Summary: Kagami ends up confessing to Aomine that he cheated on him...where will that lead their relationship? Aomine's POV.
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: swearing, weirdness/abstractness, some things you may not like.
A/N: before you read, I would like to make a few things clear. Keep in mind one simple thing: if you don't see whatever is written here happening, doesn't mean it can't happen. Everyone thinks differently and life as a whole is messy...you never know what kind of person you'll end up being and how you will act in certain situations before they happen. And anyway, just because you wouldn't do it doesn't mean someone else wouldn't either...get my drift..? Okay, good. I just needed to get this out of the way.
And as always, I don't exactly think I am good at writing AoKaga, but I'm trying...I really love this couple to hell and back again.
And oh yeah, if you think Kagami was more OOC than Aomine, I'm sorry, there is nothing I can do about your way of thinking...and all I can do in this situation is point the huge chunk of text above (the very beginning of A/N's).
Thank you for your attention.
Disclaimer: Do not own Kuroko No Basket.
Cherish What You Have
"...Aomine, we need to talk."
That serious tone of voice...not exactly the most common thing you can get from Bakagami. No, don't get me wrong, he's as serious as one can be, but...there was something different in his eyes.
"Hm?" of course, my entire attention was completely on him. There is no way it couldn't be.
Kagami nerveously shifted in his place and shoved hands into pockets. What was his deal? If he wasn't so serious I would be hitting him with a sarcastic comment right now.
"Aomine," he looked directly into my eyes, "I cheated on you."
...
The...fuck?!
That was the last thing I expected to hear...and my heart sunk right into my stomach. Well, leave it to the blockhead to be so straightforward about it.
Fuck...just...fuck.
I was speechless for a while, as if I was trying to keep it cool, but...it was the hardest thing to do. And I'm sure the other noticed the change in my mood, posture, everything. At least he better fucking have, we have been dating for two years after all, "Congratulations?" I hardly managed that out. Damn, my blood was starting to boil.
Did he ever even love me?!
Kagami averted his gaze and looked down at the floor...a very wooden floor of the fucking apartment we were already sharing.
And he opened his mouth to say something, but I beat him to it, "Don't even try the fucking 'I was drunk'-card with me."
You know...it hurt. It really fucking...hurt.
Kagami raised his head to look at me for a second, then he looked to the side again. He didn't say anything else. Nothing at all. He wasn't trying to justify his actions because he knew he was in the wrong and it was futile.
"So what have we been doing for two straight years, tell me...Kagami," I spat, getting up from my very comfortable seat, stepping towards the other with a menacing aura.
He wasn't looking at me, he wasn't trying to protect himself.
Fucking why?!
"Have you ever loved me..?" my voice...it was dead calm. Impossible for me and he knew it. He knew me far too well.
He better have.
"I still love you," he said it normally, without even looking at me...as if what he said was the most obvious thing in the universe.
There was no hint of a lie in his tone either. Unfortunately, I fucking knew it...he just couldn't lie. He wouldn't lie. Ever.
"Then why..?" I grabbed his collar and made him look right at me, right into my eyes...ah, all that red...
"I was curious, physically."
...great...
"That's it?"
"Yeah..."
Well...fuck...
"So how was it? Someone else's cock..?" my grip on him tightened. Just saying that left a shitty taste in my mouth.
"Aomine..."
"What?"
"...please stop."
Please..?
Stop..?
"Why should I? C'mon, you were the one who cheated on me so go ahead and share your experience."
"...bu-"
"Was he big?" I couldn't stop anymore. I was hurt...deeply, "Did he pound you into the mattress until you came or did he give you head? Or maybe you gave him head instead? C'mon Bakagami, tell me everything. I am curious."
I was so bitter...this really hurt.
He pushed my hand off...but didn't let go of it, so I had to yank it away.
Don't fucking touch me...anymore.
Shit...
Shaking my head, I looked to the side. I still couldn't believe this was happening. Please wake me up. Please let me wake up to a sleeping Kagami, right by my side after steamy sex. Please let me see his sleepy face first thing in the morning, that goofy smile, those shining fierce eyes...
I want it back. Badly.
I don't want this. I don't need this. Please, tell me it's a joke...a nightmare.
I want my love back.
"...I...at that time it happened...I wanted to know what it would be like to fuck anyone else, since I never-"
"And? Satisfied? Maybe you should have taken my feelings into account."
"Aomine-"
"Because I never fucked anyone else either. So fucking what of it?! Was I a lousy fuck to you?!"
"Ao-"
"Were all those fucking ecstatic moans of yours a lie?!"
Shit. I couldn't stop.
Please..someone...help me...
