Sorry it took so long! Been really busy and haven't had the energy to write and what I had written I didn't like so here you go!

The Rogers had spent the last month and a half in a remote cabin in North Dakota, only time they left was to get food, work out or enjoy the view. They barley left the bed most days, making up for 70 years of lost time. When they had left New York after the Battle, Natasha had shut their phones off, (Steve hadn't quite figured it out yet) and they had simply driven there. Today was one of those days, they hadn't quite left the king size bed yet, though it was noon. Natasha was draped over Steve's chest, simply snuggling and spending time together. That morning Natasha had woken up from a horrible nightmare from her time with Red Room. Steve was curious about what had happens but hadn't yet pushed Natasha about it, knowing she will tell him when she is ready. He could feel her shiver, he gently placed a kiss on the top of her head, as she kissed his chest right where is heart was. With a deep breath she told him what she remembered.

Flash back

She had woken up from another wiping, her head felt like it was splitting wide open. She felt like she was in danger but didn't know why, the only thing she remembered was a man with mesmerizing blue eyes. She's snapped out of

her memory, at least she thinks it's a memory, by her handlers. They started briefing her on her next mission, and that she would be paired with another agent, from Red Rooms ally, Hydra. Standing in the corner stood The Winter Soldier, when she looked at him, his hair long and the beginning of a beard on his face, her brain immediately came up with a name, Bucky. She knew that name from somewhere and knew it related to the man with the blue eyes and just thinking about the blue eyed man stirred something in her breast. The mission was simple, follow a man and his wife and kill them in a way that looked like an accident.

The mission was complete, they cut the break lines just enough that it wasn't noticeable until it was already too late. The Winter Soldier and herself stalked forward to confirm the deaths, and when she saw the mans face she froze, memories came rushing back and the only thing that escaped her lips was a name, Howard. She knew him and was ashamed, she knew the man with the blue eyes Steve, his name was Steve, would be ashamed at her. She remembers him looking at her, bleeding profusely and uttering two names, Natasha and Bucky before slumping forward, dead. She doesn't remember much after that other than she had to get away.

She had been shot, but she got away from The Winter Soldier, Bucky. She ended up on the door step of mansion, blood running down her arm from a wound on her shoulder, the mansion was a place she had only heard about but never been to. She had knocked on the door and when it opened saw a woman with brown hair, she knew her name, what was it? Peggy? She must have said her name without realizing it, before she passed out from blood lose.

End flash back

Steve was many things when he found out Bucky was still alive, he was furious and depressed. He tried to blame himself for Bucky falling, yet he was furious to discover that Hydra was still around no matter how well hidden they were. And even though he tried to hide it, she could tell he was destroyed when she told him that their dream of a family was ruined since Red Room sterilized her. They agreed that when they got back they would warn Fury about Hydra and start gathering intelligence on them.