with a small smile on her face. I then see Mr. Prior giving me a curt nod with a small and I do the same back.

"Beatrice come," Caleb says to me halfway up the stairs. I turn to Marcus for his approval, he gives me a nod, and I turn towards the stairs and follow Caleb up to his room. I'm used to being here, it's nice and cozy. I'm so relieved that he isn't the one who is 16 and has his Choosing Ceremony tomorrow. I don't know what to do without him. He is always there for me. Whenever I need him. I try to do the same for him, but I know I could never repay him for what he has done for me through the years.

There I go it again, my not selfless side. I tend to do that a lot. I know he, like his brother, is not going to stay in Abnegation when it's our turn to choose our faction. He has always been a fan of books, and I have a feeling he is going to choose Erudite. But then again, he likes books, so there really is no surprise there. I think I want to choose Dauntless, they seem really cool and fearless, I could use some of that. And I know I can't stay here in Abnegation with Marcus, I'm not going to survive here. My obvious reason is that I can't stay with Marcus, my second is that I'm not selfless enough, third, I could really use some of that fearlessness they have.

"What are you thinking about?" Caleb asks, ruining my moment of thinking.

"Just what I want to choose for my Choosing Ceremony," I tell him, looking upon his celling from his bed, while he sits on his chair next to his desk. I can tell Caleb anything, he is like a brother to me, which is kind of weird since I'm dating his brother in that sense, but it's never weird when we are all together.

"Is this because of Tobias or Marcus?"

"Maybe both -" I say being interrupted.

"Maybe both what?" asks Tobias, settling down at the end of the bed, pulling my feet onto his lap. I didn't even realize him coming in and the first thing that comes to my mind is if he heard anything about Marcus.

"Nothing," I say too quickly, I realized.

"What did mom and dad say?" Caleb asks, noticing my nervousness, letting me avoid Tobias' question, even if I shouldn't. I don't know why I haven't told Tobias anything, and I know I should, but, well there is no point now anyway. He is leaving, so what's the point? Caleb thinks I should tell him about Marcus, but I don't know how to, don't really want to either I guess. Why? Well, I think I don't want Tobias to know anything about my father because it might change his mind about me. Caleb thinks that is complete bullshit, he even told me once that that is just something I have set my mind to, but that Tobias really likes me no matter what. Still, I don't want to tell him.

"Just that I should choose the right faction for me, based on what is going to be right for me and not think of anything or anyone else," He says, looking at me when he comes to the last few words. While I can't help but to turn towards Caleb and look at him instead.
"It sounds like mom said that, but what did dad say?" Caleb asks looking back to Tobias again. I continue watching only at Caleb, which I do by the way feel bad about, but what am I supposed to do when my boyfriend is leaving the very next day? Be happy?

"Are you ignoring me on purpose, Beatrice?" Tobias asks me. For some reason, I can't bring my eyes to look at him, so instead, I move my eyes to my feet, pretending they are really interesting. In a way, I guess I'm kind of upset that he hasn't said anything about what he is doing tomorrow, I just want him to tell me what he is going to do. Not leave me in the dark. I am not asking him to stay, just confiding in me, like he should do.

"Are you going to answer my question or not?" Caleb asks, knowing that I really don't want to talk about this.

"Dad isn't happy about what mom said, but he pretty much told me that he loved me anyways," Tobias said, sounding like he couldn't care anymore about this topic. He returns his eyes to Caleb, but I can feel Caleb's eye on me. I have a feeling it's because my dad never tells me he loves me and means it. Not that he says it anyway. Caleb has been very careful not to use words like that around me, which I think is nice. I guess the only person who told me they loved me was my mom before she died, but then again, I know Caleb loves me as a sister and a friend. He just hasn't told me yet because he isn't sure if I'm going to break down or not. But right now, knowing is good with, he doesn't have to say it.

"Did I disturb? Because I can leave, mom and dad would be pleased if I came down again," Tobias says.

"You did disturb us, but I guess you can stay," Caleb tells him.