I don't want this anymore.
A sigh from him, "I have nothing to justify what I did... Only that I was curious and nothing else."
"Should I get curious now too then?"
"Well-"
"'Well what?! The only fucking problem is that I don't want anyone else but you."
And I suddenly felt pathetic. The idiot cheated for fuck's sake...but I still loved him. I still wanted him in my life.
But now I felt so...rejected. I was really not enough for the other then. Shit, just why?
Why?!
"...no Aomine, I will never be able to forgive myself...so...ugh...let's break up."
No. Just...no.
I need him in my life.
Fucking Bakagami...
But I didn't have a heart to stop him either...because I was also hurt.
"I really don't deserve you..." a smile.
...just...shit...
"...Don't go."
Those words left my mouth before my mind could catch up with them. But I wasn't about to take them back. Never.
Everything was happening far too fast.
He was shocked. He really was as he stared at me for a while, then his eyes saddened.
Fuck, don't give me that look...
"...why...would you say that after...this?" was all he managed out as he hid his eyes. I was sure he was on the verge of tears.
The hell, shouldn't I be the one in tears?
The longer I stared at him, the more I realized I still loved him...deeply. He rejected me like I was nothing and in a way it was hardest for me to forgive or forget...
But I still loved him.
So what was I supposed to do?
If I kicked him out right now, my life would be over.
It's even more pathetic to think that I, Aomine Daiki, would ever be reduced to something like that... But you know what? I didn't care. This was my life and my choices.
And the big idiot was crying now without trying to hide it much.
"...I regret it so much."
Stupid fucking idiot Bakagami...
"I...will need time, but...stay," I raised my hand towards his hair, wanting to pet it like I have so many times...which became a silly little habit of mine, but I stopped myself midway, hand turning into a fist and I was going to lower it...only that he grasped it into both of his big palms.
I didn't pull away this time, watching him shake. Yeah, the fearsome Kagami Taiga was shaking in his shoes right in front of me...who would have thought we would ever stoop so low...both of us?
But it would be ridiculous to talk about pride in this situation.
He really did love me still, so...
Sighing, I raised my other hand to his cheek, wiping the wet trails and brushing his neck slightly, "You are a real moron..."
...and for some reason, my blood stopped boiling.
Is it that weird in a situation like this?
He stared at me again...great, more tears, "Stop crying idiot."
He closed his eyes a moment and shook his head, leaning into my hand.
Damn...and this same person cheated on me..? I suddenly felt like the most kind asshole in the universe.
...not that I wasn't seeking personal satisfaction, in a way.
Still... I feared our relationship would never be the same again.
Could I really forgive and forget..?
Damn...at least tell me you were really drunk or something, anything!
"So were you drunk?"
I needed to know, to satisfy my again racing thoughts.
He nodded slowly.
Good. This was good enough for me.
And if it was a random fuck, then it should be even better for my mind.
But...was it?
"Where did it happen..?"
"I..." he started slowly after a bit, "I was at the bar with a couple of my collegues from the basketball club at uni," another pause, it was really hard for him to say this, it was obvious, "...we were getting drunk fast a-and... Before I knew it, one of them was hitting on me...and...it...happened."
"...I see."
"...I was thinking about your touch all that time. It's incomperable..." his voice was barely audible at that point.
Right...so basically it's okay to lose your head enough you would bang someone else..? For fuck's sake.
He was comparing too...how much more idiotic could this be..?
But... I had to hang it to the other... He didn't hide it. He didn't lie and came forward about it. If he didn't say anything, I wouldn't even find out right..?
Kagami came crawling back to me too...
Damn...
He smelled of rotten fucking alcohol when he returned home. It was hard to identify any other stinken smell in all that. I made him take a bath rightaway too. There were a few questionable marks, but I thought... Well, the thought he cheated on me never crossed my mind.
But he was really miserable since the start...
"I'm glad to hear it," and I ruffled his hair. I loved doing that...
He wrapped his arms around me, slowly, loosely...as if I was going to push him off me any goven second...and I practically turned into a statue from not expecting it.
Fuck. This. Asshole.
Literally.
How dare he touched me right after he-
Sighing, I hooked an arm around him too, him leaning into my shoulder.
Fine, whatever...
It's okay... We can live through this...right, Bakagami?
A challenge for our relationship...and you brought this upon us on your own. It's alright, everything will be very obvious in a matter of time.
Forgiving...let's see if I can do that.
Nothing is certain yet, but...
But for now...
One thing is still there: we love each other unconditionally...right? And you are a lucky asshole for having me anyway.
So from now on, I hope you will cherish what you have.
Just like me.
The End.