It felt like they had been standing in the rain forever when it had really on been minutes. Both of them were having a hard time pulling away, whether they would admit it or not they had both longed for this exact moment.

"You know I think you've been watching too many movies Lexa." Clarke grinned once she finally pulled away from Lexa, leaning their foreheads together.

"You finally used my name without being drunk or talking to my grandmother." She grinned as she gently pushed a wet strand of hair out of Clarke's face. "And I don't need movies to show me how to act Clarke. I am more romantic than any movie made centuries ago."

"Is that right?" The blonde questioned as she pulled away ever so slightly so that she could look into Lexa's eyes. The rain continued to fall and the sky continued to boom but it was perfect. It was reflective of who they were, strong, power and far from perfect.

"We should get you inside Clarke. I don't want you getting sick."

"Says the person that is sick."

Lexa shook her head with a soft smile. "My body is used to the rain."

"I'm sure it is." The words came out before Clarke could think about them as she unintentionally let her eyes wander over the length of the woman standing in front of her. She bit her lip, if only to hold herself back because if it were up to her the only lip she'd be biting was Lexa's.

"Let's go get you warm and dried off, you're soaking wet Clarke."

"You have no idea." She whispered under her breath.

Lexa narrowed her eyes. "What was that?"

Clarke stifled a laugh. "Nothing at all Commander."

XOXO

"Come in, I'll get you some clothes to change into." Lexa nodded as she followed Clarke into her apartment and then her bedroom. Once they were inside Clarke wasted no time at all in taking off her wet shirt, leaving her standing with her back to Lexa in nothing but her bra and jeans. Lexa took a deep breath and closed her eyes for a moment, trying to maintain her cool exterior but she could feel her heart racing in her chest.

She had hoped she get the chance to kiss Clarke again but her only true goal when she arrived was getting her grandmother help and maybe, getting Clarke to forgive her. Clarke turned around and handed her a shirt, "this should fit you." Lexa reached out to take hold of the shirt but instead she grazed Clarke's hand. The electricity they both felt brought them closer together instead of further apart.

They looked between each other's eyes and lips. Clarke watched as Lexa swallowed the lump in her throat. "Thank you, Clarke."

Clarke barely nodded. "I promised to take care of you." Their voices were low as they both continued to take deep breaths. "Here let me help you get this off." She dropped the shirt she was holding in her hand onto her bed and reached for the hem of the shirt Lexa was wearing. She slowly pushed it up Lexa's torso, noticing a few scars on the woman's stomach that she hadn't realized were there before. Her fingers were burning a trail up the Commanders ribs but the slightly taller woman never took her eyes off Clarke as she watched the blonde's eyes follow the trail up her body that her hands were leading. Without being told Lexa raised her arms as Clarke pushed her shirt up the rest of the way.

Their faces were inches apart as Clarke dropped the wet shirt onto the floor. Her eyes roaming over Lexa's exposed skin. She saw a scar that looked newer, fresher than the others. Without thinking she reached over and ran her fingertips over it causing Lexa's to flinch ever so slightly. Every spot that Clarke had touched felt warm, even though the rest of her was cold from the rain. She watched as Clarke shivered and without a second thought she reached out and pulled her a little closer by her belt loops. "You're going to get sick if you stay in these wet clothes."

"I could say the same about you and seeing as though I'm one of your doctors I think we need to find a way to warm you up."

"Maybe we can."

Clarke smiled slightly as she remembered Lexa's words just before the first time they had kissed in the Commanders tent. "Lexa, stop talking."

Another second passed as they stared into each other eyes before Clarke closed the final few inches between them, pulling Lexa into her as she connected their lips once more. Lexa titled her head ever so slightly and kissed her back with just as much force as her fingers began to unbutton and unzip Clarke's pants before letting them rest on her waist as Clarke pushed down on the waistband of the sweat pants Lexa was wearing.