"Beatrice?" Tobias says.

"It's not my room, Caleb decides," I reply, which I just realized might make him more upset with me.

"Are you upset with me or something?" Tobias asks.

"Why would you think that?" I ask looking at him.

"I don't know, since it's pretty much the first time you have looked at me all day,"

"Well, I'm sorry about that, but it's not me who is leaving my boyfriend with a lot of unanswered questions, not that I have seen you much today anyway."

"What kind of questions?"

"What kind of questions? Are you serious?" I ask, pulling my feet away from his lap and sitting up. "Like I don't know, what about 'are you leaving tomorrow' or 'is this going to be goodbye' -"I start but realize there is no point. It's doesn't change anything, he most likely won't tell me anything anyway. " You know what, you forget it, it's not like you are going to tell -"

"Beatrice-"

"No-"

"Yes."

"Yes, what?"

"Yes, I am changing factions tomorrow," he starts, but I can see that he changes whatever he was going to say next with something else. "- It doesn't have to be like that."

"What are you talking about?"

"I can see you overanalyzing everything again, stop with it right now," he says moving closer to me on the bed, while I have legs in a cross and my arms all over the place.

"Overanalyzing? Really? Like we could still be together when you live in another faction? Like that's going to work!"

"It could work," he says catching my hands in his. "It could work, don't expect me to just get up and leave you, Bea, you know I would never do that. I care way too much about you-"

"No Tobias, it won't work and we both know that!" Pulling my hands away from him.

"Please Beatrice, stop with the shouting, " Caleb says, I look at him and I know he is right.

"Are you going to break up with me or not?" I ask looking at Tobias.

"Not! Of course, I am not going to break up with you!" Tobias tells me, raising his voice just a little bit. Which is when I realize, he doesn't like this any more than what I do.

"It's dinner guys!" Mrs. Prior calls from the bottom of the stairs. Just perfect timing.
"Coming!" Caleb shouts back.

"Guys, can't we finish this conversation after dinner?" Caleb asks.

"No, we can't. If you aren't going to do it, then I have to. Goodbye Tobias," and with that I walk out the door and downstairs where my father is looking at me with those eyes you-have-done-something-wrong-just-wait-until-we-get-home. I just nod and walk to the table.

Dinner goes by quickly, there isn't much talking done between Caleb, Tobias and I, but then we aren't supposed to talk either. My dad and Caleb's parents had some kind of discussion about work when we are eating, no surprise. In my point of view, it wasn't really that interesting, but Caleb looked pretty interested. Following every sentence spoken between the parties. I haven't looked at Tobias once after what I said. On part of me want to tell him I am sorry and that I take everything back, but the other part of me doesn't. The sane part of me knows that being together after he changes faction isn't going to work. Deep inside, I think Tobias knows it.

"Beatrice do you want to go back upstairs?" Tobias asks me when we are done eating. I don't know what to say since my father looked at me with the face that I did something wrong, so I look at him and I can see the anger swimming in his eyes. He nods anyways so I say my thanks for the food and take my plate to the kitchen, before I go upstairs with Tobias.

When we came up to his room, I have just enough time to close the door before he pushes me up against the door, briefly touches my lips with his. He tries to pull back, but that small touch was enough to ignite a fire inside of me, carving, no needing more. So, I do the only sane thing a person in my position would do, I wrap my arms around his neck pulling him closer and kiss him. It doesn't take long before he kisses me back with force, pushing me harder against the door, lifting me up while I wrap my legs around him. Where he is making sure I feel every part of him against me. Making me sure that he is kissing me with both need and a little something that I don't want to give a name to.

I'm going to miss him so much. It's so crazy. I really really like him, and I don't want him to leave, but I know he has to do this. That's when I know what I have to do.

I slightly push him away, but he doesn't seem to care, because he takes my hands away from his chest and lifts them up and holds them against the door.

"Tobias," I try, whispering against his mouth. Pulling my face away from him, even though he is doing everything he can with not letting me speak.

"Tobias, you are leaving." Which makes him stop and pull a little away from me, but still keeping my legs around him. This is not the way I wanted to start this conversation, but here it goes.
"I'm leaving yes, but that doesn't mean we don't have now Bea, and who says we have to break up, because we don't. We can make it wo-"

"Yeah, no, whatever, I still have to say this-"

"Say what?" He said moving completely away from me now, making me stand back on my own two feet.

"You have to choose what you want to choose. Don't choose anything that is going to help me, choose something that you will feel good about. I know you aren't going to come back to Abnegation, but if you do come back, which I hope is not happening, I'm going to feel it's because of me, and I don't want that. I want you to choose something or somewhere where you know that you are going to be happy. Somewhere you'll find new friends, maybe even a new girlfriend, because we both know we are going to have to break up. The only thing I'm saying is that, you have to choose something you love, somewhere where you are going to feel you can be safe. Okay?" I hope this makes him feel like I care. I don't know if I could say it any better, without saying something that might mislead him to think that I love him, because I don't know that I know what love is, because no one has loved me.

"Beatrice, I'm not going to get a new girlfriend, I already have you and I don't want anyone else." Is that all he got out of that whole essay I told him?

"Fine, then don't get a new girlfriend, just choose a faction you know you will be happy in. That's the only thing I want now. To make sure you are going to be okay and happy, okay?"

"Okay," he replies with a smile on his face. "Can we go back to kissing now?" He asks, and I laugh. I walk over to him and kiss him which he returns.

"Beatrice - oh sorry I will knock," Caleb says walking out of the room.

"Caleb you annoying person come back in here." I say laughing at him. "What is it?"

"You have to go home now."

"Okay," I say knowing that when I come home, my dad is going to hit me and that isn't really a happy thought, but then again, knowing that Tobias isn't going to be here tomorrow isn't a happy thought either. I turn to him and kiss him.

"Promise me you will choose somewhere you feel good about, somewhere you will be safe, okay?"

"I promise," he said kissing me one last time, wrapping his arms around me, pulling me close, not caring about his brother that is watching the whole thing.

"Bye Caleb." I say looking at him. " Bye Tobias." I say turning around to look at Tobias one more time, before I walk out the door, trying everything I can to hold back my tears.

"Bye!" Was the last thing I heard from Tobias. I go downstairs and see my dad saying bye to Caleb's parents.

"Good night, Beatrice," both Mr. and Mrs. Prior says when I came down. I give them a smile, before walking over to my dad.

"Where are the boys, they should come down and say bye too, especially Tobias," Mrs. Prior says. "Tobias and Caleb, can you come down and say goodbye?"

"Coming mom!" Caleb shouts back. He comes running down, but there is no sign of Tobias.

"Where is Tobias?" Andrew asks.

"He said I have to say bye for him," Caleb says. " So, bye Marcus and Beatrice, it's been nice seeing you again," he says looking at me giving me an apologetic look.

"Bye," I say and walk out the door, with tears in my eyes.

I just showered and am now lying in my bed. I'm lying on my side particularly, because my back hurts too much. He hit me so so many times. Where one reason was because I didn't come down right away when Mrs. Prior called for us, and the other reason was that he missed mom a lot, and after seeing both Mr. and Mrs. Prior together just added to it. That night I cried myself to sleep, because of my back and because of Tobias.

My dad has already gone to the Choosing Ceremony and work, while I stayed in bed. I didn't feel like doing anything today, so I stayed in bed. I hear other people coming through our street. Voices. New and curios voices. I'm still in bed, I don't want to get up. I can hear people talking and it sounds as if the Choosing Ceremony is done, which makes it official; Tobias is no more in Abnegation. I wonder where he is now. I walk downstairs to get something to drink when I hear someone knocking on the front door. I walk towards the door and I have this sick feeling inside myself, where I'm hoping that it's Tobias, but then again, I don't want it to be. But, I open the door anyway, and I find Caleb.

"You want to come in?" I say and he only nods. We go up to my room and just sit there, watching the world pass by our eyes.