They broke apart long enough for both of them to slide their pants down before Lexa reached out and gently led Clarke back to her with her hand on her base of her neck. Clarke softly bit Lexa's lip as she pushed her back against her bedroom door, using her body to pin her there as she let her tongue slowly move across the Commander's bottom lip.

Lexa opened her mouth slightly giving Clarke permission to take things a little further than they had before.

"I can feel your heart beating out of your chest." Clarke smiled into the kiss as she took a minute catch her breath.

"You talk too much Clarke."

A slight laugh and then Lexa felt Clarke's lip against her neck and warm hands running up and down her sides.

"Clarke, are you in there, is Lexa okay?" The knock at the door startled them both as Clarke pulled away, bringing Lexa with her. "Her heart rate is going through the roof!"

A minute passed before they heard another knock. "Clarke?"

"Mom what?" Clarke tried to make herself sound as groggy as possible.

"Do you know where Lexa is?"

"What? Yeah. Why? She's sleeping." Clarke pushed the door open a little wider so that her mother could see Lexa lying in Clarke's bed.

"Her heart rate was rapid and I got worried."

"She's been fine."

Her mother looked suspiciously between them. "When she wakes up, send her down to the clinic please. I need to talk to her."

"Can I go back to bed now?" Her tone was dripping with annoyance, all real.

"Sorry to wake you, I was just worried."

Clarke gave her a weak smile. "It's okay mom, but I'll let her know when she wakes up."

Once her mother walked away she closed the door and leaned her back against it as Lexa rolled over to look at her. Her smile grew as she pulled the covers back and got under.

"What's that look for Clarke?"

Clarke bit her lip again in an attempt to keep her smile from growing. "Who would have thought, Lexa, love is weakness Commander, has a heart."

"Tell anyone and I'll have my knife pay you a visit."

"You can't just kill everyone you don't trust." Clarke mimicked herself from months before.

This time instead of Lexa getting defensive Clarke saw her shoulders relax against the bed and one of her arms wrapped around Clarke's waist pulled her closer. "Yes I can, but I trust you so you're safe."

"Better be careful or my mother may bust the door down to make sure I'm not torturing you." She leaned down and placed a soft kiss on Lexa's lips as she let her body relax against the woman beneath her. "I can feel your heart speeding up."

Lexa brushed a strand of hair out of Clarke's face. "You've always made it do it that."

"Really?"

Lexa's cheeks tinged red as she nodded. "It's easy for me to conceal what I'm feeling but it isn't easy for me to not feel, especially for you Clarke."

"Mmm."

"What?"

"I've always liked the way you say my name, whether your happy, annoyed, or mad at me when you say it. That's why I initially thought something was going on with your grandmother. The way she said my name was so familiar but I couldn't place it, then there you were. Lexa you have no idea what you do to me."

"If it's anything like what you do to me then I have a good idea." She leaned up and kissed Clarke on the tip of her nose. "I should get dressed and go see your mother."

Clarke nodded. "I guess you should, come find me when your done? I'll probably be with everyone in the common room." Without a warning, Lexa rolled them both over so that Clarke was now on her back and grinning up at her. "You really are starting to feel better."

"I am, thanks to you." With that she climbed out of bed and grabbed the dry shirt that had gotten tossed on the floor before putting it on.

"Pants are in the second drawer." Lexa nodded in thanks as she pulled a pair of pants out of the drawer. "Lexa." She called out as the Commander had her hand on the door handle.

"Yes Clarke." In the length of time that it took Lexa to turn around Clarke was right in front of her.

Without hesitating the blonde leaned up and kissed her softly with a delightful hum. "I'll see you later."

"Enjoy your day Clarke." She smiled as she left the room.

XOXO

"You guys totally made out!" Octavia laughed as her and Raven sat on the couch with Clarke.

"Guys, relax." They both gave her a pointed look. "Okay, yes we kissed in the rain and then made out before my mom ruined everything."

"Before you mom ruined everything? Were you two, going to…I mean were you going to 'heal' the Commander?"

Clarke was positive that her eyes couldn't have rolled any further back into her head at Raven's comment. "I was damn well going to try but she was still wearing that damn heart monitor."

"You totally got med blocked."

"Why am I friends with either of you?"

"We ask ourselves that about you all the time." Octavia added. "So do all grounders have nice bodies or am I the lucky one?"

They watched as Clarke's cheeks flushed and a smile crept over her features. "She's toned, really really toned but in the most perfect way. Let's just say she has all the right curves in all the right places."

They all laughed as Bellamy and Lincoln walked towards them. "What are you three laughing about?"

The girls looked around at each other. "Nothing. What's up Bel?" Octavia asked as they all tried to stop smiling.

XOXO

"You're telling me I can go home?"

Abby nodded. "You can go home, whenever you feel like you're ready."

"What about my heart rate this morning?"

"It was high but if it was just a nightmare then that explains it and it didn't have any affects on your healing process."

"Am I completely healed?"

"Not quite but I think that will take some time. It may actually do you some good to be resting at home, somewhere you find comfortable."

"I thought that was why you got me the apartment?" Lexa was confused she had gone from being told that she wasn't ready to being told she was.

Abby smiled. "It was, but you're healing as continued steadily with no set back since we figured out how to make the treatments effective. I'd say another few days and you should be more than fine, but if you feel like you want to leave sooner, I won't stop you. I'll only ask that you take Jackson with you."

"Thank you, Abby. Truly. I did not deserve all that you have done."

"Stop thanking me Lexa." The Commander nodded.

"Is it okay, if I take a short trip to camp today? Test the waters so to speak?"

"I think that would be just fine."

XOXO

Lexa had spent a couple of hours at the grounder camp. Talking to her people, all of which were happy to report that her grandmother had gone back to Polis and was doing quite well. There were no immediate threats, no wars about to start, which meant that Lexa could go back to Polis herself.

It weighed on her mind as she walked back to the mountain. She missed being home, being in her own space but she couldn't help but think about what leaving meant. Memories of this morning replayed in her mind as she made her way towards Clarke's apartment. She was sure the woman was going to kill her since she had forgotten to tell her about her short trip but when she arrived at the door no one answered. Instead she decided to go back to her own place and change back into the clothes she had taken from Clarke's that morning.

Even though it was evening by the time Lexa got back she decided to try her luck at the common room. Sure enough as she approached the room she saw Clarke and Octavia standing in front of the screen. Both holding some sort of device in their hands as they moved around.

"Clarke totally kicked your ass O. I thought we were trying not to let the princess win?"

"I grew up under the floor, she grew up dancing around in the halls." They all laughed as Octavia sat down on Lincoln's lap.

"Okay fine, how about we try our hand at rock band again? It's the only instrument Jasper is ever going to be able to use to pick up girls."

They all continued to laugh and it was clear to Lexa that despite everything Clarke was happy. She had always seen her as a leader but maybe Abby had been right, maybe she was just a young woman who had to grow up too fast by no choice of her own. Lexa hadn't chosen her life but she had been conditioned for it from a young age, Clarke on the other hand had been conditioned for this. For peace, and laughter.

XOXO

"Why am I always finding you up here?"

Lexa couldn't help but smile as Clarke sat down next to her on the roof. The storm from the morning had long since passed leaving the night air cool but just the right temperature. "I came up here to think."

"You didn't come find me? Everything okay? My mom told me about you being cleared and your little trip to camp."

It was the first time Clarke had seen Lexa look somewhat sheepishly. "Sorry, I didn't mean to worry you."

"You don't have to apologize, you've done enough of that. What's wrong?" It was clear to Clarke that something heavy was weighing on Lexa's mind. The woman had barely taken her eyes off the tree line.

Lexa shook her head, unsure of what to say. "I have to go back to Polis Clarke."

It was then that Clarke realized, just exactly what that meant. "You're leaving." Were the only words that she could form. She had been so excited to hear that Lexa was finally well again that it had stopped her from thinking about just exactly what that meant for them. She leaned her head on Lexa's shoulder and held the Commanders hand as they sat in silence. A very different silence then the one they had shared earlier that day.

XOXO

A month had passed since Lexa had left Mount Weather. A month of Clarke replaying their final conversation over and over again in her head. Lexa's words hadn't been to hurt her but they did nonetheless, even though Clarke understood how much it had hurt Lexa to speak them.

"I was chosen to be the Commander you were chosen to be the leader of your people. The difference is that it is my duty to remain in command, it's not yours. It's true, I have seen your strength and intelligence on the battlefield but it's not where you are happiest. The lives you have had to take weigh heavily on you. I do not wish to add more to your pain."

"You aren't, not anymore."

"What about the other day? On the roof, in my room?" Clarke's voice was shaking and she could see the tears forming in Lexa's eyes.

Lexa closed her eyes before she looked up at the sky. "It was amazing, you are amazing Clarke. I won't decide your course in life but I want you to know that you brought me back to life. You fixed me and my heart and I cannot thank you enough for that."

"I wasn't going to let you die Lexa."

A soft giggle escaped the Commander. "Not the kind of saving I was talking about."

"Oh, I totally just ruined that moment didn't I?"

Lexa nodded and she gently held Clarke's cheek in her hand. "May we meet again Clarke of the sky people."

"May we meet again Lexa."

XOXO

"This is Polis?" Clarke asked as she and the grounder that was leading her got off their houses.

He nodded as he handed the reigns over to the grounder at the front gate. Once the doors open Clarke's eyes opened in shock. Lexa had been right, Polis was different. There were actual homes, the kind she had only ever read about in books. Some of them were badly decaying but others sat perfectly upright.

After a twenty-minute walk through the city the grounder finally stopped outside of a large house, larger than Clarke ever could have imagined. "This is the Commanders house?"

Again the grounder nodded. "Yes. If you need anything else, I'll be near the town square."

It took a few minutes before Clarke could muster up the courage to knock on the big double doors. Taking a much needed breath she curled her fingers into a fist, reached up and knocked lightly on the door.

"Clarke!" She looked up and saw Alexandria, smile bright as ever and before she could say anything in response she was wrapped up into a tight hug. "Please come in."

"How are you Alexandria?" She couldn't help the grin that took over her own face as she took in the house she had just walked in to. It was clear why Lexa felt so at home here, it was beautiful, like there had never been a nuclear war.

"I am very well Clarke, how are you?"

"I'm okay, a little tired."

Alexandria continued to smile as she led Clarke into another room. "I'm afraid Lexa isn't here at the moment but would you mind if I kept you company until she returned?"

"Actually, I'm here to see the both of you so I would love some company? How about a game of chess?"

"That was a very gracious gift Clarke, thank you for that." The older woman said in reference to the chessboard that Clarke had given her.

"It was my pleasure."

"Thank you for looking after her."

Clarke nodded. "I keep my promises and I promised you I would do my very best to keep her safe."

"She aches for you, I hope you know that." Clarke said nothing. "I can see the internal struggle she faces everyday over having to leave you."

XOXO

Hours later Alexandria showed Clarke to Lexa's room after they got word that the Commander was home. "I'll leave you two be and I shall see you in the morning."

"Have a good night." Clarke said as she watched Alexandria walk down the long hallway before she turned the corner. Turning her attention back to the door in front of her she could swear she heard the soft sound of music. She knocked softly but got no response. Trying again, she got the same result so she slowly pushed the door open.

Sure enough there was music playing and after a minute she recognized the song to be the one that Lexa had sung to her. Moving into the room and closing the door she looked around only to find curtains blowing in the light breeze, another set of doors were open and there she was. Standing on the balcony over looking the city, her posture as straight as ever, long hair flowing down her back, and best of all she was wearing Clarke's sweatpants.

"Commander?" Clarke squeaked out as she moved a little closer to the woman.

Turning around she saw the shock wash over Lexa's face. "Clarke." A pause. "What are you doing here? I heard there was a sky person in Polis today but I never thought it was you."

"I came to check on my patients plus I promised Alexandria I would play more chess with her. You look different here." She noted as finally took in Lexa's over all appearance. "More at ease."

"Polis is home and home is where you go to relax."

"You could have told me you lived in a huge house."

Lexa shrugged. "I never thought of it." She moved closer to the blonde, their eyes staying locked on each other.

"That's how you know this song?" Clarke asked as she gestured to the old record player in the corner of the room.

"It was found in an abandoned bunker decades ago by one of the former Commanders. I don't think anyone outside of me has ever really used it though."

"How have you been feeling?"

"Well enough that I think you should dance with me."

Clarke was taken back by the comment. "What?"

"I promised myself that if I ever had the chance I would dance with you again and since I'm pretty sure I'm dreaming, I'm going to fulfill my promise."

Without another word Lexa put her hand out for Clarke to take. Pulling her in closer, Lexa placed her other hand on Clarke's hip and started to move them from side to side. "You're good at this."

"Must have been all the movies." Lexa joked as she looked into Clarke's eyes.

For her part the blonde shook her head. "I don't think the movies had anything to do with it."

"You are very wise Clarke of the sky people."

"Lexa, it's time for you to stop talking." A slight nod and then their lips were connected once more.

This time there was no knock on the door as they helped the other undress. "Have I ever told you how sexy it is when you wear my sweatpants? The first time I ever saw you wear them all I could think about was ripping them off of you so I could have my way with you."

Lexa smiled as she kissed across Clarke's collarbone, her hand trailing down Clarke's bare thigh. "Now who needs to stop talking?"

"Me, definitely me." She answered with a shiver from the feeling of Lexa's hand running up and down her leg.

"And now I have an idea how just how soaked you were that morning Clarke." Lexa husked into her ear as her hand gently rubbed Clarke where she needed her most.

"You said you didn't hear me that morning." Clarke grinned she ran her nails down Lexa's back. "I thought you were going to get me warm Lexa."

There shared one more look before Clarke leaned up and captured Lexa's lips between her own. It was much more fierce than their previous kisses and it was making Clarke's head spin. She was sure it couldn't get any better as she felt Lexa smile into their kiss. That is until she felt warm, gentle fingers run push aside her underwear and slide up and down her length. Clarke titled her head back in pleasure as Lexa went back to kissing her neck.

"Please." It came out as a whisper but Lexa had heard it loud and clear. Listening to Clarke's wants she slowly pushed a finger inside the blonde.

It didn't take long before Clarke was coming undone beneath the Commander who slowly worked her down from her orgasm. They laid there for a moment, neither saying a word before Clarke rolled them over and straddled Lexa's hips. "I think I need to do a thorough examination to make sure that you're okay even though I'm still mad at you."

Lexa nodded as she tangled her fingers in Clarke's hair as the woman began to kiss down her body. "Clarke." She whined as the blonde dragged her tongue Lexa's thigh, reminiscent of the path that Lexa's fingers had taken on own leg, minutes before.

The next time Lexa said Clarke's name she was throwing her head back onto her pillow, her eyes closing as the blonde brought her over the edge.

XOXO

The next morning Clarke found herself in a very similar setting. Lexa's head resting on her chest, arm around her waist. Except this time she had no thoughts of trying to get out of bed. Instead she ran her fingers through Lexa's hair, the sun shining into the room.

"So this is what it's like to finally wake up with you still in bed."

"It's happened before."

Lexa leaned up and kissed Clarke. "You're beautiful."

"You're right Polis has changed the way I look at you."

"If this was a movie Clarke, you would be ruining it." Lexa groaned as she ran her fingers over Clarke's still bare stomach under the blanket.

Clarke couldn't control the smile that was taking over her face. "Oh yeah? Well if this was a movie, how would you end it then."

Lexa leaned up on her forearm with a mischievous grin on her face. "Someday you'll know Clarke."

A/N: Thank you all so much for coming along on this ride with me and I'm sure I'll be back sooner rather than later.